AT MARYGREEN
"Yea, many there be that have run
out of their wits for women, and become servants for their sakes.
Many also have perished, have erred, and sinned, for women… O ye
men, how can it be but women should be strong, seeing they do
thus?"—Esdras.
I
The schoolmaster was leaving the
village, and everybody seemed sorry. The miller at Cresscombe lent
him the small white tilted cart and horse to carry his goods to the
city of his destination, about twenty miles off, such a vehicle
proving of quite sufficient size for the departing teacher's
effects. For the schoolhouse had been partly furnished by the
managers, and the only cumbersome article possessed by the master,
in addition to the packing-case of books, was a cottage piano that
he had bought at an auction during the year in which he thought of
learning instrumental music. But the enthusiasm having waned he had
never acquired any skill in playing, and the purchased article had
been a perpetual trouble to him ever since in moving house.
The rector had gone away for the
day, being a man who disliked the sight of changes. He did not mean
to return till the evening, when the new school-teacher would have
arrived and settled in, and everything would be smooth again.
The blacksmith, the farm bailiff,
and the schoolmaster himself were standing in perplexed attitudes
in the parlour before the instrument. The master had remarked that
even if he got it into the cart he should not know what to do with
it on his arrival at Christminster, the city he was bound for,
since he was only going into temporary lodgings just at
first.
A little boy of eleven, who had
been thoughtfully assisting in the packing, joined the group of
men, and as they rubbed their chins he spoke up, blushing at the
sound of his own voice: "Aunt have got a great fuel-house, and it
could be put there, perhaps, till you've found a place to settle
in, sir."
"A proper good notion," said the
blacksmith.
It was decided that a deputation
should wait on the boy's aunt—an old maiden resident—and ask her if
she would house the piano till Mr. Phillotson should send for it.
The smith and the bailiff started to see about the practicability
of the suggested shelter, and the boy and the schoolmaster were
left standing alone.
"Sorry I am going, Jude?" asked
the latter kindly.
Tears rose into the boy's eyes,
for he was not among the regular day scholars, who came
unromantically close to the schoolmaster's life, but one who had
attended the night school only during the present teacher's term of
office. The regular scholars, if the truth must be told, stood at
the present moment afar off, like certain historic disciples,
indisposed to any enthusiastic volunteering of aid.
The boy awkwardly opened the book
he held in his hand, which Mr. Phillotson had bestowed on him as a
parting gift, and admitted that he was sorry.
"So am I," said Mr.
Phillotson.
"Why do you go, sir?" asked the
boy.
"Ah—that would be a long story.
You wouldn't understand my reasons, Jude. You will, perhaps, when
you are older."
"I think I should now,
sir."
"Well—don't speak of this
everywhere. You know what a university is, and a university degree?
It is the necessary hallmark of a man who wants to do anything in
teaching. My scheme, or dream, is to be a university graduate, and
then to be ordained. By going to live at Christminster, or near it,
I shall be at headquarters, so to speak, and if my scheme is
practicable at all, I consider that being on the spot will afford
me a better chance of carrying it out than I should have
elsewhere."
The smith and his companion
returned. Old Miss Fawley's fuel-house was dry, and eminently
practicable; and she seemed willing to give the instrument
standing-room there. It was accordingly left in the school till the
evening, when more hands would be available for removing it; and
the schoolmaster gave a final glance round.
The boy Jude assisted in loading
some small articles, and at nine o'clock Mr. Phillotson mounted
beside his box of books and other impedimenta, and bade his friends
good-bye.
"I shan't forget you, Jude," he
said, smiling, as the cart moved off. "Be a good boy, remember; and
be kind to animals and birds, and read all you can. And if ever you
come to Christminster remember you hunt me out for old
acquaintance' sake."
The cart creaked across the
green, and disappeared round the corner by the rectory-house. The
boy returned to the draw-well at the edge of the greensward, where
he had left his buckets when he went to help his patron and teacher
in the loading. There was a quiver in his lip now and after opening
the well-cover to begin lowering the bucket he paused and leant
with his forehead and arms against the framework, his face wearing
the fixity of a thoughtful child's who has felt the pricks of life
somewhat before his time. The well into which he was looking was as
ancient as the village itself, and from his present position
appeared as a long circular perspective ending in a shining disk of
quivering water at a distance of a hundred feet down. There was a
lining of green moss near the top, and nearer still the
hart's-tongue fern.
He said to himself, in the
melodramatic tones of a whimsical boy, that the schoolmaster had
drawn at that well scores of times on a morning like this, and
would never draw there any more. "I've seen him look down into it,
when he was tired with his drawing, just as I do now, and when he
rested a bit before carrying the buckets home! But he was too
clever to bide here any longer—a small sleepy place like
this!"
A tear rolled from his eye into
the depths of the well. The morning was a little foggy, and the
boy's breathing unfurled itself as a thicker fog upon the still and
heavy air. His thoughts were interrupted by a sudden outcry:
"Bring on that water, will ye,
you idle young harlican!"
It came from an old woman who had
emerged from her door towards the garden gate of a green-thatched
cottage not far off. The boy quickly waved a signal of assent, drew
the water with what was a great effort for one of his stature,
landed and emptied the big bucket into his own pair of smaller
ones, and pausing a moment for breath, started with them across the
patch of clammy greensward whereon the well stood—nearly in the
centre of the little village, or rather hamlet of Marygreen.
It was as old-fashioned as it was
small, and it rested in the lap of an undulating upland adjoining
the North Wessex downs. Old as it was, however, the well-shaft was
probably the only relic of the local history that remained
absolutely unchanged. Many of the thatched and dormered
dwelling-houses had been pulled down of late years, and many trees
felled on the green. Above all, the original church, hump-backed,
wood-turreted, and quaintly hipped, had been taken down, and either
cracked up into heaps of road-metal in the lane, or utilized as
pig-sty walls, garden seats, guard-stones to fences, and rockeries
in the flower-beds of the neighbourhood. In place of it a tall new
building of modern Gothic design, unfamiliar to English eyes, had
been erected on a new piece of ground by a certain obliterator of
historic records who had run down from London and back in a day.
The site whereon so long had stood the ancient temple to the
Christian divinities was not even recorded on the green and level
grass-plot that had immemorially been the churchyard, the
obliterated graves being commemorated by eighteen-penny cast-iron
crosses warranted to last five years.
II
Slender as was Jude Fawley's
frame he bore the two brimming house-buckets of water to the
cottage without resting. Over the door was a little rectangular
piece of blue board, on which was painted in yellow letters,
"Drusilla Fawley, Baker." Within the little lead panes of the
window—this being one of the few old houses left—were five bottles
of sweets, and three buns on a plate of the willow pattern.
