The story had held us,
round the fire, sufficiently breathless, but except the obvious
remark that it was gruesome, as, on Christmas Eve in an old house,
a strange tale should essentially be, I remember no comment uttered
till somebody happened to say that it was the only case he had met
in which such a visitation had fallen on a child. The case, I may
mention, was that of an apparition in just such an old house as had
gathered us for the occasion—an appearance, of a dreadful kind, to
a little boy sleeping in the room with his mother and waking her up
in the terror of it; waking her not to dissipate his dread and
soothe him to sleep again, but to encounter also, herself, before
she had succeeded in doing so, the same sight that had shaken him.
It was this observation that drew from Douglas—not immediately, but
later in the evening—a reply that had the interesting consequence
to which I call attention. Someone else told a story not
particularly effective, which I saw he was not following. This I
took for a sign that he had himself something to produce and that
we should only have to wait. We waited in fact till two nights
later; but that same evening, before we scattered, he brought out
what was in his mind.
“I quite agree—in regard to
Griffin’s ghost, or whatever it was—that its appearing first to the
little boy, at so tender an age, adds a particular touch. But it’s
not the first occurrence of its charming kind that I know to have
involved a child. If the child gives the effect another turn of the
screw, what do you say to two children—?”
“We say, of course,” somebody
exclaimed, “that they give two turns! Also that we want to hear
about them.”
I can see Douglas there before
the fire, to which he had got up to present his back, looking down
at his interlocutor with his hands in his pockets. “Nobody but me,
till now, has ever heard. It’s quite too horrible.” This,
naturally, was declared by several voices to give the thing the
utmost price, and our friend, with quiet art, prepared his triumph
by turning his eyes over the rest of us and going on: “It’s beyond
everything. Nothing at all that I know touches it.”
“For sheer terror?” I remember
asking.
He seemed to say it was not so
simple as that; to be really at a loss how to qualify it. He passed
his hand over his eyes, made a little wincing grimace. “For
dreadful—dreadfulness!”
“Oh, how delicious!” cried one of
the women.
He took no notice of her; he
looked at me, but as if, instead of me, he saw what he spoke of.
“For general uncanny ugliness and horror and pain.”
“Well then,” I said, “just sit
right down and begin.”
He turned round to the fire, gave
a kick to a log, watched it an instant. Then as he faced us again:
“I can’t begin. I shall have to send to town.” There was a
unanimous groan at this, and much reproach; after which, in his
preoccupied way, he explained. “The story’s written. It’s in a
locked drawer—it has not been out for years. I could write to my
man and enclose the key; he could send down the packet as he finds
it.” It was to me in particular that he appeared to propound
this—appeared almost to appeal for aid not to hesitate. He had
broken a thickness of ice, the formation of many a winter; had had
his reasons for a long silence. The others resented postponement,
but it was just his scruples that charmed me. I adjured him to
write by the first post and to agree with us for an early hearing;
then I asked him if the experience in question had been his own. To
this his answer was prompt. “Oh, thank God, no!”
“And is the record yours? You
took the thing down?”
“Nothing but the impression. I
took that here”—he tapped his heart. “I’ve never lost it.”
“Then your manuscript—?”
“Is in old, faded ink, and in the
most beautiful hand.” He hung fire again. “A woman’s. She has been
dead these twenty years. She sent me the pages in question before
she died.” They were all listening now, and of course there was
somebody to be arch, or at any rate to draw the inference. But if
he put the inference by without a smile it was also without
irritation. “She was a most charming person, but she was ten years
older than I. She was my sister’s governess,” he quietly said. “She
was the most agreeable woman I’ve ever known in her position; she
would have been worthy of any whatever. It was long ago, and this
episode was long before. I was at Trinity, and I found her at home
on my coming down the second summer. I was much there that year—it
was a beautiful one; and we had, in her off-hours, some strolls and
talks in the garden—talks in which she struck me as awfully clever
and nice. Oh yes; don’t grin: I liked her extremely and am glad to
this day to think she liked me, too. If she hadn’t she wouldn’t
have told me. She had never told anyone. It wasn’t simply that she
said so, but that I knew she hadn’t. I was sure; I could see.
You’ll easily judge why when you hear.”
“Because the thing had been such
a scare?”
He continued to fix me. “You’ll
easily judge,” he repeated: “you will.”
