My name is Arthur Gordon
Pym. My father was a respectable trader in sea-stores at Nantucket,
where I was born. My maternal grandfather was an attorney in good
practice. He was fortunate in everything, and had speculated very
successfully in stocks of the Edgarton New-Bank, as it was formerly
called. By these and other means he had managed to lay by a
tolerable sum of money. He was more attached to myself, I believe,
than to any other person in the world, and I expected to inherit
the most of his property at his death. He sent me, at six years of
age, to the school of old Mr. Ricketts, a gentleman with only one
arm, and of eccentric manners—he is well known to almost every
person who has visited New Bedford. I stayed at his school until I
was sixteen, when I left him for Mr. E. Ronald's academy on the
hill. Here I became intimate with the son of Mr. Barnard, a sea
captain, who generally sailed in the employ of Lloyd and
Vredenburgh—Mr. Barnard is also very well known in New Bedford, and
has many relations, I am certain, in Edgarton. His son was named
Augustus, and he was nearly two years older than myself. He had
been on a whaling voyage with his father in the John Donaldson, and
was always talking to me of his adventures in the South Pacific
Ocean. I used frequently to go home with him, and remain all day,
and sometimes all night. We occupied the same bed, and he would be
sure to keep me awake until almost light, telling me stories of the
natives of the Island of Tinian, and other places he had visited in
his travels. At last I could not help being interested in what he
said, and by degrees I felt the greatest desire to go to sea. I
owned a sail-boat called the Ariel, and worth about seventy-five
dollars. She had a half-deck or cuddy, and was rigged
sloop-fashion—I forget her tonnage, but she would hold ten persons
without much crowding. In this boat we were in the habit of going
on some of the maddest freaks in the world; and, when I now think
of them, it appears to me a thousand wonders that I am alive
to-day.
I will relate one of these
adventures by way of introduction to a longer and more momentous
narrative. One night there was a party at Mr. Barnard's, and both
Augustus and myself were not a little intoxicated towards the close
of it. As usual, in such cases, I took part of his bed in
preference to going home. He went to sleep, as I thought, very
quietly (it being near one when the party broke up), and without
saying a word on his favourite topic. It might have been half an
hour from the time of our getting in bed, and I was just about
falling into a doze, when he suddenly started up, and swore with a
terrible oath that he would not go to sleep for any Arthur Pym in
Christendom, when there was so glorious a breeze from the
southwest. I never was so astonished in my life, not knowing what
he intended, and thinking that the wines and liquors he had drunk
had set him entirely beside himself. He proceeded to talk very
coolly, however, saying he knew that I supposed him intoxicated,
but that he was never more sober in his life. He was only tired, he
added, of lying in bed on such a fine night like a dog, and was
determined to get up and dress, and go out on a frolic with the
boat. I can hardly tell what possessed me, but the words were no
sooner out of his mouth than I felt a thrill of the greatest
excitement and pleasure, and thought his mad idea one of the most
delightful and most reasonable things in the world. It was blowing
almost a gale, and the weather was very cold—it being late in
October. I sprang out of bed, nevertheless, in a kind of ecstasy,
and told him I was quite as brave as himself, and quite as tired as
he was of lying in bed like a dog, and quite as ready for any fun
or frolic as any Augustus Barnard in Nantucket.
We lost no time in getting on our
clothes and hurrying down to the boat. She was lying at the old
decayed wharf by the lumber-yard of Pankey & Co., and almost
thumping her sides out against the rough logs. Augustus got into
her and bailed her, for she was nearly half full of water. This
being done, we hoisted jib and mainsail, kept full, and started
boldly out to sea.
The wind, as I before said, blew
freshly from the southwest. The night was very clear and cold.
Augustus had taken the helm, and I stationed myself by the mast, on
the deck of the cuddy. We flew along at a great rate—neither of us
having said a word since casting loose from the wharf. I now asked
my companion what course he intended to steer, and what time he
thought it probable we should get back. He whistled for a few
minutes, and then said crustily, "I am going to sea—you may go home
if you think proper." Turning my eyes upon him, I perceived at once
that, in spite of his assumed nonchalance, he was greatly agitated.
