O water, voice of my
heart, crying in the sand,
All night long crying with a
mournful cry,
As I lie and listen, and cannot
understand
The voice of my heart in my side
or the voice of the sea,
O water, crying for rest, is it
I, is it I?
All night long the water is
crying to me.
Unresting water, there shall
never be rest
Till the last moon droop and the
last tide fail,
And the fire of the end begin to
burn in the west;
And the heart shall be weary and
wonder and cry like the sea,
All life long crying without
avail,
As the water all night long is
crying to me.
ARTHUR SYMONS.
Between me and the other world
there is ever an unasked question: unasked by some through feelings
of delicacy; by others through the difficulty of rightly framing
it. All, nevertheless, flutter round it. They approach me in a
half-hesitant sort of way, eye me curiously or compassionately, and
then, instead of saying directly, How does it feel to be a problem?
they say, I know an excellent colored man in my town; or, I fought
at Mechanicsville; or, Do not these Southern outrages make your
blood boil? At these I smile, or am interested, or reduce the
boiling to a simmer, as the occasion may require. To the real
question, How does it feel to be a problem? I answer seldom a
word.
And yet, being a problem is a
strange experience,—peculiar even for one who has never been
anything else, save perhaps in babyhood and in Europe. It is in the
early days of rollicking boyhood that the revelation first bursts
upon one, all in a day, as it were. I remember well when the shadow
swept across me. I was a little thing, away up in the hills of New
England, where the dark Housatonic winds between Hoosac and
Taghkanic to the sea. In a wee wooden schoolhouse, something put it
into the boys' and girls' heads to buy gorgeous visiting-cards—ten
cents a package—and exchange. The exchange was merry, till one
girl, a tall newcomer, refused my card,—refused it peremptorily,
with a glance. Then it dawned upon me with a certain suddenness
that I was different from the others; or like, mayhap, in heart and
life and longing, but shut out from their world by a vast veil. I
had thereafter no desire to tear down that veil, to creep through;
I held all beyond it in common contempt, and lived above it in a
region of blue sky and great wandering shadows. That sky was bluest
when I could beat my mates at examination-time, or beat them at a
foot-race, or even beat their stringy heads. Alas, with the years
all this fine contempt began to fade; for the words I longed for,
and all their dazzling opportunities, were theirs, not mine. But
they should not keep these prizes, I said; some, all, I would wrest
from them. Just how I would do it I could never decide: by reading
law, by healing the sick, by telling the wonderful tales that swam
in my head,—some way. With other black boys the strife was not so
fiercely sunny: their youth shrunk into tasteless sycophancy, or
into silent hatred of the pale world about them and mocking
distrust of everything white; or wasted itself in a bitter cry, Why
did God make me an outcast and a stranger in mine own house? The
shades of the prison-house closed round about us all: walls strait
and stubborn to the whitest, but relentlessly narrow, tall, and
unscalable to sons of night who must plod darkly on in resignation,
or beat unavailing palms against the stone, or steadily, half
hopelessly, watch the streak of blue above.
After the Egyptian and Indian,
the Greek and Roman, the Teuton and Mongolian, the Negro is a sort
of seventh son, born with a veil, and gifted with second-sight in
this American world,—a world which yields him no true
self-consciousness, but only lets him see himself through the
revelation of the other world. It is a peculiar sensation, this
double-consciousness, this sense of always looking at one's self
through the eyes of others, of measuring one's soul by the tape of
a world that looks on in amused contempt and pity. One ever feels
his twoness,—an American, a Negro; two souls, two thoughts, two
unreconciled strivings; two warring ideals in one dark body, whose
dogged strength alone keeps it from being torn asunder.
The history of the American Negro
is the history of this strife,—this longing to attain
self-conscious manhood, to merge his double self into a better and
truer self. In this merging he wishes neither of the older selves
to be lost. He would not Africanize America, for America has too
much to teach the world and Africa. He would not bleach his Negro
soul in a flood of white Americanism, for he knows that Negro blood
has a message for the world. He simply wishes to make it possible
for a man to be both a Negro and an American, without being cursed
and spit upon by his fellows, without having the doors of
Opportunity closed roughly in his face.
This, then, is the end of his
striving: to be a co-worker in the kingdom of culture, to escape
both death and isolation, to husband and use his best powers and
his latent genius. These powers of body and mind have in the past
been strangely wasted, dispersed, or forgotten. The shadow of a
mighty Negro past flits through the tale of Ethiopia the Shadowy
and of Egypt the Sphinx. Through history, the powers of single
black men flash here and there like falling stars, and die
sometimes before the world has rightly gauged their brightness.
