Chapter 1
Selden paused in surprise. In the afternoon rush of the Grand
Central Station his eyes had been refreshed by the sight of Miss
Lily Bart.
It was a Monday in early September, and he was returning to
his work from a hurried dip into the country; but what was Miss
Bart doing in town at that season? If she had appeared to be
catching a train, he might have inferred that he had come on her in
the act of transition between one and another of the country-houses
which disputed her presence after the close of the Newport season;
but her desultory air perplexed him. She stood apart from the
crowd, letting it drift by her to the platform or the street, and
wearing an air of irresolution which might, as he surmised, be the
mask of a very definite purpose. It struck him at once that she was
waiting for some one, but he hardly knew why the idea arrested him.
There was nothing new about Lily Bart, yet he could never see her
without a faint movement of interest: it was characteristic of her
that she always roused speculation, that her simplest acts seemed
the result of far-reaching intentions.
An impulse of curiosity made him turn out of his direct line
to the door, and stroll past her. He knew that if she did not wish
to be seen she would contrive to elude him; and it amused him to
think of putting her skill to the test.
"Mr. Selden—what good luck!"
She came forward smiling, eager almost, in her resolve to
intercept him. One or two persons, in brushing past them, lingered
to look; for Miss Bart was a figure to arrest even the suburban
traveller rushing to his last train.
Selden had never seen her more radiant. Her vivid head,
relieved against the dull tints of the crowd, made her more
conspicuous than in a ball-room, and under her dark hat and veil
she regained the girlish smoothness, the purity of tint, that she
was beginning to lose after eleven years of late hours and
indefatigable dancing. Was it really eleven years, Selden found
himself wondering, and had she indeed reached the
nine-and-twentieth birthday with which her rivals credited
her?
"What luck!" she repeated. "How nice of you to come to my
rescue!"
He responded joyfully that to do so was his mission in life,
and asked what form the rescue was to take.
"Oh, almost any—even to sitting on a bench and talking to me.
One sits out a cotillion—why not sit out a train? It isn't a bit
hotter here than in Mrs. Van Osburgh's conservatory—and some of the
women are not a bit uglier." She broke off, laughing, to explain
that she had come up to town from Tuxedo, on her way to the Gus
Trenors' at Bellomont, and had missed the three-fifteen train to
Rhinebeck. "And there isn't another till half-past five." She
consulted the little jewelled watch among her laces. "Just two
hours to wait. And I don't know what to do with myself. My maid
came up this morning to do some shopping for me, and was to go on
to Bellomont at one o'clock, and my aunt's house is closed, and I
don't know a soul in town." She glanced plaintively about the
station. "It IS hotter than Mrs. Van Osburgh's, after all. If you
can spare the time, do take me somewhere for a breath of
air."
He declared himself entirely at her disposal: the adventure
struck him as diverting. As a spectator, he had always enjoyed Lily
Bart; and his course lay so far out of her orbit that it amused him
to be drawn for a moment into the sudden intimacy which her
proposal implied.
"Shall we go over to Sherry's for a cup of tea?"
She smiled assentingly, and then made a slight grimace.
"So many people come up to town on a Monday—one is sure to
meet a lot of bores. I'm as old as the hills, of course, and it
ought not to make any difference; but if I'M old enough, you're
not," she objected gaily. "I'm dying for tea—but isn't there a
quieter place?"
He answered her smile, which rested on him vividly. Her
discretions interested him almost as much as her imprudences: he
was so sure that both were part of the same carefully-elaborated
plan. In judging Miss Bart, he had always made use of the "argument
from design."
"The resources of New York are rather meagre," he said; "but
I'll find a hansom first, and then we'll invent something." He led
her through the throng of returning holiday-makers, past
sallow-faced girls in preposterous hats, and flat-chested women
struggling with paper bundles and palm-leaf fans. Was it possible
that she belonged to the same race? The dinginess, the crudity of
this average section of womanhood made him feel how highly
specialized she was.
A rapid shower had cooled the air, and clouds still hung
refreshingly over the moist street.
"How delicious! Let us walk a little," she said as they
emerged from the station.
They turned into Madison Avenue and began to stroll northward.
As she moved beside him, with her long light step, Selden was
conscious of taking a luxurious pleasure in her nearness: in the
modelling of her little ear, the crisp upward wave of her hair—was
it ever so slightly brightened by art?—and the thick planting of
her straight black lashes. Everything about her was at once
vigorous and exquisite, at once strong and fine. He had a confused
sense that she must have cost a great deal to make, that a great
many dull and ugly people must, in some mysterious way, have been
sacrificed to produce her. He was aware that the qualities
distinguishing her from the herd of her sex were chiefly external:
as though a fine glaze of beauty and fastidiousness had been
applied to vulgar clay. Yet the analogy left him unsatisfied, for a
coarse texture will not take a high finish; and was it not possible
that the material was fine, but that circumstance had fashioned it
into a futile shape?
As he reached this point in his speculations the sun came out,
and her lifted parasol cut off his enjoyment. A moment or two later
she paused with a sigh.
"Oh, dear, I'm so hot and thirsty—and what a hideous place New
York is!" She looked despairingly up and down the dreary
thoroughfare. "Other cities put on their best clothes in summer,
but New York seems to sit in its shirtsleeves." Her eyes wandered
down one of the side-streets. "Someone has had the humanity to
plant a few trees over there. Let us go into the shade."
"I am glad my street meets with your approval," said Selden as
they turned the corner.
"Your street? Do you live here?"
She glanced with interest along the new brick and limestone
house-fronts, fantastically varied in obedience to the American
craving for novelty, but fresh and inviting with their awnings and
flower-boxes.
"Ah, yes—to be sure: THE BENEDICK. What a nice-looking
building! I don't think I've ever seen it before." She looked
across at the flat-house with its marble porch and pseudo-Georgian
facade. "Which are your windows? Those with the awnings
down?"
"On the top floor—yes."
"And that nice little balcony is yours? How cool it looks up
there!"
He paused a moment. "Come up and see," he suggested. "I can
give you a cup of tea in no time—and you won't meet any
bores."
Her colour deepened—she still had the art of blushing at the
right time—but she took the suggestion as lightly as it was
made.
"Why not? It's too tempting—I'll take the risk," she
declared.
"Oh, I'm not dangerous," he said in the same key. In truth, he
had never liked her as well as at that moment. He knew she had
accepted without afterthought: he could never be a factor in her
calculations, and there was a surprise, a refreshment almost, in
the spontaneity of her consent.
On the threshold he paused a moment, feeling for his
latchkey.
"There's no one here; but I have a servant who is supposed to
come in the mornings, and it's just possible he may have put out
the tea-things and provided some cake."
