THE STORY CONTINUED BY MARIAN HALCOMBE.
THE STORY CONTINUED BY WALTER HARTRIGHT.
THE STORY CONTINUED BY MRS. CATHERICK
THE STORY BEGUN BY WALTER HARTRIGHT
This
is the story of what a Woman's patience can endure, and what a
Man's
resolution can achieve.If
the machinery of the Law could be depended on to fathom every case
of
suspicion, and to conduct every process of inquiry, with moderate
assistance only from the lubricating influences of oil of gold, the
events which fill these pages might have claimed their share of the
public attention in a Court of Justice.But
the Law is still, in certain inevitable cases, the pre-engaged
servant of the long purse; and the story is left to be told, for
the
first time, in this place. As the Judge might once have heard it,
so
the Reader shall hear it now. No circumstance of importance, from
the
beginning to the end of the disclosure, shall be related on hearsay
evidence. When the writer of these introductory lines (Walter
Hartright by name) happens to be more closely connected than others
with the incidents to be recorded, he will describe them in his own
person. When his experience fails, he will retire from the position
of narrator; and his task will be continued, from the point at
which
he has left it off, by other persons who can speak to the
circumstances under notice from their own knowledge, just as
clearly
and positively as he has spoken before them.Thus,
the story here presented will be told by more than one pen, as the
story of an offence against the laws is told in Court by more than
one witness—with the same object, in both cases, to present the
truth always in its most direct and most intelligible aspect; and
to
trace the course of one complete series of events, by making the
persons who have been most closely connected with them, at each
successive stage, relate their own experience, word for
word.Let
Walter Hartright, teacher of drawing, aged twenty-eight years, be
heard first.IIIt
was the last day of July. The long hot summer was drawing to a
close;
and we, the weary pilgrims of the London pavement, were beginning
to
think of the cloud-shadows on the corn-fields, and the autumn
breezes
on the sea-shore.For
my own poor part, the fading summer left me out of health, out of
spirits, and, if the truth must be told, out of money as well.
During
the past year I had not managed my professional resources as
carefully as usual; and my extravagance now limited me to the
prospect of spending the autumn economically between my mother's
cottage at Hampstead and my own chambers in town.The
evening, I remember, was still and cloudy; the London air was at
its
heaviest; the distant hum of the street-traffic was at its
faintest;
the small pulse of the life within me, and the great heart of the
city around me, seemed to be sinking in unison, languidly and more
languidly, with the sinking sun. I roused myself from the book
which
I was dreaming over rather than reading, and left my chambers to
meet
the cool night air in the suburbs. It was one of the two evenings
in
every week which I was accustomed to spend with my mother and my
sister. So I turned my steps northward in the direction of
Hampstead.Events
which I have yet to relate make it necessary to mention in this
place
that my father had been dead some years at the period of which I am
now writing; and that my sister Sarah and I were the sole survivors
of a family of five children. My father was a drawing-master before
me. His exertions had made him highly successful in his profession;
and his affectionate anxiety to provide for the future of those who
were dependent on his labours had impelled him, from the time of
his
marriage, to devote to the insuring of his life a much larger
portion
of his income than most men consider it necessary to set aside for
that purpose. Thanks to his admirable prudence and self-denial my
mother and sister were left, after his death, as independent of the
world as they had been during his lifetime. I succeeded to his
connection, and had every reason to feel grateful for the prospect
that awaited me at my starting in life.The
quiet twilight was still trembling on the topmost ridges of the
heath; and the view of London below me had sunk into a black gulf
in
the shadow of the cloudy night, when I stood before the gate of my
mother's cottage. I had hardly rung the bell before the house door
was opened violently; my worthy Italian friend, Professor Pesca,
appeared in the servant's place; and darted out joyously to receive
me, with a shrill foreign parody on an English cheer.On
his own account, and, I must be allowed to add, on mine also, the
Professor merits the honour of a formal introduction. Accident has
made him the starting-point of the strange family story which it is
the purpose of these pages to unfold.I
had first become acquainted with my Italian friend by meeting him
at
certain great houses where he taught his own language and I taught
drawing. All I then knew of the history of his life was, that he
had
once held a situation in the University of Padua; that he had left
Italy for political reasons (the nature of which he uniformly
declined to mention to any one); and that he had been for many
years
respectably established in London as a teacher of languages.Without
being actually a dwarf—for he was perfectly well proportioned from
head to foot—Pesca was, I think, the smallest human being I ever
saw out of a show-room. Remarkable anywhere, by his personal
appearance, he was still further distinguished among the rank and
file of mankind by the harmless eccentricity of his character. The
ruling idea of his life appeared to be, that he was bound to show
his
gratitude to the country which had afforded him an asylum and a
means
of subsistence by doing his utmost to turn himself into an
Englishman. Not content with paying the nation in general the
compliment of invariably carrying an umbrella, and invariably
wearing
gaiters and a white hat, the Professor further aspired to become an
Englishman in his habits and amusements, as well as in his personal
appearance. Finding us distinguished, as a nation, by our love of
athletic exercises, the little man, in the innocence of his heart,
devoted himself impromptu to all our English sports and pastimes
whenever he had the opportunity of joining them; firmly persuaded
that he could adopt our national amusements of the field by an
effort
of will precisely as he had adopted our national gaiters and our
national white hat.I
had seen him risk his limbs blindly at a fox-hunt and in a
cricket-field; and soon afterwards I saw him risk his life, just as
blindly, in the sea at Brighton.We
had met there accidentally, and were bathing together. If we had
been
engaged in any exercise peculiar to my own nation I should, of
course, have looked after Pesca carefully; but as foreigners are
generally quite as well able to take care of themselves in the
water
as Englishmen, it never occurred to me that the art of swimming
might
merely add one more to the list of manly exercises which the
Professor believed that he could learn impromptu. Soon after we had
both struck out from shore, I stopped, finding my friend did not
gain
on me, and turned round to look for him. To my horror and
amazement,
I saw nothing between me and the beach but two little white arms
which struggled for an instant above the surface of the water, and
then disappeared from view. When I dived for him, the poor little
man
was lying quietly coiled up at the bottom, in a hollow of shingle,
looking by many degrees smaller than I had ever seen him look
before.
