CHAPTER I
LOVE
IN IDLENESS"How
can any one hope to transfer that to canvas?" asked the artist,
surveying the many-coloured earth and sky and sea with despairing
eyes."Easily
enough," replied the girl at his elbow, "those who see
twice as vividly as others, can make others see once as vividly as
they do. That is what we call genius.""A
large word for my small capabilities, Miss Enistor. Am I a genius?""Ask
yourself, Mr. Hardwick, for none other than yourself can answer
truly."Outside
his special gift the artist was not over clever, so he lounged on the
yielding turf of the slope to turn the speech over in his mind and
wait results. This tall solidly built Saxon only arrived at
conclusions by slow degrees of laborious reflection. With his
straight athletic figure, closely clipped fair hair and a bronzed
complexion, against which his moustache looked almost white, he
resembled a soldier rather than a painter. Yet a painter he was of
some trifling fame, but being only moderately creative, he strove to
supply what was wanting by toilsome work. He had not so much the
steady fire of genius as the crackling combustion of talent. Thus the
grim Cornish country and the far-stretching Atlantic waters, so
magically beautiful under an opalescent sunset, baffled him for the
moment."I
have the beginnings of genius," he finally decided, "that
is, I can see for myself, but I cannot pass the vision on to others
by production.""Half
a loaf is better than none," said Miss Enistor soothingly."I
am not so sure that your proverb is true, so I reply with another. If
indeed appetite comes with eating, as the French say, it is useless
to invite it with half a loaf, when, for complete satisfaction, one
requires the whole.""There
is something in that," admitted the girl, smiling, "but try
and secure your desired whole loaf by sitting mousey-quiet and
letting what is before you sink into your innermost being. Then you
may create."Crossing
his legs and gripping his ankles, Hardwick, seated in the approved
attitude of a fakir, did his best to adopt this advice, although he
might well despair of fixing on canvas the fleeting vision of that
enchanted hour. From the cromlech, near which the couple were
stationed, a purple carpet of heather rolled down to a winding road,
white and dusty and broad. On the hither side of the loosely built
wall which skirted this, stretched many smooth green fields, divided
and subdivided by boundaries of piled stones, feathery with ferns and
coarse grasses. Beyond the confines of this ordered world, a chaos of
bracken and ling, of small shrubs and stunted trees, together with
giant masses of silvery granite, islanded amidst a sea of
gold-besprinkled gorse, tumbled pell-mell to the jagged edge of the
cliffs. Finally, the bluish plain of ocean glittered spaciously to
the far sharp horizon-line. Thence rose billowy clouds of glorious
hues threaded with the fires of the sinking sun, heaping themselves
in rainbow tints higher and higher towards the radiant azure of the
zenith. No ship was on the water, no animals moved on the land, and
even the grey huddle of houses, to which the smooth level road led,
appeared to be without inhabitants. For all that could be seen of
sentient life, the two on the hilltop were alone in this world of
changeful beauty: the Adam and Eve of a new creation."Yet,"
murmured the girl, to whom this stillness suggested thoughts, "around
us are nature-spirits, invisible and busy, both watchful and
indifferent. Oh, Mr. Hardwick, how I should love to see the trolls,
the pixies, the gnomes and the nixies.""Rhyme,
if not reason," laughed the artist lazily, "one must have
the eye of faith to see such impossible things.""Impossible?"
Miss Enistor shrugged her shoulders and declined to combat his
scepticism beyond the query of the one word. As that did not invite
conversation, Hardwick gave himself up to the mere contentment of
looking at her. Amidst the warm splendours of the hour, she somehow
conveyed to him the sensation of a grey and pensive autumn day,
haunting, yet elusive in its misty beauty. He was wholly unable to
put this feeling into words, but he conceived it dimly as a subtle
blurring of the picture she had bidden him create. His love for her
was like a veil before his conception, and until that veil was
removed by his surrender of the passion, the execution of the
landscape on canvas was impossible. Yet so sweet was this drawback to
his working powers that he could not wish it away.Yet
it was strange that the girl should be attractive to a man of his
limitations, since her alluring qualities were not aggressively
apparent. A delicate oval face, exquisitely moulded, with a
transparent colourless skin, and mystical eyes of larkspur blue, were
scarcely what his blunt perceptions approved of as absolute beauty.