He ushered her into a slip of a hall hung with old prints. She
noticed the letters and notes heaped on the table among his gloves
and sticks; then she found herself in a small library, dark but
cheerful, with its walls of books, a pleasantly faded Turkey rug, a
littered desk and, as he had foretold, a tea-tray on a low table
near the window. A breeze had sprung up, swaying inward the muslin
curtains, and bringing a fresh scent of mignonette and petunias
from the flower-box on the balcony.
Lily sank with a sigh into one of the shabby leather
chairs.
"How delicious to have a place like this all to one's self!
What a miserable thing it is to be a woman." She leaned back in a
luxury of discontent.
Selden was rummaging in a cupboard for the cake.
"Even women," he said, "have been known to enjoy the
privileges of a flat."
"Oh, governesses—or widows. But not girls—not poor, miserable,
marriageable girls!"
"I even know a girl who lives in a flat."
She sat up in surprise. "You do?"
"I do," he assured her, emerging from the cupboard with the
sought-for cake.
"Oh, I know—you mean Gerty Farish." She smiled a little
unkindly. "But I said MARRIAGEABLE—and besides, she has a horrid
little place, and no maid, and such queer things to eat. Her cook
does the washing and the food tastes of soap. I should hate that,
you know."
"You shouldn't dine with her on wash-days," said Selden,
cutting the cake.
They both laughed, and he knelt by the table to light the lamp
under the kettle, while she measured out the tea into a little
tea-pot of green glaze. As he watched her hand, polished as a bit
of old ivory, with its slender pink nails, and the sapphire
bracelet slipping over her wrist, he was struck with the irony of
suggesting to her such a life as his cousin Gertrude Farish had
chosen. She was so evidently the victim of the civilization which
had produced her, that the links of her bracelet seemed like
manacles chaining her to her fate.
She seemed to read his thought. "It was horrid of me to say
that of Gerty," she said with charming compunction. "I forgot she
was your cousin. But we're so different, you know: she likes being
good, and I like being happy. And besides, she is free and I am
not. If I were, I daresay I could manage to be happy even in her
flat. It must be pure bliss to arrange the furniture just as one
likes, and give all the horrors to the ash-man. If I could only do
over my aunt's drawing-room I know I should be a better
woman."
"Is it so very bad?" he asked sympathetically.
She smiled at him across the tea-pot which she was holding up
to be filled.
"That shows how seldom you come there. Why don't you come
oftener?"
"When I do come, it's not to look at Mrs. Peniston's
furniture."
"Nonsense," she said. "You don't come at all—and yet we get on
so well when we meet."
"Perhaps that's the reason," he answered promptly. "I'm afraid
I haven't any cream, you know—shall you mind a slice of lemon
instead?"
"I shall like it better." She waited while he cut the lemon
and dropped a thin disk into her cup. "But that is not the reason,"
she insisted.
"The reason for what?"
"For your never coming." She leaned forward with a shade of
perplexity in her charming eyes. "I wish I knew—I wish I could make
you out. Of course I know there are men who don't like me—one can
tell that at a glance. And there are others who are afraid of me:
they think I want to marry them." She smiled up at him frankly.
"But I don't think you dislike me—and you can't possibly think I
want to marry you."
"No—I absolve you of that," he agreed.
"Well, then——?"
He had carried his cup to the fireplace, and stood leaning
against the chimney-piece and looking down on her with an air of
indolent amusement. The provocation in her eyes increased his
amusement—he had not supposed she would waste her powder on such
small game; but perhaps she was only keeping her hand in; or
perhaps a girl of her type had no conversation but of the personal
kind. At any rate, she was amazingly pretty, and he had asked her
to tea and must live up to his obligations.
"Well, then," he said with a plunge, "perhaps THAT'S the
reason."
"What?"
"The fact that you don't want to marry me. Perhaps I don't
regard it as such a strong inducement to go and see you." He felt a
slight shiver down his spine as he ventured this, but her laugh
reassured him.
"Dear Mr. Selden, that wasn't worthy of you. It's stupid of
you to make love to me, and it isn't like you to be stupid." She
leaned back, sipping her tea with an air so enchantingly judicial
that, if they had been in her aunt's drawing-room, he might almost
have tried to disprove her deduction.
"Don't you see," she continued, "that there are men enough to
say pleasant things to me, and that what I want is a friend who
won't be afraid to say disagreeable ones when I need them?
Sometimes I have fancied you might be that friend—I don't know why,
except that you are neither a prig nor a bounder, and that I
shouldn't have to pretend with you or be on my guard against you."
Her voice had dropped to a note of seriousness, and she sat gazing
up at him with the troubled gravity of a child.
"You don't know how much I need such a friend," she said. "My
aunt is full of copy-book axioms, but they were all meant to apply
to conduct in the early fifties. I always feel that to live up to
them would include wearing book-muslin with gigot sleeves. And the
other women—my best friends—well, they use me or abuse me; but they
don't care a straw what happens to me. I've been about too
long—people are getting tired of me; they are beginning to say I
ought to marry."
There was a moment's pause, during which Selden meditated one
or two replies calculated to add a momentary zest to the situation;
but he rejected them in favour of the simple question: "Well, why
don't you?"
She coloured and laughed. "Ah, I see you ARE a friend after
all, and that is one of the disagreeable things I was asking
for."
"It wasn't meant to be disagreeable," he returned amicably.
"Isn't marriage your vocation? Isn't it what you're all brought up
for?"
She sighed. "I suppose so. What else is there?"
"Exactly. And so why not take the plunge and have it
over?"
She shrugged her shoulders. "You speak as if I ought to marry
the first man who came along."
"I didn't mean to imply that you are as hard put to it as
that. But there must be some one with the requisite
qualifications."
She shook her head wearily. "I threw away one or two good
chances when I first came out—I suppose every girl does; and you
know I am horribly poor—and very expensive. I must have a great
deal of money."
Selden had turned to reach for a cigarette-box on the
mantelpiece.
"What's become of Dillworth?" he asked.
"Oh, his mother was frightened—she was afraid I should have
all the family jewels reset. And she wanted me to promise that I
wouldn't do over the drawing-room."
"The very thing you are marrying for!"
"Exactly. So she packed him off to India."
"Hard luck—but you can do better than Dillworth."
He offered the box, and she took out three or four cigarettes,
putting one between her lips and slipping the others into a little
gold case attached to her long pearl chain.
"Have I time? Just a whiff, then." She leaned forward, holding
the tip of her cigarette to his. As she did so, he noted, with a
purely impersonal enjoyment, how evenly the black lashes were set
in her smooth white lids, and how the purplish shade beneath them
melted into the pure pallour of the cheek.