Here in America, in the few days since Emancipation, the black
man's turning hither and thither in hesitant and doubtful striving
has often made his very strength to lose effectiveness, to seem
like absence of power, like weakness. And yet it is not
weakness,—it is the contradiction of double aims. The double-aimed
struggle of the black artisan—on the one hand to escape white
contempt for a nation of mere hewers of wood and drawers of water,
and on the other hand to plough and nail and dig for a
poverty-stricken horde—could only result in making him a poor
craftsman, for he had but half a heart in either cause. By the
poverty and ignorance of his people, the Negro minister or doctor
was tempted toward quackery and demagogy; and by the criticism of
the other world, toward ideals that made him ashamed of his lowly
tasks. The would-be black savant was confronted by the paradox that
the knowledge his people needed was a twice-told tale to his white
neighbors, while the knowledge which would teach the white world
was Greek to his own flesh and blood. The innate love of harmony
and beauty that set the ruder souls of his people a-dancing and
a-singing raised but confusion and doubt in the soul of the black
artist; for the beauty revealed to him was the soul-beauty of a
race which his larger audience despised, and he could not
articulate the message of another people. This waste of double
aims, this seeking to satisfy two unreconciled ideals, has wrought
sad havoc with the courage and faith and deeds of ten thousand
thousand people,—has sent them often wooing false gods and invoking
false means of salvation, and at times has even seemed about to
make them ashamed of themselves.
Away back in the days of bondage
they thought to see in one divine event the end of all doubt and
disappointment; few men ever worshipped Freedom with half such
unquestioning faith as did the American Negro for two centuries. To
him, so far as he thought and dreamed, slavery was indeed the sum
of all villainies, the cause of all sorrow, the root of all
prejudice; Emancipation was the key to a promised land of sweeter
beauty than ever stretched before the eyes of wearied Israelites.
In song and exhortation swelled one refrain—Liberty; in his tears
and curses the God he implored had Freedom in his right hand. At
last it came,—suddenly, fearfully, like a dream. With one wild
carnival of blood and passion came the message in his own plaintive
cadences:—
"Shout, O children!
Shout, you're free!
For God has bought your
liberty!"
Years have passed away since
then,—ten, twenty, forty; forty years of national life, forty years
of renewal and development, and yet the swarthy spectre sits in its
accustomed seat at the Nation's feast. In vain do we cry to this
our vastest social problem:—
"Take any shape but that, and my
firm nerves
Shall never tremble!"
The Nation has not yet found
peace from its sins; the freedman has not yet found in freedom his
promised land. Whatever of good may have come in these years of
change, the shadow of a deep disappointment rests upon the Negro
people,—a disappointment all the more bitter because the unattained
ideal was unbounded save by the simple ignorance of a lowly
people.
The first decade was merely a
prolongation of the vain search for freedom, the boon that seemed
ever barely to elude their grasp,—like a tantalizing
will-o'-the-wisp, maddening and misleading the headless host. The
holocaust of war, the terrors of the Ku-Klux Klan, the lies of
carpet-baggers, the disorganization of industry, and the
contradictory advice of friends and foes, left the bewildered serf
with no new watchword beyond the old cry for freedom. As the time
flew, however, he began to grasp a new idea. The ideal of liberty
demanded for its attainment powerful means, and these the Fifteenth
Amendment gave him. The ballot, which before he had looked upon as
a visible sign of freedom, he now regarded as the chief means of
gaining and perfecting the liberty with which war had partially
endowed him. And why not? Had not votes made war and emancipated
millions? Had not votes enfranchised the freedmen? Was anything
impossible to a power that had done all this? A million black men
started with renewed zeal to vote themselves into the kingdom. So
the decade flew away, the revolution of 1876 came, and left the
half-free serf weary, wondering, but still inspired. Slowly but
steadily, in the following years, a new vision began gradually to
replace the dream of political power,—a powerful movement, the rise
of another ideal to guide the unguided, another pillar of fire by
night after a clouded day. It was the ideal of "book-learning"; the
curiosity, born of compulsory ignorance, to know and test the power
of the cabalistic letters of the white man, the longing to know.
Here at last seemed to have been discovered the mountain path to
Canaan; longer than the highway of Emancipation and law, steep and
rugged, but straight, leading to heights high enough to overlook
life.
Up the new path the advance guard
toiled, slowly, heavily, doggedly; only those who have watched and
guided the faltering feet, the misty minds, the dull
understandings, of the dark pupils of these schools know how
faithfully, how piteously, this people strove to learn. It was
weary work. The cold statistician wrote down the inches of progress
here and there, noted also where here and there a foot had slipped
or some one had fallen. To the tired climbers, the horizon was ever
dark, the mists were often cold, the Canaan was always dim and far
away. If, however, the vistas disclosed as yet no goal, no
resting-place, little but flattery and criticism, the journey at
least gave leisure for reflection and self-examination; it changed
the child of Emancipation to the youth with dawning
self-consciousness, self-realization, self-respect. In those sombre
forests of his striving his own soul rose before him, and he saw
himself,—darkly as through a veil; and yet he saw in himself some
faint revelation of his power, of his mission. He began to have a
dim feeling that, to attain his place in the world, he must be
himself, and not another. For the first time he sought to analyze
the burden he bore upon his back, that dead-weight of social
degradation partially masked behind a half-named Negro problem. He
felt his poverty; without a cent, without a home, without land,
tools, or savings, he had entered into competition with rich,
landed, skilled neighbors. To be a poor man is hard, but to be a
poor race in a land of dollars is the very bottom of hardships. He
felt the weight of his ignorance,—not simply of letters, but of
life, of business, of the humanities; the accumulated sloth and
shirking and awkwardness of decades and centuries shackled his
hands and feet. Nor was his burden all poverty and ignorance. The
red stain of bastardy, which two centuries of systematic legal
defilement of Negro women had stamped upon his race, meant not only
the loss of ancient African chastity, but also the hereditary
weight of a mass of corruption from white adulterers, threatening
almost the obliteration of the Negro home.