During the few minutes that elapsed while I was taking him in, the
air revived him, and he ascended the steps of the machine with my
assistance. With the partial recovery of his animation came the
return of his wonderful delusion on the subject of swimming. As
soon
as his chattering teeth would let him speak, he smiled vacantly,
and
said he thought it must have been the Cramp.When
he had thoroughly recovered himself, and had joined me on the
beach,
his warm Southern nature broke through all artificial English
restraints in a moment. He overwhelmed me with the wildest
expressions of affection—exclaimed passionately, in his exaggerated
Italian way, that he would hold his life henceforth at my
disposal—and declared that he should never be happy again until he
had found an opportunity of proving his gratitude by rendering me
some service which I might remember, on my side, to the end of my
days.I
did my best to stop the torrent of his tears and protestations by
persisting in treating the whole adventure as a good subject for a
joke; and succeeded at last, as I imagined, in lessening Pesca's
overwhelming sense of obligation to me. Little did I think
then—little did I think afterwards when our pleasant holiday had
drawn to an end—that the opportunity of serving me for which my
grateful companion so ardently longed was soon to come; that he was
eagerly to seize it on the instant; and that by so doing he was to
turn the whole current of my existence into a new channel, and to
alter me to myself almost past recognition.Yet
so it was. If I had not dived for Professor Pesca when he lay under
water on his shingle bed, I should in all human probability never
have been connected with the story which these pages will relate—I
should never, perhaps, have heard even the name of the woman who
has
lived in all my thoughts, who has possessed herself of all my
energies, who has become the one guiding influence that now directs
the purpose of my life.IIIPesca's
face and manner, on the evening when we confronted each other at my
mother's gate, were more than sufficient to inform me that
something
extraordinary had happened. It was quite useless, however, to ask
him
for an immediate explanation. I could only conjecture, while he was
dragging me in by both hands, that (knowing my habits) he had come
to
the cottage to make sure of meeting me that night, and that he had
some news to tell of an unusually agreeable kind.We
both bounced into the parlour in a highly abrupt and undignified
manner. My mother sat by the open window laughing and fanning
herself. Pesca was one of her especial favourites and his wildest
eccentricities were always pardonable in her eyes. Poor dear soul!
from the first moment when she found out that the little Professor
was deeply and gratefully attached to her son, she opened her heart
to him unreservedly, and took all his puzzling foreign
peculiarities
for granted, without so much as attempting to understand any one of
them.My
sister Sarah, with all the advantages of youth, was, strangely
enough, less pliable. She did full justice to Pesca's excellent
qualities of heart; but she could not accept him implicitly, as my
mother accepted him, for my sake. Her insular notions of propriety
rose in perpetual revolt against Pesca's constitutional contempt
for
appearances; and she was always more or less undisguisedly
astonished
at her mother's familiarity with the eccentric little foreigner. I
have observed, not only in my sister's case, but in the instances
of
others, that we of the young generation are nothing like so hearty
and so impulsive as some of our elders. I constantly see old people
flushed and excited by the prospect of some anticipated pleasure
which altogether fails to ruffle the tranquillity of their serene
grandchildren. Are we, I wonder, quite such genuine boys and girls
now as our seniors were in their time? Has the great advance in
education taken rather too long a stride; and are we in these
modern
days, just the least trifle in the world too well brought
up?Without
attempting to answer those questions decisively, I may at least
record that I never saw my mother and my sister together in Pesca's
society, without finding my mother much the younger woman of the
two.
On this occasion, for example, while the old lady was laughing
heartily over the boyish manner in which we tumbled into the
parlour,
Sarah was perturbedly picking up the broken pieces of a teacup,
which
the Professor had knocked off the table in his precipitate advance
to
meet me at the door."I
don't know what would have happened, Walter," said my mother,
"if you had delayed much longer. Pesca has been half mad with
impatience, and I have been half mad with curiosity. The Professor
has brought some wonderful news with him, in which he says you are
concerned; and he has cruelly refused to give us the smallest hint
of
it till his friend Walter appeared.""Very
provoking: it spoils the Set," murmured Sarah to herself,
mournfully absorbed over the ruins of the broken cup.While
these words were being spoken, Pesca, happily and fussily
unconscious
of the irreparable wrong which the crockery had suffered at his
hands, was dragging a large arm-chair to the opposite end of the
room, so as to command us all three, in the character of a public
speaker addressing an audience. Having turned the chair with its
back
towards us, he jumped into it on his knees, and excitedly addressed
his small congregation of three from an impromptu pulpit."Now,
my good dears," began Pesca (who always said "good dears"
when he meant "worthy friends"), "listen to me. The
time has come—I recite my good news—I speak at last.""Hear,
hear!" said my mother, humouring the joke."The
next thing he will break, mamma," whispered Sarah, "will be
the back of the best arm-chair.""I
go back into my life, and I address myself to the noblest of
created
beings," continued Pesca, vehemently apostrophising my unworthy
self over the top rail of the chair. "Who found me dead at the
bottom of the sea (through Cramp); and who pulled me up to the top;
and what did I say when I got into my own life and my own clothes
again?""Much
more than was at all necessary," I answered as doggedly as
possible; for the least encouragement in connection with this
subject
invariably let loose the Professor's emotions in a flood of
tears."I
said," persisted Pesca, "that my life belonged to my dear
friend, Walter, for the rest of my days—and so it does. I said that
I should never be happy again till I had found the opportunity of
doing a good Something for Walter—and I have never been contented
with myself till this most blessed day. Now," cried the
enthusiastic little man at the top of his voice, "the
overflowing happiness bursts out of me at every pore of my skin,
like
a perspiration; for on my faith, and soul, and honour, the
something
is done at last, and the only word to say now
is—Right-all-right!"It
may be necessary to explain here that Pesca prided himself on being
a
perfect Englishman in his language, as well as in his dress,
manners,
and amusements. Having picked up a few of our most familiar
colloquial expressions, he scattered them about over his
conversation
whenever they happened to occur to him, turning them, in his high
relish for their sound and his general ignorance of their sense,
into
compound words and repetitions of his own, and always running them
into each other, as if they consisted of one long syllable."Among
the fine London Houses where I teach the language of my native
country," said the Professor, rushing into his long-deferred
explanation without another word of preface, "there is one,
mighty fine, in the big place called Portland. You all know where
that is? Yes, yes—course-of-course. The fine house, my good dears,
has got inside it a fine family. A Mamma, fair and fat; three young
Misses, fair and fat; two young Misters, fair and fat; and a Papa,
the fairest and the fattest of all, who is a mighty merchant, up to
his eyes in gold—a fine man once, but seeing that he has got a
naked head and two chins, fine no longer at the present time. Now
mind! I teach the sublime Dante to the young Misses, and
ah!—my-soul-bless-my-soul!—it is not in human language to say how
the sublime Dante puzzles the pretty heads of all three! No
matter—all in good time—and the more lessons the better for me.