While emptying the buckets at the
back of the house he could hear an animated conversation in
progress within-doors between his great-aunt, the Drusilla of the
sign-board, and some other villagers. Having seen the school-master
depart, they were summing up particulars of the event, and
indulging in predictions of his future.
"And who's he?" asked one,
comparatively a stranger, when the boy entered.
"Well ye med ask it, Mrs.
Williams. He's my great-nephew—come since you was last this way."
The old inhabitant who answered was a tall, gaunt woman, who spoke
tragically on the most trivial subject, and gave a phrase of her
conversation to each auditor in turn. "He come from Mellstock, down
in South Wessex, about a year ago—worse luck for 'n, Belinda"
(turning to the right) "where his father was living, and was took
wi' the shakings for death, and died in two days, as you know,
Caroline" (turning to the left). "It would ha' been a blessing if
Goddy-mighty had took thee too, wi' thy mother and father, poor
useless boy! But I've got him here to stay with me till I can see
what's to be done with un, though I am obliged to let him earn any
penny he can. Just now he's a-scaring of birds for Farmer Troutham.
It keeps him out of mischty. Why do ye turn away, Jude?" she
continued, as the boy, feeling the impact of their glances like
slaps upon his face, moved aside.
The local washerwoman replied
that it was perhaps a very good plan of Miss or Mrs. Fawley's (as
they called her indifferently) to have him with her—"to kip 'ee
company in your loneliness, fetch water, shet the winder-shetters
o' nights, and help in the bit o' baking."
Miss Fawley doubted it. … "Why
didn't ye get the schoolmaster to take 'ee to Christminster wi' un,
and make a scholar of 'ee," she continued, in frowning pleasantry.
"I'm sure he couldn't ha' took a better one. The boy is crazy for
books, that he is. It runs in our family rather. His cousin Sue is
just the same—so I've heard; but I have not seen the child for
years, though she was born in this place, within these four walls,
as it happened. My niece and her husband, after they were married,
didn' get a house of their own for some year or more; and then they
only had one till—Well, I won't go into that. Jude, my child, don't
you ever marry. 'Tisn't for the Fawleys to take that step any more.
She, their only one, was like a child o' my own, Belinda, till the
split come! Ah, that a little maid should know such changes!"
Jude, finding the general
attention again centering on himself, went out to the bakehouse,
where he ate the cake provided for his breakfast. The end of his
spare time had now arrived, and emerging from the garden by getting
over the hedge at the back he pursued a path northward, till he
came to a wide and lonely depression in the general level of the
upland, which was sown as a corn-field. This vast concave was the
scene of his labours for Mr Troutham the farmer, and he descended
into the midst of it.
The brown surface of the field
went right up towards the sky all round, where it was lost by
degrees in the mist that shut out the actual verge and accentuated
the solitude. The only marks on the uniformity of the scene were a
rick of last year's produce standing in the midst of the arable,
the rooks that rose at his approach, and the path athwart the
fallow by which he had come, trodden now by he hardly knew whom,
though once by many of his own dead family.
"How ugly it is here!" he
murmured.
The fresh harrow-lines seemed to
stretch like the channellings in a piece of new corduroy, lending a
meanly utilitarian air to the expanse, taking away its gradations,
and depriving it of all history beyond that of the few recent
months, though to every clod and stone there really attached
associations enough and to spare—echoes of songs from ancient
harvest-days, of spoken words, and of sturdy deeds. Every inch of
ground had been the site, first or last, of energy, gaiety,
horse-play, bickerings, weariness. Groups of gleaners had squatted
in the sun on every square yard. Love-matches that had populated
the adjoining hamlet had been made up there between reaping and
carrying. Under the hedge which divided the field from a distant
plantation girls had given themselves to lovers who would not turn
their heads to look at them by the next harvest; and in that
ancient cornfield many a man had made love-promises to a woman at
whose voice he had trembled by the next seed-time after fulfilling
them in the church adjoining. But this neither Jude nor the rooks
around him considered. For them it was a lonely place, possessing,
in the one view, only the quality of a work-ground, and in the
other that of a granary good to feed in.
The boy stood under the rick
before mentioned, and every few seconds used his clacker or rattle
briskly. At each clack the rooks left off pecking, and rose and
went away on their leisurely wings, burnished like tassets of mail,
afterwards wheeling back and regarding him warily, and descending
to feed at a more respectful distance.
He sounded the clacker till his
arm ached, and at length his heart grew sympathetic with the birds'
thwarted desires. They seemed, like himself, to be living in a
world which did not want them. Why should he frighten them away?
They took upon more and more the aspect of gentle friends and
pensioners—the only friends he could claim as being in the least
degree interested in him, for his aunt had often told him that she
was not. He ceased his rattling, and they alighted anew.
"Poor little dears!" said Jude,
aloud. "You shall have some dinner—you shall. There is enough for
us all. Farmer Troutham can afford to let you have some. Eat, then
my dear little birdies, and make a good meal!"
They stayed and ate, inky spots
on the nut-brown soil, and Jude enjoyed their appetite. A magic
thread of fellow-feeling united his own life with theirs. Puny and
sorry as those lives were, they much resembled his own.
His clacker he had by this time
thrown away from him, as being a mean and sordid instrument,
offensive both to the birds and to himself as their friend. All at
once he became conscious of a smart blow upon his buttocks,
followed by a loud clack, which announced to his surprised senses
that the clacker had been the instrument of offence used. The birds
and Jude started up simultaneously, and the dazed eyes of the
latter beheld the farmer in person, the great Troutham himself, his
red face glaring down upon Jude's cowering frame, the clacker
swinging in his hand.
"So it's 'Eat my dear birdies,'
is it, young man? 'Eat, dear birdies,' indeed! I'll tickle your
breeches, and see if you say, 'Eat, dear birdies,' again in a
hurry! And you've been idling at the schoolmaster's too, instead of
coming here, ha'n't ye, hey? That's how you earn your sixpence a
day for keeping the rooks off my corn!"
Whilst saluting Jude's ears with
this impassioned rhetoric, Troutham had seized his left hand with
his own left, and swinging his slim frame round him at
arm's-length, again struck Jude on the hind parts with the flat
side of Jude's own rattle, till the field echoed with the blows,
which were delivered once or twice at each revolution.
