"And I cannot touch her
face
And I cannot touch her
hair,
And I kneel to empty
shadows—
Just memories of her
grace;
And her voice sings in the
winds
And in the sobs of dawn
And among the flowers at
night
And from the brooks at
sunrise
And from the sea at
sunset,
And I answer with vain
callings …"
It was the Joy of the Sunset that
brought us to speech. I was gone a long way from my house, walking
lonely-wise, and stopping often that I view the piling upward of
the Battlements of Evening, and to feel the dear and strange
gathering of the Dusk come over all the world about me.
The last time that I paused, I
was truly lost in a solemn joy of the Glory of the Coming Night;
and maybe I laughed a little in my throat, standing there alone in
the midst of the Dusk upon the World. And, lo! my content was
answered out of the trees that bounded the country road upon my
right; and it was so as that some one had said: "And thou also!" in
glad understanding, that I laughed again a little in my throat; as
though I had only a half-believing that any true human did answer
my laugh; but rather some sweet Delusion or Spirit that was tuned
to my mood.
But she spoke and called me by my
name; and when I had gone to the side of the road, that I should
see her somewhat, and discover whether I knew her, I saw that she
was surely that lady, who for her beauty was known through all of
that sweet County of Kent as Lady Mirdath the Beautiful; and a near
neighbour to me; for the Estates of her Guardian abounded upon
mine.
Yet, until that time, I had never
met her; for I had been so oft and long abroad; and so much given
to my Studies and my Exercises when at home, that I had no further
Knowledge of her than Rumour gave to me odd time; and for the rest,
I was well content; for as I have given hint, my books held me, and
likewise my Exercises; for I was always an athlete, and never met
the man so quick or so strong as I did be; save in some fiction of
a tale or in the mouth of a boaster.
Now, I stood instantly with my
hat in my hand; and answered her gentle bantering so well as I
might, the while that I peered intent and wondering at her through
the gloom; for truly Rumour had told no tale to equal the beauty of
this strange maid; who now stood jesting with so sweet a spirit,
and claiming kinship of Cousinhood with me, as was truth, now that
I did wake to think.
And, truly, she made no ado; but
named me frank by my lad's name, and gave laughter and right to me
to name her Mirdath, and nothing less or more—at that time. And she
bid me then to come up through the hedge, and make use of a gap
that was her own especial secret, as she confessed, when she took
odd leave with her maid to some country frolic, drest as village
maids; but not to deceive many, as I dare believe.
And I came up through the gap in
the hedge and stood beside her; and tall she had seemed to me, when
I looked up at her; and tall she was, in truth; but indeed I was a
great head taller. And she invited me then to walk with her to the
house, that I meet her Guardian and give word to my sorrow that I
had so long neglected to make call upon them; and truly her eyes to
shine with mischief and delight, as she named me so for my
amissness.
But, indeed, she grew sober in a
moment, and she set up her finger to me to hush, as that she heard
somewhat in the wood that lay all the way upon our right. And,
indeed, something I heard too; for there was surely a rustling of
the leaves, and anon a dead twig crackt with a sound clear and
sharp in the stillness.
And immediately there came three
men running out of the wood at me; and I called to them sharply to
keep off or beware of harm; and I put the maid to my back with my
left hand, and had my oak staff ready for my use.
But the three men gave out no
word of reply; but ran in at me; and I saw somewhat of the gleam of
knives; and at that, I moved very glad and brisk to the attack; and
behind me there went shrill and sweet, the call of a silver
whistle; for the Maid was whistling for her dogs; and maybe the
call was also a signal to the men-servants of her house.