Now mind! Imagine to yourselves that I am teaching the young Misses
to-day, as usual. We are all four of us down together in the Hell
of
Dante. At the Seventh Circle—but no matter for that: all the
Circles are alike to the three young Misses, fair and fat,—at the
Seventh Circle, nevertheless, my pupils are sticking fast; and I,
to
set them going again, recite, explain, and blow myself up red-hot
with useless enthusiasm, when—a creak of boots in the passage
outside, and in comes the golden Papa, the mighty merchant with the
naked head and the two chins.—Ha! my good dears, I am closer than
you think for to the business, now. Have you been patient so far?
or
have you said to yourselves, 'Deuce-what-the-deuce! Pesca is
long-winded to-night?'"We
declared that we were deeply interested. The Professor went
on:"In
his hand, the golden Papa has a letter; and after he has made his
excuse for disturbing us in our Infernal Region with the common
mortal Business of the house, he addresses himself to the three
young
Misses, and begins, as you English begin everything in this blessed
world that you have to say, with a great O. 'O, my dears,' says the
mighty merchant, 'I have got here a letter from my friend,
Mr.——'(the
name has slipped out of my mind; but no matter; we shall come back
to
that; yes, yes—right-all-right). So the Papa says, 'I have got a
letter from my friend, the Mister; and he wants a recommend from
me,
of a drawing-master, to go down to his house in the country.'
My-soul-bless-my-soul! when I heard the golden Papa say those
words,
if I had been big enough to reach up to him, I should have put my
arms round his neck, and pressed him to my bosom in a long and
grateful hug! As it was, I only bounced upon my chair. My seat was
on
thorns, and my soul was on fire to speak but I held my tongue, and
let Papa go on. 'Perhaps you know,' says this good man of money,
twiddling his friend's letter this way and that, in his golden
fingers and thumbs, 'perhaps you know, my dears, of a
drawing-master
that I can recommend?' The three young Misses all look at each
other,
and then say (with the indispensable great O to begin) "O, dear
no, Papa! But here is Mr. Pesca' At the mention of myself I can
hold
no longer—the thought of you, my good dears, mounts like blood to
my head—I start from my seat, as if a spike had grown up from the
ground through the bottom of my chair—I address myself to the
mighty merchant, and I say (English phrase) 'Dear sir, I have the
man! The first and foremost drawing-master of the world! Recommend
him by the post to-night, and send him off, bag and baggage
(English
phrase again—ha!), send him off, bag and baggage, by the train
to-morrow!' 'Stop, stop,' says Papa; 'is he a foreigner, or an
Englishman?' 'English to the bone of his back,' I answer.
'Respectable?' says Papa. 'Sir,' I say (for this last question of
his
outrages me, and I have done being familiar with him—) 'Sir! the
immortal fire of genius burns in this Englishman's bosom, and, what
is more, his father had it before him!' 'Never mind,' says the
golden
barbarian of a Papa, 'never mind about his genius, Mr. Pesca. We
don't want genius in this country, unless it is accompanied by
respectability—and then we are very glad to have it, very glad
indeed. Can your friend produce testimonials—letters that speak to
his character?' I wave my hand negligently. 'Letters?' I say. 'Ha!
my-soul-bless-my-soul! I should think so, indeed! Volumes of
letters
and portfolios of testimonials, if you like!' 'One or two will do,'
says this man of phlegm and money. 'Let him send them to me, with
his
name and address. And—stop, stop, Mr. Pesca—before you go to your
friend, you had better take a note.' 'Bank-note!' I say,
indignantly.
'No bank-note, if you please, till my brave Englishman has earned
it
first.' 'Bank-note!' says Papa, in a great surprise, 'who talked of
bank-note? I mean a note of the terms—a memorandum of what he is
expected to do. Go on with your lesson, Mr. Pesca, and I will give
you the necessary extract from my friend's letter.' Down sits the
man
of merchandise and money to his pen, ink, and paper; and down I go
once again into the Hell of Dante, with my three young Misses after
me. In ten minutes' time the note is written, and the boots of Papa
are creaking themselves away in the passage outside. From that
moment, on my faith, and soul, and honour, I know nothing more! The
glorious thought that I have caught my opportunity at last, and
that
my grateful service for my dearest friend in the world is as good
as
done already, flies up into my head and makes me drunk. How I pull
my
young Misses and myself out of our Infernal Region again, how my
other business is done afterwards, how my little bit of dinner
slides
itself down my throat, I know no more than a man in the moon.
Enough
for me, that here I am, with the mighty merchant's note in my hand,
as large as life, as hot as fire, and as happy as a king! Ha! ha!
ha!
right-right-right-all-right!" Here the Professor waved the
memorandum of terms over his head, and ended his long and voluble
narrative with his shrill Italian parody on an English
cheer."My
mother rose the moment he had done, with flushed cheeks and
brightened eyes. She caught the little man warmly by both
hands."My
dear, good Pesca," she said, "I never doubted your true
affection for Walter—but I am more than ever persuaded of it
now!""I
am sure we are very much obliged to Professor Pesca, for Walter's
sake," added Sarah. She half rose, while she spoke, as if to
approach the arm-chair, in her turn; but, observing that Pesca was
rapturously kissing my mother's hands, looked serious, and resumed
her seat. "If the familiar little man treats my mother in that
way, how will he treat
me?"
Faces sometimes tell truth; and that was unquestionably the thought
in Sarah's mind, as she sat down again.Although
I myself was gratefully sensible of the kindness of Pesca's
motives,
my spirits were hardly so much elevated as they ought to have been
by
the prospect of future employment now placed before me. When the
Professor had quite done with my mother's hand, and when I had
warmly
thanked him for his interference on my behalf, I asked to be
allowed
to look at the note of terms which his respectable patron had drawn
up for my inspection.Pesca
handed me the paper, with a triumphant flourish of the hand."Read!"
said the little man majestically. "I promise you my friend, the
writing of the golden Papa speaks with a tongue of trumpets for
itself."The
note of terms was plain, straightforward, and comprehensive, at any
rate. It informed me,First,
That Frederick Fairlie, Esquire, of Limmeridge House. Cumberland,
wanted to engage the services of a thoroughly competent
drawing-master, for a period of four months certain.Secondly,
That the duties which the master was expected to perform would be
of
a twofold kind. He was to superintend the instruction of two young
ladies in the art of painting in water-colours; and he was to
devote
his leisure time, afterwards, to the business of repairing and
mounting a valuable collection of drawings, which had been suffered
to fall into a condition of total neglect.Thirdly,
That the terms offered to the person who should undertake and
properly perform these duties were four guineas a week; that he was
to reside at Limmeridge House; and that he was to be treated there
on
the footing of a gentleman.Fourthly,
and lastly, That no person need think of applying for this
situation
unless he could furnish the most unexceptionable references to
character and abilities. The references were to be sent to Mr.
