PART FIRST
To begin with I wish to disclaim
the possession of those high gifts of imagination and expression
which would have enabled my pen to create for the reader the
personality of the man who called himself, after the Russian
custom, Cyril son of Isidor--Kirylo Sidorovitch--Razumov.
If I have ever had these gifts in
any sort of living form they have been smothered out of existence a
long time ago under a wilderness of words. Words, as is well known,
are the great foes of reality. I have been for many years a teacher
of languages. It is an occupation which at length becomes fatal to
whatever share of imagination, observation, and insight an ordinary
person may be heir to. To a teacher of languages there comes a time
when the world is but a place of many words and man appears a mere
talking animal not much more wonderful than a parrot.
This being so, I could not have
observed Mr. Razumov or guessed at his reality by the force of
insight, much less have imagined him as he was. Even to invent the
mere bald facts of his life would have been utterly beyond my
powers. But I think that without this declaration the readers of
these pages will be able to detect in the story the marks of
documentary evidence. And that is perfectly correct. It is based on
a document; all I have brought to it is my knowledge of the Russian
language, which is sufficient for what is attempted here. The
document, of course, is something in the nature of a journal, a
diary, yet not exactly that in its actual form. For instance, most
of it was not written up from day to day, though all the entries
are dated. Some of these entries cover months of time and extend
over dozens of pages. All the earlier part is a retrospect, in a
narrative form, relating to an event which took place about a year
before.
I must mention that I have lived
for a long time in Geneva. A whole quarter of that town, on account
of many Russians residing there, is called La Petite Russie-
-Little Russia. I had a rather
extensive connexion in Little Russia at that time. Yet I confess
that I have no comprehension of the Russian character. The
illogicality of their attitude, the arbitrariness of their
conclusions, the frequency of the exceptional, should present no
difficulty to a student of many grammars; but there must be
something else in the way, some special human trait--one of those
subtle differences that are beyond the ken of mere professors. What
must remain striking to a teacher of languages is the Russians'
extraordinary love of words.
They gather them up; they cherish
them, but they don't hoard them in their
breasts; on the contrary, they
are always ready to pour them out by the hour or by the night with
an enthusiasm, a sweeping abundance, with such an aptness of
application sometimes that, as in the case of very accomplished
parrots, one can't defend oneself from the suspicion that they
really understand what they say.
There is a generosity in their
ardour of speech which removes it as far as possible from common
loquacity; and it is ever too disconnected to be classed as
eloquence.
But I must apologize for
this digression.
It would be idle to inquire why
Mr. Razumov has left this record behind him. It is inconceivable
that he should have wished any human eye to see it. A mysterious
impulse of human nature comes into play here. Putting aside Samuel
Pepys, who has forced in this way the door of immortality,
innumerable people, criminals, saints, philosophers, young girls,
statesmen, and simple imbeciles, have kept self-revealing records
from vanity no doubt, but also from other more inscrutable
motives. There must be a
wonderful soothing power in mere words since so many men have used
them for self-communion. Being myself a quiet individual I take it
that what all men are really after is some form or perhaps only
some formula of peace. Certainly they are crying loud enough for it
at the present day. What sort of peace Kirylo Sidorovitch Razumov
expected to find in the writing up of his record it passeth my
understanding to guess.
The fact remains that he has
written it.
Mr. Razumov was a tall,
well-proportioned young man, quite unusually dark for a Russian
from the Central Provinces. His good looks would have been
unquestionable if it had not been for a peculiar lack of fineness
in the features. It was as if a face modelled vigorously in wax
(with some approach even to a classical correctness of type) had
been held close to a fire till all sharpness of line had been lost
in the softening of the material. But even thus he was sufficiently
good-looking. His manner, too, was good. In discussion he was
easily swayed by argument and authority. With his younger
compatriots he took the attitude of an inscrutable listener, a
listener of the kind that hears you out intelligently and
then--just changes the subject.
This sort of trick, which may
arise either from intellectual insufficiency or from an imperfect
trust in one's own convictions, procured for Mr. Razumov a
reputation of profundity. Amongst a lot of exuberant talkers, in
the habit of exhausting themselves daily by ardent discussion, a
comparatively taciturn personality is naturally credited with
reserve power. By his comrades at the St. Petersburg University,
Kirylo Sidorovitch Razumov, third year's student in philosophy, was
looked upon as a strong nature--an altogether trustworthy man.
This, in a country where an opinion may be a legal crime visited by
death or sometimes by a fate worse than mere death, meant that he
was worthy of being trusted with
forbidden opinions. He was liked
also for his amiability and for his quiet readiness to oblige his
comrades even at the cost of personal inconvenience.
Mr. Razumov was supposed to be
the son of an Archpriest and to be protected by a distinguished
nobleman--perhaps of his own distant province. But his outward
appearance accorded badly with such humble origin. Such a descent
was not credible. It was, indeed, suggested that Mr. Razumov was
the son of an Archpriest's pretty daughter--which, of course, would
put a different complexion on the matter. This theory also rendered
intelligible the protection of the distinguished nobleman. All
this, however, had never been investigated maliciously or
otherwise. No one knew or cared who the nobleman in question was.