I could see him distinctly by the light of the moon—his face was
paler than any marble, and his hand shook so excessively that he
could scarcely retain hold of the tiller. I found that something
had gone wrong, and became seriously alarmed. At this period I knew
little about the management of a boat, and was now depending
entirely upon the nautical skill of my friend. The wind, too, had
suddenly increased, as we were fast getting out of the lee of the
land—still I was ashamed to betray any trepidation, and for almost
half an hour maintained a resolute silence. I could stand it no
longer, however, and spoke to Augustus about the propriety of
turning back. As before, it was nearly a minute before he made
answer, or took any notice of my suggestion. "By-and-by," said he
at length—"time enough—home by-and-by." I had expected a similar
reply, but there was something in the tone of these words which
filled me with an indescribable feeling of dread. I again looked at
the speaker attentively. His lips were perfectly livid, and his
knees shook so violently together that he seemed scarcely able to
stand. "For God's sake, Augustus," I screamed, now heartily
frightened, "what ails you?—what is the matter?—what are you going
to do?" "Matter!" he stammered, in the greatest apparent surprise,
letting go the tiller at the same moment, and falling forward into
the bottom of the boat—"matter!—why, nothing is the—matter—going
home—d—d—don't you see?" The whole truth now flashed upon me. I
flew to him and raised him up. He was drunk—beastly drunk—he could
no longer either stand, speak, or see. His eyes were perfectly
glazed; and as I let him go in the extremity of my despair, he
rolled like a mere log into the bilge-water from which I had lifted
him. It was evident that, during the evening, he had drunk far more
than I suspected, and that his conduct in bed had been the result
of a highly-concentrated state of intoxication—a state which, like
madness, frequently enables the victim to imitate the outward
demeanour of one in perfect possession of his senses. The coolness
of the night air, however, had had its usual effect—the mental
energy began to yield before its influence—and the confused
perception which he no doubt then had of his perilous situation had
assisted in hastening the catastrophe. He was now thoroughly
insensible, and there was no probability that he would be otherwise
for many hours.
It is hardly possible to conceive
the extremity of my terror. The fumes of the wine lately taken had
evaporated, leaving me doubly timid and irresolute. I knew that I
was altogether incapable of managing the boat, and that a fierce
wind and strong ebb tide were hurrying us to destruction. A storm
was evidently gathering behind us; we had neither compass nor
provisions; and it was clear that, if we held our present course,
we should be out of sight of land before daybreak. These thoughts,
with a crowd of others equally fearful, flashed through my mind
with a bewildering rapidity, and for some moments paralyzed me
beyond the possibility of making any exertion. The boat was going
through the water at a terrible rate—full before the wind—no reef
in either jib or mainsail—running her bows completely under the
foam. It was a thousand wonders she did not broach to—Augustus
having let go the tiller, as I said before, and I being too much
agitated to think of taking it myself. By good luck, however, she
kept steady, and gradually I recovered some degree of presence of
mind. Still the wind was increasing fearfully; and whenever we rose
from a plunge forward, the sea behind fell combing over our
counter, and deluged us with water. I was so utterly benumbed, too,
in every limb, as to be nearly unconscious of sensation. At length
I summoned up the resolution of despair, and rushing to the
mainsail, let it go by the run. As might have been expected, it
flew over the bows, and, getting drenched with water, carried away
the mast short off by the board. This latter accident alone saved
me from instant destruction. Under the jib only, I now boomed along
before the wind, shipping heavy seas occasionally over the counter,
but relieved from the terror of immediate death. I took the helm,
and breathed with greater freedom as I found that there yet
remained to us a chance of ultimate escape. Augustus still lay
senseless in the bottom of the boat; and as there was imminent
danger of his drowning (the water being nearly a foot deep just
where he fell), I contrived to raise him partially up, and keep him
in a sitting position, by passing a rope round his waist, and
lashing it to a ringbolt in the deck of the cuddy. Having thus
arranged everything as well as I could in my chilled and agitated
condition, I recommended myself to God, and made up my mind to bear
whatever might happen with all the fortitude in my power.
Hardly had I come to this
resolution, when, suddenly, a loud and long scream or yell, as if
from the throats of a thousand demons, seemed to pervade the whole
atmosphere around and above the boat. Never while I live shall I
forget the intense agony of terror I experienced at that moment. My
hair stood erect on my head—I felt the blood congealing in my
veins—my heart ceased utterly to beat, and without having once
raised my eyes to learn the source of my alarm, I tumbled headlong
and insensible upon the body of my fallen companion.