"Don't 'ee, sir—please don't
'ee!" cried the whirling child, as helpless under the centrifugal
tendency of his person as a hooked fish swinging to land, and
beholding the hill, the rick, the plantation, the path, and the
rooks going round and round him in an amazing circular race. "I—I
sir—only meant that—there was a good crop in the ground—I saw 'em
sow it—and the rooks could have a little bit for dinner—and you
wouldn't miss it, sir—and Mr. Phillotson said I was to be kind to
'em—oh, oh, oh!"
This truthful explanation seemed
to exasperate the farmer even more than if Jude had stoutly denied
saying anything at all, and he still smacked the whirling urchin,
the clacks of the instrument continuing to resound all across the
field and as far as the ears of distant workers—who gathered
thereupon that Jude was pursuing his business of clacking with
great assiduity—and echoing from the brand-new church tower just
behind the mist, towards the building of which structure the farmer
had largely subscribed, to testify his love for God and man.
Presently Troutham grew tired of
his punitive task, and depositing the quivering boy on his legs,
took a sixpence from his pocket and gave it him in payment for his
day's work, telling him to go home and never let him see him in one
of those fields again.
Jude leaped out of arm's reach,
and walked along the trackway weeping—not from the pain, though
that was keen enough; not from the perception of the flaw in the
terrestrial scheme, by which what was good for God's birds was bad
for God's gardener; but with the awful sense that he had wholly
disgraced himself before he had been a year in the parish, and
hence might be a burden to his great-aunt for life.
With this shadow on his mind he
did not care to show himself in the village, and went homeward by a
roundabout track behind a high hedge and across a pasture. Here he
beheld scores of coupled earthworms lying half their length on the
surface of the damp ground, as they always did in such weather at
that time of the year. It was impossible to advance in regular
steps without crushing some of them at each tread.
Though Farmer Troutham had just
hurt him, he was a boy who could not himself bear to hurt anything.
He had never brought home a nest of young birds without lying awake
in misery half the night after, and often reinstating them and the
nest in their original place the next morning. He could scarcely
bear to see trees cut down or lopped, from a fancy that it hurt
them; and late pruning, when the sap was up and the tree bled
profusely, had been a positive grief to him in his infancy. This
weakness of character, as it may be called, suggested that he was
the sort of man who was born to ache a good deal before the fall of
the curtain upon his unnecessary life should signify that all was
well with him again. He carefully picked his way on tiptoe among
the earthworms, without killing a single one.
On entering the cottage he found
his aunt selling a penny loaf to a little girl, and when the
customer was gone she said, "Well, how do you come to be back here
in the middle of the morning like this?"
"I'm turned away."
"What?"
"Mr. Troutham have turned me away
because I let the rooks have a few peckings of corn. And there's my
wages—the last I shall ever hae!"
He threw the sixpence tragically
on the table.
"Ah!" said his aunt, suspending
her breath. And she opened upon him a lecture on how she would now
have him all the spring upon her hands doing nothing. "If you can't
skeer birds, what can ye do? There! don't ye look so deedy! Farmer
Troutham is not so much better than myself, come to that. But 'tis
as Job said, 'Now they that are younger than I have me in derision,
whose fathers I would have disdained to have set with the dogs of
my flock.' His father was my father's journeyman, anyhow, and I
must have been a fool to let 'ee go to work for 'n, which I
shouldn't ha' done but to keep 'ee out of mischty."
More angry with Jude for
demeaning her by coming there than for dereliction of duty, she
rated him primarily from that point of view, and only secondarily
from a moral one.
"Not that you should have let the
birds eat what Farmer Troutham planted. Of course you was wrong in
that. Jude, Jude, why didstn't go off with that schoolmaster of
thine to Christminster or somewhere? But, oh no—poor or'nary
child—there never was any sprawl on thy side of the family, and
never will be!"
"Where is this beautiful city,
Aunt—this place where Mr. Phillotson is gone to?" asked the boy,
after meditating in silence.
"Lord! you ought to know where
the city of Christminster is. Near a score of miles from here. It
is a place much too good for you ever to have much to do with, poor
boy, I'm a-thinking."
"And will Mr. Phillotson always
be there?"
"How can I tell?"
"Could I go to see him?"
"Lord, no! You didn't grow up
hereabout, or you wouldn't ask such as that. We've never had
anything to do with folk in Christminster, nor folk in
Christminster with we."
Jude went out, and, feeling more
than ever his existence to be an undemanded one, he lay down upon
his back on a heap of litter near the pig-sty. The fog had by this
time become more translucent, and the position of the sun could be
seen through it. He pulled his straw hat over his face, and peered
through the interstices of the plaiting at the white brightness,
vaguely reflecting. Growing up brought responsibilities, he found.
Events did not rhyme quite as he had thought. Nature's logic was
too horrid for him to care for. That mercy towards one set of
creatures was cruelty towards another sickened his sense of
harmony. As you got older, and felt yourself to be at the centre of
your time, and not at a point in its circumference, as you had felt
when you were little, you were seized with a sort of shuddering, he
perceived. All around you there seemed to be something glaring,
garish, rattling, and the noises and glares hit upon the little
cell called your life, and shook it, and warped it.
If he could only prevent himself
growing up! He did not want to be a man.
Then, like the natural boy, he
forgot his despondency, and sprang up. During the remainder of the
morning he helped his aunt, and in the afternoon, when there was
nothing more to be done, he went into the village. Here he asked a
man whereabouts Christminster lay.
"Christminster? Oh, well, out by
there yonder; though I've never bin there—not I. I've never had any
business at such a place."
The man pointed north-eastward,
in the very direction where lay that field in which Jude had so
disgraced himself. There was something unpleasant about the
coincidence for the moment, but the fearsomeness of this fact
rather increased his curiosity about the city. The farmer had said
he was never to be seen in that field again; yet Christminster lay
across it, and the path was a public one. So, stealing out of the
hamlet, he descended into the same hollow which had witnessed his
punishment in the morning, never swerving an inch from the path,
and climbing up the long and tedious ascent on the other side till
the track joined the highway by a little clump of trees. Here the
ploughed land ended, and all before him was bleak open down.
III
Not a soul was visible on the
hedgeless highway, or on either side of it, and the white road
seemed to ascend and diminish till it joined the sky. At the very
top it was crossed at right angles by a green "ridgeway"—the
Ickneild Street and original Roman road through the district. This
ancient track ran east and west for many miles, and down almost to
within living memory had been used for driving flocks and herds to
fairs and markets. But it was now neglected and overgrown.