I fixed him, too. “I see. She was
in love.”
He laughed for the first time.
“You are acute. Yes, she was in love. That is, she had been. That
came out—she couldn’t tell her story without its coming out. I saw
it, and she saw I saw it; but neither of us spoke of it. I remember
the time and the place—the corner of the lawn, the shade of the
great beeches and the long, hot summer afternoon. It wasn’t a scene
for a shudder; but oh—!” He quitted the fire and dropped back into
his chair.
“You’ll receive the packet
Thursday morning?” I inquired.
“Probably not till the second
post.”
“Well then; after dinner—”
“You’ll all meet me here?” He
looked us round again. “Isn’t anybody going?” It was almost the
tone of hope.
“Everybody will stay!”
“I will”—and “I will!” cried the
ladies whose departure had been fixed. Mrs. Griffin, however,
expressed the need for a little more light. “Who was it she was in
love with?”
“The story will tell,” I took
upon myself to reply.
“Oh, I can’t wait for the
story!”
“The story won’t tell,” said
Douglas; “not in any literal, vulgar way.”
“More’s the pity, then. That’s
the only way I ever understand.”
“Won’t you tell, Douglas?”
somebody else inquired.
He sprang to his feet again.
“Yes—tomorrow. Now I must go to bed. Good night.” And quickly
catching up a candlestick, he left us slightly bewildered. From our
end of the great brown hall we heard his step on the stair;
whereupon Mrs. Griffin spoke. “Well, if I don’t know who she was in
love with, I know who he was.”
“She was ten years older,” said
her husband.
“Raison de plus—at that age! But
it’s rather nice, his long reticence.”
“Forty years!” Griffin put
in.
“With this outbreak at
last.”
“The outbreak,” I returned, “will
make a tremendous occasion of Thursday night;” and everyone so
agreed with me that, in the light of it, we lost all attention for
everything else. The last story, however incomplete and like the
mere opening of a serial, had been told; we handshook and
“candlestuck,” as somebody said, and went to bed.
I knew the next day that a letter
containing the key had, by the first post, gone off to his London
apartments; but in spite of—or perhaps just on account of—the
eventual diffusion of this knowledge we quite let him alone till
after dinner, till such an hour of the evening, in fact, as might
best accord with the kind of emotion on which our hopes were fixed.
Then he became as communicative as we could desire and indeed gave
us his best reason for being so. We had it from him again before
the fire in the hall, as we had had our mild wonders of the
previous night. It appeared that the narrative he had promised to
read us really required for a proper intelligence a few words of
prologue. Let me say here distinctly, to have done with it, that
this narrative, from an exact transcript of my own made much later,
is what I shall presently give. Poor Douglas, before his death—when
it was in sight—committed to me the manuscript that reached him on
the third of these days and that, on the same spot, with immense
effect, he began to read to our hushed little circle on the night
of the fourth. The departing ladies who had said they would stay
didn’t, of course, thank heaven, stay: they departed, in
consequence of arrangements made, in a rage of curiosity, as they
professed, produced by the touches with which he had already worked
us up. But that only made his little final auditory more compact
and select, kept it, round the hearth, subject to a common
thrill.
The first of these touches
conveyed that the written statement took up the tale at a point
after it had, in a manner, begun. The fact to be in possession of
was therefore that his old friend, the youngest of several
daughters of a poor country parson, had, at the age of twenty, on
taking service for the first time in the schoolroom, come up to
London, in trepidation, to answer in person an advertisement that
had already placed her in brief correspondence with the advertiser.
This person proved, on her presenting herself, for judgment, at a
house in Harley Street, that impressed her as vast and
imposing—this prospective patron proved a gentleman, a bachelor in
the prime of life, such a figure as had never risen, save in a
dream or an old novel, before a fluttered, anxious girl out of a
Hampshire vicarage. One could easily fix his type; it never,
happily, dies out. He was handsome and bold and pleasant, off-hand
and gay and kind. He struck her, inevitably, as gallant and
splendid, but what took her most of all and gave her the courage
she afterward showed was that he put the whole thing to her as a
kind of favor, an obligation he should gratefully incur. She
conceived him as rich, but as fearfully extravagant—saw him all in
a glow of high fashion, of good looks, of expensive habits, of
charming ways with women. He had for his own town residence a big
house filled with the spoils of travel and the trophies of the
chase; but it was to his country home, an old family place in
Essex, that he wished her immediately to proceed.