Yet, truly, there was no use in
help that was yet to come; for the need did be then and instant;
and I nowise loath to use my strength before my sweet cousin. And I
stepped forward, briskly, as I have told; and the end of my staff I
drove into the body of the left-ward man, so that he dropped like a
dead man. And I hit very sharply at the head of another, and surely
crackt it for him; for he made instantly upon the earth; but the
third man I met with my fist, and neither had he any great need of
a second blow; but went instant to join his companions, and the
fight thus to have ended before it was even proper begun, and I
laughing a little with a proper pride, to know the bewilderment
that I perceived in the way that the Lady Mirdath, my cousin, stood
and regarded me through the dusk of the hushed even.
But, indeed, there was no time
left to us, before there came bounding up, three great boar-hounds,
that had been loosed to her whistle; and she had some ado to keep
the brutes off me; and I then to beat them off the men upon the
earth, lest they maul them as they lay. And directly, there was a
noise of men shouting, and the light of lanthorns in the night, and
the footmen of the house to come running with lanthorns and
cudgels; and knew not whether to deal with me, or not, in the first
moment, even as the dogs; but when they saw the men upon the
ground, and learned my name and saw me proper, they kept well their
distance and had no lack of respect; but, indeed, my sweet cousin
to have the most of any; only that she showed no intent to keep
distance of me; but to have a new and deeper feeling of kinship
than she at first had shown.
And the men-servants asked what
should be done with the foot-pads; seeing that they were now
recovering. But, indeed, I left the matter, along with some silver,
to the servants; and very sound justice they dealt out to the men;
for I heard their cries a good while after we had gone away.
Now, when we were come up to the
Hall, my cousin must take me in to her Guardian, Sir Alfred Jarles,
an old man and venerable that I knew a little in passing and
because our estates abounded. And she praised me to my face, yet
quaintly-wise; and the old man, her Guardian thanked me most
honourably and with a nice courtesy; so that I was a welcome
house-friend from that time onward.
And I stayed all that evening,
and dined, and afterward went out again into the home-grounds with
the Lady Mirdath; and she more friendly to me than ever any woman
had been; and seemed to me as that she had known me always. And,
truly, I had the same feeling in my heart towards her; for it was,
somehow, as though we knew each the way and turn of the other, and
had a constant delight to find this thing and that thing to be in
common; but no surprise; save that so pleasant a truth had so
natural a discovery.
And one thing there was that I
perceived held the Lady Mirdath all that dear fore-night; and this
was, indeed, the way that I had my pleasure so easy with the three
foot-pads. And she asked me plainly whether I was not truly very
strong; and when I laughed with young and natural pride, she caught
my arm suddenly to discover for herself how strong I might be. And,
surely, she loosed it even the more sudden, and with a little
gasping of astonishment, because it was so great and hard. And
afterward, she walked by me very silent, and seeming thoughtful;
but she went never any great way off from me.
And, truly, if the Lady Mirdath
had a strange pleasure in my strength, I had likewise a constant
wonder and marvel in her beauty, that had shown but the more lovely
in the candle-light at dinner.
But there were further delights
to me in the days that came; for I had happiness in the way that
she had pleasure of the Mystery of the Evening, and the Glamour of
Night, and the Joy of Dawn, and all suchlike.
And one evening, that I ever
remember, as we wandered in the park-lands, she began to say—half
unthinking—that it was truly an elves-night. And she stopped
herself immediately; as though she thought I should have no
understanding; but, indeed, I was upon mine own familiar ground of
inward delight; and I replied in a quiet and usual voice, that the
Towers of Sleep would grow that night, and I felt in my bones that
it was a night to find the Giant's Tomb, or the Tree with the Great
Painted Head, or—And surely I stopped very sudden; for she gripped
me in that moment, and her hand shook as she held me; but when I
would ask her what ailed, she bid me, very breathless, to say on,
to say on. And, with a half understanding, I told her that I had
but meant to speak of the Moon Garden, that was an olden and happy
fancy of mine.
And, in verity, when I said that,
the Lady Mirdath cried out something in a strange low voice, and
brought me to a halt, that she might face me. And she questioned me
very earnest; and I answered just so earnest as she; for I was
grown suddenly to an excitement, in that I perceived she knew also.