The boy had never before strayed
so far north as this from the nestling hamlet in which he had been
deposited by the carrier from a railway station southward, one dark
evening some few months earlier, and till now he had had no
suspicion that such a wide, flat, low-lying country lay so near at
hand, under the very verge of his upland world. The whole northern
semicircle between east and west, to a distance of forty or fifty
miles, spread itself before him; a bluer, moister atmosphere,
evidently, than that he breathed up here.
Not far from the road stood a
weather-beaten old barn of reddish-grey brick and tile. It was
known as the Brown House by the people of the locality. He was
about to pass it when he perceived a ladder against the eaves; and
the reflection that the higher he got, the further he could see,
led Jude to stand and regard it. On the slope of the roof two men
were repairing the tiling. He turned into the ridgeway and drew
towards the barn.
When he had wistfully watched the
workmen for some time he took courage, and ascended the ladder till
he stood beside them.
"Well, my lad, and what may you
want up here?"
"I wanted to know where the city
of Christminster is, if you please."
"Christminster is out across
there, by that clump. You can see it—at least you can on a clear
day. Ah, no, you can't now."
The other tiler, glad of any kind
of diversion from the monotony of his labour, had also turned to
look towards the quarter designated. "You can't often see it in
weather like this," he said. "The time I've noticed it is when the
sun is going down in a blaze of flame, and it looks like—I don't
know what."
"The heavenly Jerusalem,"
suggested the serious urchin.
"Ay—though I should never ha'
thought of it myself. … But I can't see no Christminster
to-day."
The boy strained his eyes also;
yet neither could he see the far-off city. He descended from the
barn, and abandoning Christminster with the versatility of his age
he walked along the ridge-track, looking for any natural objects of
interest that might lie in the banks thereabout. When he repassed
the barn to go back to Marygreen he observed that the ladder was
still in its place, but that the men had finished their day's work
and gone away.
It was waning towards evening;
there was still a faint mist, but it had cleared a little except in
the damper tracts of subjacent country and along the river-courses.
He thought again of Christminster, and wished, since he had come
two or three miles from his aunt's house on purpose, that he could
have seen for once this attractive city of which he had been told.
But even if he waited here it was hardly likely that the air would
clear before night. Yet he was loth to leave the spot, for the
northern expanse became lost to view on retreating towards the
village only a few hundred yards.
He ascended the ladder to have
one more look at the point the men had designated, and perched
himself on the highest rung, overlying the tiles. He might not be
able to come so far as this for many days. Perhaps if he prayed,
the wish to see Christminster might be forwarded. People said that,
if you prayed, things sometimes came to you, even though they
sometimes did not. He had read in a tract that a man who had begun
to build a church, and had no money to finish it, knelt down and
prayed, and the money came in by the next post. Another man tried
the same experiment, and the money did not come; but he found
afterwards that the breeches he knelt in were made by a wicked Jew.
This was not discouraging, and turning on the ladder Jude knelt on
the third rung, where, resting against those above it, he prayed
that the mist might rise.
He then seated himself again, and
waited. In the course of ten or fifteen minutes the thinning mist
dissolved altogether from the northern horizon, as it had already
done elsewhere, and about a quarter of an hour before the time of
sunset the westward clouds parted, the sun's position being
partially uncovered, and the beams streaming out in visible lines
between two bars of slaty cloud. The boy immediately looked back in
the old direction.
Some way within the limits of the
stretch of landscape, points of light like the topaz gleamed. The
air increased in transparency with the lapse of minutes, till the
topaz points showed themselves to be the vanes, windows, wet roof
slates, and other shining spots upon the spires, domes,
freestone-work, and varied outlines that were faintly revealed. It
was Christminster, unquestionably; either directly seen, or miraged
in the peculiar atmosphere.
The spectator gazed on and on
till the windows and vanes lost their shine, going out almost
suddenly like extinguished candles. The vague city became veiled in
mist. Turning to the west, he saw that the sun had disappeared. The
foreground of the scene had grown funereally dark, and near objects
put on the hues and shapes of chimaeras.
He anxiously descended the
ladder, and started homewards at a run, trying not to think of
giants, Herne the Hunter, Apollyon lying in wait for Christian, or
of the captain with the bleeding hole in his forehead and the
corpses round him that remutinied every night on board the
bewitched ship. He knew that he had grown out of belief in these
horrors, yet he was glad when he saw the church tower and the
lights in the cottage windows, even though this was not the home of
his birth, and his great-aunt did not care much about him.
Inside and round about that old
woman's "shop" window, with its twenty-four little panes set in
lead-work, the glass of some of them oxidized with age, so that you
could hardly see the poor penny articles exhibited within, and
forming part of a stock which a strong man could have carried, Jude
had his outer being for some long tideless time. But his dreams
were as gigantic as his surroundings were small.
Through the solid barrier of cold
cretaceous upland to the northward he was always beholding a
gorgeous city—the fancied place he had likened to the new
Jerusalem, though there was perhaps more of the painter's
imagination and less of the diamond merchant's in his dreams
thereof than in those of the Apocalyptic writer. And the city
acquired a tangibility, a permanence, a hold on his life, mainly
from the one nucleus of fact that the man for whose knowledge and
purposes he had so much reverence was actually living there; not
only so, but living among the more thoughtful and mentally shining
ones therein.
In sad wet seasons, though he
knew it must rain at Christminster too, he could hardly believe
that it rained so drearily there. Whenever he could get away from
the confines of the hamlet for an hour or two, which was not often,
he would steal off to the Brown House on the hill and strain his
eyes persistently; sometimes to be rewarded by the sight of a dome
or spire, at other times by a little smoke, which in his estimate
had some of the mysticism of incense.
Then the day came when it
suddenly occurred to him that if he ascended to the point of view
after dark, or possibly went a mile or two further, he would see
the night lights of the city. It would be necessary to come back
alone, but even that consideration did not deter him, for he could
throw a little manliness into his mood, no doubt.
The project was duly executed. It
was not late when he arrived at the place of outlook, only just
after dusk, but a black north-east sky, accompanied by a wind from
the same quarter, made the occasion dark enough. He was rewarded;
but what he saw was not the lamps in rows, as he had half expected.
No individual light was visible, only a halo or glow-fog
over-arching the place against the black heavens behind it, making
the light and the city seem distant but a mile or so.
He set himself to wonder on the
exact point in the glow where the schoolmaster might be—he who
never communicated with anybody at Marygreen now; who was as if
dead to them here. In the glow he seemed to see Phillotson
promenading at ease, like one of the forms in Nebuchadnezzar's
furnace.
He had heard that breezes
travelled at the rate of ten miles an hour, and the fact now came
into his mind. He parted his lips as he faced the north-east, and
drew in the wind as if it were a sweet liquor.
