CHAPTER I
What determined the speech that
startled him in the course of their encounter scarcely matters,
being probably but some words spoken by himself quite without
intention—spoken as they lingered and slowly moved together after
their renewal of acquaintance. He had been conveyed by friends an
hour or two before to the house at which she was staying; the party
of visitors at the other house, of whom he was one, and thanks to
whom it was his theory, as always, that he was lost in the crowd,
had been invited over to luncheon. There had been after luncheon
much dispersal, all in the interest of the original motive, a view
of Weatherend itself and the fine things, intrinsic features,
pictures, heirlooms, treasures of all the arts, that made the place
almost famous; and the great rooms were so numerous that guests
could wander at their will, hang back from the principal group and
in cases where they took such matters with the last seriousness
give themselves up to mysterious appreciations and measurements.
There were persons to be observed, singly or in couples, bending
toward objects in out-of-the-way corners with their hands on their
knees and their heads nodding quite as with the emphasis of an
excited sense of smell. When they were two they either mingled
their sounds of ecstasy or melted into silences of even deeper
import, so that there were aspects of the occasion that gave it for
Marcher much the air of the “look round,” previous to a sale highly
advertised, that excites or quenches, as may be, the dream of
acquisition. The dream of acquisition at Weatherend would have had
to be wild indeed, and John Marcher found himself, among such
suggestions, disconcerted almost equally by the presence of those
who knew too much and by that of those who knew nothing. The great
rooms caused so much poetry and history to press upon him that he
needed some straying apart to feel in a proper relation with them,
though this impulse was not, as happened, like the gloating of some
of his companions, to be compared to the movements of a dog
sniffing a cupboard. It had an issue promptly enough in a direction
that was not to have been calculated.It led, briefly, in the course of the October afternoon, to
his closer meeting with May Bartram, whose face, a reminder, yet
not quite a remembrance, as they sat much separated at a very long
table, had begun merely by troubling him rather pleasantly. It
affected him as the sequel of something of which he had lost the
beginning. He knew it, and for the time quite welcomed it, as a
continuation, but didn’t know what it continued, which was an
interest or an amusement the greater as he was also somehow
aware—yet without a direct sign from her—that the young woman
herself hadn’t lost the thread. She hadn’t lost it, but she
wouldn’t give it back to him, he saw, without some putting forth of
his hand for it; and he not only saw that, but saw several things
more, things odd enough in the light of the fact that at the moment
some accident of grouping brought them face to face he was still
merely fumbling with the idea that any contact between them in the
past would have had no importance. If it had had no importance he
scarcely knew why his actual impression of her should so seem to
have so much; the answer to which, however, was that in such a life
as they all appeared to be leading for the moment one could but
take things as they came. He was satisfied, without in the least
being able to say why, that this young lady might roughly have
ranked in the house as a poor relation; satisfied also that she was
not there on a brief visit, but was more or less a part of the
establishment—almost a working, a remunerated part. Didn’t she
enjoy at periods a protection that she paid for by helping, among
other services, to show the place and explain it, deal with the
tiresome people, answer questions about the dates of the building,
the styles of the furniture, the authorship of the pictures, the
favourite haunts of the ghost? It wasn’t that she looked as if you
could have given her shillings—it was impossible to look less so.