She began to saunter about the room, examining the bookshelves
between the puffs of her cigarette-smoke. Some of the volumes had
the ripe tints of good tooling and old morocco, and her eyes
lingered on them caressingly, not with the appreciation of the
expert, but with the pleasure in agreeable tones and textures that
was one of her inmost susceptibilities. Suddenly her expression
changed from desultory enjoyment to active conjecture, and she
turned to Selden with a question.
"You collect, don't you—you know about first editions and
things?"
"As much as a man may who has no money to spend. Now and then
I pick up something in the rubbish heap; and I go and look on at
the big sales."
She had again addressed herself to the shelves, but her eyes
now swept them inattentively, and he saw that she was preoccupied
with a new idea.
"And Americana—do you collect Americana?"
Selden stared and laughed.
"No, that's rather out of my line. I'm not really a collector,
you see; I simply like to have good editions of the books I am fond
of."
She made a slight grimace. "And Americana are horribly dull, I
suppose?"
"I should fancy so—except to the historian. But your real
collector values a thing for its rarity. I don't suppose the buyers
of Americana sit up reading them all night—old Jefferson Gryce
certainly didn't."
She was listening with keen attention. "And yet they fetch
fabulous prices, don't they? It seems so odd to want to pay a lot
for an ugly badly-printed book that one is never going to read! And
I suppose most of the owners of Americana are not historians
either?"
"No; very few of the historians can afford to buy them. They
have to use those in the public libraries or in private
collections. It seems to be the mere rarity that attracts the
average collector."
He had seated himself on an arm of the chair near which she
was standing, and she continued to question him, asking which were
the rarest volumes, whether the Jefferson Gryce collection was
really considered the finest in the world, and what was the largest
price ever fetched by a single volume.
It was so pleasant to sit there looking up at her, as she
lifted now one book and then another from the shelves, fluttering
the pages between her fingers, while her drooping profile was
outlined against the warm background of old bindings, that he
talked on without pausing to wonder at her sudden interest in so
unsuggestive a subject. But he could never be long with her without
trying to find a reason for what she was doing, and as she replaced
his first edition of La Bruyere and turned away from the bookcases,
he began to ask himself what she had been driving at. Her next
question was not of a nature to enlighten him. She paused before
him with a smile which seemed at once designed to admit him to her
familiarity, and to remind him of the restrictions it
imposed.
"Don't you ever mind," she asked suddenly, "not being rich
enough to buy all the books you want?"
He followed her glance about the room, with its worn furniture
and shabby walls.
"Don't I just? Do you take me for a saint on a pillar?"
"And having to work—do you mind that?"
"Oh, the work itself is not so bad—I'm rather fond of the
law."
"No; but the being tied down: the routine—don't you ever want
to get away, to see new places and people?"
"Horribly—especially when I see all my friends rushing to the
steamer."
She drew a sympathetic breath. "But do you mind enough—to
marry to get out of it?"
Selden broke into a laugh. "God forbid!" he declared.
She rose with a sigh, tossing her cigarette into the
grate.
"Ah, there's the difference—a girl must, a man may if he
chooses." She surveyed him critically. "Your coat's a little
shabby—but who cares? It doesn't keep people from asking you to
dine. If I were shabby no one would have me: a woman is asked out
as much for her clothes as for herself. The clothes are the
background, the frame, if you like: they don't make success, but
they are a part of it. Who wants a dingy woman? We are expected to
be pretty and well-dressed till we drop—and if we can't keep it up
alone, we have to go into partnership."
Selden glanced at her with amusement: it was impossible, even
with her lovely eyes imploring him, to take a sentimental view of
her case.
"Ah, well, there must be plenty of capital on the look-out for
such an investment. Perhaps you'll meet your fate tonight at the
Trenors'."
She returned his look interrogatively.
"I thought you might be going there—oh, not in that capacity!
But there are to be a lot of your set—Gwen Van Osburgh, the
Wetheralls, Lady Cressida Raith—and the George Dorsets."
She paused a moment before the last name, and shot a query
through her lashes; but he remained imperturbable.
"Mrs. Trenor asked me; but I can't get away till the end of
the week; and those big parties bore me."
"Ah, so they do me," she exclaimed.
"Then why go?"
"It's part of the business—you forget! And besides, if I
didn't, I should be playing bezique with my aunt at Richfield
Springs."
"That's almost as bad as marrying Dillworth," he agreed, and
they both laughed for pure pleasure in their sudden intimacy.
She glanced at the clock.
"Dear me! I must be off. It's after five."
She paused before the mantelpiece, studying herself in the
mirror while she adjusted her veil. The attitude revealed the long
slope of her slender sides, which gave a kind of wild-wood grace to
her outline—as though she were a captured dryad subdued to the
conventions of the drawing-room; and Selden reflected that it was
the same streak of sylvan freedom in her nature that lent such
savour to her artificiality.
He followed her across the room to the entrance-hall; but on
the threshold she held out her hand with a gesture of
leave-taking.
"It's been delightful; and now you will have to return my
visit."
"But don't you want me to see you to the station?"
"No; good bye here, please."
She let her hand lie in his a moment, smiling up at him
adorably.
"Good bye, then—and good luck at Bellomont!" he said, opening
the door for her.
On the landing she paused to look about her. There were a
thousand chances to one against her meeting anybody, but one could
never tell, and she always paid for her rare indiscretions by a
violent reaction of prudence. There was no one in sight, however,
but a char-woman who was scrubbing the stairs. Her own stout person
and its surrounding implements took up so much room that Lily, to
pass her, had to gather up her skirts and brush against the wall.
As she did so, the woman paused in her work and looked up
curiously, resting her clenched red fists on the wet cloth she had
just drawn from her pail. She had a broad sallow face, slightly
pitted with small-pox, and thin straw-coloured hair through which
her scalp shone unpleasantly.
"I beg your pardon," said Lily, intending by her politeness to
convey a criticism of the other's manner.
The woman, without answering, pushed her pail aside, and
continued to stare as Miss Bart swept by with a murmur of silken
linings. Lily felt herself flushing under the look. What did the
creature suppose? Could one never do the simplest, the most
harmless thing, without subjecting one's self to some odious
conjecture? Half way down the next flight, she smiled to think that
a char-woman's stare should so perturb her. The poor thing was
probably dazzled by such an unwonted apparition. But WERE such
apparitions unwonted on Selden's stairs? Miss Bart was not familiar
with the moral code of bachelors' flat-houses, and her colour rose
again as it occurred to her that the woman's persistent gaze
implied a groping among past associations. But she put aside the
thought with a smile at her own fears, and hastened downward,
wondering if she should find a cab short of Fifth Avenue.
