Beatnik Rabbi E-Book

Anand Bose

• Herausgeber: BookRix
• Kategorie: Gesellschafts- und Liebesromane
• Sprache: Englisch

Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2017

Beschreibung

This book grew out of my tryst with postmodernism. Most of the book comprises of daily journals recording my thoughts, dreams ans aspirations. The book also contains micro-fiction and aphorisms. The book is an eclectic jumble of multiple narratives, characters, people, time and places. The book is surreal and postmodern. I have transcended the genres of tradional fiction and I have made a mosaic of many fictions. The book is a postmodern epic. 

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Anand Bose

Beatnik Rabbi

This book is dedicated to AnuBookRix GmbH & Co. KG81371 Munich

Fictionodes

Oct 29th 2017

I am suffering from chronic insomnia and bipolar disorder. Finally I have decided to take stopping psychotic medication and sleeping pills. Read the Bible and prayed to Christ, took some hot Guava tea and honey and that did the trick. Slept peacefully, was able to wake fresh early morning. Early morning while writing this article, I listen to Greek Orthodox Church chant, the Byzantine one. It is really soul soothing. Did not read any Philosophy for a day. I do not know why I waver from atheism to belief. Is it my bipolarity? Even John Paul Sartre the greatest existential atheist philosopher whom I have great regard while on his death bed went through an acute reconciliation. While reading the Bible to disprove it, one becomes more enlightened to its profound meaning. While reading the Parable of the Sower I encountered a metanoia. Let’s see what the parable of the sower says. Let’s examine what this parable says. Christ talks of three types of seed falling in different palaces. The first seed fell on open ground and the birds came and ate it up. This could mean that the seed had no foundation to grow. The second seed fell upon gravel and then it failed to sprout from there. The third seed grew among weeds and when seed grew the weeds chocked it out. The fourth type of seed grew on good ground and yielded good fruit. The first example is an illustration of wavering of faith. When the base of faith is shaken by trials and storms the fruit of the word becomes ejected from the consciousness of our being. I strongly do not believe that there is a nothingness in consciousness. The second example is one of temptation and the removal of purity and divinity. The third example shows a dissolute and reprobate mind. The fourth example shows adherence and obedience and faith in the living word of God imparted through his Son Christ. In theory it is easy but in practice it is difficult. Is a spiritual meaning higher than a linguistic and philosophical one? I am genuine seeker for truth but I am not perfect. Parables reveal rich spiritual insight. I am touched and my heart is moved to tears of repentance. I am in the state of fear and trembling: that experienced by Kierkegaard the theologian and Christian existential philosopher.

Oct 28th 2017

Had a dream today. Saw a squirrel enter into my hands, gave it to my wife who fed it and as soon as its belly peaked, it ran away. I live with a crazy wife who will put me in an asylum if I drink. For me a few pegs matter to lullaby me into sleep. As soon as I woke up, went out and a black cat crossed my way. I thought that lady luck will smile on me. I opened my email and became a black coffin. To my woe, my employer in Cambodia said in broken English my appointment was terminated as I could not keep the time. I was dilly dallying with them telling them the whole week, I will arrive tomorrow and day after. To tell you the truth I was anticipating the druids to offer me enough money for my airfare and visa through a lottery draw. Fate became an ironic fang as the days passed as I could not muster even a single prize. My hopes sank to the level of a dirty ashtray. Did a work out to clean my mind and body. Went to the coffee shop and had three glasses of coffee. Smoked a lot of cigarettes. The irony of the situation was my own family running a school turned their backs on me in spite of the promise that I will return the money by Western Union. I have no friends to bail me out. Spent some time reading Sartre’s Being and Nothingness. Actually I am planning to do a critical analysis on his magnum opus. My reading of Jean Paul Sartre has turned me into a profound atheist. Why should I yield myself to Christ? Am I just a lump of clay for the maker? If I am then where is my freedom? Isn’t the story of Eden an allegory? I can sympathize with the Jews as to why they didn’t become anthropocentric towards Christ. Jewish religion is paradoxical with Jehovah and the coming of a Messiah. One has to be mad to believe that a person called himself as the Son of God or one has to fully submit to the infinite space of faith. Sartre begins his discourse by the premise of consciousness. But what is consciousness? What gave it an ontological structure? What makes me not tolerate incest, pedophilia and murder? Sartre gives scant respect for morals because the maker’s choice is the maker’s responsibility. Yes I appreciate Sartre’s treatment of Nausea. Angst is real! Christ are you listening? I am little perturbed that existentialism promotes a chaotic anarchy. Reading Philosophy soothes the mind as a Gregorian chant. I have read only 56 pages and I have to cover 691. But I ask Sartre where will society head to if conscience does not exist? What is conscience? Is it a figment of imagination? Sartre due to you, I have lost my Christian faith as you said that reliance on the supernatural is a denial of responsibility and bad faith. I have decided to stop reading astrology. But where am I heading? Am I going to a no man’s land? I am also reading the Bible, wanting to disprove the existence of God. Read a little from the gospel of Mathew. Why was Christ so critical of the Pharisees? I marveled at the centurion’s faith. While reading the planting of the seed on good ground, Van Gogh’s painting the Sower came into my mind? Why does Christ speak in parables? I remember the woman who had an issue of blood who touched the garment of Christ. What child like faith is that? Though I am angry with Christ, I become sympathetic when I read the Bible. I am still puzzled by the doctrine of the trinity. Where was it when Christ was born if he is divine? Wasn’t Christ divine before his baptism? Why had the Holy Spirit to enter him? Mary I have blasphemed you, I feel truly sorry. The more I read the Bible, the more of a puzzle it becomes.

Oct 18th 2017