Slim and dainty and fragile in shape and stature, her unusual looks
suggested a cloistered nun given to visions or some peaked elfin
creature of moonlight and mist. She might have been akin to the
fairies she spoke about, and even in the strong daylight she was a
creature of dreams ethereal and evanescent. Hardwick was much too
phlegmatic a man to analyse shadows. A Celt would have comprehended
the hidden charm which drew him on; the Saxon could only wonder what
there was in the girl to impress him."You
are not my ideal of beauty, you know, Miss Enistor," he said in
such a puzzled way as to rob the speech of premeditated rudeness;
"yet there is something about you which makes me adore you!"The
girl flushed and shrugged her shoulders again. "What a
flamboyant word is 'adored'!""It
is the only word I can use," said Hardwick stoutly. "The
Venus of Milo, Brynhild in the Volsung poem, Jael who slew Sisera,
Rubens' robust nymphs: these were the types which appealed to
me—until I met you.""How
complimentary to my small commonplace looks! What caused you to
change your mind, Mr. Hardwick?""Something
you possess, which is not apparent.""You
talk in riddles. What attracts any one must be apparent.""Well,
that is uncertain. I am not a deep thinker, you know. But there is
such a thing as glamour.""There
is. But you are not the man to comprehend the meaning of the word.""I
admit that: all the same I feel its influence—in you!""I
don't know what you mean," said the girl indifferently."Nor
do I. Yet the feeling is here," and he touched his heart. "If
I could only shape that feeling into words,"—he hesitated and
blushed."Well?""I
might be able to tell you much—Alice.""Why
do you use my Christian name?""Why
not? We are man and woman on a hillside, and not over-civilised
beings in a drawing-room. You are Alice: I am Julian. It is quite
simple.""But
too intimate," she objected, "you have known me only six
months.""Do
you reckon knowledge by Time?""You
have no knowledge: you confessed as much lately."Hardwick
looked at her earnestly. "I have this much, that I know how
deeply I love you, my dear!" and he took her hand gently between
his palms.Alice
let it lie there undisturbed, but did not return his pressure. For a
few moments she looked straightly at the sunset. "I am sorry to
hear you say that," was her calm remark when she did decide to
speak."Why?""Because
I can never love you!""Love
can create love," urged Julian, again pressing her hand and
again receiving no answering caress."Not
between you and me. You may be fire, but I am not tow to catch
alight." The flush had disappeared from her face, leaving it
pure and white and calm to such a degree that the man dropped her
hand. It was like holding a piece of ice, and he felt chilled by the
aloofness of touch and look. "But you are a woman," he said
roughly in his vexation, "you must know what love means.""I
don't: really I don't." Alice hugged her knees and stared with
the sublime quietness of an Egyptian statue at his perturbed
countenance. As he did not answer, she continued to speak in a
deliberate way, which showed that his proposal had not touched her
heart in the least. "My mother died when I was born, and I had
Dame Trevel in the village yonder as my foster-mother until I was ten
years of age. Then my father sent me to a Hampstead boarding school
for eleven years. I returned only twelve months ago to live at
Tremore"—she nodded towards a long low grey house, which
basked on a neighbouring hilltop like a sullen reptile in the
sunshine."But
your father——?""My
father," interrupted the girl in a melancholy tone, "has no
love for any one but himself. At times I think he hates me for
causing the death of my mother by being born.""Surely
not.""Well,
you have seen my father. I leave you to judge."Hardwick
was puzzled how to reply. "He is not a man who shows his
feelings, you know," he said delicately."I
don't think he has any feelings to show," replied Alice
indifferently. "I am used to his neglect, and so have schooled
myself to be quietly agreeable without expecting any demonstrations
of affection."Hardwick
nodded. "I have noticed, when dining at Tremore, that you are
more like well-bred acquaintances than father and daughter. Perhaps,"
he added in a dreamy tone, "that is what first made me fall in
love with you.""I
see," said Miss Enistor ironically, "you have come across
the line of Shakespeare which says that pity is akin to love.""I
have never read Shakespeare's plays," admitted Mr. Hardwick
simply. "I'm not a clever chap, you know. But you looked so
forlorn in that dismal house, and seemed so starving for kind words
and actions, that I wanted to take you away with me and make you
happier. Yes," the artist quite brightened at his own
perspicuity, "that is what drew me to you—a desire to give you
a really good time."Alice
looked at him gravely, but with a suspicion of a smile on her pale
lips. "Do you know, Julian, that I believe you to be a good
man." The artist blushed again: he had the trick of blushing on
occasions, which showed him to possess still the modesty of boyhood.