Yet when she finally drifted toward him, distinctly handsome,
though ever so much older—older than when he had seen her before—it
might have been as an effect of her guessing that he had, within
the couple of hours, devoted more imagination to her than to all
the others put together, and had thereby penetrated to a kind of
truth that the others were too stupid for. Shewasthere on harder terms than any one;
she was there as a consequence of things suffered, one way and
another, in the interval of years; and she remembered him very much
as she was remembered—only a good deal better.By the time they at last thus came to speech they were alone
in one of the rooms—remarkable for a fine portrait over the
chimney-place—out of which their friends had passed, and the charm
of it was that even before they had spoken they had practically
arranged with each other to stay behind for talk. The charm,
happily, was in other things too—partly in there being scarce a
spot at Weatherend without something to stay behind for. It was in
the way the autumn day looked into the high windows as it waned;
the way the red light, breaking at the close from under a low
sombre sky, reached out in a long shaft and played over old
wainscots, old tapestry, old gold, old colour. It was most of all
perhaps in the way she came to him as if, since she had been turned
on to deal with the simpler sort, he might, should he choose to
keep the whole thing down, just take her mild attention for a part
of her general business. As soon as he heard her voice, however,
the gap was filled up and the missing link supplied; the slight
irony he divined in her attitude lost its advantage. He almost
jumped at it to get there before her. “I met you years and years
ago in Rome. I remember all about it.” She confessed to
disappointment—she had been so sure he didn’t; and to prove how
well he did he began to pour forth the particular recollections
that popped up as he called for them. Her face and her voice, all
at his service now, worked the miracle—the impression operating
like the torch of a lamplighter who touches into flame, one by one,
a long row of gas-jets. Marcher flattered himself the illumination
was brilliant, yet he was really still more pleased on her showing
him, with amusement, that in his haste to make everything right he
had got most things rather wrong. It hadn’t been at Rome—it had
been at Naples; and it hadn’t been eight years before—it had been
more nearly ten. She hadn’t been, either, with her uncle and aunt,
but with her mother and brother; in addition to which it was not
with the Pembleshehad been,
but with the Boyers, coming down in their company from Rome—a point
on which she insisted, a little to his confusion, and as to which
she had her evidence in hand. The Boyers she had known, but didn’t
know the Pembles, though she had heard of them, and it was the
people he was with who had made them acquainted. The incident of
the thunderstorm that had raged round them with such violence as to
drive them for refuge into an excavation—this incident had not
occurred at the Palace of the Caesars, but at Pompeii, on an
occasion when they had been present there at an important
find.He accepted her amendments, he enjoyed her corrections,
though the moral of them was, she pointed out, that hereallydidn’t remember the least thing
about her; and he only felt it as a drawback that when all was made
strictly historic there didn’t appear much of anything left. They
lingered together still, she neglecting her office—for from the
moment he was so clever she had no proper right to him—and both
neglecting the house, just waiting as to see if a memory or two
more wouldn’t again breathe on them. It hadn’t taken them many
minutes, after all, to put down on the table, like the cards of a
pack, those that constituted their respective hands; only what came
out was that the pack was unfortunately not perfect—that the past,
invoked, invited, encouraged, could give them, naturally, no more
than it had. It had made them anciently meet—her at twenty, him at
twenty-five; but nothing was so strange, they seemed to say to each
other, as that, while so occupied, it hadn’t done a little more for
them. They looked at each other as with the feeling of an occasion
missed; the present would have been so much better if the other, in
the far distance, in the foreign land, hadn’t been so stupidly
meagre. There weren’t, apparently, all counted, more than a dozen
little old things that had succeeded in coming to pass between
them; trivialities of youth, simplicities of freshness, stupidities
of ignorance, small possible germs, but too deeply buried—too
deeply (didn’t it seem?) to sprout after so many years. Marcher
could only feel he ought to have rendered her some service—saved
her from a capsized boat in the bay or at least recovered her
dressing-bag, filched from her cab in the streets of Naples by a
lazzarone with a stiletto. Or it would have been nice if he could
have been taken with fever all alone at his hotel, and she could
have come to look after him, to write to his people, to drive him
out in convalescence.Thenthey
would be in possession of the something or other that their actual
show seemed to lack. It yet somehow presented itself, this show, as
too good to be spoiled; so that they were reduced for a few minutes
more to wondering a little helplessly why—since they seemed to know
a certain number of the same people—their reunion had been so long
averted. They didn’t use that name for it, but their delay from
minute to minute to join the others was a kind of confession that
they didn’t quite want it to be a failure. Their attempted
supposition of reasons for their not having met but showed how
little they knew of each other. There came in fact a moment when
Marcher felt a positive pang. It was vain to pretend she was an old
friend, for all the communities were wanting, in spite of which it
was as an old friend that he saw she would have suited him. He had
new ones enough—was surrounded with them for instance on the stage
of the other house; as a new one he probably wouldn’t have so much
as noticed her. He would have liked to invent something, get her to
make-believe with him that some passage of a romantic or critical
kindhadoriginally occurred. He
was really almost reaching out in imagination—as against time—for
something that would do, and saying to himself that if it did
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