And, in verity, she told me that she had knowledge; but had thought
that she was alone in the world with her knowledge of that strange
land of her dreams; and now to find that I also had travelled in
those dear, strange dream lands. And truly the marvel of it—the
marvel of it! As she to say time and oft. And again, as we walked,
she gave out word that there was little wonder she had been urged
to call to me that night, as she saw me pause upon the road;
though, indeed, she had learned of our cousin-ship before, having
seen me go by on my horse pretty oft, and inquired concerning me;
and mayhap daintily irked that I had so little heed of Lady Mirdath
the Beautiful. But, indeed, I had thought of other matters; yet had
been human enough, had I but met her proper before I see her.
Now you must not think that I was
not utter stirred by the wonder of this thing, that we had both a
dreamful knowledge of the same matters, of which each had thought
none other knew. Yet, when I questioned more, there was much that
had been in my fancies that was foreign to her, and likewise much
that had been familiar to her, that was of no meaning to me. But
though there was this, that brought a little regret to us, there
would be, time and again, some new thing that one told, that the
other knew and could finish the telling of, to the gladness and
amazement of both.
And so shall you picture us
wandering and having constant speech, so that, hour by hour, we
grew gladly aged in dear knowledge and sweet friendship of the
other.
And truly, how the time passed, I
know not; but there came presently a hullabaloo, and the shouts of
men's voices and the baying of dogs, and the gleam of lanthorns, so
that I knew not what to think; until, very sudden, and with a sweet
and strange little laughter, the Lady Mirdath to perceive that we
had missed the hours utter in our converse; so that her Guardian
(made uneasy because of the three foot-pads) had ordered a search.
And we all that time a-wander together in happy
forgetfulness.
And we turned homeward, then, and
came towards the lights; but indeed, the dogs found us before we
were come there; and they had grown to know me now, and leaped
about me, barking very friendly; and so in a minute the men had
discovered us, and were gone back to tell Sir Jarles that all was
well.
And this was the way of our
meeting and the growing of our acquaintance, and the beginning of
my great love for Mirdath the Beautiful.
Now, from that time onward,
evening by evening would I go a-wander along the quiet and country
road that led from my estate to the estate of Sir Jarles. And
always I went inward by the hedge-gap; and oft I should find the
Lady Mirdath walking in that part of the woods; but always with her
great boar-hounds about her; for I had begged that she do this
thing for her sweet safety; and she to seem wishful to pleasure me;
but truly to be just so oft utter perverse in diverse matters; and
to strive to plague me, as though she would discover how much I
would endure and how far she might go to anger me.
And, truly, well I remember how
that one night, coming to the hedge-gap, I saw two country-maids
come thence out from the woods of Sir Jarles'; but they were naught
to me, and I would have gone upward through the gap, as ever; only
that, as they passed me, they curtseyed somewhat over-graceful for
rough wenches. And I had a sudden thought, and came up to them to
see them more anigh; and truly I thought the taller was surely the
Lady Mirdath. But, indeed, I could not be sure; for when I asked
who she did be, she only to simper and to curtsey again; and so was
I very natural all in doubt; but yet sufficient in wonder (having
some knowledge of the Lady Mirdath) to follow the wenches, the
which I did.
And they then, very speedy and
sedate, as though I were some rack-rape that they did well to be
feared of alone at night; and so came at last to the village green,
where a great dance was a-foot, with torches, and a wandering
fiddler to set the tune; and ale in plenty.
And the two to join the dance,
and danced very hearty; but had only each the other for a partner,
and had a good care to avoid the torches. And by this, I was pretty
sure that they were truly the Lady Mirdath and her maid; and so I
took chance when they had danced somewhat my way, to step over to
them, and ask boldly for a dance. But, indeed, the tall one
answered, simpering, that she was promised; and immediately gave
her hand to a great hulking farmer-lout, and went round the green
with him; and well punished she was for her waywardness; for she
had all her skill to save her pretty feet from his loutish
stampings; and very glad she was to meet the end of the
dance.