Under the Georgian porch she paused again, scanning the street
for a hansom. None was in sight, but as she reached the sidewalk
she ran against a small glossy-looking man with a gardenia in his
coat, who raised his hat with a surprised exclamation.
"Miss Bart? Well—of all people! This IS luck," he declared;
and she caught a twinkle of amused curiosity between his screwed-up
lids.
"Oh, Mr. Rosedale—how are you?" she said, perceiving that the
irrepressible annoyance on her face was reflected in the sudden
intimacy of his smile.
Mr. Rosedale stood scanning her with interest and approval. He
was a plump rosy man of the blond Jewish type, with smart London
clothes fitting him like upholstery, and small sidelong eyes which
gave him the air of appraising people as if they were bric-a-brac.
He glanced up interrogatively at the porch of the Benedick.
"Been up to town for a little shopping, I suppose?" he said,
in a tone which had the familiarity of a touch.
Miss Bart shrank from it slightly, and then flung herself into
precipitate explanations.
"Yes—I came up to see my dress-maker. I am just on my way to
catch the train to the Trenors'."
"Ah—your dress-maker; just so," he said blandly. "I didn't
know there were any dress-makers in the Benedick."
"The Benedick?" She looked gently puzzled. "Is that the name
of this building?"
"Yes, that's the name: I believe it's an old word for
bachelor, isn't it? I happen to own the building—that's the way I
know." His smile deepened as he added with increasing assurance:
"But you must let me take you to the station. The Trenors are at
Bellomont, of course? You've barely time to catch the five-forty.
The dress-maker kept you waiting, I suppose."
Lily stiffened under the pleasantry.
"Oh, thanks," she stammered; and at that moment her eye caught
a hansom drifting down Madison Avenue, and she hailed it with a
desperate gesture.
"You're very kind; but I couldn't think of troubling you," she
said, extending her hand to Mr. Rosedale; and heedless of his
protestations, she sprang into the rescuing vehicle, and called out
a breathless order to the driver.
Chapter 2
In the hansom she leaned back with a sigh. Why must a girl pay
so dearly for her least escape from routine? Why could one never do
a natural thing without having to screen it behind a structure of
artifice? She had yielded to a passing impulse in going to Lawrence
Selden's rooms, and it was so seldom that she could allow herself
the luxury of an impulse! This one, at any rate, was going to cost
her rather more than she could afford. She was vexed to see that,
in spite of so many years of vigilance, she had blundered twice
within five minutes. That stupid story about her dress-maker was
bad enough—it would have been so simple to tell Rosedale that she
had been taking tea with Selden! The mere statement of the fact
would have rendered it innocuous. But, after having let herself be
surprised in a falsehood, it was doubly stupid to snub the witness
of her discomfiture. If she had had the presence of mind to let
Rosedale drive her to the station, the concession might have
purchased his silence. He had his race's accuracy in the appraisal
of values, and to be seen walking down the platform at the crowded
afternoon hour in the company of Miss Lily Bart would have been
money in his pocket, as he might himself have phrased it. He knew,
of course, that there would be a large house-party at Bellomont,
and the possibility of being taken for one of Mrs. Trenor's guests
was doubtless included in his calculations. Mr. Rosedale was still
at a stage in his social ascent when it was of importance to
produce such impressions.
The provoking part was that Lily knew all this—knew how easy
it would have been to silence him on the spot, and how difficult it
might be to do so afterward. Mr. Simon Rosedale was a man who made
it his business to know everything about every one, whose idea of
showing himself to be at home in society was to display an
inconvenient familiarity with the habits of those with whom he
wished to be thought intimate. Lily was sure that within
twenty-four hours the story of her visiting her dress-maker at the
Benedick would be in active circulation among Mr. Rosedale's
acquaintances. The worst of it was that she had always snubbed and
ignored him. On his first appearance—when her improvident cousin,
Jack Stepney, had obtained for him (in return for favours too
easily guessed) a card to one of the vast impersonal Van Osburgh
"crushes"—Rosedale, with that mixture of artistic sensibility and
business astuteness which characterizes his race, had instantly
gravitated toward Miss Bart. She understood his motives, for her
own course was guided by as nice calculations. Training and
experience had taught her to be hospitable to newcomers, since the
most unpromising might be useful later on, and there were plenty of
available OUBLIETTES to swallow them if they were not. But some
intuitive repugnance, getting the better of years of social
discipline, had made her push Mr. Rosedale into his OUBLIETTE
without a trial. He had left behind only the ripple of amusement
which his speedy despatch had caused among her friends; and though
later (to shift the metaphor) he reappeared lower down the stream,
it was only in fleeting glimpses, with long submergences
between.
Hitherto Lily had been undisturbed by scruples. In her little
set Mr. Rosedale had been pronounced "impossible," and Jack Stepney
roundly snubbed for his attempt to pay his debts in dinner
invitations. Even Mrs. Trenor, whose taste for variety had led her
into some hazardous experiments, resisted Jack's attempts to
disguise Mr. Rosedale as a novelty, and declared that he was the
same little Jew who had been served up and rejected at the social
board a dozen times within her memory; and while Judy Trenor was
obdurate there was small chance of Mr. Rosedale's penetrating
beyond the outer limbo of the Van Osburgh crushes. Jack gave up the
contest with a laughing "You'll see," and, sticking manfully to his
guns, showed himself with Rosedale at the fashionable restaurants,
in company with the personally vivid if socially obscure ladies who
are available for such purposes. But the attempt had hitherto been
vain, and as Rosedale undoubtedly paid for the dinners, the laugh
remained with his debtor.
Mr. Rosedale, it will be seen, was thus far not a factor to be
feared—unless one put one's self in his power. And this was
precisely what Miss Bart had done. Her clumsy fib had let him see
that she had something to conceal; and she was sure he had a score
to settle with her. Something in his smile told her he had not
forgotten. She turned from the thought with a little shiver, but it
hung on her all the way to the station, and dogged her down the
platform with the persistency of Mr. Rosedale himself.
She had just time to take her seat before the train started;
but having arranged herself in her corner with the instinctive
feeling for effect which never forsook her, she glanced about in
the hope of seeing some other member of the Trenors' party. She
wanted to get away from herself, and conversation was the only
means of escape that she knew.
Her search was rewarded by the discovery of a very blond young
man with a soft reddish beard, who, at the other end of the
carriage, appeared to be dissembling himself behind an unfolded
newspaper. Lily's eye brightened, and a faint smile relaxed the
drawn lines of her mouth. She had known that Mr. Percy Gryce was to
be at Bellomont, but she had not counted on the luck of having him
to herself in the train; and the fact banished all perturbing
thoughts of Mr. Rosedale. Perhaps, after all, the day was to end
more favourably than it had begun.