I found myself, upon reviving, in
the cabin of a large whaling-ship (the Penguin) bound to Nantucket.
Several persons were standing over me, and Augustus, paler than
death, was busily occupied in chafing my hands. Upon seeing me open
my eyes, his exclamations of gratitude and joy excited alternate
laughter and tears from the rough-looking personages who were
present. The mystery of our being in existence was now soon
explained. We had been run down by the whaling-ship, which was
close hauled, beating up to Nantucket with every sail she could
venture to set, and consequently running almost at right angles to
our own course. Several men were on the look-out forward, but did
not perceive our boat until it was an impossibility to avoid coming
in contact—their shouts of warning upon seeing us were what so
terribly alarmed me. The huge ship, I was told, rode immediately
over us with as much ease as our own little vessel would have
passed over a feather, and without the least perceptible impediment
to her progress. Not a scream arose from the deck of the
victim—there was a slight grating sound to be heard mingling with
the roar of wind and water, as the frail bark which was swallowed
up rubbed for a moment along the keel of her destroyer—but this was
all. Thinking our boat (which it will be remembered was dismasted)
some mere shell cut adrift as useless, the captain (Captain E. T.
V. Block of New London) was for proceeding on his course without
troubling himself further about the matter. Luckily, there were two
of the look-out who swore positively to having seen some person at
our helm, and represented the possibility of yet saving him. A
discussion ensued, when Block grew angry, and, after a while, said
that "it was no business of his to be eternally watching for
egg-shells; that the ship should not put about for any such
nonsense; and if there was a man run down, it was nobody's fault
but his own—he might drown and be d——d," or some language to that
effect. Henderson, the first mate, now took the matter up, being
justly indignant, as well as the whole ship's crew, at a speech
evincing so base a degree of heartless atrocity. He spoke plainly,
seeing himself upheld by the men, told the captain he considered
him a fit subject for the gallows, and that he would disobey his
orders if he were hanged for it the moment he set his foot on
shore. He strode aft, jostling Block (who turned very pale and made
no answer) on one side, and seizing the helm, gave the word, in a
firm voice, Hard-a-lee! The men flew to their posts, and the ship
went cleverly about. All this had occupied nearly five minutes, and
it was supposed to be hardly within the bounds of possibility that
any individual could be saved—allowing any to have been on board
the boat. Yet, as the reader has seen, both Augustus and myself
were rescued; and our deliverance seemed to have been brought about
by two of those almost inconceivable pieces of good fortune which
are attributed by the wise and pious to the special interference of
Providence.
While the ship was yet in stays,
the mate lowered the jolly-boat and jumped into her with the very
two men, I believe, who spoke up as having seen me at the helm.
They had just left the lee of the vessel (the moon still shining
brightly) when she made a long and heavy roll to windward, and
Henderson, at the same moment, starting up in his seat, bawled out
to his crew to back water. He would say nothing else—repeating his
cry impatiently, back water! back water! The men put back as
speedily as possible; but by this time the ship had gone round, and
gotten fully under headway, although all hands on board were making
great exertions to take in sail. In despite of the danger of the
attempt, the mate clung to the main-chains as soon as they came
within his reach. Another huge lurch now brought the starboard side
of the vessel out of water nearly as far as her keel, when the
cause of his anxiety was rendered obvious enough. The body of a man
was seen to be affixed in the most singular manner to the smooth
and shining bottom (the Penguin was coppered and copper-fastened),
and beating violently against it with every movement of the hull.
After several ineffectual efforts, made during the lurches of the
ship, and at the imminent risk of swamping the boat, I was finally
disengaged from my perilous situation and taken on board—for the
body proved to be my own. It appeared that one of the timber-bolts
having started and broken a passage through the copper, it had
arrested my progress as I passed under the ship, and fastened me in
so extraordinary a manner to her bottom. The head of the bolt had
made its way through the collar of the green baize jacket I had on,
and through the back part of my neck, forcing itself out between
two sinews and just below the right ear. I was immediately put to
bed—although life seemed to be totally extinct. There was no
surgeon on board. The captain, however, treated me with every
attention—to make amends, I presume, in the eyes of his crew, for
his atrocious behaviour in the previous portion of the
adventure.