Razumov received a modest but very sufficient allowance from the
hands of an obscure attorney, who seemed to act as his guardian in
some measure. Now and then he appeared at some professor's informal
reception. Apart from that Razumov was not known to have any social
relations in the town. He attended the obligatory lectures
regularly and was considered by the authorities as a very promising
student. He worked at home in the manner of a man who means to get
on, but did not shut himself up severely for that purpose. He was
always accessible, and there was nothing secret or reserved in his
life.
I
The origin of Mr. Razumov's
record is connected with an event characteristic of modern Russia
in the actual fact: the assassination of a prominent statesman--
and still more characteristic of the moral corruption of an
oppressed society where the noblest aspirations of humanity, the
desire of freedom, an ardent patriotism, the love of justice, the
sense of pity, and even the fidelity of simple minds are
prostituted to the lusts of hate and fear, the inseparable
companions of an uneasy despotism.
The fact alluded to above is the
successful attempt on the life of Mr. de P---, the President of the
notorious Repressive Commission of some years ago, the Minister of
State invested with extraordinary powers. The newspapers made noise
enough about that fanatical, narrow-chested figure in gold-laced
uniform, with a face of crumpled parchment, insipid, bespectacled
eyes, and the cross of the Order of St. Procopius hung under the
skinny throat. For a time, it may be remembered, not a month passed
without his portrait appearing in some one of the illustrated
papers of Europe. He served the monarchy by imprisoning, exiling,
or sending to the gallows men and women, young and old, with an
equable, unwearied industry. In his mystic acceptance of the
principle of autocracy he was bent on extirpating from the land
every vestige of anything that resembled freedom in public
institutions; and in his ruthless persecution of the rising
generation he seemed to aim at the destruction of the very hope of
liberty itself.
It is said that this execrated
personality had not enough imagination to be aware of the hate he
inspired. It is hardly credible; but it is a fact that he took very
few precautions for his safety. In the preamble of a certain famous
State paper he had declared once that "the thought of liberty has
never existed in the Act of the Creator. From the multitude of
men's counsel nothing could come but revolt and disorder; and
revolt and disorder in a world created for obedience and stability
is sin. It was not Reason but Authority which expressed the Divine
Intention. God was the Autocrat of the Universe
" It may be that the man
who made this
declaration believed that heaven
itself was bound to protect him in his remorseless defence of
Autocracy on this earth.
No doubt the vigilance of the
police saved him many times; but, as a matter of fact, when his
appointed fate overtook him, the competent authorities could not
have given him any warning. They had no knowledge of any conspiracy
against the Minister's life, had no hint of any plot through their
usual channels of information, had seen no signs, were aware of no
suspicious movements or dangerous persons.
Mr. de P--- was being driven
towards the railway station in a two-horse uncovered sleigh with
footman and coachman on the box. Snow had been falling all night,
making the roadway, uncleared as yet at this early hour, very heavy
for the horses. It was still falling thickly. But the sleigh must
have been observed and marked down. As it drew over to the left
before taking a turn, the footman noticed a peasant walking slowly
on the edge of the pavement with his hands in the pockets of his
sheepskin coat and his shoulders hunched up to his ears under the
falling snow. On being overtaken this peasant suddenly faced about
and swung his arm. In an instant there was a terrible shock, a
detonation muffled in the multitude of snowflakes; both horses lay
dead and mangled on the ground and the coachman, with a shrill cry,
had fallen off the box mortally wounded. The footman (who survived)
had no time to see the face of the man in the sheepskin coat. After
throwing the bomb this last got away, but it is supposed that,
seeing a lot of people surging up on all sides of him in the
falling snow, and all running towards the scene of the explosion,
he thought it safer to turn back with them.
In an incredibly short time an
excited crowd assembled round the sledge. The Minister-President,
getting out unhurt into the deep snow, stood near the groaning
coachman and addressed the people repeatedly in his weak,
colourless voice: "I beg of you to keep off: For the love of God, I
beg of you good people to keep off."
It was then that a tall young man
who had remained standing perfectly still within a carriage
gateway, two houses lower down, stepped out into the street and
walking up rapidly flung another bomb over the heads of the crowd.
It actually struck the Minister-President on the shoulder as he
stooped over his dying servant, then falling between his feet
exploded with a terrific concentrated violence, striking him dead
to the ground, finishing the wounded man and practically
annihilating the empty sledge in the twinkling of an eye. With a
yell of horror the crowd broke up and fled in all directions,
except for those who fell dead or dying where they stood nearest to
the Minister-President, and one or two others who did not fall till
they had run a little way.
The first explosion had brought
together a crowd as if by enchantment, the second made as swiftly a
solitude in the street for hundreds of yards in each direction.