And I knew now for certainty that
it was Mirdath the Beautiful, despite her plan of disguise, and the
darkness and the wench's dress and the foot-gear that marred her
step so great. And I walked across to her, and named her,
whispering, by name; and gave her plain word to be done of this
unwisdom, and I would take her home. But she to turn from me, and
she stamped her foot, and went again to the lout; and when she had
suffered another dance with him, she bid him be her escort a part
of the way; the which he was nothing loath of.
And another lad, that was mate to
him, went likewise; and in a moment, so soon as they were gone away
from the light of the torches, the rough hind-lads made to set
their arms about the waists of the two wenches, not wetting who
they had for companions. And the Lady Mirdath was no longer able to
endure, and cried out in her sudden fear and disgust, and struck
the rough hind that embraced her, so hard that he loosed her a
moment, swearing great oaths. And directly he came back to her
again, and had her in a moment, to kiss her; and she, loathing him
to the very death, beat him madly in the face with her hands; but
to no end, only that I was close upon them. And, in that moment,
she screamed my name aloud; and I caught the poor lout and hit him
once, but not to harm him overmuch; yet to give him a long memory
of me; and afterward I threw him into the side of the road. But the
second hind, having heard my name, loosed from the tiring-maid, and
ran for his life; and, indeed, my strength was known all about that
part.
And I caught Mirdath the
Beautiful by her shoulders, and shook her very soundly, in my
anger. And afterward, I sent the maid onward; and she, having no
word from her Mistress to stay, went forward a little; and in this
fashion we came at last to the hedge-gap, with the Lady Mirdath
very hushed; but yet walking anigh to me, as that she had some
secret pleasure of my nearness. And I led her through the gap, and
so homeward to the Hall; and there bid her good-night at a side
door that she held the key of. And, truly, she bid me good-night in
an utter quiet voice; and was almost as that she had no haste to be
gone from me that night.
Yet, when I met her on the
morrow, she was full of a constant impudence to me; so that, having
her alone to myself, when the dusk was come, I asked her why she
would never be done of her waywardness; because that I ached to
have companionship of her; and, instead, she denied my need. And,
at that, she was at once very gentle; and full of a sweet and
winsome understanding; and surely knew that I wished to be rested;
for she brought out her harp, and played me dear olden melodies of
our childhood-days all that evening; and so had my love for her the
more intent and glad. And she saw me that night to the hedge-gap,
having her three great boar-hounds with her, to company her home
again. But, indeed, I followed her afterwards, very silent, until I
saw her safe into the Hall; for I would not have her alone in the
night; though she believed that I was then far away on the country
road. And as she walked with her dogs, one or another would run
back to me, to nose against me friendly-wise; but I sent them off
again very quiet; and she had no knowledge of aught; for she to go
singing a love-song quietly all the way home. But whether she loved
me, I could not tell; though she had a nice affection for me.
Now, on the following evening, I
went somewhat early to the gap; and lo! who should be standing in
the gap, talking to the Lady Mirdath; but a very clever-drest man,
that had a look of the Court about him; and he, when I approached,
made no way for me through the gap; but stood firm, and eyed me
very insolent; so that I put out my hand, and lifted him from my
way.
And lo! the Lady Mirdath turned a
bitterness of speech upon me that gave me an utter pain and
astonishment; so that I was assured in a moment that she had no
true love for me, or she had never striven so to put me to shame
before the stranger, and named me uncouth and brutal to a smaller
man. And, indeed, you shall perceive how I was in my heart in that
moment.