Fairlie's friend in London, who was empowered to conclude all
necessary arrangements. These instructions were followed by the
name
and address of Pesca's employer in Portland Place—and there the
note, or memorandum, ended.The
prospect which this offer of an engagement held out was certainly
an
attractive one. The employment was likely to be both easy and
agreeable; it was proposed to me at the autumn time of the year
when
I was least occupied; and the terms, judging by my personal
experience in my profession, were surprisingly liberal. I knew
this;
I knew that I ought to consider myself very fortunate if I
succeeded
in securing the offered employment—and yet, no sooner had I read
the memorandum than I felt an inexplicable unwillingness within me
to
stir in the matter. I had never in the whole of my previous
experience found my duty and my inclination so painfully and so
unaccountably at variance as I found them now."Oh,
Walter, your father never had such a chance as this!" said my
mother, when she had read the note of terms and had handed it back
to
me."Such
distinguished people to know," remarked Sarah, straightening
herself in the chair; "and on such gratifying terms of equality
too!""Yes,
yes; the terms, in every sense, are tempting enough," I replied
impatiently. "But before I send in my testimonials, I should
like a little time to consider——""Consider!"
exclaimed my mother. "Why, Walter, what is the matter with
you?""Consider!"
echoed my sister. "What a very extraordinary thing to say, under
the circumstances!""Consider!"
chimed in the Professor. "What is there to consider about?
Answer me this! Have you not been complaining of your health, and
have you not been longing for what you call a smack of the country
breeze? Well! there in your hand is the paper that offers you
perpetual choking mouthfuls of country breeze for four months'
time.
Is it not so? Ha! Again—you want money. Well! Is four golden
guineas a week nothing? My-soul-bless-my-soul! only give it
to
me—and
my boots shall creak like the golden Papa's, with a sense of the
overpowering richness of the man who walks in them! Four guineas a
week, and, more than that, the charming society of two young
misses!
and, more than that, your bed, your breakfast, your dinner, your
gorging English teas and lunches and drinks of foaming beer, all
for
nothing—why, Walter, my dear good friend—deuce-what-the-deuce!—for
the first time in my life I have not eyes enough in my head to
look,
and wonder at you!"Neither
my mother's evident astonishment at my behaviour, nor Pesca's
fervid
enumeration of the advantages offered to me by the new employment,
had any effect in shaking my unreasonable disinclination to go to
Limmeridge House. After starting all the petty objections that I
could think of to going to Cumberland, and after hearing them
answered, one after another, to my own complete discomfiture, I
tried
to set up a last obstacle by asking what was to become of my pupils
in London while I was teaching Mr. Fairlie's young ladies to sketch
from nature. The obvious answer to this was, that the greater part
of
them would be away on their autumn travels, and that the few who
remained at home might be confided to the care of one of my brother
drawing-masters, whose pupils I had once taken off his hands under
similar circumstances. My sister reminded me that this gentleman
had
expressly placed his services at my disposal, during the present
season, in case I wished to leave town; my mother seriously
appealed
to me not to let an idle caprice stand in the way of my own
interests
and my own health; and Pesca piteously entreated that I would not
wound him to the heart by rejecting the first grateful offer of
service that he had been able to make to the friend who had saved
his
life.The
evident sincerity and affection which inspired these remonstrances
would have influenced any man with an atom of good feeling in his
composition. Though I could not conquer my own unaccountable
perversity, I had at least virtue enough to be heartily ashamed of
it, and to end the discussion pleasantly by giving way, and
promising
to do all that was wanted of me.The
rest of the evening passed merrily enough in humorous anticipations
of my coming life with the two young ladies in Cumberland. Pesca,
inspired by our national grog, which appeared to get into his head,
in the most marvellous manner, five minutes after it had gone down
his throat, asserted his claims to be considered a complete
Englishman by making a series of speeches in rapid succession,
proposing my mother's health, my sister's health, my health, and
the
healths, in mass, of Mr. Fairlie and the two young Misses,
pathetically returning thanks himself, immediately afterwards, for
the whole party. "A secret, Walter," said my little friend
confidentially, as we walked home together. "I am flushed by the
recollection of my own eloquence. My soul bursts itself with
ambition. One of these days I go into your noble Parliament. It is
the dream of my whole life to be Honourable Pesca, M.P.!"The
next morning I sent my testimonials to the Professor's employer in
Portland Place. Three days passed, and I concluded, with secret
satisfaction, that my papers had not been found sufficiently
explicit. On the fourth day, however, an answer came. It announced
that Mr. Fairlie accepted my services, and requested me to start
for
Cumberland immediately. All the necessary instructions for my
journey
were carefully and clearly added in a postscript.I
made my arrangements, unwillingly enough, for leaving London early
the next day. Towards evening Pesca looked in, on his way to a
dinner-party, to bid me good-bye."I
shall dry my tears in your absence," said the Professor gaily,
"with this glorious thought. It is my auspicious hand that has
given the first push to your fortune in the world. Go, my friend!
When your sun shines in Cumberland (English proverb), in the name
of
heaven make your hay. Marry one of the two young Misses; become
Honourable Hartright, M.P.; and when you are on the top of the
ladder
remember that Pesca, at the bottom, has done it all!"I
tried to laugh with my little friend over his parting jest, but my
spirits were not to be commanded. Something jarred in me almost
painfully while he was speaking his light farewell words.When
I was left alone again nothing remained to be done but to walk to
the
Hampstead cottage and bid my mother and Sarah good-bye.IVThe
heat had been painfully oppressive all day, and it was now a close
and sultry night.My
mother and sister had spoken so many last words, and had begged me
to
wait another five minutes so many times, that it was nearly
midnight
when the servant locked the garden-gate behind me. I walked forward
a
few paces on the shortest way back to London, then stopped and
hesitated.The
moon was full and broad in the dark blue starless sky, and the
broken
ground of the heath looked wild enough in the mysterious light to
be
hundreds of miles away from the great city that lay beneath it. The
idea of descending any sooner than I could help into the heat and
gloom of London repelled me. The prospect of going to bed in my
airless chambers, and the prospect of gradual suffocation, seemed,
in
my present restless frame of mind and body, to be one and the same
thing. I determined to stroll home in the purer air by the most
roundabout way I could take; to follow the white winding paths
across
the lonely heath; and to approach London through its most open
suburb
by striking into the Finchley Road, and so getting back, in the
cool
of the new morning, by the western side of the Regent's
Park.I
wound my way down slowly over the heath, enjoying the divine
stillness of the scene, and admiring the soft alternations of light
and shade as they followed each other over the broken ground on
every
side of me. So long as I was proceeding through this first and
prettiest part of my night walk my mind remained passively open to
the impressions produced by the view; and I thought but little on
any
subject—indeed, so far as my own sensations were concerned, I can
hardly say that I thought at all.But
when I had left the heath and had turned into the by-road, where
there was less to see, the ideas naturally engendered by the
approaching change in my habits and occupations gradually drew more
and more of my attention exclusively to themselves. By the time I
had
arrived at the end of the road I had become completely absorbed in
my
own fanciful visions of Limmeridge House, of Mr. Fairlie, and of
the
two ladies whose practice in the art of water-colour painting I was
so soon to superintend.I
had now arrived at that particular point of my walk where four
roads
met—the road to Hampstead, along which I had returned, the road to
Finchley, the road to West End, and the road back to London. I had
mechanically turned in this latter direction, and was strolling
along
the lonely high-road—idly wondering, I remember, what the
Cumberland young ladies would look like—when, in one moment, every
drop of blood in my body was brought to a stop by the touch of a
hand
laid lightly and suddenly on my shoulder from behind me.I
turned on the instant, with my fingers tightening round the handle
of
my stick.There,
in the middle of the broad bright high-road—there, as if it had
that moment sprung out of the earth or dropped from the
heaven—stood
the figure of a solitary Woman, dressed from head to foot in white
garments, her face bent in grave inquiry on mine, her hand pointing
to the dark cloud over London, as I faced her.I
was far too seriously startled by the suddenness with which this
extraordinary apparition stood before me, in the dead of night and
in
that lonely place, to ask what she wanted. The strange woman spoke
first."Is
that the road to London?" she said.I
looked attentively at her, as she put that singular question to me.