Through the falling snow people looked from afar at the small heap
of dead bodies lying upon each other near the carcases of the two
horses. Nobody dared to approach till some Cossacks of a
street-patrol galloped up and, dismounting, began to turn over the
dead. Amongst the innocent victims of the second explosion laid out
on the pavement there was a body dressed in a peasant's sheepskin
coat; but the face was unrecognisable, there was absolutely nothing
found in the pockets of its poor clothing, and it was the only one
whose
identity was never
established.
That day Mr. Razumov got up at
his usual hour and spent the morning within the University
buildings listening to the lectures and working for some time in
the library. He heard the first vague rumour of something in the
way of bomb- throwing at the table of the students' ordinary, where
he was accustomed to eat his two o'clock dinner. But this rumour
was made up of mere whispers, and this was Russia, where it was not
always safe, for a student especially, to appear too much
interested in certain kinds of whispers. Razumov was one of those
men who, living in a period of mental and political unrest, keep an
instinctive hold on normal, practical, everyday life. He was aware
of the emotional tension of his time; he even responded to it in an
indefinite way. But his main concern was with his work, his
studies, and with his own future.
Officially and in fact without a
family (for the daughter of the Archpriest had long been dead), no
home influences had shaped his opinions or his feelings. He was as
lonely in the world as a man swimming in the deep sea. The word
Razumov was the mere label of a solitary individuality. There were
no Razumovs belonging to him anywhere. His closest parentage was
defined in the statement that he was a Russian. Whatever good he
expected from life would be given to or withheld from his hopes by
that connexion alone. This immense parentage suffered from the
throes of internal dissensions, and he shrank mentally from the
fray as a good-natured man may shrink from taking definite sides in
a violent family quarrel.
Razumov, going home, reflected
that having prepared all the matters of the forthcoming
examination, he could now devote his time to the subject of the
prize essay. He hankered after the silver medal. The prize was
offered by the Ministry of Education; the names of the competitors
would be submitted to the Minister himself. The mere fact of trying
would be considered meritorious in the higher quarters; and the
possessor of the prize would have a claim to an administrative
appointment of the better sort after he had taken his degree. The
student Razumov in an access of elation forgot the dangers menacing
the stability of the institutions which give rewards and
appointments. But remembering the medallist of the year before,
Razumov, the young man of no parentage, was sobered. He and some
others happened to be assembled in their comrade's rooms at the
very time when that last received the official advice of his
success. He was a quiet, unassuming young man: "Forgive me," he had
said with a faint apologetic smile and taking up his cap, "I am
going out to order up some wine. But I must first send a telegram
to my folk at home. I say! Won't the old people make it a festive
time for the neighbours for twenty miles around our place."
Razumov thought there was nothing
of that sort for him in the world. His success
would matter to no one. But he
felt no bitterness against the nobleman his protector, who was not
a provincial magnate as was generally supposed. He was in fact
nobody less than Prince K---, once a great and splendid figure in
the world and now, his day being over, a Senator and a gouty
invalid, living in a still splendid but more domestic manner. He
had some young children and a wife as aristocratic and proud as
himself.
In all his life Razumov was
allowed only once to come into personal contact with the
Prince.
It had the air of a chance
meeting in the little attorney's office. One day Razumov, coming in
by appointment, found a stranger standing there--a tall,
aristocratic- looking Personage with silky, grey sidewhiskers. The
bald-headed, sly little lawyer-fellow called out, "Come in--come
in, Mr. Razumov," with a sort of ironic heartiness. Then turning
deferentially to the stranger with the grand air, "A ward
of mine, your Excellency. One of
the most promising students of his faculty in the St. Petersburg
University."
To his intense surprise Razumov
saw a white shapely hand extended to him. He took it in great
confusion (it was soft and passive) and heard at the same time a
condescending murmur in which he caught only the words
"Satisfactory" and "Persevere." But the most amazing thing of all
was to feel suddenly a distinct pressure of the white shapely hand
just before it was withdrawn: a light pressure like a secret sign.
The emotion of it was terrible. Razumov's heart seemed to leap into
his throat. When he raised his eyes the aristocratic personage,
motioning the little lawyer aside, had opened the door and was
going out.
The attorney rummaged amongst the
papers on his desk for a time. "Do you know who that was?" he asked
suddenly.
Razumov, whose heart was thumping
hard yet, shook his head in silence.
"That was Prince K---. You wonder
what he could be doing in the hole of a poor legal rat like
myself--eh? These awfully great people have their sentimental
curiosities like common sinners. But if I were you, Kirylo
Sidorovitch," he continued, leering and laying a peculiar emphasis
on the patronymic, "I wouldn't boast at large of the introduction.
It would not be prudent, Kirylo Sidorovitch. Oh dear no! It would
be in fact dangerous for your future."
The young man's ears burned like
fire; his sight was dim. "That man!" Razumov was saying to himself.
"He!"