And I saw that there was some
seeming of justice in what the Lady Mirdath said; but yet might the
man have shown a better spirit; and moreover Mirdath the Beautiful
had no true call to shame me, her true friend and cousin, before
this stranger. Yet did I not stop to argue; but bowed very low to
the Lady Mirdath; and afterward I bowed a little to the man and
made apology; for, indeed, he was neither great nor strong-made;
and I had been better man to have shown courtesy to him; at least
in the first.
And so, having done justice to my
own respect, I turned and went on, and left them to their
happiness.
Now, I walked then, maybe twenty
good miles, before I came to my own home; for there was no rest in
me all that night, or ever, because that I was grown deadly in love
of Mirdath the Beautiful; and all my spirit and heart and body of
me pained with the dreadful loss that I was come so sudden
upon.
And for a great week I had my
walks in another direction; but in the end of that week, I must
take my walk along the olden way, that I might chance to have but a
sight of My Lady. And, truly, I had all sight that ever man did
need to put him in dread pain and jealousy; for, truly, as I came
in view of the gap, there was the Lady Mirdath walking just without
the borders of the great wood; and beside her there walked the
clever-drest man of the Court, and she suffered his arm around her,
so that I knew they were lovers; for the Lady Mirdath had no
brothers nor any youthful men kin.
Yet, when Mirdath saw me upon the
road, she shamed in a moment to be so caught; for she put her
lover's arm from about her, and bowed to me, a little changed of
colour in the face; and I bowed very low—being but a young man
myself—; and so passed on, with my heart very dead in me. And as I
went, I saw that her lover came again to her, and had his arm once
more about her; and so, maybe, they looked after me, as I went very
stiff and desperate; but, indeed, I looked not back on them, as you
may think.
And for a great month then, I
went not near to the gap; for my love raged in me, and I was hurt
in my pride; and, truly, neither had a true justice been dealt to
me by the Lady Mirdath. Yet in that month, my love was a leaven in
me, and made slowly a sweetness and a tenderness and an
understanding that were not in me before; and truly Love and Pain
do shape the Character of Man.
And in the end of that time, I
saw a little way into Life, with an understanding heart, and began
presently to take my walks again past the gap; but truly Mirdath
the Beautiful was never to my sight; though one evening I thought
she might be not a great way off; for one of her great boar-hounds
came out of the wood, and down into the road to nose against me,
very friendly, as a dog oft doth with me.
Yet, though I waited a good time
after the dog had left me, I had no sight of Mirdath, and so passed
on again, with my heart heavy in me; but without bitterness,
because of the understanding that was begun to grow in my
heart.
Now, there passed two weary and
lonely weeks, in which I grew sick to have knowledge of the
beautiful maid. And, truly, in the end of that time, I made a
sudden resolving that I would go in through the gap, and come to
the home-grounds about the Hall, and so maybe have some sight of
her.
And this resolving I had one
evening; and I went out immediately, and came to the gap, and went
in through the gap, and so by a long walking to the gardens about
the Hall. And, truly, when I was come there, I saw a good light of
lanthorns and torches, and a great company of people dancing; and
all drest in quaint dress; so that I knew they had a festival for
some cause. And there came suddenly a horrid dread into my heart
that this might be the marriage-dance of the Lady Mirdath; but,
indeed, this was foolishness; for I had surely heard of the
marriage, if there had been any. And, truly, in a moment, I
remembered that she was come one-and-twenty years of age on that
day, and to the end of her ward-ship; and this surely to be
festival in honour of the same.
And a very bright and pretty
matter it was to watch, save that I was so heavy in the heart with
loneliness and longing; for the company was great and gay, and the
lights plentiful and set all about from the trees; and in leaf-made
arbours about the great lawn. And a great table spread with eating
matters and silver and crystal, and great lamps of bronze and
silver went all a-down one end of the lawn; and the dance constant
upon the other part.