"You," he said, addressing the
breeze caressingly "were in Christminster city between one and two
hours ago, floating along the streets, pulling round the
weather-cocks, touching Mr. Phillotson's face, being breathed by
him; and now you are here, breathed by me—you, the very
same."
Suddenly there came along this
wind something towards him—a message from the place—from some soul
residing there, it seemed. Surely it was the sound of bells, the
voice of the city, faint and musical, calling to him, "We are happy
here!"
He had become entirely lost to
his bodily situation during this mental leap, and only got back to
it by a rough recalling. A few yards below the brow of the hill on
which he paused a team of horses made its appearance, having
reached the place by dint of half an hour's serpentine progress
from the bottom of the immense declivity. They had a load of coals
behind them—a fuel that could only be got into the upland by this
particular route. They were accompanied by a carter, a second man,
and a boy, who now kicked a large stone behind one of the wheels,
and allowed the panting animals to have a long rest, while those in
charge took a flagon off the load and indulged in a drink
round.
They were elderly men, and had
genial voices. Jude addressed them, inquiring if they had come from
Christminster.
"Heaven forbid, with this load!"
said they.
"The place I mean is that one
yonder." He was getting so romantically attached to Christminster
that, like a young lover alluding to his mistress, he felt bashful
at mentioning its name again. He pointed to the light in the
sky—hardly perceptible to their older eyes.
"Yes. There do seem a spot a bit
brighter in the nor'-east than elsewhere, though I shouldn't ha'
noticed it myself, and no doubt it med be Christminster."
Here a little book of tales which
Jude had tucked up under his arm, having brought them to read on
his way hither before it grew dark, slipped and fell into the road.
The carter eyed him while he picked it up and straightened the
leaves.
"Ah, young man," he observed,
"you'd have to get your head screwed on t'other way before you
could read what they read there."
"Why?" asked the boy.
"Oh, they never look at anything
that folks like we can understand," the carter continued, by way of
passing the time. "On'y foreign tongues used in the days of the
Tower of Babel, when no two families spoke alike. They read that
sort of thing as fast as a night-hawk will whir. 'Tis all learning
there—nothing but learning, except religion. And that's learning
too, for I never could understand it. Yes, 'tis a serious-minded
place. Not but there's wenches in the streets o' nights… You know,
I suppose, that they raise pa'sons there like radishes in a bed?
And though it do take—how many years, Bob?—five years to turn a
lirruping hobble-de-hoy chap into a solemn preaching man with no
corrupt passions, they'll do it, if it can be done, and polish un
off like the workmen they be, and turn un out wi' a long face, and
a long black coat and waistcoat, and a religious collar and hat,
same as they used to wear in the Scriptures, so that his own mother
wouldn't know un sometimes. … There, 'tis their business, like
anybody else's."
"But how should you know"
"Now don't you interrupt, my boy.
Never interrupt your senyers. Move the fore hoss aside, Bobby;
here's som'at coming… You must mind that I be a-talking of the
college life. 'Em lives on a lofty level; there's no gainsaying it,
though I myself med not think much of 'em. As we be here in our
bodies on this high ground, so be they in their minds—noble-minded
men enough, no doubt—some on 'em—able to earn hundreds by thinking
out loud. And some on 'em be strong young fellows that can earn
a'most as much in silver cups. As for music, there's beautiful
music everywhere in Christminster. You med be religious, or you med
not, but you can't help striking in your homely note with the rest.
And there's a street in the place—the main street—that ha'n't
another like it in the world. I should think I did know a little
about Christminster!"
By this time the horses had
recovered breath and bent to their collars again. Jude, throwing a
last adoring look at the distant halo, turned and walked beside his
remarkably well-informed friend, who had no objection to telling
him as they moved on more yet of the city—its towers and halls and
churches. The waggon turned into a cross-road, whereupon Jude
thanked the carter warmly for his information, and said he only
wished he could talk half as well about Christminster as he.
"Well, 'tis oonly what has come
in my way," said the carter unboastfully. "I've never been there,
no more than you; but I've picked up the knowledge here and there,
and you be welcome to it. A-getting about the world as I do, and
mixing with all classes of society, one can't help hearing of
things. A friend o' mine, that used to clane the boots at the
Crozier Hotel in Christminster when he was in his prime, why, I
knowed un as well as my own brother in his later years."
Jude continued his walk homeward
alone, pondering so deeply that he forgot to feel timid. He
suddenly grew older. It had been the yearning of his heart to find
something to anchor on, to cling to—for some place which he could
call admirable. Should he find that place in this city if he could
get there? Would it be a spot in which, without fear of farmers, or
hindrance, or ridicule, he could watch and wait, and set himself to
some mighty undertaking like the men of old of whom he had heard?
As the halo had been to his eyes when gazing at it a quarter of an
hour earlier, so was the spot mentally to him as he pursued his
dark way.
"It is a city of light," he said
to himself.
"The tree of knowledge grows
there," he added a few steps further on.
"It is a place that teachers of
men spring from and go to."
"It is what you may call a
castle, manned by scholarship and religion."
After this figure he was silent a
long while, till he added:
"It would just suit me."
IV
Walking somewhat slowly by reason
of his concentration, the boy—an ancient man in some phases of
thought, much younger than his years in others—was overtaken by a
light-footed pedestrian, whom, notwithstanding the gloom, he could
perceive to be wearing an extraordinarily tall hat, a
swallow-tailed coat, and a watch-chain that danced madly and threw
around scintillations of sky-light as its owner swung along upon a
pair of thin legs and noiseless boots. Jude, beginning to feel
lonely, endeavoured to keep up with him.
"Well, my man! I'm in a hurry, so
you'll have to walk pretty fast if you keep alongside of me. Do you
know who I am?"
"Yes, I think. Physician
Vilbert?"
"Ah—I'm known everywhere, I see!
That comes of being a public benefactor."
Vilbert was an itinerant
quack-doctor, well known to the rustic population, and absolutely
unknown to anybody else, as he, indeed, took care to be, to avoid
inconvenient investigations. Cottagers formed his only patients,
and his Wessex-wide repute was among them alone. His position was
humbler and his field more obscure than those of the quacks with
capital and an organized system of advertising. He was, in fact, a
survival. The distances he traversed on foot were enormous, and
extended nearly the whole length and breadth of Wessex. Jude had
one day seen him selling a pot of coloured lard to an old woman as
a certain cure for a bad leg, the woman arranging to pay a guinea,
in instalments of a shilling a fortnight, for the precious salve,
which, according to the physician, could only be obtained from a
particular animal which grazed on Mount Sinai, and was to be
captured only at great risk to life and limb. Jude, though he
already had his doubts about this gentleman's medicines, felt him
to be unquestionably a travelled personage, and one who might be a
trustworthy source of information on matters not strictly
professional.