Henceforth it was by this
monosyllable that Mr. Razumov got into the habit of
referring mentally to the
stranger with grey silky side-whiskers. From that time too, when
walking in the more fashionable quarters, he noted with interest
the magnificent horses and carriages with Prince K---'s liveries on
the box. Once he saw the Princess get out--she was
shopping--followed by two girls, of which one was nearly a head
taller than the other. Their fair hair hung loose down their backs
in the English style; they had merry eyes, their coats, muffs, and
little fur caps were exactly alike, and their cheeks and noses were
tinged a cheerful pink by the frost. They crossed the pavement in
front of him, and Razumov went on his way smiling shyly to himself.
"His" daughters. They resembled "Him." The young man felt a glow of
warm friendliness towards these girls who would never know of his
existence. Presently they would marry Generals or Kammerherrs and
have girls and boys of their own, who perhaps would be aware of him
as a celebrated old professor, decorated, possibly a Privy
Councillor, one of the glories of Russia--nothing more!
But a celebrated professor was a
somebody. Distinction would convert the label Razumov into an
honoured name. There was nothing strange in the student Razumov's
wish for distinction. A man's real life is that accorded to him in
the thoughts of other men by reason of respect or natural love.
Returning home on the day of the attempt on Mr. de P---'s life
Razumov resolved to have a good try for the silver medal.
Climbing slowly the four flights
of the dark, dirty staircase in the house where he had his
lodgings, he felt confident of success. The winner's name would be
published in the papers on New Year's Day. And at the thought that
"He" would most probably read it there, Razumov stopped short on
the stairs for an instant, then went on smiling faintly at his own
emotion. "This is but a shadow," he said to himself, "but the medal
is a solid beginning."
With those ideas of industry in
his head the warmth of his room was agreeable and encouraging. "I
shall put in four hours of good work," he thought. But no sooner
had he closed the door than he was horribly startled. All black
against the usual tall stove of white tiles gleaming in the dusk,
stood a strange figure, wearing a skirted, close-fitting, brown
cloth coat strapped round the waist, in long boots, and with a
little Astrakhan cap on its head. It loomed lithe and martial.
Razumov was utterly confounded. It was only when the figure
advancing two paces asked in an untroubled, grave voice if the
outer door was closed that he regained his power of speech.
"Haldin!... Victor
Victorovitch!... Is that you?... Yes. The outer door is shut all
right. But this is indeed unexpected."
Victor Haldin, a student older
than most of his contemporaries at the University,
was not one of the industrious
set. He was hardly ever seen at lectures; the authorities had
marked him as "restless" and "unsound "--very bad notes. But he had
a great personal prestige with his comrades and influenced their
thoughts.
Razumov had never been intimate
with him. They had met from time to time at gatherings in other
students' houses. They had even had a discussion together-- one of
those discussions on first principles dear to the sanguine minds of
youth.
Razumov wished the man had chosen
some other time to come for a chat. He felt in good trim to tackle
the prize essay. But as Haldin could not be slightingly dismissed
Razumov adopted the tone of hospitality, asking him to sit down and
smoke.
"Kirylo Sidorovitch," said the
other, flinging off his cap, "we are not perhaps in exactly the
same camp. Your judgment is more philosophical. You are a man of
few words, but I haven't met anybody who dared to doubt the
generosity of your sentiments. There is a solidity about your
character which cannot exist without courage."
Razumov felt flattered and began
to murmur shyly something about being very glad of his good
opinion, when Haldin raised his hand.
"That is what I was saying to
myself," he continued, "as I dodged in the woodyard down by the
river-side. 'He has a strong character this young man,' I said to
myself. 'He does not throw his soul to the winds.' Your reserve has
always fascinated me, Kirylo Sidorovitch. So I tried to remember
your address. But look here--it was a piece of luck. Your dvornik
was away from the gate talking to a sleigh-driver on the other side
of the street. I met no one on the stairs, not a soul. As I came up
to your floor I caught sight of your landlady coming out of your
rooms. But she did not see me. She crossed the landing to her own
side, and then I slipped in. I have been here two hours expecting
you to come in every moment."
Razumov had listened in
astonishment; but before he could open his mouth Haldin added,
speaking deliberately, "It was I who removed de P--- this morning."
Razumov kept down a cry of dismay. The sentiment of his life being
utterly ruined by this contact with such a crime expressed itself
quaintly by a sort of half- derisive mental exclamation, "There
goes my silver medal!"
Haldin continued after waiting a
while--
"You say nothing, Kirylo
Sidorovitch! I understand your silence. To be sure, I cannot expect
you with your frigid English manner to embrace me. But never mind
your manners. You have enough heart to have heard the sound of
weeping and gnashing of teeth this man raised in the land. That
would be enough to get
over any philosophical hopes. He
was uprooting the tender plant. He had to be stopped. He was a
dangerous man--a convinced man. Three more years of his work would
have put us back fifty years into bondage--and look at all the
lives wasted, at all the souls lost in that time."