She began to cut the pages of a novel, tranquilly studying her
prey through downcast lashes while she organized a method of
attack. Something in his attitude of conscious absorption told her
that he was aware of her presence: no one had ever been quite so
engrossed in an evening paper! She guessed that he was too shy to
come up to her, and that she would have to devise some means of
approach which should not appear to be an advance on her part. It
amused her to think that any one as rich as Mr. Percy Gryce should
be shy; but she was gifted with treasures of indulgence for such
idiosyncrasies, and besides, his timidity might serve her purpose
better than too much assurance. She had the art of giving
self-confidence to the embarrassed, but she was not equally sure of
being able to embarrass the self-confident.
She waited till the train had emerged from the tunnel and was
racing between the ragged edges of the northern suburbs. Then, as
it lowered its speed near Yonkers, she rose from her seat and
drifted slowly down the carriage. As she passed Mr. Gryce, the
train gave a lurch, and he was aware of a slender hand gripping the
back of his chair. He rose with a start, his ingenuous face looking
as though it had been dipped in crimson: even the reddish tint in
his beard seemed to deepen. The train swayed again, almost flinging
Miss Bart into his arms.
She steadied herself with a laugh and drew back; but he was
enveloped in the scent of her dress, and his shoulder had felt her
fugitive touch.
"Oh, Mr. Gryce, is it you? I'm so sorry—I was trying to find
the porter and get some tea."
She held out her hand as the train resumed its level rush, and
they stood exchanging a few words in the aisle. Yes—he was going to
Bellomont. He had heard she was to be of the party—he blushed again
as he admitted it. And was he to be there for a whole week? How
delightful!
But at this point one or two belated passengers from the last
station forced their way into the carriage, and Lily had to retreat
to her seat.
"The chair next to mine is empty—do take it," she said over
her shoulder; and Mr. Gryce, with considerable embarrassment,
succeeded in effecting an exchange which enabled him to transport
himself and his bags to her side.
"Ah—and here is the porter, and perhaps we can have some
tea."
She signalled to that official, and in a moment, with the ease
that seemed to attend the fulfilment of all her wishes, a little
table had been set up between the seats, and she had helped Mr.
Gryce to bestow his encumbering properties beneath it.
When the tea came he watched her in silent fascination while
her hands flitted above the tray, looking miraculously fine and
slender in contrast to the coarse china and lumpy bread. It seemed
wonderful to him that any one should perform with such careless
ease the difficult task of making tea in public in a lurching
train. He would never have dared to order it for himself, lest he
should attract the notice of his fellow-passengers; but, secure in
the shelter of her conspicuousness, he sipped the inky draught with
a delicious sense of exhilaration.
Lily, with the flavour of Selden's caravan tea on her lips,
had no great fancy to drown it in the railway brew which seemed
such nectar to her companion; but, rightly judging that one of the
charms of tea is the fact of drinking it together, she proceeded to
give the last touch to Mr. Gryce's enjoyment by smiling at him
across her lifted cup.
"Is it quite right—I haven't made it too strong?" she asked
solicitously; and he replied with conviction that he had never
tasted better tea.
"I daresay it is true," she reflected; and her imagination was
fired by the thought that Mr. Gryce, who might have sounded the
depths of the most complex self-indulgence, was perhaps actually
taking his first journey alone with a pretty woman.
It struck her as providential that she should be the
instrument of his initiation. Some girls would not have known how
to manage him. They would have over-emphasized the novelty of the
adventure, trying to make him feel in it the zest of an escapade.
But Lily's methods were more delicate. She remembered that her
cousin Jack Stepney had once defined Mr. Gryce as the young man who
had promised his mother never to go out in the rain without his
overshoes; and acting on this hint, she resolved to impart a gently
domestic air to the scene, in the hope that her companion, instead
of feeling that he was doing something reckless or unusual, would
merely be led to dwell on the advantage of always having a
companion to make one's tea in the train.
But in spite of her efforts, conversation flagged after the
tray had been removed, and she was driven to take a fresh
measurement of Mr. Gryce's limitations. It was not, after all,
opportunity but imagination that he lacked: he had a mental palate
which would never learn to distinguish between railway tea and
nectar. There was, however, one topic she could rely on: one spring
that she had only to touch to set his simple machinery in motion.
She had refrained from touching it because it was a last resource,
and she had relied on other arts to stimulate other sensations; but
as a settled look of dulness began to creep over his candid
features, she saw that extreme measures were necessary.
"And how," she said, leaning forward, "are you getting on with
your Americana?"
His eye became a degree less opaque: it was as though an
incipient film had been removed from it, and she felt the pride of
a skilful operator.
"I've got a few new things," he said, suffused with pleasure,
but lowering his voice as though he feared his fellow-passengers
might be in league to despoil him.
She returned a sympathetic enquiry, and gradually he was drawn
on to talk of his latest purchases. It was the one subject which
enabled him to forget himself, or allowed him, rather, to remember
himself without constraint, because he was at home in it, and could
assert a superiority that there were few to dispute. Hardly any of
his acquaintances cared for Americana, or knew anything about them;
and the consciousness of this ignorance threw Mr. Gryce's knowledge
into agreeable relief. The only difficulty was to introduce the
topic and to keep it to the front; most people showed no desire to
have their ignorance dispelled, and Mr. Gryce was like a merchant
whose warehouses are crammed with an unmarketable commodity.
But Miss Bart, it appeared, really did want to know about
Americana; and moreover, she was already sufficiently informed to
make the task of farther instruction as easy as it was agreeable.
She questioned him intelligently, she heard him submissively; and,
prepared for the look of lassitude which usually crept over his
listeners' faces, he grew eloquent under her receptive gaze. The
"points" she had had the presence of mind to glean from Selden, in
anticipation of this very contingency, were serving her to such
good purpose that she began to think her visit to him had been the
luckiest incident of the day. She had once more shown her talent
for profiting by the unexpected, and dangerous theories as to the
advisability of yielding to impulse were germinating under the
surface of smiling attention which she continued to present to her
companion.
Mr. Gryce's sensations, if less definite, were equally
agreeable. He felt the confused titillation with which the lower
organisms welcome the gratification of their needs, and all his
senses floundered in a vague well-being, through which Miss Bart's
personality was dimly but pleasantly perceptible.
Mr. Gryce's interest in Americana had not originated with
himself: it was impossible to think of him as evolving any taste of
his own. An uncle had left him a collection already noted among
bibliophiles; the existence of the collection was the only fact
that had ever shed glory on the name of Gryce, and the nephew took
as much pride in his inheritance as though it had been his own
work. Indeed, he gradually came to regard it as such, and to feel a
sense of personal complacency when he chanced on any reference to
the Gryce Americana. Anxious as he was to avoid personal notice, he
took, in the printed mention of his name, a pleasure so exquisite
and excessive that it seemed a compensation for his shrinking from
publicity.