"I s'pose you've been to
Christminster, Physician?"
"I have—many times," replied the
long thin man. "That's one of my centres."
"It's a wonderful city for
scholarship and religion?"
"You'd say so, my boy, if you'd
seen it. Why, the very sons of the old women who do the washing of
the colleges can talk in Latin—not good Latin, that I admit, as a
critic: dog-Latin—cat-Latin, as we used to call it in my
undergraduate days."
"And Greek?"
"Well—that's more for the men who
are in training for bishops, that they may be able to read the New
Testament in the original."
"I want to learn Latin and Greek
myself."
"A lofty desire. You must get a
grammar of each tongue."
"I mean to go to Christminster
some day."
"Whenever you do, you say that
Physician Vilbert is the only proprietor of those celebrated pills
that infallibly cure all disorders of the alimentary system, as
well as asthma and shortness of breath. Two and threepence a
box—specially licensed by the government stamp."
"Can you get me the grammars if I
promise to say it hereabout?"
"I'll sell you mine with
pleasure—those I used as a student."
"Oh, thank you, sir!" said Jude
gratefully, but in gasps, for the amazing speed of the physician's
walk kept him in a dog-trot which was giving him a stitch in the
side.
"I think you'd better drop
behind, my young man. Now I'll tell you what I'll do. I'll get you
the grammars, and give you a first lesson, if you'll remember, at
every house in the village, to recommend Physician Vilbert's golden
ointment, life-drops, and female pills."
"Where will you be with the
grammars?"
"I shall be passing here this day
fortnight at precisely this hour of five-and-twenty minutes past
seven. My movements are as truly timed as those of the planets in
their courses."
"Here I'll be to meet you," said
Jude.
"With orders for my
medicines?"
"Yes, Physician."
Jude then dropped behind, waited
a few minutes to recover breath, and went home with a consciousness
of having struck a blow for Christminster.
Through the intervening fortnight
he ran about and smiled outwardly at his inward thoughts, as if
they were people meeting and nodding to him—smiled with that
singularly beautiful irradiation which is seen to spread on young
faces at the inception of some glorious idea, as if a supernatural
lamp were held inside their transparent natures, giving rise to the
flattering fancy that heaven lies about them then.
He honestly performed his promise
to the man of many cures, in whom he now sincerely believed,
walking miles hither and thither among the surrounding hamlets as
the Physician's agent in advance. On the evening appointed he stood
motionless on the plateau, at the place where he had parted from
Vilbert, and there awaited his approach. The road-physician was
fairly up to time; but, to the surprise of Jude on striking into
his pace, which the pedestrian did not diminish by a single unit of
force, the latter seemed hardly to recognize his young companion,
though with the lapse of the fortnight the evenings had grown
light. Jude thought it might perhaps be owing to his wearing
another hat, and he saluted the physician with dignity.
"Well, my boy?" said the latter
abstractedly.
"I've come," said Jude.
"You? who are you? Oh yes—to be
sure! Got any orders, lad?"
"Yes." And Jude told him the
names and addresses of the cottagers who were willing to test the
virtues of the world-renowned pills and salve. The quack mentally
registered these with great care.
"And the Latin and Greek
grammars?" Jude's voice trembled with anxiety.
"What about them?"
"You were to bring me yours, that
you used before you took your degree."
"Ah, yes, yes! Forgot all about
it—all! So many lives depending on my attention, you see, my man,
that I can't give so much thought as I would like to other
things."
Jude controlled himself
sufficiently long to make sure of the truth; and he repeated, in a
voice of dry misery, "You haven't brought 'em!"
"No. But you must get me some
more orders from sick people, and I'll bring the grammars next
time."
Jude dropped behind. He was an
unsophisticated boy, but the gift of sudden insight which is
sometimes vouchsafed to children showed him all at once what shoddy
humanity the quack was made of. There was to be no intellectual
light from this source. The leaves dropped from his imaginary crown
of laurel; he turned to a gate, leant against it, and cried
bitterly.
The disappointment was followed
by an interval of blankness. He might, perhaps, have obtained
grammars from Alfredston, but to do that required money, and a
knowledge of what books to order; and though physically
comfortable, he was in such absolute dependence as to be without a
farthing of his own.
At this date Mr. Phillotson sent
for his pianoforte, and it gave Jude a lead. Why should he not
write to the schoolmaster, and ask him to be so kind as to get him
the grammars in Christminster? He might slip a letter inside the
case of the instrument, and it would be sure to reach the desired
eyes. Why not ask him to send any old second-hand copies, which
would have the charm of being mellowed by the university
atmosphere?
To tell his aunt of his intention
would be to defeat it. It was necessary to act alone.
After a further consideration of
a few days he did act, and on the day of the piano's departure,
which happened to be his next birthday, clandestinely placed the
letter inside the packing-case, directed to his much-admired
friend, being afraid to reveal the operation to his aunt Drusilla,
lest she should discover his motive, and compel him to abandon his
scheme.
The piano was despatched, and
Jude waited days and weeks, calling every morning at the cottage
post office before his great-aunt was stirring. At last a packet
did indeed arrive at the village, and he saw from the ends of it
that it contained two thin books. He took it away into a lonely
place, and sat down on a felled elm to open it.
Ever since his first ecstasy or
vision of Christminster and its possibilities, Jude had meditated
much and curiously on the probable sort of process that was
involved in turning the expressions of one language into those of
another. He concluded that a grammar of the required tongue would
contain, primarily, a rule, prescription, or clue of the nature of
a secret cipher, which, once known, would enable him, by merely
applying it, to change at will all words of his own speech into
those of the foreign one. His childish idea was, in fact, a pushing
to the extremity of mathematical precision what is everywhere known
as Grimm's Law—an aggrandizement of rough rules to ideal
completeness. Thus he assumed that the words of the required
language were always to be found somewhere latent in the words of
the given language by those who had the art to uncover them, such
art being furnished by the books aforesaid.
When, therefore, having noted
that the packet bore the postmark of Christminster, he cut the
string, opened the volumes, and turned to the Latin grammar, which
chanced to come uppermost, he could scarcely believe his
eyes.