His curt, self-confident voice
suddenly lost its ring and it was in a dull tone that he added,
"Yes, brother, I have killed him. It's weary work."
Razumov had sunk into a chair.
Every moment he expected a crowd of policemen to rush in. There
must have been thousands of them out looking for that man walking
up and down in his room. Haldin was talking again in a restrained,
steady voice. Now and then he flourished an arm, slowly, without
excitement.
He told Razumov how he had
brooded for a year; how he had not slept properly for weeks. He and
"Another" had a warning of the Minister's movements from "a certain
person" late the evening before. He and that "Another" prepared
their "engines" and resolved to have no sleep till "the deed" was
done. They walked the streets under the falling snow with the
"engines" on them, exchanging not a word the livelong night. When
they happened to meet a police patrol they took each other by the
arm and pretended to be a couple of peasants on the spree. They
reeled and talked in drunken hoarse voices. Except for these
strange outbreaks they kept silence, moving on ceaselessly. Their
plans had been previously arranged. At daybreak they made their way
to the spot which they knew the sledge must pass. When it appeared
in sight they exchanged a muttered good-bye and separated. The
"other" remained at the corner, Haldin took up a position a little
farther up the street....
After throwing his "engine" he
ran off and in a moment was overtaken by the panic-struck people
flying away from the spot after the second explosion. They were
wild with terror. He was jostled once or twice. He slowed down for
the rush to pass him and then turned to the left into a narrow
street. There he was alone.
He marvelled at this immediate
escape. The work was done. He could hardly believe it. He fought
with an almost irresistible longing to lie down on the pavement and
sleep. But this sort of faintness--a drowsy faintness--passed off
quickly. He walked faster, making his way to one of the poorer
parts of the town in order to look up Ziemianitch.
This Ziemianitch, Razumov
understood, was a sort of town-peasant who had got on; owner of a
small number of sledges and horses for hire. Haldin paused in his
narrative to exclaim--
"A bright spirit! A hardy soul!
The best driver in St. Petersburg. He has a team of
three horses there
Ah! He's a
fellow!"
This man had declared himself
willing to take out safely, at any time, one or two persons to the
second or third railway station on one of the southern lines. But
there had been no time to warn him the night before. His usual
haunt seemed to be a low-class eating-house on the outskirts of the
town. When Haldin got there the man was not to be found. He was not
expected to turn up again till the evening. Haldin wandered away
restlessly.
He saw the gate of a woodyard
open and went in to get out of the wind which swept the bleak broad
thoroughfare. The great rectangular piles of cut wood loaded with
snow resembled the huts of a village. At first the watchman who
discovered him crouching amongst them talked in a friendly manner.
He was a dried-up old man wearing two ragged army coats one over
the other; his wizened little face, tied up under the jaw and over
the ears in a dirty red handkerchief, looked comical. Presently he
grew sulky, and then all at once without rhyme or reason began to
shout furiously.
"Aren't you ever going to clear
out of this, you loafer? We know all about factory hands of your
sort. A big, strong, young chap! You aren't even drunk. What do you
want here? You don't frighten us. Take yourself and your ugly eyes
away."
Haldin stopped before the sitting
Razumov. His supple figure, with the white forehead above which the
fair hair stood straight up, had an aspect of lofty daring.
"He did not like my eyes," he
said. "And so. here I am."
Razumov made an effort to speak
calmly.
"But pardon me, Victor
Victorovitch. We know each other so little
I don't see
why you.
"
"Confidence," said Haldin.
This word sealed Razumov's lips
as if a hand had been clapped on his mouth. His brain seethed with
arguments.
"And so--here you are," he
muttered through his teeth.
The other did not detect the tone
of anger. Never suspected it.
"Yes. And nobody knows I am here.
You are the last person that could be
suspected--should I get caught.
That's an advantage, you see. And then-- speaking to a superior
mind like yours I can well say all the truth. It occurred to me
that you--you have no one belonging to you--no ties, no one to
suffer for it if this came out by some means. There have been
enough ruined Russian homes as it is. But I don't see how my
passage through your rooms can be ever known. If I should be got
hold of, I'll know how to keep silent--no matter what they may be
pleased to do to me," he added grimly.
He began to walk again while
Razumov sat still appalled.
"You thought that--" he faltered
out almost sick with indignation.
"Yes, Razumov. Yes, brother. Some
day you shall help to build. You suppose that I am a terrorist,
now--a destructor of what is, But consider that the true destroyers
are they who destroy the spirit of progress and truth, not the
avengers who merely kill the bodies of the persecutors of human
dignity. Men like me are necessary to make room for self-contained,
thinking men like you. Well, we have made the sacrifice of our
lives, but all the same I want to escape if it can be done. It is
not my life I want to save, but my power to do. I won't live idle.
Oh no! Don't make any mistake, Razumov. Men like me are rare. And,
besides, an example like this is more awful to oppressors when the
perpetrator vanishes without a trace.