And surely, the Lady Mirdath to
step out of the dance, very lovely drest; yet seeming, to mine
eyes, a little pale in the looming of the lights. And she to wander
to a seat to rest; and, indeed, in a moment, there to be a dozen
youths of the great families of the country-side, in attendance
about her, making talk and laughter, and each eager for her favour;
and she very lovely in the midst of them, but yet, as I did think,
lacking of somewhat, and a little pale-seeming, as I have told; and
her glance to go odd-wise beyond the groupt men about her; so that
I understood in a moment that her lover was not there, and she to
be a-lack in the heart for him. Yet, why he was not there, I could
not suppose, save that he might have been called back to the
Court.
And, surely, as I watched the
other young men about her, I burned with a fierce and miserable
jealousy of them; so that I could near have stept forth and plucked
her out from among them, and had her to walk with me in the woods,
as in the olden days, when she also had seemed near to love. But,
truly, what use to this? For it was not they who held her heart, as
I saw plain; for I watched her, with an eager and lonesome heart,
and knew that it was one small man of the Court that was lover to
her, as I have told.
And I went away again then, and
came not near to the gap for three great months, because that I
could not bear the pain of my loss; but in the end of that time, my
very pain to urge me to go, and to be worse than the pain of not
going; so that I found myself one evening in the gap, peering, very
eager and shaken, across the sward that lay between the gap and the
woods; for this same place to be as an holy ground to me; for there
was it that first I saw Mirdath the Beautiful, and surely lost my
heart to her in that one night.
And a great time I stayed there
in the gap, waiting and watching hopelessly. And lo! sudden there
came something against me, touching my thigh very soft; and when I
looked down, it was one of the boar-hounds, so that my heart
leaped, near frightened; for truly My Lady was come somewhere nigh,
as I did think.
And, as I waited, very hushed and
watchful; yet with an utter beating heart; surely I heard a faint
and low singing among the trees, so utter sad. And lo! it was
Mirdath singing a broken love song, and a-wander there in the dark
alone, save for her great dogs.
And I harked, with strange pain
in me, that she did be so in pain; and I ached to bring her ease;
yet moved not, but was very still there in the gap; save that my
being was all in turmoil.
And presently, as I harked, there
came a slim white figure out from among the trees; and the figure
cried out something, and came to a quick pause, as I could see in
the half-dark. And lo! in that moment, there came a sudden and
unreasoned hope into me; and I came up out of the gap, and was come
to Mirdath in a moment, calling very low and passionate and eager:
"Mirdath! Mirdath! Mirdath!"
And this way I came to her; and
her great dog that was with me, to bound beside me, in thought,
mayhap, that it was some game. And when I came to the Lady Mirdath,
I held out my hands to her, not knowing what I did; but only the
telling of my heart that needed her so utter, and craved to ease
her of her pain. And lo! she put out her arms to me, and came into
mine arms with a little run. And there she bode, weeping strangely;
but yet with rest upon her; even as rest was come sudden and
wondrous upon me.
And sudden, she moved in mine
arms, and slipt her hands to me, very dear, and held her lips up to
me, like some sweet child, that I kiss her; but, indeed, she was
also a true woman, and in honest and dear love of me.
And this to be the way of our
betrothal; and simple and wordless it was; yet sufficient, only
that there is no sufficiency in Love.
Now, presently, she loosed
herself out of mine arms, and we walked homeward through the woods,
very quiet, and holding hands, as children do. And I then in a
while to ask her about the man of the Court; and she laughed very
sweet into the silence of the wood; but gave me no answer, save
that I wait until we were come to the Hall.
And when we were come there, she
took me into the great hall, and made a very dainty and impudent
bow, mocking me. And so made me known to another lady, who sat
there, upon her task of embroidering, which she did very demure,
and as that she had also a dainty Mischief lurking in her.
And truly, the Lady Mirdath never
to be done of naughty laughter, that made her dearly breathless
with delight, and to sway a little, and set the trembling of pretty
sounds in her throat; and surely she must pull down two great
pistols from an arm-rack, that I fight a duel to the death with the
lady of the embroidering, who held her face down over her work, and
shook likewise with the wickedness of her laughter that she could
not hide.