To enjoy the sensation as often as possible, he subscribed to
all the reviews dealing with book-collecting in general, and
American history in particular, and as allusions to his library
abounded in the pages of these journals, which formed his only
reading, he came to regard himself as figuring prominently in the
public eye, and to enjoy the thought of the interest which would be
excited if the persons he met in the street, or sat among in
travelling, were suddenly to be told that he was the possessor of
the Gryce Americana.
Most timidities have such secret compensations, and Miss Bart
was discerning enough to know that the inner vanity is generally in
proportion to the outer self-depreciation. With a more confident
person she would not have dared to dwell so long on one topic, or
to show such exaggerated interest in it; but she had rightly
guessed that Mr. Gryce's egoism was a thirsty soil, requiring
constant nurture from without. Miss Bart had the gift of following
an undercurrent of thought while she appeared to be sailing on the
surface of conversation; and in this case her mental excursion took
the form of a rapid survey of Mr. Percy Gryce's future as combined
with her own. The Gryces were from Albany, and but lately
introduced to the metropolis, where the mother and son had come,
after old Jefferson Gryce's death, to take possession of his house
in Madison Avenue—an appalling house, all brown stone without and
black walnut within, with the Gryce library in a fire-proof annex
that looked like a mausoleum. Lily, however, knew all about them:
young Mr. Gryce's arrival had fluttered the maternal breasts of New
York, and when a girl has no mother to palpitate for her she must
needs be on the alert for herself. Lily, therefore, had not only
contrived to put herself in the young man's way, but had made the
acquaintance of Mrs. Gryce, a monumental woman with the voice of a
pulpit orator and a mind preoccupied with the iniquities of her
servants, who came sometimes to sit with Mrs. Peniston and learn
from that lady how she managed to prevent the kitchen-maid's
smuggling groceries out of the house. Mrs. Gryce had a kind of
impersonal benevolence: cases of individual need she regarded with
suspicion, but she subscribed to Institutions when their annual
reports showed an impressive surplus. Her domestic duties were
manifold, for they extended from furtive inspections of the
servants' bedrooms to unannounced descents to the cellar; but she
had never allowed herself many pleasures. Once, however, she had
had a special edition of the Sarum Rule printed in rubric and
presented to every clergyman in the diocese; and the gilt album in
which their letters of thanks were pasted formed the chief ornament
of her drawing-room table.
Percy had been brought up in the principles which so excellent
a woman was sure to inculcate. Every form of prudence and suspicion
had been grafted on a nature originally reluctant and cautious,
with the result that it would have seemed hardly needful for Mrs.
Gryce to extract his promise about the overshoes, so little likely
was he to hazard himself abroad in the rain. After attaining his
majority, and coming into the fortune which the late Mr. Gryce had
made out of a patent device for excluding fresh air from hotels,
the young man continued to live with his mother in Albany; but on
Jefferson Gryce's death, when another large property passed into
her son's hands, Mrs. Gryce thought that what she called his
"interests" demanded his presence in New York. She accordingly
installed herself in the Madison Avenue house, and Percy, whose
sense of duty was not inferior to his mother's, spent all his week
days in the handsome Broad Street office where a batch of pale men
on small salaries had grown grey in the management of the Gryce
estate, and where he was initiated with becoming reverence into
every detail of the art of accumulation.
As far as Lily could learn, this had hitherto been Mr. Gryce's
only occupation, and she might have been pardoned for thinking it
not too hard a task to interest a young man who had been kept on
such low diet. At any rate, she felt herself so completely in
command of the situation that she yielded to a sense of security in
which all fear of Mr. Rosedale, and of the difficulties on which
that fear was contingent, vanished beyond the edge of
thought.
The stopping of the train at Garrisons would not have
distracted her from these thoughts, had she not caught a sudden
look of distress in her companion's eye. His seat faced toward the
door, and she guessed that he had been perturbed by the approach of
an acquaintance; a fact confirmed by the turning of heads and
general sense of commotion which her own entrance into a
railway-carriage was apt to produce.
She knew the symptoms at once, and was not surprised to be
hailed by the high notes of a pretty woman, who entered the train
accompanied by a maid, a bull-terrier, and a footman staggering
under a load of bags and dressing-cases.
"Oh, Lily—are you going to Bellomont? Then you can't let me
have your seat, I suppose? But I MUST have a seat in this
carriage—porter, you must find me a place at once. Can't some one
be put somewhere else? I want to be with my friends. Oh, how do you
do, Mr. Gryce? Do please make him understand that I must have a
seat next to you and Lily."
Mrs. George Dorset, regardless of the mild efforts of a
traveller with a carpet-bag, who was doing his best to make room
for her by getting out of the train, stood in the middle of the
aisle, diffusing about her that general sense of exasperation which
a pretty woman on her travels not infrequently creates.
She was smaller and thinner than Lily Bart, with a restless
pliability of pose, as if she could have been crumpled up and run
through a ring, like the sinuous draperies she affected. Her small
pale face seemed the mere setting of a pair of dark exaggerated
eyes, of which the visionary gaze contrasted curiously with her
self-assertive tone and gestures; so that, as one of her friends
observed, she was like a disembodied spirit who took up a great
deal of room.
Having finally discovered that the seat adjoining Miss Bart's
was at her disposal, she possessed herself of it with a farther
displacement of her surroundings, explaining meanwhile that she had
come across from Mount Kisco in her motor-car that morning, and had
been kicking her heels for an hour at Garrisons, without even the
alleviation of a cigarette, her brute of a husband having neglected
to replenish her case before they parted that morning.
"And at this hour of the day I don't suppose you've a single
one left, have you, Lily?" she plaintively concluded.
Miss Bart caught the startled glance of Mr. Percy Gryce, whose
own lips were never defiled by tobacco.
"What an absurd question, Bertha!" she exclaimed, blushing at
the thought of the store she had laid in at Lawrence
Selden's.
"Why, don't you smoke? Since when have you given it up?
What—you never—— And you don't either, Mr. Gryce? Ah, of course—how
stupid of me—I understand."
And Mrs. Dorset leaned back against her travelling cushions
with a smile which made Lily wish there had been no vacant seat
beside her own.
Chapter 3
Bridge at Bellomont usually lasted till the small hours; and
when Lily went to bed that night she had played too long for her
own good.
Feeling no desire for the self-communion which awaited her in
her room, she lingered on the broad stairway, looking down into the
hall below, where the last card-players were grouped about the tray
of tall glasses and silver-collared decanters which the butler had
just placed on a low table near the fire.