It was then nearly one o'clock. All I could discern distinctly by
the
moonlight was a colourless, youthful face, meagre and sharp to look
at about the cheeks and chin; large, grave, wistfully attentive
eyes;
nervous, uncertain lips; and light hair of a pale, brownish-yellow
hue. There was nothing wild, nothing immodest in her manner: it was
quiet and self-controlled, a little melancholy and a little touched
by suspicion; not exactly the manner of a lady, and, at the same
time, not the manner of a woman in the humblest rank of life. The
voice, little as I had yet heard of it, had something curiously
still
and mechanical in its tones, and the utterance was remarkably
rapid.
She held a small bag in her hand: and her dress—bonnet, shawl, and
gown all of white—was, so far as I could guess, certainly not
composed of very delicate or very expensive materials. Her figure
was
slight, and rather above the average height—her gait and actions
free from the slightest approach to extravagance. This was all that
I
could observe of her in the dim light and under the perplexingly
strange circumstances of our meeting. What sort of a woman she was,
and how she came to be out alone in the high-road, an hour after
midnight, I altogether failed to guess. The one thing of which I
felt
certain was, that the grossest of mankind could not have
misconstrued
her motive in speaking, even at that suspiciously late hour and in
that suspiciously lonely place."Did
you hear me?" she said, still quietly and rapidly, and without
the least fretfulness or impatience. "I asked if that was the
way to London.""Yes,"
I replied, "that is the way: it leads to St. John's Wood and the
Regent's Park. You must excuse my not answering you before. I was
rather startled by your sudden appearance in the road; and I am,
even
now, quite unable to account for it.""You
don't suspect me of doing anything wrong, do you? I have done
nothing
wrong. I have met with an accident—I am very unfortunate in being
here alone so late. Why do you suspect me of doing wrong?"She
spoke with unnecessary earnestness and agitation, and shrank back
from me several paces. I did my best to reassure her."Pray
don't suppose that I have any idea of suspecting you," I said,
"or any other wish than to be of assistance to you, if I can. I
only wondered at your appearance in the road, because it seemed to
me
to be empty the instant before I saw you."She
turned, and pointed back to a place at the junction of the road to
London and the road to Hampstead, where there was a gap in the
hedge."I
heard you coming," she said, "and hid there to see what
sort of man you were, before I risked speaking. I doubted and
feared
about it till you passed; and then I was obliged to steal after
you,
and touch you."Steal
after me and touch me? Why not call to me? Strange, to say the
least
of it."May
I trust you?" she asked. "You don't think the worse of me
because I have met with an accident?" She stopped in confusion;
shifted her bag from one hand to the other; and sighed
bitterly.The
loneliness and helplessness of the woman touched me. The natural
impulse to assist her and to spare her got the better of the
judgment, the caution, the worldly tact, which an older, wiser, and
colder man might have summoned to help him in this strange
emergency."You
may trust me for any harmless purpose," I said. "If it
troubles you to explain your strange situation to me, don't think
of
returning to the subject again. I have no right to ask you for any
explanations. Tell me how I can help you; and if I can, I
will.""You
are very kind, and I am very, very thankful to have met you."
The first touch of womanly tenderness that I had heard from her
trembled in her voice as she said the words; but no tears glistened
in those large, wistfully attentive eyes of hers, which were still
fixed on me. "I have only been in London once before," she
went on, more and more rapidly, "and I know nothing about that
side of it, yonder. Can I get a fly, or a carriage of any kind? Is
it
too late? I don't know. If you could show me where to get a fly—and
if you will only promise not to interfere with me, and to let me
leave you, when and how I please—I have a friend in London who will
be glad to receive me—I want nothing else—will you promise?"She
looked anxiously up and down the road; shifted her bag again from
one
hand to the other; repeated the words, "Will you promise?"
and looked hard in my face, with a pleading fear and confusion that
it troubled me to see.What
could I do? Here was a stranger utterly and helplessly at my
mercy—and that stranger a forlorn woman. No house was near; no one
was passing whom I could consult; and no earthly right existed on
my
part to give me a power of control over her, even if I had known
how
to exercise it. I trace these lines, self-distrustfully, with the
shadows of after-events darkening the very paper I write on; and
still I say, what could I do?What
I did do, was to try and gain time by questioning her. "Are you
sure that your friend in London will receive you at such a late
hour
as this?" I said."Quite
sure. Only say you will let me leave you when and how I please—only
say you won't interfere with me. Will you promise?"As
she repeated the words for the third time, she came close to me and
laid her hand, with a sudden gentle stealthiness, on my bosom—a
thin hand; a cold hand (when I removed it with mine) even on that
sultry night. Remember that I was young; remember that the hand
which
touched me was a woman's."Will
you promise?""Yes."One
word! The little familiar word that is on everybody's lips, every
hour in the day. Oh me! and I tremble, now, when I write it.We
set our faces towards London, and walked on together in the first
still hour of the new day—I, and this woman, whose name, whose
character, whose story, whose objects in life, whose very presence
by
my side, at that moment, were fathomless mysteries to me. It was
like
a dream. Was I Walter Hartright? Was this the well-known,
uneventful
road, where holiday people strolled on Sundays? Had I really left,
little more than an hour since, the quiet, decent, conventionally
domestic atmosphere of my mother's cottage? I was too
bewildered—too
conscious also of a vague sense of something like self-reproach—to
speak to my strange companion for some minutes. It was her voice
again that first broke the silence between us."I
want to ask you something," she said suddenly. "Do you know
many people in London?""Yes,
a great many.""Many
men of rank and title?" There was an unmistakable tone of
suspicion in the strange question. I hesitated about answering
it."Some,"
I said, after a moment's silence."Many"—she
came to a full stop, and looked me searchingly in the face—"many
men of the rank of Baronet?"Too
much astonished to reply, I questioned her in my turn."Why
do you ask?""Because
I hope, for my own sake, there is one Baronet that you don't
know.""Will
you tell me his name?""I
can't—I daren't—I forget myself when I mention it." She
spoke loudly and almost fiercely, raised her clenched hand in the
air, and shook it passionately; then, on a sudden, controlled
herself
again, and added, in tones lowered to a whisper "Tell me which
of them
you
know."I
could hardly refuse to humour her in such a trifle, and I mentioned
three names. Two, the names of fathers of families whose daughters
I
taught; one, the name of a bachelor who had once taken me a cruise
in
his yacht, to make sketches for him."Ah!