The book was an old one—thirty
years old, soiled, scribbled wantonly over with a strange name in
every variety of enmity to the letterpress, and marked at random
with dates twenty years earlier than his own day. But this was not
the cause of Jude's amazement. He learnt for the first time that
there was no law of transmutation, as in his innocence he had
supposed (there was, in some degree, but the grammarian did not
recognize it), but that every word in both Latin and Greek was to
be individually committed to memory at the cost of years of
plodding.
Jude flung down the books, lay
backward along the broad trunk of the elm, and was an utterly
miserable boy for the space of a quarter of an hour. As he had
often done before, he pulled his hat over his face and watched the
sun peering insidiously at him through the interstices of the
straw. This was Latin and Greek, then, was it this grand delusion!
The charm he had supposed in store for him was really a labour like
that of Israel in Egypt.
What brains they must have in
Christminster and the great schools, he presently thought, to learn
words one by one up to tens of thousands! There were no brains in
his head equal to this business; and as the little sun-rays
continued to stream in through his hat at him, he wished he had
never seen a book, that he might never see another, that he had
never been born.
Somebody might have come along
that way who would have asked him his trouble, and might have
cheered him by saying that his notions were further advanced than
those of his grammarian. But nobody did come, because nobody does;
and under the crushing recognition of his gigantic error Jude
continued to wish himself out of the world.
V
During the three or four
succeeding years a quaint and singular vehicle might have been
discerned moving along the lanes and by-roads near Marygreen,
driven in a quaint and singular way.
In the course of a month or two
after the receipt of the books Jude had grown callous to the shabby
trick played him by the dead languages. In fact, his disappointment
at the nature of those tongues had, after a while, been the means
of still further glorifying the erudition of Christminster. To
acquire languages, departed or living in spite of such obstinacies
as he now knew them inherently to possess, was a herculean
performance which gradually led him on to a greater interest in it
than in the presupposed patent process. The mountain-weight of
material under which the ideas lay in those dusty volumes called
the classics piqued him into a dogged, mouselike subtlety of
attempt to move it piecemeal.
He had endeavoured to make his
presence tolerable to his crusty maiden aunt by assisting her to
the best of his ability, and the business of the little cottage
bakery had grown in consequence. An aged horse with a hanging head
had been purchased for eight pounds at a sale, a creaking cart with
a whity-brown tilt obtained for a few pounds more, and in this
turn-out it became Jude's business thrice a week to carry loaves of
bread to the villagers and solitary cotters immediately round
Marygreen.
The singularity aforesaid lay,
after all, less in the conveyance itself than in Jude's manner of
conducting it along its route. Its interior was the scene of most
of Jude's education by "private study." As soon as the horse had
learnt the road and the houses at which he was to pause awhile, the
boy, seated in front, would slip the reins over his arm,
ingeniously fix open, by means of a strap attached to the tilt, the
volume he was reading, spread the dictionary on his knees, and
plunge into the simpler passages from Caesar, Virgil, or Horace, as
the case might be, in his purblind stumbling way, and with an
expenditure of labour that would have made a tender-hearted
pedagogue shed tears; yet somehow getting at the meaning of what he
read, and divining rather than beholding the spirit of the
original, which often to his mind was something else than that
which he was taught to look for.
The only copies he had been able
to lay hands on were old Delphin editions, because they were
superseded, and therefore cheap. But, bad for idle schoolboys, it
did so happen that they were passably good for him. The hampered
and lonely itinerant conscientiously covered up the marginal
readings, and used them merely on points of construction, as he
would have used a comrade or tutor who should have happened to be
passing by. And though Jude may have had little chance of becoming
a scholar by these rough and ready means, he was in the way of
getting into the groove he wished to follow.
While he was busied with these
ancient pages, which had already been thumbed by hands possibly in
the grave, digging out the thoughts of these minds so remote yet so
near, the bony old horse pursued his rounds, and Jude would be
aroused from the woes of Dido by the stoppage of his cart and the
voice of some old woman crying, "Two to-day, baker, and I return
this stale one."
He was frequently met in the
lanes by pedestrians and others without his seeing them, and by
degrees the people of the neighbourhood began to talk about his
method of combining work and play (such they considered his reading
to be), which, though probably convenient enough to himself, was
not altogether a safe proceeding for other travellers along the
same roads. There were murmurs. Then a private resident of an
adjoining place informed the local policeman that the baker's boy
should not be allowed to read while driving, and insisted that it
was the constable's duty to catch him in the act, and take him to
the police court at Alfredston, and get him fined for dangerous
practices on the highway. The policeman thereupon lay in wait for
Jude, and one day accosted him and cautioned him.
As Jude had to get up at three
o'clock in the morning to heat the oven, and mix and set in the
bread that he distributed later in the day, he was obliged to go to
bed at night immediately after laying the sponge; so that if he
could not read his classics on the highways he could hardly study
at all. The only thing to be done was, therefore, to keep a sharp
eye ahead and around him as well as he could in the circumstances,
and slip away his books as soon as anybody loomed in the distance,
the policeman in particular. To do that official justice, he did
not put himself much in the way of Jude's bread-cart, considering
that in such a lonely district the chief danger was to Jude
himself, and often on seeing the white tilt over the hedges he
would move in another direction.
On a day when Fawley was getting
quite advanced, being now about sixteen, and had been stumbling
through the "Carmen Sæculare," on his way home, he found himself to
be passing over the high edge of the plateau by the Brown House.
The light had changed, and it was the sense of this which had
caused him to look up. The sun was going down, and the full moon
was rising simultaneously behind the woods in the opposite quarter.
His mind had become so impregnated with the poem that, in a moment
of the same impulsive emotion which years before had caused him to
kneel on the ladder, he stopped the horse, alighted, and glancing
round to see that nobody was in sight, knelt down on the roadside
bank with open book. He turned first to the shiny goddess, who
seemed to look so softly and critically at his doings, then to the
disappearing luminary on the other hand, as he began:
"Phœbe silvarumque potens
Diana!"
The horse stood still till he had
finished the hymn, which Jude repeated under the sway of a
polytheistic fancy that he would never have thought of humouring in
broad daylight.
Reaching home, he mused over his
curious superstition, innate or acquired, in doing this, and the
strange forgetfulness which had led to such a lapse from common
sense and custom in one who wished, next to being a scholar, to be
a Christian divine. It had all come of reading heathen works
exclusively. The more he thought of it the more convinced he was of
his inconsistency. He began to wonder whether he could be reading
quite the right books for his object in life. Certainly there
seemed little harmony between this pagan literature and the
mediæval colleges at Christminster, that ecclesiastical romance in
stone.