He had been left, by the death of
their parents in India, guardian to a small nephew and a small
niece, children of a younger, a military brother, whom he had lost
two years before. These children were, by the strangest of chances
for a man in his position—a lone man without the right sort of
experience or a grain of patience—very heavily on his hands. It had
all been a great worry and, on his own part doubtless, a series of
blunders, but he immensely pitied the poor chicks and had done all
he could; had in particular sent them down to his other house, the
proper place for them being of course the country, and kept them
there, from the first, with the best people he could find to look
after them, parting even with his own servants to wait on them and
going down himself, whenever he might, to see how they were doing.
The awkward thing was that they had practically no other relations
and that his own affairs took up all his time. He had put them in
possession of Bly, which was healthy and secure, and had placed at
the head of their little establishment—but below stairs only—an
excellent woman, Mrs. Grose, whom he was sure his visitor would
like and who had formerly been maid to his mother. She was now
housekeeper and was also acting for the time as superintendent to
the little girl, of whom, without children of her own, she was, by
good luck, extremely fond. There were plenty of people to help, but
of course the young lady who should go down as governess would be
in supreme authority. She would also have, in holidays, to look
after the small boy, who had been for a term at school—young as he
was to be sent, but what else could be done?—and who, as the
holidays were about to begin, would be back from one day to the
other. There had been for the two children at first a young lady
whom they had had the misfortune to lose. She had done for them
quite beautifully—she was a most respectable person—till her death,
the great awkwardness of which had, precisely, left no alternative
but the school for little Miles. Mrs. Grose, since then, in the way
of manners and things, had done as she could for Flora; and there
were, further, a cook, a housemaid, a dairywoman, an old pony, an
old groom, and an old gardener, all likewise thoroughly
respectable.
So far had Douglas presented his
picture when someone put a question. “And what did the former
governess die of?—of so much respectability?”
Our friend’s answer was prompt.
“That will come out. I don’t anticipate.”
“Excuse me—I thought that was
just what you are doing.”
“In her successor’s place,” I
suggested, “I should have wished to learn if the office brought
with it—”
“Necessary danger to life?”
Douglas completed my thought. “She did wish to learn, and she did
learn. You shall hear tomorrow what she learned. Meanwhile, of
course, the prospect struck her as slightly grim. She was young,
untried, nervous: it was a vision of serious duties and little
company, of really great loneliness. She hesitated—took a couple of
days to consult and consider. But the salary offered much exceeded
her modest measure, and on a second interview she faced the music,
she engaged.” And Douglas, with this, made a pause that, for the
benefit of the company, moved me to throw in—
“The moral of which was of course
the seduction exercised by the splendid young man. She succumbed to
it.”
He got up and, as he had done the
night before, went to the fire, gave a stir to a log with his foot,
then stood a moment with his back to us. “She saw him only
twice.”
“Yes, but that’s just the beauty
of her passion.”
A little to my surprise, on this,
Douglas turned round to me. “It was the beauty of it. There were
others,” he went on, “who hadn’t succumbed. He told her frankly all
his difficulty—that for several applicants the conditions had been
prohibitive. They were, somehow, simply afraid. It sounded dull—it
sounded strange; and all the more so because of his main
condition.”
“Which was—?”
“That she should never trouble
him—but never, never: neither appeal nor complain nor write about
anything; only meet all questions herself, receive all moneys from
his solicitor, take the whole thing over and let him alone. She
promised to do this, and she mentioned to me that when, for a
moment, disburdened, delighted, he held her hand, thanking her for
the sacrifice, she already felt rewarded.”
“But was that all her reward?”
one of the ladies asked.
“She never saw him again.”
“Oh!” said the lady; which, as
our friend immediately left us again, was the only other word of
importance contributed to the subject till, the next night, by the
corner of the hearth, in the best chair, he opened the faded red
cover of a thin old-fashioned gilt-edged album. The whole thing
took indeed more nights than one, but on the first occasion the
same lady put another question. “What is your title?”
“I haven’t one.”
“Oh, I have!” I said. But
Douglas, without heeding me, had begun to read with a fine
clearness that was like a rendering to the ear of the beauty of his
author’s hand.