I
The Nellie, a cruising yawl,
swung to her anchor without a flutter of the sails, and was at
rest. The flood had made, the wind was nearly calm, and being
bound down the river, the only thing for it was to come to and wait
for the turn of the tide.
The sea-reach of the Thames
stretched before us like the beginning of an interminable waterway.
In the offing the sea and the sky were welded together without a
joint, and in the luminous space the tanned sails of the barges
drifting up with the tide seemed to stand still in red clusters of
canvas sharply peaked, with gleams of varnished sprits. A haze
rested on the low shores that ran out to sea in vanishing flatness.
The air was dark above Gravesend, and farther back still seemed
condensed into a mournful gloom, brooding motionless over the
biggest, and the greatest, town on earth.
The Director of Companies was our
captain and our host. We four affectionately watched his back as he
stood in the bows looking to seaward. On the whole river there was
nothing that looked half so nautical. He resembled a pilot, which
to a seaman is trustworthiness personified. It was difficult to
realize his work was not out there in the luminous estuary, but
behind him, within the brooding gloom.
Between us there was, as I have
already said somewhere, the bond of the sea. Besides holding our
hearts together through long periods of separation, it had the
effect of making us tolerant of each other's yarns--and even
convictions. The Lawyer--the best of old fellows--had, because of
his many years and many virtues, the only cushion on deck, and
was lying on the only rug. The Accountant had brought out already
a box of dominoes, and was toying architecturally with the bones.
Marlow sat cross-legged right aft, leaning against the mizzen-mast.
He had sunken cheeks, a yellow complexion, a straight back, an
ascetic aspect, and, with his arms dropped, the palms of hands
outwards, resembled an idol. The Director, satisfied the anchor had
good hold, made his way aft and sat down amongst us. We exchanged a
few words lazily. Afterwards there was silence on board the yacht.
For some reason or other we did not begin that game of dominoes. We
felt meditative, and fit for nothing but placid staring. The day
was ending in a serenity of still and exquisite brilliance. The
water shone pacifically; the sky, without a speck, was a benign
immensity of unstained light; the very mist on the Essex
marshes was like a gauzy and radiant fabric, hung from the wooded
rises inland, and draping the low shores in diaphanous folds. Only
the gloom to the west, brooding over the upper reaches, became more
somber every minute, as if angered by the approach of the
sun.
And at last, in its curved and
imperceptible fall, the sun sank low, and from glowing white
changed to a dull red without rays and without heat, as if about to
go out suddenly, stricken to death by the touch of that gloom
brooding over a crowd of men.
Forthwith a change came over the
waters, and the serenity became less brilliant but more profound.
The old river in its broad reach rested unruffled at the decline of
day, after ages of good service done to the race that peopled its
banks, spread out in the tranquil dignity of a waterway leading to
the uttermost ends of the earth. We looked at the venerable stream
not in the vivid flush of a short day that comes and departs for
ever, but in the august light of abiding memories. And indeed
nothing is easier for a man who has, as the phrase goes, "followed
the sea" with reverence and affection, than to evoke the great
spirit of the past upon the lower reaches of the Thames. The tidal
current runs to and fro in its unceasing service, crowded with
memories of men and ships it had borne to the rest of home or to
the battles of the sea. It had known and served all the men of whom
the nation is proud, from Sir Francis Drake to Sir John Franklin,
knights all, titled and untitled--the great knights-errant of the
sea. It had borne all the ships whose names are like jewels
flashing in the night of time, from the Golden Hind returning with
her round flanks full of treasure, to be visited by the Queen's
Highness and thus pass out of the gigantic tale, to the Erebus and
Terror, bound on other conquests--and that never returned. It had
known the ships and the men. They had sailed from Deptford, from
Greenwich, from Erith--the adventurers and the settlers; kings'
ships and the ships of men on 'Change; captains, admirals, the dark
"interlopers" of the Eastern trade, and the commissioned "generals"
of East India fleets. Hunters for gold or pursuers of fame, they
all had gone out on that stream, bearing the sword, and often the
torch, messengers of the might within the land, bearers of a spark
from the sacred fire. What greatness had not floated on the ebb of
that river into the mystery of an unknown earth! . . . The dreams
of men, the seed of commonwealths, the germs of empires.