"Oh, I say," he murmured almost inaudibly; then to cover
his confusion added: "You call me Julian.""Yes,"
Alice nodded her head in a stately way. "Henceforth let us be
the greatest of friends.""Lovers,"
he urged, "true honest lovers.""No,
Julian. We would be neither true nor honest as lovers. Our marriage
would not be one of those made in heaven.""Are
any marriages made in heaven?" he asked somewhat cynically.She
looked at him in surprise. "Of course. When one soul meets
another soul capable of blending with it, that is a heavenly
marriage.""Well
then," he cried impetuously, "my soul and your soul?"Alice
shook her head. "We don't strike the same note: we are not in
harmony, Julian. As friends we can esteem one another, but as lovers,
as man and wife, you would end in boring me as I should finally bore
you.""One
would think you were fifty to hear you talk so," said Hardwick
crossly."Do
you reckon knowledge by Time?" she asked, harking back to the
phrase he had used earlier in the conversation.He
had no reply ready. "Still it is odd to hear a girl of
twenty-one talk as you do, Alice.""You
are speaking of my new suit of clothes. I am as old as the world.""Oh,
that is the queer stuff your father talks. He believes in
reincarnation, doesn't he?""He
does, and so do I.""I
wonder that you can. A sensible girl like you——""My
dear Julian, you speak without knowledge," she interrupted
placidly."That
can't be knowledge which can't be proved.""I
think you must be a reincarnation of Nicodemus," retorted Miss
Enistor."That
is no answer.""Now
how can I give you an answer, when you have not the capability of
grasping the answer, Julian? If a peasant wanted a mathematical
problem proved to him, he would have to learn mathematics to
understand it.""Yes,
I suppose so. But you mean——""I
mean that you have to live the life to understand the doctrine.
Christ said that two thousand years ago, and it is as true to-day as
it was then."With
his slow habit of thinking Hardwick had to revolve this speech in his
mind before replying. Alice, with an impish look of mischief on her
face, laughed also to prevent his answering. "I am taking you
into deep water and you will be drowned," she said lightly,
"suppose you begin your picture.""No,"
said the man soberly. "I don't feel like painting the picture. I
don't believe I ever could," and he looked at the fading glories
of sea and land regretfully."Next
time you are born you will be a genius," said Miss Enistor
cheerfully, "as you are building up in this life the brain
required by a master-painter. Meantime I wish you to be my friend.""Well,
it is hard to decline from love to friendship, but——""No
'buts.' Friendship is love from another point of view.""Not
my point of view."Alice
raised an admonitory finger. "You mustn't be selfish," she
said severely."Selfish?
I? How can I be?""By
wishing me to give for your gratification what I cannot give for my
own. I cannot love you as you desire, because there is not that
spiritual link between us which means true love. Therefore to make me
happy, if you really love me, you should be prepared to sacrifice
yourself to the lower feeling of friendship.""That
is too high for me," murmured Hardwick despondingly, "but I
see that you won't have me as your husband.""Certainly
not. I want a man to love me, not to pity me.""It
isn't exactly pity.""Yes
it is," she insisted, "you are sorry for me because I live
in a dull house with a neglectful father. It is very nice of you to
think so, and it is still nicer to think that you are willing to help
me by tying yourself to a woman you do not really love. But I can't
accept that sacrifice. You must be my friend, Julian—my true honest
friend."Hardwick
glanced into her deep blue eyes, and unintelligent as he was in such
subtle matters read his answer therein. "I shall do my best,"
he said with a deep sigh; "but you must give me time to cool
down from passion to friendship. I want you to be my wife, and like
all women you offer to be a sister to me.""Or
I will be your cousin if the relation will suit you better,"
said the girl, laughing outright at his rueful looks.Julian
took offence. "You don't pity me?""Not
at all, since your feeling is not one of genuine love," was the
cool response. "I would if it were.""One
would think you were a hardened woman of the world to hear you speak
in this way.""Perhaps
I was a woman of the world in my last incarnation, Julian. I seem to
have brought over a great deal of common sense to this life. You are
a dear, sweet, placid thing, but although you have seen more of human
nature and worldly existence this time than I have, you don't know
half so much.""Alice,
you are conceited.""Ah,
that speech shows you are yet heart-whole, Julian. If you were really
in love you would never dare to speak so to your divinity.""Well,
I daresay I shall get over it. But it's hard on a fellow.""Not
at all. Hard on your vanity perhaps, but vanity isn't you. Come,"
Alice sprang to her feet and took up her smart silver-headed cane,
"the sun will soon go down and I must get home. We are friends,
are we not?" she held out her hand smiling."Of
course we are." Hardwick bent to kiss her hand and she snatched
it away swiftly."That
isn't friendship.""Oh,
with you friendship means: 'You may look, but you mustn't touch.'""Exactly,"
said Miss Enistor lightly, "consider me if you please as a
valuable Dresden china ornament under a glass shade."Julian
heaved another sigh and began to collect his painting materials. "I
must if I must," he admitted grudgingly; "there isn't
another man, I suppose?"The
face of the girl grew grave. "There isn't another man whom I
love, if that is what you mean," she said, reluctantly. "I
have not yet met with my Prince, who will wake me to love and beauty.