A people thus handicapped ought
not to be asked to race with the world, but rather allowed to give
all its time and thought to its own social problems. But alas!
while sociologists gleefully count his bastards and his
prostitutes, the very soul of the toiling, sweating black man is
darkened by the shadow of a vast despair. Men call the shadow
prejudice, and learnedly explain it as the natural defence of
culture against barbarism, learning against ignorance, purity
against crime, the "higher" against the "lower" races. To which the
Negro cries Amen! and swears that to so much of this strange
prejudice as is founded on just homage to civilization, culture,
righteousness, and progress, he humbly bows and meekly does
obeisance. But before that nameless prejudice that leaps beyond all
this he stands helpless, dismayed, and well-nigh speechless; before
that personal disrespect and mockery, the ridicule and systematic
humiliation, the distortion of fact and wanton license of fancy,
the cynical ignoring of the better and the boisterous welcoming of
the worse, the all-pervading desire to inculcate disdain for
everything black, from Toussaint to the devil,—before this there
rises a sickening despair that would disarm and discourage any
nation save that black host to whom "discouragement" is an
unwritten word.
But the facing of so vast a
prejudice could not but bring the inevitable self-questioning,
self-disparagement, and lowering of ideals which ever accompany
repression and breed in an atmosphere of contempt and hate.
Whisperings and portents came home upon the four winds: Lo! we are
diseased and dying, cried the dark hosts; we cannot write, our
voting is vain; what need of education, since we must always cook
and serve? And the Nation echoed and enforced this self-criticism,
saying: Be content to be servants, and nothing more; what need of
higher culture for half-men? Away with the black man's ballot, by
force or fraud,—and behold the suicide of a race! Nevertheless, out
of the evil came something of good,—the more careful adjustment of
education to real life, the clearer perception of the Negroes'
social responsibilities, and the sobering realization of the
meaning of progress.
So dawned the time of Sturm und
Drang: storm and stress to-day rocks our little boat on the mad
waters of the world-sea; there is within and without the sound of
conflict, the burning of body and rending of soul; inspiration
strives with doubt, and faith with vain questionings. The bright
ideals of the past,—physical freedom, political power, the training
of brains and the training of hands,—all these in turn have waxed
and waned, until even the last grows dim and overcast. Are they all
wrong,—all false? No, not that, but each alone was over-simple and
incomplete,—the dreams of a credulous race-childhood, or the fond
imaginings of the other world which does not know and does not want
to know our power. To be really true, all these ideals must be
melted and welded into one. The training of the schools we need
to-day more than ever,—the training of deft hands, quick eyes and
ears, and above all the broader, deeper, higher culture of gifted
minds and pure hearts. The power of the ballot we need in sheer
self-defence,—else what shall save us from a second slavery?
Freedom, too, the long-sought, we still seek,—the freedom of life
and limb, the freedom to work and think, the freedom to love and
aspire. Work, culture, liberty,—all these we need, not singly but
together, not successively but together, each growing and aiding
each, and all striving toward that vaster ideal that swims before
the Negro people, the ideal of human brotherhood, gained through
the unifying ideal of Race; the ideal of fostering and developing
the traits and talents of the Negro, not in opposition to or
contempt for other races, but rather in large conformity to the
greater ideals of the American Republic, in order that some day on
American soil two world-races may give each to each those
characteristics both so sadly lack. We the darker ones come even
now not altogether empty-handed: there are to-day no truer
exponents of the pure human spirit of the Declaration of
Independence than the American Negroes; there is no true American
music but the wild sweet melodies of the Negro slave; the American
fairy tales and folklore are Indian and African; and, all in all,
we black men seem the sole oasis of simple faith and reverence in a
dusty desert of dollars and smartness. Will America be poorer if
she replace her brutal dyspeptic blundering with light-hearted but
determined Negro humility? or her coarse and cruel wit with loving
jovial good-humor? or her vulgar music with the soul of the Sorrow
Songs?
Merely a concrete test of the
underlying principles of the great republic is the Negro Problem,
and the spiritual striving of the freedmen's sons is the travail of
souls whose burden is almost beyond the measure of their strength,
but who bear it in the name of an historic race, in the name of
this the land of their fathers' fathers, and in the name of human
opportunity.
And now what I have briefly
sketched in large outline let me on coming pages tell again in many
ways, with loving emphasis and deeper detail, that men may listen
to the striving in the souls of black folk.