They sit in their offices and
palaces and quake. All I want you to do is to help me to vanish. No
great matter that. Only to go by and by and see Ziemianitch for me
at that place where I went this morning. Just tell him, 'He whom
you know wants a well-horsed sledge to pull up half an hour after
midnight at the seventh lamp- post on the left counting from the
upper end of Karabelnaya. If nobody gets in, the sledge is to run
round a block or two, so as to come back past the same spot in ten
minutes' time.'"
Razumov wondered why he had not
cut short that talk and told this man to go away long before. Was
it weakness or what?
He concluded that it was a sound
instinct. Haldin must have been seen. It was impossible that some
people should not have noticed the face and appearance of the man
who threw the second bomb. Haldin was a noticeable person. The
police in their thousands must have had his description within the
hour. With every moment the danger grew. Sent out to wander in the
streets he could not escape being caught in the end.
The police would very soon find
out all about him. They would set about discovering a conspiracy.
Everybody Haldin had ever known would be in the greatest danger.
Unguarded expressions, little facts in themselves innocent would be
counted for crimes. Razumov remembered certain words he said, the
speeches
he had listened to, the harmless
gatherings he had attended--it was almost impossible for a student
to keep out of that sort of thing, without becoming suspect to his
comrades.
Razumov saw himself shut up in a
fortress, worried, badgered, perhaps ill-used. He saw himself
deported by an administrative order, his life broken, ruined, and
robbed of all hope. He saw himself--at best--leading a miserable
existence under police supervision, in some small, faraway
provincial town, without friends to assist his necessities or even
take any steps to alleviate his lot--as others had.
Others had fathers, mothers,
brothers, relations, connexions, to move heaven and earth on their
behalf--he had no one. The very officials that sentenced him some
morning would forget his existence before sunset.
He saw his youth pass away from
him in misery and half starvation--his strength give way, his mind
become an abject thing. He saw himself creeping, broken down and
shabby, about the streets--dying unattended in some filthy hole of
a room, or on the sordid bed of a Government hospital.
He shuddered. Then the peace of
bitter calmness came over him. It was best to keep this man out of
the streets till he could be got rid of with some chance of
escaping. That was the best that could be done. Razumov, of course,
felt the safety of his lonely existence to be permanently
endangered. This evening's doings could turn up against him at any
time as long as this man lived and the present institutions
endured. They appeared to him rational and indestructible at that
moment. They had a force of harmony--in contrast with the horrible
discord of this man's presence. He hated the man. He said
quietly--
"Yes, of course, I will go. 'You
must give me precise directions, and for the rest-- depend on
me."
"Ah! You are a fellow!
Collected--cool as a cucumber. A regular Englishman. Where did you
get your soul from? There aren't many like you. Look here, brother!
Men like me leave no posterity, but their souls are not lost. No
man's soul is ever lost. It works for itself--or else where would
be the sense of self- sacrifice, of martyrdom, of conviction, of
faith--the labours of the soul? What will become of my soul when I
die in the way I must die--soon--very soon perhaps? It shall not
perish. Don't make a mistake, Razumov. This is not murder--it is
war, war. My spirit shall go on warring in some Russian body till
all falsehood is swept out of the world. The modern civilization is
false, but a new revelation shall come out of Russia. Ha! you say
nothing. You are a sceptic. I respect your philosophical
scepticism, Razumov, but don't touch the soul. The Russian soul
that lives in all of us. It has a future. It has a mission, I tell
you, or else why should I have been moved to do
this--reckless--like a butcher--in the middle of all these
innocent
people--scattering death--I!
I!... I wouldn't hurt a fly!" "Not so loud," warned Razumov
harshly.
Haldin sat down abruptly, and
leaning his head on his folded arms burst into tears. He wept for a
long time. The dusk had deepened in the room. Razumov, motionless
in sombre wonder, listened to the sobs.
The other raised his head, got up
and with an effort mastered his voice.
"Yes. Men like me leave no
posterity," he repeated in a subdued tone, "I have a sister though.
She's with my old mother--I persuaded them to go abroad this
year--thank God. Not a bad little girl my sister. She has the most
trustful eyes of any human being that ever walked this earth. She
will marry well, I hope. She may have children--sons perhaps. Look
at me. My father was a Government official in the provinces, He had
a little land too. A simple servant of God--a true Russian in his
way. His was the soul of obedience. But I am not like him.
They
say I resemble my mother's eldest
brother, an officer. They shot him in '28. Under Nicholas, you
know. Haven't I told you that this is war, war.
But God of Justice!
This is weary work."
Razumov, in his chair, leaning
his head on his hand, spoke as if from the bottom of an
abyss.
"You believe in God,
Haldin?"
"There you go catching at words
that are wrung from one. What does it matter? What was it the
Englishman said: 'There is a divine soul in things. ' Devil
take
him--I don't remember now. But he
spoke the truth. When the day of you thinkers comes don't you
forget what's divine in the Russian soul--and that's resignation.