The sun set; the dusk fell on the
stream, and lights began to appear along the shore. The Chapman
lighthouse, a three-legged thing erect on a mud-flat, shone
strongly. Lights of ships moved in the fairway--a great stir of
lights going up and going down. And farther west on the upper
reaches the place of the monstrous town was still marked ominously
on the sky, a brooding gloom in sunshine, a lurid glare under the
stars.
"And this also," said Marlow
suddenly, "has been one of the dark places of the earth."
He was the only man of us who
still "followed the sea." The worst that could be said of him was
that he did not represent his class. He was a seaman, but he was a
wanderer, too, while most seamen lead, if one may so express
it, a sedentary life. Their minds are of the stay-at-home order,
and their home is always with them--the ship; and so is their
country--the sea. One ship is very much like another, and the
sea is always the same. In the immutability of their
surroundings the foreign shores, the foreign faces, the changing
immensity of life, glide past, veiled not by a sense of mystery but
by a slightly disdainful ignorance; for there is nothing mysterious
to a seaman unless it be the sea itself, which is the mistress of
his existence and as inscrutable as Destiny. For the rest, after
his hours of work, a casual stroll or a casual spree on shore
suffices to unfold for him the secret of a whole continent, and
generally he finds the secret not worth knowing. The yarns of
seamen have a direct simplicity, the whole meaning of which lies
within the shell of a cracked nut. But Marlow was not typical (if
his propensity to spin yarns be excepted), and to him the meaning
of an episode was not inside like a kernel but outside, enveloping
the tale which brought it out only as a glow brings out a haze, in
the likeness of one of these misty halos that sometimes are made
visible by the spectral illumination of moonshine.
His remark did not seem at all
surprising. It was just like Marlow. It was accepted in silence. No
one took the trouble to grunt even; and presently he said,
very
slow--
"I was thinking of very old
times, when the Romans first came here, nineteen hundred years
ago--the other day. Light came out of this river since--you
say
Knights? Yes; but it is like a
running blaze on a plain, like a flash of lightning in the clouds.
We live in the flicker--may it last as long as the old earth keeps
rolling! But darkness was here yesterday. Imagine the feelings of a
commander of a fine--what d'ye call 'em?--trireme in the
Mediterranean, ordered suddenly to the north; run overland across
the Gauls in a hurry; put in charge of one of these craft the
legionaries,--a wonderful lot of handy men they must have been
too-- used to build, apparently by the hundred, in a month or two,
if we may believe what we read. Imagine him here--the very end of
the world, a sea the color of lead, a sky the color of smoke, a
kind of ship about as rigid as a concertina--and going up this
river with stores, or orders, or what you like. Sandbanks, marshes,
forests, savages,--precious little to eat fit for a civilized man,
nothing but Thames water to drink. No Falernian wine here, no going
ashore. Here and there a military camp lost in a wilderness, like a
needle in a bundle of hay--cold, fog, tempests, disease, exile, and
death,--death skulking in the air, in the water, in the bush. They
must have been dying like flies here. Oh yes--he did it. Did it
very well, too, no doubt, and without thinking much about it
either, except afterwards to brag of what he had gone through in
his time, perhaps. They were men enough to face the darkness. And
perhaps he was cheered by keeping his eye on a chance
of promotion to the fleet at
Ravenna by-and-by, if he had good friends in Rome and survived the
awful climate. Or think of a decent young citizen in a toga--
perhaps too much dice, you know--coming out here in the train of
some prefect, or tax-gatherer, or trader even, to mend his
fortunes. Land in a swamp, march through the woods, and in some
inland post feel the savagery, the utter savagery, had closed round
him,--all that mysterious life of the wilderness that stirs in the
forest, in the jungles, in the hearts of wild men. There's no
initiation either into such mysteries. He has to live in the midst
of the incomprehensible, which is also detestable. And it has a
fascination, too, that goes to work upon him. The fascination of
the abomination--you know. Imagine the growing regrets, the longing
to escape, the powerless disgust, the surrender, the hate."
He paused.