And in the end, the Lady of the
Embroidering looked up sudden into my face; and I then to see
somewhat of the mischief in a moment; for she had the face of the
man of the Court suit, that had been lover to Mirdath.
And the Lady Mirdath then to
explain to me how that Mistress Alison (which was her name) was a
dear and bosom friend, and she it was that had been drest in the
Court suit to play a prank for a wager with a certain young man who
would be lover to her, an he might. And I then to come along, and
so speedy to offence that truly I never saw her face plain, because
that I was so utter jealous. And so the Lady Mirdath had been more
justly in anger than I supposed, because that I had put hands upon
her friend, as I have told.
And this to be all of it, save
that they had planned to punish me, and had met every evening at
the gap, to play at lovers, perchance I should pass, so that I
should have greater cause for my jealousy, and truly they to have a
good revenge upon me; for I had suffered very great a long while
because of it.
Yet, as you do mind, when I came
upon them, the Lady Mirdath had a half-regret, that was very
natural, because even then she was in love of me, as I of her; and
because of this, she drew away, as you shall remember, being—as she
confessed—suddenly and strangely troubled and to want me; but
afterwards as much set again to my punishment, because that I bowed
so cold and went away. And indeed well I might.
Yet, truly, all was safe ended
now, and I utter thankful and with a mad delight in the heart; so
that I caught up Mirdath, and we danced very slow and stately
around the great hall, the while that Mistress Alison whistled us a
tune with her mouth, which she could very clever, as many another
thing, I wot.
And each day and all day after
this Gladness, Mirdath and I could never be apart; but must go
a-wander always together, here and there, in an unending joy of our
togetherness.
And in a thousand things were we
at one in delight; for we had both of us that nature which doth
love the blue of eternity which gathers beyond the wings of the
sunset; and the invisible sound of the starlight falling upon the
world; and the quiet of grey evenings when the Towers of Sleep are
builded unto the mystery of the Dusk; and the solemn green of
strange pastures in the moonlight; and the speech of the sycamore
unto the beech; and the slow way of the sea when it doth mood; and
the soft rustling of the night clouds. And likewise had we eyes to
see the Dancer of the Sunset, casting her mighty robes so strange;
and ears to know that there shakes a silent thunder over the Face
of Dawn; and much else that we knew and saw and understood together
in our utter joy.
Now, there happened to us about
this time a certain adventure that came near to cause the death of
Mirdath the Beautiful; for one day as we wandered, as ever, like
two children in our contentment, I made remark to Mirdath that
there went only two of the great boar-hounds with us; and she then
told me that the third was to the kennels, being sick.
Yet, scarce had she told me so
much; ere she cried out something and pointed; and lo! I saw that
the third hound came towards us, at a run, yet very strange-seeming
in his going. And in a moment, Mirdath cried out that the hound was
mad; and truly, I saw then that the brute slavered as he came
running.
And in a moment he was upon us,
and made never a sound; but leaped at me in one instant of time;
all before I had any thought of such intent. But surely, My
Beautiful One had a dreadful love for me, for she cast herself at
the dog, to save me, calling to the other hounds. And she was
bitten in a moment by the brute, as she strove to hold him off from
me. But I to have him instant by the neck and the body, and brake
him, so that he died at once; and I cast him to the earth, and gave
help to Mirdath, that I draw the poison from the wounds.
And this I did so well as I
might, despite that she would have me stop. And afterwards, I took
her into mine arms, and ran very fierce all the long and weary way
to the Hall, and with hot skewers I burned the wounds; so that when
the doctor came, he to say I have saved her by my care, if indeed
she to be saved. But, truly, she had saved me in any wise, as you
shall think; so that I could never be done of honour to her.