Respect that in your intellectual restlessness and don't let your
arrogant wisdom spoil its message to the world. I am speaking to
you now like a man with a rope round his neck. What do you imagine
I am? A being in revolt? No. It's you thinkers who are in
everlasting revolt. I am one of the resigned. When the necessity of
this heavy work came to me and I understood that it had to be
done--what did I do? Did I exult? Did I take pride in my purpose?
Did I try to weigh its worth and consequences? No! I was resigned.
I thought 'God's will be done.'"
He threw himself full length on
Razumov's bed and putting the backs of his hands over his eyes
remained perfectly motionless and silent. Not even the sound of his
breathing could be heard. The dead stillness or the room remained
undisturbed till in the darkness Razumov said gloomily--
"Haldin."
"Yes," answered the other
readily, quite invisible now on the bed and without the slightest
stir.
"Isn't it time for me to
start?"
"Yes, brother." The other was
heard, lying still in the darkness as though he were talking in his
sleep. "The time has come to put fate to the test."
He paused, then gave a few lucid
directions in the quiet impersonal voice of a man in a trance.
Razumov made ready without a word of answer. As he was leaving the
room the voice on the bed said after him--
"Go with God, thou silent
soul."
On the landing, moving softly,
Razumov locked the door and put the key in his pocket.
II
The words and events of that
evening must have been graven as if with a steel tool on Mr.
Razumov's brain since he was able to write his relation with such
fullness and precision a good many months afterwards.
The record of the thoughts which
assailed him in the street is even more minute and abundant. They
seem to have rushed upon him with the greater freedom because his
thinking powers were no longer crushed by Haldin's presence--the
appalling presence of a great crime and the stunning force of a
great fanaticism. On looking through the pages of Mr. Razumov's
diary I own that a "rush of thoughts" is not an adequate
image.
The more adequate description
would be a tumult of thoughts--the faithful reflection of the state
of his feelings. The thoughts in themselves were not numerous--they
were like the thoughts of most human beings, few and simple-- but
they cannot be reproduced here in all their exclamatory repetitions
which went on in an endless and weary turmoil--for the walk was
long.
If to the Western reader they
appear shocking, inappropriate, or even improper, it must be
remembered that as to the first this may be the effect of my crude
statement. For the rest I will only remark here that this is not a
story of the West of Europe.
Nations it may be have fashioned
their Governments, but the Governments have paid them back in the
same coin. It is unthinkable that any young Englishman should find
himself in Razumov's situation. This being so it would be a vain
enterprise to imagine what he would think. The only safe surmise to
make is that he would not think as Mr. Razumov thought at this
crisis of his fate. He would not have an hereditary and personal
knowledge or the means by which historical autocracy represses
ideas, guards its power, and defends its existence. By an act of
mental extravagance he might imagine himself arbitrarily thrown
into prison, but it would never occur to him unless he were
delirious (and perhaps not even then) that he could be beaten with
whips as a practical measure either of investigation or of
punishment.
This is but a crude and obvious
example of the different conditions of Western thought. I don't
know that this danger occurred, specially, to Mr. Razumov. No doubt
it entered unconsciously into the general dread and the general
appallingness of this crisis. Razumov, as has been seen, was aware
of more subtle ways in which an individual may be undone by the
proceedings of a
despotic Government. A simple
expulsion from the University (the very least that could happen to
him), with an impossibility to continue his studies anywhere, was
enough to ruin utterly a young man depending entirely upon the
development of his natural abilities for his place in the world. He
was a Russian: and for him to be implicated meant simply sinking
into the lowest social depths amongst the hopeless and the
destitute--the night birds of the city.
The peculiar circumstances of
Razumov's parentage, or rather of his lack of parentage, should be
taken into the account of his thoughts. And he remembered them too.
He had been lately reminded of them in a peculiarly atrocious way
by this fatal Haldin. "Because I haven't that, must everything else
be taken away from me?" he thought.
He nerved himself for another
effort to go on. Along the roadway sledges glided phantom-like and
jingling through a fluttering whiteness on the black face of the
night. "For it is a crime," he was saying to himself. "A murder is
a murder.
Though, of course, some sort of
liberal institutions
"
A feeling of horrible sickness
came over him. "I must be courageous," he exhorted himself
mentally. All his strength was suddenly gone as if taken out by a
hand.
Then by a mighty effort of will
it came back because he was afraid of fainting in the street and
being picked up by the police with the key of his lodgings in his
pocket. They would find Haldin there, and then, indeed, he would be
undone.
Strangely enough it was this fear
which seems to have kept him up to the end. The passers-by were
rare. They came upon him suddenly, looming up black in the
snowflakes close by, then vanishing all at once-without
footfalls.
It was the quarter of the very
poor. Razumov noticed an elderly woman tied up in ragged shawls.
Under the street lamp she seemed a beggar off duty. She walked
leisurely in the blizzard as though she had no home to hurry to,
she hugged under one arm a round loaf of black bread with an air of
guarding a priceless booty: and Razumov averting his glance envied
her the peace of her mind and the serenity of her fate.