In the meantime, Henderson had
again put off from the ship, although the wind was now blowing
almost a hurricane. He had not been gone many minutes when he fell
in with some fragments of our boat, and shortly afterward one of
the men with him asserted that he could distinguish a cry for help
at intervals amid the roaring of the tempest. This induced the
hardy seamen to persevere in their search for more than half an
hour, although repeated signals to return were made them by Captain
Block, and although every moment on the water in so frail a boat
was fraught to them with the most imminent and deadly peril.
Indeed, it is nearly impossible to conceive how the small jolly
they were in could have escaped destruction for a single instant.
She was built, however, for the whaling service, and was fitted, as
I have since had reason to believe, with air-boxes, in the manner
of some life-boats used on the coast of Wales.
After searching in vain for about
the period of time just mentioned, it was determined to get back to
the ship. They had scarcely made this resolve when a feeble cry
arose from a dark object which floated rapidly by. They pursued and
soon overtook it. It proved to be the entire deck of the Ariel's
cuddy. Augustus was struggling near it, apparently in the last
agonies. Upon getting hold of him it was found that he was attached
by a rope to the floating timber. This rope, it will be remembered,
I had myself tied round his waist, and made fast to a ringbolt, for
the purpose of keeping him in an upright position, and my so doing,
it appeared, had been ultimately the means of preserving his life.
The Ariel was slightly put together, and in going down her frame
naturally went to pieces; the deck of the cuddy, as might be
expected, was lifted, by the force of the water rushing in,
entirely from the main timbers, and floated (with other fragments,
no doubt) to the surface—Augustus was buoyed up with it, and thus
escaped a terrible death.
It was more than an hour after
being taken on board the Penguin before he could give any account
of himself, or be made to comprehend the nature of the accident
which had befallen our boat. At length he became thoroughly
aroused, and spoke much of his sensations while in the water. Upon
his first attaining any degree of consciousness, he found himself
beneath the surface, whirling round and round with inconceivable
rapidity, and with a rope wrapped in three or four folds tightly
about his neck. In an instant afterward he felt himself going
rapidly upward, when, his head striking violently against a hard
substance, he again relapsed into insensibility. Upon once more
reviving he was in fuller possession of his reason—this was still,
however, in the greatest degree clouded and confused. He now knew
that some accident had occurred, and that he was in the water,
although his mouth was above the surface, and he could breathe with
some freedom. Possibly, at this period, the deck was drifting
rapidly before the wind, and drawing him after it, as he floated
upon his back. Of course, as long as he could have retained this
position, it would have been nearly impossible that he should be
drowned. Presently a surge threw him directly athwart the deck; and
this post he endeavoured to maintain, screaming at intervals for
help. Just before he was discovered by Mr. Henderson, he had been
obliged to relax his hold through exhaustion, and, falling into the
sea, had given himself up for lost. During the whole period of his
struggles he had not the faintest recollection of the Ariel, nor of
any matters in connexion with the source of his disaster. A vague
feeling of terror and despair had taken entire possession of his
faculties. When he was finally picked up, every power of his mind
had failed him; and, as before said, it was nearly an hour after
getting on board the Penguin before he became fully aware of his
condition. In regard to myself—I was resuscitated from a state
bordering very nearly upon death (and after every other means had
been tried in vain for three hours and a half) by vigorous friction
with flannels bathed in hot oil—a proceeding suggested by Augustus.
The wound in my neck, although of an ugly appearance, proved of
little real consequence, and I soon recovered from its
effects.
The Penguin got into port about
nine o'clock in the morning, after encountering one of the severest
gales ever experienced off Nantucket. Both Augustus and myself
managed to appear at Mr. Barnard's in time for breakfast—which,
luckily, was somewhat late, owing to the party over night. I
suppose all at the table were too much fatigued themselves to
notice our jaded appearance—of course, it would not have borne a
very rigid scrutiny. Schoolboys, however, can accomplish wonders in
the way of deception, and I verily believe not one of our friends
in Nantucket had the slightest suspicion that the terrible story
told by some sailors in town of their having run down a vessel at
sea and drowned some thirty or forty poor devils, had reference
either to the Ariel, my companion, or myself. We two have since
very frequently talked the matter over—but never without a shudder.
In one of our conversations Augustus frankly confessed to me, that
in his whole life he had at no time experienced so excruciating a
sense of dismay, as when on board our little boat he first
discovered the extent of his intoxication, and felt himself sinking
beneath its influence.