you
don't
know him," she said, with a sigh of relief. "Are you a man
of rank and title yourself?""Far
from it. I am only a drawing-master."As
the reply passed my lips—a little bitterly, perhaps—she took my
arm with the abruptness which characterised all her actions."Not
a man of rank and title," she repeated to herself. "Thank
God! I may trust
him."I
had hitherto contrived to master my curiosity out of consideration
for my companion; but it got the better of me now."I
am afraid you have serious reason to complain of some man of rank
and
title?" I said. "I am afraid the baronet, whose name you
are unwilling to mention to me, has done you some grievous wrong?
Is
he the cause of your being out here at this strange time of
night?""Don't
ask me: don't make me talk of it," she answered. "I'm not
fit now. I have been cruelly used and cruelly wronged. You will be
kinder than ever, if you will walk on fast, and not speak to me. I
sadly want to quiet myself, if I can."We
moved forward again at a quick pace; and for half an hour, at
least,
not a word passed on either side. From time to time, being
forbidden
to make any more inquiries, I stole a look at her face. It was
always
the same; the lips close shut, the brow frowning, the eyes looking
straight forward, eagerly and yet absently. We had reached the
first
houses, and were close on the new Wesleyan college, before her set
features relaxed and she spoke once more."Do
you live in London?" she said."Yes."
As I answered, it struck me that she might have formed some
intention
of appealing to me for assistance or advice, and that I ought to
spare her a possible disappointment by warning her of my
approaching
absence from home. So I added, "But to-morrow I shall be away
from London for some time. I am going into the country.""Where?"
she asked. "North or south?""North—to
Cumberland.""Cumberland!"
she repeated the word tenderly. "Ah! wish I was going there too.
I was once happy in Cumberland."I
tried again to lift the veil that hung between this woman and
me."Perhaps
you were born," I said, "in the beautiful Lake country.""No,"
she answered. "I was born in Hampshire; but I once went to
school for a little while in Cumberland. Lakes? I don't remember
any
lakes. It's Limmeridge village, and Limmeridge House, I should like
to see again."It
was my turn now to stop suddenly. In the excited state of my
curiosity, at that moment, the chance reference to Mr. Fairlie's
place of residence, on the lips of my strange companion, staggered
me
with astonishment."Did
you hear anybody calling after us?" she asked, looking up and
down the road affrightedly, the instant I stopped."No,
no. I was only struck by the name of Limmeridge House. I heard it
mentioned by some Cumberland people a few days since.""Ah!
not
my
people. Mrs. Fairlie is dead; and her husband is dead; and their
little girl may be married and gone away by this time. I can't say
who lives at Limmeridge now. If any more are left there of that
name,
I only know I love them for Mrs. Fairlie's sake."She
seemed about to say more; but while she was speaking, we came
within
view of the turnpike, at the top of the Avenue Road. Her hand
tightened round my arm, and she looked anxiously at the gate before
us."Is
the turnpike man looking out?" she asked.He
was not looking out; no one else was near the place when we passed
through the gate. The sight of the gas-lamps and houses seemed to
agitate her, and to make her impatient."This
is London," she said. "Do you see any carriage I can get? I
am tired and frightened. I want to shut myself in and be driven
away."I
explained to her that we must walk a little further to get to a
cab-stand, unless we were fortunate enough to meet with an empty
vehicle; and then tried to resume the subject of Cumberland. It was
useless. That idea of shutting herself in, and being driven away,
had
now got full possession of her mind. She could think and talk of
nothing else.We
had hardly proceeded a third of the way down the Avenue Road when I
saw a cab draw up at a house a few doors below us, on the opposite
side of the way. A gentleman got out and let himself in at the
garden
door. I hailed the cab, as the driver mounted the box again. When
we
crossed the road, my companion's impatience increased to such an
extent that she almost forced me to run."It's
so late," she said. "I am only in a hurry because it's so
late.""I
can't take you, sir, if you're not going towards Tottenham Court
Road," said the driver civilly, when I opened the cab door. "My
horse is dead beat, and I can't get him no further than the
stable.""Yes,
yes. That will do for me. I'm going that way—I'm going that way."
She spoke with breathless eagerness, and pressed by me into the
cab.I
had assured myself that the man was sober as well as civil before I
let her enter the vehicle. And now, when she was seated inside, I
entreated her to let me see her set down safely at her
destination."No,
no, no," she said vehemently. "I'm quite safe, and quite
happy now. If you are a gentleman, remember your promise. Let him
drive on till I stop him. Thank you—oh! thank you, thank
you!"My
hand was on the cab door. She caught it in hers, kissed it, and
pushed it away. The cab drove off at the same moment—I started into
the road, with some vague idea of stopping it again, I hardly knew
why—hesitated from dread of frightening and distressing her—called,
at last, but not loudly enough to attract the driver's attention.
The
sound of the wheels grew fainter in the distance—the cab melted
into the black shadows on the road—the woman in white was
gone.Ten
minutes or more had passed. I was still on the same side of the
way;
now mechanically walking forward a few paces; now stopping again
absently. At one moment I found myself doubting the reality of my
own
adventure; at another I was perplexed and distressed by an uneasy
sense of having done wrong, which yet left me confusedly ignorant
of
how I could have done right. I hardly knew where I was going, or
what
I meant to do next; I was conscious of nothing but the confusion of
my own thoughts, when I was abruptly recalled to myself—awakened, I
might almost say—by the sound of rapidly approaching wheels close
behind me.I
was on the dark side of the road, in the thick shadow of some
garden
trees, when I stopped to look round. On the opposite and lighter
side
of the way, a short distance below me, a policeman was strolling
along in the direction of the Regent's Park.The
carriage passed me—an open chaise driven by two men."Stop!"
cried one. "There's a policeman. Let's ask him."The
horse was instantly pulled up, a few yards beyond the dark place
where I stood."Policeman!"
cried the first speaker. "Have you seen a woman pass this
way?""What
sort of woman, sir?""A
woman in a lavender-coloured gown——""No,
no," interposed the second man. "The clothes we gave her
were found on her bed. She must have gone away in the clothes she
wore when she came to us. In white, policeman. A woman in
white.""I
haven't seen her, sir.""If
you or any of your men meet with the woman, stop her, and send her
in
careful keeping to that address. I'll pay all expenses, and a fair
reward into the bargain."The
policeman looked at the card that was handed down to him."Why
are we to stop her, sir? What has she done?""Done!