But there is a man who wants, as you do, to be the Prince.""Oh
hang him, who is he?""Don
Pablo Narvaez!""That
old mummy. Impossible!""It
is both possible and disagreeable. He hinted the other day that he——""Loved
you? What impertinence!""No,"
said Alice dryly, "he did not commit himself so far. But he
hinted that he would like me to be his wife. My father afterwards
told me that it would be a good match for me, as Don Pablo is
wealthy.""Wealthy
be blessed, Alice," rejoined Hardwick with great heat. "You
don't want to take your husband from a museum.""I
don't and I won't," she replied with great determination, "and
for that reason I wish you to be my friend.""Why,
what can I do?""Stand
by me. If my father insists upon my marrying Don Pablo, you must say
that I am engaged to you, and this will give you the right to
interfere."Hardwick
packed his traps, and swung up the hill on the home-path alongside
the girl. "How can you ask me to take up such a position when
you know that I love you, Alice?""If
I thought that you did I should not ask for your help, Julian. But in
your own heart you know that you really do not love me. It is only
what you call the glamour of my personality that has caught you for
the moment. It is not improbable," she went on musingly, "that
there may be some slight link between us dating from our meeting in
former lives, but it is not a strong enough one to bring us together
this time as man and wife!""Oh,
this mystical talk makes me tired," cried the painter in quite
an American way, "it's silly.""So
it is from your point of view," said Miss Enistor promptly, "let
us get down to what you call common sense in your robust Anglo-Saxon
style. I want you to stand between me and Don Pablo in the way I
suggest. Will you?""Yes.
That is—give me a day or two to think the matter over. I am flesh
and blood, you know, Alice, and not stone.""Oh,
nonsense, you deceive yourself," she retorted impatiently.
"Don't I tell you that if I thought your feeling for me was
really genuine I should not be so wicked as to risk your unhappiness?
But I know you better than you do yourself. If you loved me, would
you have chatted about this, that and the other thing so lightly
after I had rejected you?""There
is something in that," admitted Hardwick, as Alice had done
previously with regard to his whole-loaf argument. "Well, I
daresay I shall appear as your official lover. Don Pablo shan't worry
you if I can help it.""Thanks,
you dear good boy," rejoined the girl gratefully and squeezed
the artist's arm. "Don't you feel fire running through your
veins when I touch you, Julian?""No,"
said Hardwick stolidly."Doesn't
your heart beat nineteen to the dozen: haven't you the feeling that
this is heaven on earth?""Not
a bit."Alice
dropped his arm with a merry laugh. "And you talk about being in
love with me! Can't you see now how wise I was to refuse you?""Well,"
said Hardwick reluctantly, for he felt that she was perfectly right
in her diagnosis; "there may be something in what you say.""There
is everything in what I say," she insisted; "however, I
shall give you another chance. Catch me before I reach Tremore and I
shall be your wife."Before
Hardwick could accept or refuse, she sprang up the narrow winding
path as lightly as Atalanta. More out of pique than absolute desire
the artist followed. Although he now began to see that he had taken a
false Eros for the true one, he resolutely sped after the flying
figure, if only to have the pleasure of refusing the prize when he
won it. But he might as well have attempted to catch an air-bubble.
Alice was swifter than he was, and ran in a flying way which reminded
him of a darting swallow. Down the declivity she dropped, following
the twists of the pathway amongst the purple heather, and sprang
across the brawling stream at the bottom of the valley before he was
half-way down. Then up she mounted, with an arch backward glance, to
scale the hill whereon Tremore gloomed amidst its muffling trees. At
the gate set in the mouldering brick wall he nearly caught her, for
pride winged his feet. But she eluded his grasp with a laugh and
disappeared amongst the foliage of the miniature forest. When next
she came in sight, he beheld her standing at the sombre porch of the
squat mansion binding up her tresses of black hair, which had become
loose with her exertions."You
don't love me," panted Alice, who had scarcely got her breath,
"if you did I should have been in your arms by this time.""Pouf!"
puffed Hardwick, wiping his wet brow. "Pouf! pouf! pouf!""Is
that all you have to say?""It
is all I am able to say. Pouf! Pouf! Well, my dear girl, Saul went to
look for his asses and found a kingdom. I went to look for a kingdom
of love and find an ass—in myself.""Oh
no! no!" protested Alice, rather distressed."Oh
yes! yes! The love-mood has come and gone in the space of an
afternoon, Miss Enistor.""Alice
to you, Julian," and she held out her hand.The
artist did not attempt to kiss it this time. "Brother and
sister," he said, giving the hand a hearty shake, "and
official lover when necessary.""It's
a bargain," replied Miss Enistor beaming, and so it was
arranged.