And she very pale; but yet to
laugh at my fears, and to say that she soon to have her health, and
the wounds healed very speedy; but, indeed, it was a long and
bitter time before they were proper healed, and she so well as
ever. Yet, in time, so it was; and an utter weight off my
heart.
And when Mirdath was grown full
strong again, we set our wedding day. And well do I mind how she
stood there in her bridal dress, on that day, so slender and lovely
as may Love have stood in the Dawn of Life; and the beauty of her
eyes that had such sober sweetness in them, despite the dear
mischief of her nature; and the way of her little feet, and the
loveliness of her hair; and the dainty rogue-grace of her
movements; and her mouth an enticement, as that a child and a woman
smiled out of the one face. And this to be no more than but an hint
of the loveliness of My Beautiful One.
And so we were married.
Mirdath, My Beautiful One, lay
dying, and I had no power to hold Death backward from such dread
intent. In another room, I heard the little wail of the child; and
the wail of the child waked my wife back into this life, so that
her hands fluttered white and desperately needful upon the
coverlid.
I kneeled beside My Beautiful
One, and reached out and took her hands very gentle into mine; but
still they fluttered so needful; and she looked at me, dumbly; but
her eyes beseeching.
Then I went out of the room, and
called gently to the Nurse; and the
Nurse brought in the child,
wrapped very softly in a long, white robe.
And I saw the eyes of My
Beautiful One grow clearer with a strange,
lovely light; and I beckoned to
the Nurse to bring the babe near.
My wife moved her hands very
weakly upon the coverlid, and I knew that she craved to touch her
child; and I signed to the Nurse, and took my child in mine arms;
and the Nurse went out from the room, and so we three were alone
together.
Then I sat very gentle upon the
bed; and I held the babe near to My Beautiful One, so that the wee
cheek of the babe touched the white cheek of my dying wife; but the
weight of the child I kept off from her.
And presently, I knew that
Mirdath, My Wife, strove dumbly to reach for the hands of the babe;
and I turned the child more towards her, and slipped the hands of
the child into the weak hands of My Beautiful One. And I held the
babe above my wife, with an utter care; so that the eyes of my
dying One, looked into the young eyes of the child. And presently,
in but a few moments of time; though it had been someways an
eternity, My Beautiful One closed her eyes and lay very quiet. And
I took away the child to the Nurse, who stood beyond the door. And
I closed the door, and came back to Mine Own, that we have those
last instants alone together.
And the hands of my wife lay very
still and white; but presently they began to move softly and
weakly, searching for somewhat; and I put out my great hands to
her, and took her hands with an utter care; and so a little time
passed.
Then her eyes opened, quiet and
grey, and a little dazed seeming; and she rolled her head on the
pillow and saw me; and the pain of forgetfulness went out of her
eyes, and she looked at me with a look that grew in strength, unto
a sweetness of tenderness and full understanding.
And I bent a little to her; and
her eyes told me to take her into mine arms for those last minutes.
Then I went very gentle upon the bed, and lifted her with an utter
and tender care, so that she lay suddenly strangely restful against
my breast; for Love gave me skill to hold her, and Love gave My
Beautiful One a sweetness of ease in that little time that was left
to us.
And so we twain were together;
and Love seemed that it had made a truce with Death in the air
about us, that we be undisturbed; for there came a drowse of rest
even upon my tense heart, that had known nothing but a dreadful
pain through the weary hours.
And I whispered my love silently
to My Beautiful One, and her eyes answered; and the strangely
beautiful and terrible moments passed by into the hush of
eternity.
And suddenly, Mirdath My
Beautiful One, spoke,—whispering something. And I stooped gently to
hark; and Mine Own spoke again; and lo! it was to call me by the
olden Love Name that had been mine through all the utter lovely
months of our togetherness.
And I began again to tell her of
my love, that should pass beyond death; and lo! in that one moment
of time, the light went out of her eyes; and My Beautiful One lay
dead in mine arms … My Beautiful One….