The hall was arcaded, with a gallery supported on columns of
pale yellow marble. Tall clumps of flowering plants were grouped
against a background of dark foliage in the angles of the walls. On
the crimson carpet a deer-hound and two or three spaniels dozed
luxuriously before the fire, and the light from the great central
lantern overhead shed a brightness on the women's hair and struck
sparks from their jewels as they moved.
There were moments when such scenes delighted Lily, when they
gratified her sense of beauty and her craving for the external
finish of life; there were others when they gave a sharper edge to
the meagreness of her own opportunities. This was one of the
moments when the sense of contrast was uppermost, and she turned
away impatiently as Mrs. George Dorset, glittering in serpentine
spangles, drew Percy Gryce in her wake to a confidential nook
beneath the gallery.
It was not that Miss Bart was afraid of losing her
newly-acquired hold over Mr. Gryce. Mrs. Dorset might startle or
dazzle him, but she had neither the skill nor the patience to
effect his capture. She was too self-engrossed to penetrate the
recesses of his shyness, and besides, why should she care to give
herself the trouble? At most it might amuse her to make sport of
his simplicity for an evening—after that he would be merely a
burden to her, and knowing this, she was far too experienced to
encourage him. But the mere thought of that other woman, who could
take a man up and toss him aside as she willed, without having to
regard him as a possible factor in her plans, filled Lily Bart with
envy. She had been bored all the afternoon by Percy Gryce—the mere
thought seemed to waken an echo of his droning voice—but she could
not ignore him on the morrow, she must follow up her success, must
submit to more boredom, must be ready with fresh compliances and
adaptabilities, and all on the bare chance that he might ultimately
decide to do her the honour of boring her for life.
It was a hateful fate—but how escape from it? What choice had
she? To be herself, or a Gerty Farish. As she entered her bedroom,
with its softly-shaded lights, her lace dressing-gown lying across
the silken bedspread, her little embroidered slippers before the
fire, a vase of carnations filling the air with perfume, and the
last novels and magazines lying uncut on a table beside the
reading-lamp, she had a vision of Miss Farish's cramped flat, with
its cheap conveniences and hideous wall-papers. No; she was not
made for mean and shabby surroundings, for the squalid compromises
of poverty. Her whole being dilated in an atmosphere of luxury; it
was the background she required, the only climate she could breathe
in. But the luxury of others was not what she wanted. A few years
ago it had sufficed her: she had taken her daily meed of pleasure
without caring who provided it. Now she was beginning to chafe at
the obligations it imposed, to feel herself a mere pensioner on the
splendour which had once seemed to belong to her. There were even
moments when she was conscious of having to pay her way.
For a long time she had refused to play bridge. She knew she
could not afford it, and she was afraid of acquiring so expensive a
taste. She had seen the danger exemplified in more than one of her
associates—in young Ned Silverton, for instance, the charming fair
boy now seated in abject rapture at the elbow of Mrs. Fisher, a
striking divorcee with eyes and gowns as emphatic as the head-lines
of her "case." Lily could remember when young Silverton had
stumbled into their circle, with the air of a strayed Arcadian who
has published charming sonnets in his college journal. Since then
he had developed a taste for Mrs. Fisher and bridge, and the latter
at least had involved him in expenses from which he had been more
than once rescued by harassed maiden sisters, who treasured the
sonnets, and went without sugar in their tea to keep their darling
afloat. Ned's case was familiar to Lily: she had seen his charming
eyes—which had a good deal more poetry in them than the
sonnets—change from surprise to amusement, and from amusement to
anxiety, as he passed under the spell of the terrible god of
chance; and she was afraid of discovering the same symptoms in her
own case.
For in the last year she had found that her hostesses expected
her to take a place at the card-table. It was one of the taxes she
had to pay for their prolonged hospitality, and for the dresses and
trinkets which occasionally replenished her insufficient wardrobe.
And since she had played regularly the passion had grown on her.
Once or twice of late she had won a large sum, and instead of
keeping it against future losses, had spent it in dress or jewelry;
and the desire to atone for this imprudence, combined with the
increasing exhilaration of the game, drove her to risk higher
stakes at each fresh venture. She tried to excuse herself on the
plea that, in the Trenor set, if one played at all one must either
play high or be set down as priggish or stingy; but she knew that
the gambling passion was upon her, and that in her present
surroundings there was small hope of resisting it.
Tonight the luck had been persistently bad, and the little
gold purse which hung among her trinkets was almost empty when she
returned to her room. She unlocked the wardrobe, and taking out her
jewel-case, looked under the tray for the roll of bills from which
she had replenished the purse before going down to dinner. Only
twenty dollars were left: the discovery was so startling that for a
moment she fancied she must have been robbed. Then she took paper
and pencil, and seating herself at the writing-table, tried to
reckon up what she had spent during the day. Her head was throbbing
with fatigue, and she had to go over the figures again and again;
but at last it became clear to her that she had lost three hundred
dollars at cards. She took out her cheque-book to see if her
balance was larger than she remembered, but found she had erred in
the other direction. Then she returned to her calculations; but
figure as she would, she could not conjure back the vanished three
hundred dollars. It was the sum she had set aside to pacify her
dress-maker—unless she should decide to use it as a sop to the
jeweller. At any rate, she had so many uses for it that its very
insufficiency had caused her to play high in the hope of doubling
it. But of course she had lost—she who needed every penny, while
Bertha Dorset, whose husband showered money on her, must have
pocketed at least five hundred, and Judy Trenor, who could have
afforded to lose a thousand a night, had left the table clutching
such a heap of bills that she had been unable to shake hands with
her guests when they bade her good night.
A world in which such things could be seemed a miserable place
to Lily Bart; but then she had never been able to understand the
laws of a universe which was so ready to leave her out of its
calculations.
She began to undress without ringing for her maid, whom she
had sent to bed. She had been long enough in bondage to other
people's pleasure to be considerate of those who depended on hers,
and in her bitter moods it sometimes struck her that she and her
maid were in the same position, except that the latter received her
wages more regularly.
As she sat before the mirror brushing her hair, her face
looked hollow and pale, and she was frightened by two little lines
near her mouth, faint flaws in the smooth curve of the cheek.
"Oh, I must stop worrying!" she exclaimed. "Unless it's the
electric light——" she reflected, springing up from her seat and
lighting the candles on the dressing-table.
She turned out the wall-lights, and peered at herself between
the candle-flames. The white oval of her face swam out waveringly
from a background of shadows, the uncertain light blurring it like
a haze; but the two lines about the mouth remained.
Lily rose and undressed in haste.
"It is only because I am tired and have such odious things to
think about," she kept repeating; and it seemed an added injustice
that petty cares should leave a trace on the beauty which was her
only defence against them.