She has escaped from my Asylum. Don't forget; a woman in white.
Drive
on."V"She
has escaped from my Asylum!"I
cannot say with truth that the terrible inference which those words
suggested flashed upon me like a new revelation. Some of the
strange
questions put to me by the woman in white, after my ill-considered
promise to leave her free to act as she pleased, had suggested the
conclusion either that she was naturally flighty and unsettled, or
that some recent shock of terror had disturbed the balance of her
faculties. But the idea of absolute insanity which we all associate
with the very name of an Asylum, had, I can honestly declare, never
occurred to me, in connection with her. I had seen nothing, in her
language or her actions, to justify it at the time; and even with
the
new light thrown on her by the words which the stranger had
addressed
to the policeman, I could see nothing to justify it now.What
had I done? Assisted the victim of the most horrible of all false
imprisonments to escape; or cast loose on the wide world of London
an
unfortunate creature, whose actions it was my duty, and every man's
duty, mercifully to control? I turned sick at heart when the
question
occurred to me, and when I felt self-reproachfully that it was
asked
too late.In
the disturbed state of my mind, it was useless to think of going to
bed, when I at last got back to my chambers in Clement's Inn.
Before
many hours elapsed it would be necessary to start on my journey to
Cumberland. I sat down and tried, first to sketch, then to read—but
the woman in white got between me and my pencil, between me and my
book. Had the forlorn creature come to any harm? That was my first
thought, though I shrank selfishly from confronting it. Other
thoughts followed, on which it was less harrowing to dwell. Where
had
she stopped the cab? What had become of her now? Had she been
traced
and captured by the men in the chaise? Or was she still capable of
controlling her own actions; and were we two following our widely
parted roads towards one point in the mysterious future, at which
we
were to meet once more?It
was a relief when the hour came to lock my door, to bid farewell to
London pursuits, London pupils, and London friends, and to be in
movement again towards new interests and a new life. Even the
bustle
and confusion at the railway terminus, so wearisome and bewildering
at other times, roused me and did me good.My
travelling instructions directed me to go to Carlisle, and then to
diverge by a branch railway which ran in the direction of the
coast.
As a misfortune to begin with, our engine broke down between
Lancaster and Carlisle. The delay occasioned by this accident
caused
me to be too late for the branch train, by which I was to have gone
on immediately. I had to wait some hours; and when a later train
finally deposited me at the nearest station to Limmeridge House, it
was past ten, and the night was so dark that I could hardly see my
way to the pony-chaise which Mr. Fairlie had ordered to be in
waiting
for me.The
driver was evidently discomposed by the lateness of my arrival. He
was in that state of highly respectful sulkiness which is peculiar
to
English servants. We drove away slowly through the darkness in
perfect silence. The roads were bad, and the dense obscurity of the
night increased the difficulty of getting over the ground quickly.
It
was, by my watch, nearly an hour and a half from the time of our
leaving the station before I heard the sound of the sea in the
distance, and the crunch of our wheels on a smooth gravel drive. We
had passed one gate before entering the drive, and we passed
another
before we drew up at the house. I was received by a solemn
man-servant out of livery, was informed that the family had retired
for the night, and was then led into a large and lofty room where
my
supper was awaiting me, in a forlorn manner, at one extremity of a
lonesome mahogany wilderness of dining-table.I
was too tired and out of spirits to eat or drink much, especially
with the solemn servant waiting on me as elaborately as if a small
dinner party had arrived at the house instead of a solitary man. In
a
quarter of an hour I was ready to be taken up to my bedchamber. The
solemn servant conducted me into a prettily furnished room—said,
"Breakfast at nine o'clock, sir"—looked all round him to
see that everything was in its proper place, and noiselessly
withdrew."What
shall I see in my dreams to-night?" I thought to myself, as I
put out the candle; "the woman in white? or the unknown
inhabitants of this Cumberland mansion?" It was a strange
sensation to be sleeping in the house, like a friend of the family,
and yet not to know one of the inmates, even by sight!VIWhen
I rose the next morning and drew up my blind, the sea opened before
me joyously under the broad August sunlight, and the distant coast
of
Scotland fringed the horizon with its lines of melting blue.The
view was such a surprise, and such a change to me, after my weary
London experience of brick and mortar landscape, that I seemed to
burst into a new life and a new set of thoughts the moment I looked
at it. A confused sensation of having suddenly lost my familiarity
with the past, without acquiring any additional clearness of idea
in
reference to the present or the future, took possession of my mind.
Circumstances that were but a few days old faded back in my memory,
as if they had happened months and months since. Pesca's quaint
announcement of the means by which he had procured me my present
employment; the farewell evening I had passed with my mother and
sister; even my mysterious adventure on the way home from
Hampstead—had all become like events which might have occurred at
some former epoch of my existence. Although the woman in white was
still in my mind, the image of her seemed to have grown dull and
faint already.A
little before nine o'clock, I descended to the ground-floor of the
house. The solemn man-servant of the night before met me wandering
among the passages, and compassionately showed me the way to the
breakfast-room.My
first glance round me, as the man opened the door, disclosed a
well-furnished breakfast-table, standing in the middle of a long
room, with many windows in it. I looked from the table to the
window
farthest from me, and saw a lady standing at it, with her back
turned
towards me. The instant my eyes rested on her, I was struck by the
rare beauty of her form, and by the unaffected grace of her
attitude.
Her figure was tall, yet not too tall; comely and well-developed,
yet
not fat; her head set on her shoulders with an easy, pliant
firmness;
her waist, perfection in the eyes of a man, for it occupied its
natural place, it filled out its natural circle, it was visibly and
delightfully undeformed by stays. She had not heard my entrance
into
the room; and I allowed myself the luxury of admiring her for a few
moments, before I moved one of the chairs near me, as the least
embarrassing means of attracting her attention. She turned towards
me
immediately. The easy elegance of every movement of her limbs and
body as soon as she began to advance from the far end of the room,
set me in a flutter of expectation to see her face clearly. She
left
the window—and I said to myself, The lady is dark. She moved
forward a few steps—and I said to myself, The lady is young. She
approached nearer—and I said to myself (with a sense of surprise
which words fail me to express), The lady is ugly!Never
was the old conventional maxim, that Nature cannot err, more flatly
contradicted—never was the fair promise of a lovely figure more
strangely and startlingly belied by the face and head that crowned
it. The lady's complexion was almost swarthy, and the dark down on
her upper lip was almost a moustache. She had a large, firm,
masculine mouth and jaw; prominent, piercing, resolute brown eyes;
and thick, coal-black hair, growing unusually low down on her
forehead. Her expression—bright, frank, and intelligent—appeared,
while she was silent, to be altogether wanting in those feminine
attractions of gentleness and pliability, without which the beauty
of
the handsomest woman alive is beauty incomplete. To see such a face
as this set on shoulders that a sculptor would have longed to
model—to be charmed by the modest graces of action through which
the symmetrical limbs betrayed their beauty when they moved, and
then
to be almost repelled by the masculine form and masculine look of
the
features in which the perfectly shaped figure ended—was to feel a
sensation oddly akin to the helpless discomfort familiar to us all
in
sleep, when we recognise yet cannot reconcile the anomalies and
contradictions of a dream."Mr.