"Mind," he began again, lifting
one arm from the elbow, the palm of the hand outwards, so that,
with his legs folded before him, he had the pose of a Buddha
preaching in European clothes and without a lotus-flower--"Mind,
none of us would feel exactly like this. What saves us is
efficiency--the devotion to efficiency. But these chaps were not
much account, really. They were no colonists; their administration
was merely a squeeze, and nothing more, I suspect. They were
conquerors, and for that you want only brute force--nothing to
boast of, when you have it, since your strength is just an accident
arising from the weakness of others. They grabbed what they
could get for the sake of what was to be got. It was just robbery
with violence, aggravated murder on a great scale, and men
going at it blind--as is very proper for those who tackle a
darkness. The conquest of the earth, which mostly means the taking
it away from those who have a different complexion or slightly
flatter noses than ourselves, is not a pretty thing when you look
into it too much. What redeems it is the idea only. An idea at the
back of it; not a sentimental pretense but an idea; and an
unselfish belief in the idea--something you can set up, and bow
down before, and offer a sacrifice to. . .
."
He broke off. Flames glided in
the river, small green flames, red flames, white flames, pursuing,
overtaking, joining, crossing each other--then separating slowly or
hastily. The traffic of the great city went on in the deepening
night upon the sleepless river. We looked on, waiting
patiently--there was nothing else to do till the end of the flood;
but it was only after a long silence, when he said, in a
hesitating voice, "I suppose you fellows remember I did once turn
fresh-water sailor for a bit," that we knew we were fated, before
the ebb began to run, to hear about one of Marlow's inconclusive
experiences.
"I don't want to bother you much
with what happened to me personally," he began, showing in this
remark the weakness of many tellers of tales who seem so
often unaware of what their
audience would best like to hear; "yet to understand the effect of
it on me you ought to know how I got out there, what I saw, how I
went up that river to the place where I first met the poor chap. It
was the farthest point of navigation and the culminating point of
my experience. It seemed somehow to throw a kind of light on
everything about me--and into my thoughts. It was somber enough
too--and pitiful--not extraordinary in any way--not very clear
either. No, not very clear. And yet it seemed to throw a kind of
light.
"I had then, as you remember,
just returned to London after a lot of Indian Ocean, Pacific,
China Seas--a regular dose of the East--six years or so, and I was
loafing about, hindering you fellows in your work and invading your
homes, just as though I had got a heavenly mission to civilize you.
It was very fine for a time, but after a bit I did get tired of
resting. Then I began to look for a ship--I should think the
hardest work on earth. But the ships wouldn't even look at me. And
I got tired of that game too.
"Now when I was a little chap I
had a passion for maps. I would look for hours at South America, or
Africa, or Australia, and lose myself in all the glories of
exploration. At that time there were many blank spaces on the
earth, and when I saw one that looked particularly inviting on a
map (but they all look that) I would put my finger on it and say,
'When I grow up I will go there.' The North Pole was one of these
places, I remember. Well, I haven't been there yet, and shall not
try now. The glamour's off. Other places were scattered about the
Equator, and in every sort of latitude all over the two
hemispheres. I have been in some of them, and . . . well, we won't
talk about that. But there was one yet--the biggest, the most
blank, so to speak--that I had a hankering after.
"True, by this time it was not a
blank space any more. It had got filled since my boyhood with
rivers and lakes and names. It had ceased to be a blank space of
delightful mystery--a white patch for a boy to dream gloriously
over. It had become a place of darkness. But there was in it one
river especially, a mighty big river, that you could see on the
map, resembling an immense snake uncoiled, with its head in
the sea, its body at rest curving afar over a vast country, and its
tail lost in the depths of the land. And as I looked at the map of
it in a shop- window, it fascinated me as a snake would a bird--a
silly little bird. Then I remembered there was a big concern, a
Company for trade on that river. Dash it all! I thought to myself,
they can't trade without using some kind of craft on that lot of
fresh water--steamboats! Why shouldn't I try to get charge of one?
I went on along Fleet Street, but could not shake off the idea. The
snake had charmed me.
"You understand it was a
Continental concern, that Trading society; but I have a lot of
relations living on the Continent, because it's cheap and not so
nasty as it looks, they say.