But the odious things were there, and remained with her. She
returned wearily to the thought of Percy Gryce, as a wayfarer picks
up a heavy load and toils on after a brief rest. She was almost
sure she had "landed" him: a few days' work and she would win her
reward. But the reward itself seemed unpalatable just then: she
could get no zest from the thought of victory. It would be a rest
from worry, no more—and how little that would have seemed to her a
few years earlier! Her ambitions had shrunk gradually in the
desiccating air of failure. But why had she failed? Was it her own
fault or that of destiny?
She remembered how her mother, after they had lost their
money, used to say to her with a kind of fierce vindictiveness:
"But you'll get it all back—you'll get it all back, with your
face." … The remembrance roused a whole train of association, and
she lay in the darkness reconstructing the past out of which her
present had grown.
A house in which no one ever dined at home unless there was
"company"; a door-bell perpetually ringing; a hall-table showered
with square envelopes which were opened in haste, and oblong
envelopes which were allowed to gather dust in the depths of a
bronze jar; a series of French and English maids giving warning
amid a chaos of hurriedly-ransacked wardrobes and dress-closets; an
equally changing dynasty of nurses and footmen; quarrels in the
pantry, the kitchen and the drawing-room; precipitate trips to
Europe, and returns with gorged trunks and days of interminable
unpacking; semi-annual discussions as to where the summer should be
spent, grey interludes of economy and brilliant reactions of
expense—such was the setting of Lily Bart's first memories.
Ruling the turbulent element called home was the vigorous and
determined figure of a mother still young enough to dance her
ball-dresses to rags, while the hazy outline of a neutral-tinted
father filled an intermediate space between the butler and the man
who came to wind the clocks. Even to the eyes of infancy, Mrs.
Hudson Bart had appeared young; but Lily could not recall the time
when her father had not been bald and slightly stooping, with
streaks of grey in his hair, and a tired walk. It was a shock to
her to learn afterward that he was but two years older than her
mother.
Lily seldom saw her father by daylight. All day he was "down
town"; and in winter it was long after nightfall when she heard his
fagged step on the stairs and his hand on the school-room door. He
would kiss her in silence, and ask one or two questions of the
nurse or the governess; then Mrs. Bart's maid would come to remind
him that he was dining out, and he would hurry away with a nod to
Lily. In summer, when he joined them for a Sunday at Newport or
Southampton, he was even more effaced and silent than in winter. It
seemed to tire him to rest, and he would sit for hours staring at
the sea-line from a quiet corner of the verandah, while the clatter
of his wife's existence went on unheeded a few feet off. Generally,
however, Mrs. Bart and Lily went to Europe for the summer, and
before the steamer was half way over Mr. Bart had dipped below the
horizon. Sometimes his daughter heard him denounced for having
neglected to forward Mrs. Bart's remittances; but for the most part
he was never mentioned or thought of till his patient stooping
figure presented itself on the New York dock as a buffer between
the magnitude of his wife's luggage and the restrictions of the
American custom-house.
In this desultory yet agitated fashion life went on through
Lily's teens: a zig-zag broken course down which the family craft
glided on a rapid current of amusement, tugged at by the underflow
of a perpetual need—the need of more money. Lily could not recall
the time when there had been money enough, and in some vague way
her father seemed always to blame for the deficiency. It could
certainly not be the fault of Mrs. Bart, who was spoken of by her
friends as a "wonderful manager." Mrs. Bart was famous for the
unlimited effect she produced on limited means; and to the lady and
her acquaintances there was something heroic in living as though
one were much richer than one's bank-book denoted.
Lily was naturally proud of her mother's aptitude in this
line: she had been brought up in the faith that, whatever it cost,
one must have a good cook, and be what Mrs. Bart called "decently
dressed." Mrs. Bart's worst reproach to her husband was to ask him
if he expected her to "live like a pig"; and his replying in the
negative was always regarded as a justification for cabling to
Paris for an extra dress or two, and telephoning to the jeweller
that he might, after all, send home the turquoise bracelet which
Mrs. Bart had looked at that morning.
Lily knew people who "lived like pigs," and their appearance
and surroundings justified her mother's repugnance to that form of
existence. They were mostly cousins, who inhabited dingy houses
with engravings from Cole's Voyage of Life on the drawing-room
walls, and slatternly parlour-maids who said "I'll go and see" to
visitors calling at an hour when all right-minded persons are
conventionally if not actually out. The disgusting part of it was
that many of these cousins were rich, so that Lily imbibed the idea
that if people lived like pigs it was from choice, and through the
lack of any proper standard of conduct. This gave her a sense of
reflected superiority, and she did not need Mrs. Bart's comments on
the family frumps and misers to foster her naturally lively taste
for splendour.
Lily was nineteen when circumstances caused her to revise her
view of the universe.
The previous year she had made a dazzling debut fringed by a
heavy thunder-cloud of bills. The light of the debut still lingered
on the horizon, but the cloud had thickened; and suddenly it broke.
The suddenness added to the horror; and there were still times when
Lily relived with painful vividness every detail of the day on
which the blow fell. She and her mother had been seated at the
luncheon-table, over the CHAUFROIX and cold salmon of the previous
night's dinner: it was one of Mrs. Bart's few economies to consume
in private the expensive remnants of her hospitality. Lily was
feeling the pleasant languor which is youth's penalty for dancing
till dawn; but her mother, in spite of a few lines about the mouth,
and under the yellow waves on her temples, was as alert, determined
and high in colour as if she had risen from an untroubled
sleep.
In the centre of the table, between the melting MARRONS GLACES
and candied cherries, a pyramid of American Beauties lifted their
vigorous stems; they held their heads as high as Mrs. Bart, but
their rose-colour had turned to a dissipated purple, and Lily's
sense of fitness was disturbed by their reappearance on the
luncheon-table.
"I really think, mother," she said reproachfully, "we might
afford a few fresh flowers for luncheon. Just some jonquils or
lilies-of-the-valley—"
Mrs. Bart stared. Her own fastidiousness had its eye fixed on
the world, and she did not care how the luncheon-table looked when
there was no one present at it but the family. But she smiled at
her daughter's innocence.
"Lilies-of-the-valley," she said calmly, "cost two dollars a
dozen at this season."
Lily was not impressed. She knew very little of the value of
money.
"It would not take more than six dozen to fill that bowl," she
argued.
"Six dozen what?" asked her father's voice in the
doorway.
The two women looked up in surprise; though it was a Saturday,
the sight of Mr. Bart at luncheon was an unwonted one. But neither
his wife nor his daughter was sufficiently interested to ask an
explanation.
Mr. Bart dropped into a chair, and sat gazing absently at the
fragment of jellied salmon which the butler had placed before
him.