Hartright?" said the lady interrogatively, her dark face
lighting up with a smile, and softening and growing womanly the
moment she began to speak. "We resigned all hope of you last
night, and went to bed as usual. Accept my apologies for our
apparent
want of attention; and allow me to introduce myself as one of your
pupils. Shall we shake hands? I suppose we must come to it sooner
or
later—and why not sooner?"These
odd words of welcome were spoken in a clear, ringing, pleasant
voice.
The offered hand—rather large, but beautifully formed—was given
to me with the easy, unaffected self-reliance of a highly-bred
woman.
We sat down together at the breakfast-table in as cordial and
customary a manner as if we had known each other for years, and had
met at Limmeridge House to talk over old times by previous
appointment."I
hope you come here good-humouredly determined to make the best of
your position," continued the lady. "You will have to begin
this morning by putting up with no other company at breakfast than
mine. My sister is in her own room, nursing that essentially
feminine
malady, a slight headache; and her old governess, Mrs. Vesey, is
charitably attending on her with restorative tea. My uncle, Mr.
Fairlie, never joins us at any of our meals: he is an invalid, and
keeps bachelor state in his own apartments. There is nobody else in
the house but me. Two young ladies have been staying here, but they
went away yesterday, in despair; and no wonder. All through their
visit (in consequence of Mr. Fairlie's invalid condition) we
produced
no such convenience in the house as a flirtable, danceable,
small-talkable creature of the male sex; and the consequence was,
we
did nothing but quarrel, especially at dinner-time. How can you
expect four women to dine together alone every day, and not
quarrel?
We are such fools, we can't entertain each other at table. You see
I
don't think much of my own sex, Mr. Hartright—which will you have,
tea or coffee?—no woman does think much of her own sex, although
few of them confess it as freely as I do. Dear me, you look
puzzled.
Why? Are you wondering what you will have for breakfast? or are you
surprised at my careless way of talking? In the first case, I
advise
you, as a friend, to have nothing to do with that cold ham at your
elbow, and to wait till the omelette comes in. In the second case,
I
will give you some tea to compose your spirits, and do all a woman
can (which is very little, by-the-bye) to hold my tongue."She
handed me my cup of tea, laughing gaily. Her light flow of talk,
and
her lively familiarity of manner with a total stranger, were
accompanied by an unaffected naturalness and an easy inborn
confidence in herself and her position, which would have secured
her
the respect of the most audacious man breathing. While it was
impossible to be formal and reserved in her company, it was more
than
impossible to take the faintest vestige of a liberty with her, even
in thought. I felt this instinctively, even while I caught the
infection of her own bright gaiety of spirits—even while I did my
best to answer her in her own frank, lively way."Yes,
yes," she said, when I had suggested the only explanation I
could offer, to account for my perplexed looks, "I understand.
You are such a perfect stranger in the house, that you are puzzled
by
my familiar references to the worthy inhabitants. Natural enough: I
ought to have thought of it before. At any rate, I can set it right
now. Suppose I begin with myself, so as to get done with that part
of
the subject as soon as possible? My name is Marian Halcombe; and I
am
as inaccurate as women usually are, in calling Mr. Fairlie my
uncle,
and Miss Fairlie my sister. My mother was twice married: the first
time to Mr. Halcombe, my father; the second time to Mr. Fairlie, my
half-sister's father. Except that we are both orphans, we are in
every respect as unlike each other as possible. My father was a
poor
man, and Miss Fairlie's father was a rich man. I have got nothing,
and she has a fortune. I am dark and ugly, and she is fair and
pretty. Everybody thinks me crabbed and odd (with perfect justice);
and everybody thinks her sweet-tempered and charming (with more
justice still). In short, she is an angel; and I am—— Try some of
that marmalade, Mr. Hartright, and finish the sentence, in the name
of female propriety, for yourself. What am I to tell you about Mr.
Fairlie? Upon my honour, I hardly know. He is sure to send for you
after breakfast, and you can study him for yourself. In the
meantime,
I may inform you, first, that he is the late Mr. Fairlie's younger
brother; secondly, that he is a single man; and thirdly, that he is
Miss Fairlie's guardian. I won't live without her, and she can't
live
without me; and that is how I come to be at Limmeridge House. My
sister and I are honestly fond of each other; which, you will say,
is
perfectly unaccountable, under the circumstances, and I quite agree
with you—but so it is. You must please both of us, Mr. Hartright,
or please neither of us: and, what is still more trying, you will
be
thrown entirely upon our society. Mrs. Vesey is an excellent
person,
who possesses all the cardinal virtues, and counts for nothing; and
Mr. Fairlie is too great an invalid to be a companion for anybody.
I
don't know what is the matter with him, and the doctors don't know
what is the matter with him, and he doesn't know himself what is
the
matter with him. We all say it's on the nerves, and we none of us
know what we mean when we say it. However, I advise you to humour
his
little peculiarities, when you see him to-day. Admire his
collection
of coins, prints, and water-colour drawings, and you will win his
heart. Upon my word, if you can be contented with a quiet country
life, I don't see why you should not get on very well here. From
breakfast to lunch, Mr. Fairlie's drawings will occupy you. After
lunch, Miss Fairlie and I shoulder our sketch-books, and go out to
misrepresent Nature, under your directions. Drawing is
her
favourite whim, mind, not mine. Women can't draw—their minds are
too flighty, and their eyes are too inattentive. No matter—my
sister likes it; so I waste paint and spoil paper, for her sake, as
composedly as any woman in England. As for the evenings, I think we
can help you through them. Miss Fairlie plays delightfully. For my
own poor part, I don't know one note of music from the other; but I
can match you at chess, backgammon, ecarte, and (with the
inevitable
female drawbacks) even at billiards as well. What do you think of
the
programme? Can you reconcile yourself to our quiet, regular life?
or
do you mean to be restless, and secretly thirst for change and
adventure, in the humdrum atmosphere of Limmeridge House?"