Ultimately he decided that in his
sheer love of reading he had taken up a wrong emotion for a
Christian young man. He had dabbled in Clarke's Homer, but had
never yet worked much at the New Testament in the Greek, though he
possessed a copy, obtained by post from a second-hand bookseller.
He abandoned the now familiar Ionic for a new dialect, and for a
long time onward limited his reading almost entirely to the Gospels
and Epistles in Griesbach's text. Moreover, on going into
Alfredston one day, he was introduced to patristic literature by
finding at the bookseller's some volumes of the Fathers which had
been left behind by an insolvent clergyman of the
neighbourhood.
As another outcome of this change
of groove he visited on Sundays all the churches within a walk, and
deciphered the Latin inscriptions on fifteenth-century brasses and
tombs. On one of these pilgrimages he met with a hunch-backed old
woman of great intelligence, who read everything she could lay her
hands on, and she told him more yet of the romantic charms of the
city of light and lore. Thither he resolved as firmly as ever to
go.
But how live in that city? At
present he had no income at all. He had no trade or calling of any
dignity or stability whatever on which he could subsist while
carrying out an intellectual labour which might spread over many
years.
What was most required by
citizens? Food, clothing, and shelter. An income from any work in
preparing the first would be too meagre; for making the second he
felt a distaste; the preparation of the third requisite he inclined
to. They built in a city; therefore he would learn to build. He
thought of his unknown uncle, his cousin Susanna's father, an
ecclesiastical worker in metal, and somehow mediæval art in any
material was a trade for which he had rather a fancy. He could not
go far wrong in following his uncle's footsteps, and engaging
himself awhile with the carcases that contained the scholar
souls.
As a preliminary he obtained some
small blocks of freestone, metal not being available, and
suspending his studies awhile, occupied his spare half-hours in
copying the heads and capitals in his parish church.
There was a stone-mason of a
humble kind in Alfredston, and as soon as he had found a substitute
for himself in his aunt's little business, he offered his services
to this man for a trifling wage. Here Jude had the opportunity of
learning at least the rudiments of freestone-working. Some time
later he went to a church-builder in the same place, and under the
architect's direction became handy at restoring the dilapidated
masonries of several village churches round about.
Not forgetting that he was only
following up this handicraft as a prop to lean on while he prepared
those greater engines which he flattered himself would be better
fitted for him, he yet was interested in his pursuit on its own
account. He now had lodgings during the week in the little town,
whence he returned to Marygreen village every Saturday evening. And
thus he reached and passed his nineteenth year.
VI
At this memorable date of his
life he was, one Saturday, returning from Alfredston to Marygreen
about three o'clock in the afternoon. It was fine, warm, and soft
summer weather, and he walked with his tools at his back, his
little chisels clinking faintly against the larger ones in his
basket. It being the end of the week he had left work early, and
had come out of the town by a round-about route which he did not
usually frequent, having promised to call at a flour-mill near
Cresscombe to execute a commission for his aunt.
He was in an enthusiastic mood.
He seemed to see his way to living comfortably in Christminster in
the course of a year or two, and knocking at the doors of one of
those strongholds of learning of which he had dreamed so much. He
might, of course, have gone there now, in some capacity or other,
but he preferred to enter the city with a little more assurance as
to means than he could be said to feel at present. A warm
self-content suffused him when he considered what he had already
done. Now and then as he went along he turned to face the peeps of
country on either side of him. But he hardly saw them; the act was
an automatic repetition of what he had been accustomed to do when
less occupied; and the one matter which really engaged him was the
mental estimate of his progress thus far.
"I have acquired quite an average
student's power to read the common ancient classics, Latin in
particular." This was true, Jude possessing a facility in that
language which enabled him with great ease to himself to beguile
his lonely walks by imaginary conversations therein.
"I have read two books of the
Iliad, besides being pretty familiar with passages such as the
speech of Phœnix in the ninth book, the fight of Hector and Ajax in
the fourteenth, the appearance of Achilles unarmed and his heavenly
armour in the eighteenth, and the funeral games in the
twenty-third. I have also done some Hesiod, a little scrap of
Thucydides, and a lot of the Greek Testament… I wish there was only
one dialect all the same.
"I have done some mathematics,
including the first six and the eleventh and twelfth books of
Euclid; and algebra as far as simple equations.
"I know something of the Fathers,
and something of Roman and English history.
"These things are only a
beginning. But I shall not make much farther advance here, from the
difficulty of getting books. Hence I must next concentrate all my
energies on settling in Christminster. Once there I shall so
advance, with the assistance I shall there get, that my present
knowledge will appear to me but as childish ignorance. I must save
money, and I will; and one of those colleges shall open its doors
to me—shall welcome whom now it would spurn, if I wait twenty years
for the welcome.
"I'll be D.D. before I have
done!"
And then he continued to dream,
and thought he might become even a bishop by leading a pure,
energetic, wise, Christian life. And what an example he would set!
If his income were £5000 a year, he would give away £4500 in one
form and another, and live sumptuously (for him) on the remainder.
Well, on second thoughts, a bishop was absurd. He would draw the
line at an archdeacon. Perhaps a man could be as good and as
learned and as useful in the capacity of archdeacon as in that of
bishop. Yet he thought of the bishop again.
"Meanwhile I will read, as soon
as I am settled in Christminster, the books I have not been able to
get hold of here: Livy, Tacitus, Herodotus, Æschylus, Sophocles,
Aristophanes—"
"Ha, ha, ha! Hoity-toity!" The
sounds were expressed in light voices on the other side of the
hedge, but he did not notice them. His thoughts went on:
"—Euripides, Plato, Aristotle,
Lucretius, Epictetus, Seneca, Antoninus. Then I must master other
things: the Fathers thoroughly; Bede and ecclesiastical history
generally; a smattering of Hebrew—I only know the letters as
yet—"
"Hoity-toity!"
"—but I can work hard. I have
staying power in abundance, thank God! and it is that which tells…
Yes, Christminster shall be my Alma Mater; and I'll be her beloved
son, in whom she shall be well pleased."
In his deep concentration on
these transactions of the future Jude's walk had slackened, and he
was now standing quite still, looking at the ground as though the
future were thrown thereon by a magic lantern. On a sudden
something smacked him sharply in the ear, and he became aware that
a soft cold substance had been flung at him, and had fallen at his
feet.
A glance told him what it was—a
piece of flesh, the characteristic part of a barrow-pig, which the
countrymen used for greasing their boots, as it was useless for any
other purpose. Pigs were rather plentiful hereabout, being bred and
fattened in large numbers in certain parts of North Wessex.