To one reading Mr. Razumov's
narrative it is really a wonder how he managed to keep going as he
did along one interminable street after another on pavements that
were gradually becoming blocked with snow. It was the thought of
Haldin locked up in his rooms and the desperate desire to get rid
of his presence which drove him forward. No rational determination
had any part in his exertions. Thus, when on arriving at the low
eating-house he heard that the man of horses, Ziemianitch, was not
there, he could only stare stupidly.
The waiter, a wild-haired youth
in tarred boots and a pink shirt, exclaimed, uncovering his pale
gums in a silly grin, that Ziemianitch had got his skinful early in
the afternoon and had gone away with a bottle under each arm to
keep it up amongst the horses--he supposed.
The owner of the vile den, a bony
short man in a dirty cloth caftan coming down to his heels, stood
by, his hands tucked into his belt, and nodded confirmation.
The reek of spirits, the greasy
rancid steam of food got Razumov by the throat. He struck a table
with his clenched hand and shouted violently--
"You lie."
Bleary unwashed faces were turned
to his direction. A mild-eyed ragged tramp drinking tea at the next
table moved farther away. A murmur of wonder arose with an
undertone of uneasiness. A laugh was heard too, and an exclamation,
"There! there!" jeeringly soothing. The waiter looked all round and
announced to the room--
"The gentleman won't believe that
Ziemianitch is drunk."
From a distant corner a hoarse
voice belonging to a horrible, nondescript, shaggy being with a
black face like the muzzle of a bear grunted angrily--
"The cursed driver of thieves.
What do we want with his gentlemen here? We are all honest folk in
this place."
Razumov, biting his lip till
blood came to keep himself from bursting into imprecations,
followed the owner of the den, who, whispering "Come along, little
father," led him into a tiny hole of a place behind the wooden
counter, whence proceeded a sound of splashing. A wet and
bedraggled creature, a sort of sexless and shivering scarecrow,
washed glasses in there, bending over a wooden tub by the light of
a tallow dip.
"Yes, little father," the man in
the long caftan said plaintively. He had a brown, cunning little
face, a thin greyish beard. Trying to light a tin lantern he hugged
it to his breast and talked garrulously the while.
He would show Ziemianitch to the
gentleman to prove there were no lies told. And he would show him
drunk. His woman, it seems, ran away from him last night. "Such a
hag she was! Thin! Pfui!" He spat. They were always running away
from that driver of the devil--and he sixty years old too; could
never get used to it. But each heart knows sorrow after its own
kind and Ziemianitch was a born fool all
his days. And then he would fly
to the bottle. "'Who could bear life in our land without the
bottle?' he says. A proper Russian man--the little pig.
Be pleased to
follow me."
Razumov crossed a quadrangle of
deep snow enclosed between high walls with innumerable windows.
Here and there a dim yellow light hung within the four- square mass
of darkness. The house was an enormous slum, a hive of human
vermin, a monumental abode of misery towering on the verge of
starvation and despair.
In a corner the ground sloped
sharply down, and Razumov followed the light of the lantern through
a small doorway into a long cavernous place like a neglected
subterranean byre. Deep within, three shaggy little horses tied up
to rings hung their heads together, motionless and shadowy in the
dim light of the lantern. It must have been the famous team of
Haldin's escape. Razumov peered fearfully into the gloom. His guide
pawed in the straw with his foot.
"Here he is. Ah! the little
pigeon. A true Russian man. 'No heavy hearts for me,' he says.
'Bring out the bottle and take your ugly mug out of my sight.' Ha!
ha! ha!
That's the fellow he is."
He held the lantern over a prone
form of a man, apparently fully dressed for outdoors. His head was
lost in a pointed cloth hood. On the other side of a heap of straw
protruded a pair of feet in monstrous thick boots.
"Always ready to drive,"
commented the keeper of the eating-house. "A proper Russian driver
that. Saint or devil, night or day is all one to Ziemianitch when
his heart is free from sorrow. 'I don't ask who you are, but where
you want to go,' he says. He would drive Satan himself to his own
abode and come back chirruping to his horses. Many a one he has
driven who is clanking his chains in the Nertchinsk mines by this
time."
Razumov shuddered.
"Call him, wake him up," he
faltered out.
The other set down his light,
stepped back and launched a kick at the prostrate sleeper. The man
shook at the impact but did not move. At the third kick he grunted
but remained inert as before.
The eating-house keeper desisted
and fetched a deep sigh.
"You see for yourself how it is.
We have done what we can for you."
He picked up the lantern. The
intense black spokes of shadow swung about in the circle of light.
A terrible fury--the blind rage of self-preservation--possessed
Razumov.
"Ah! The vile beast," he bellowed
out in an unearthly tone which made the lantern jump and tremble!
"I shall wake you! Give me...give me..."
He looked round wildly, seized
the handle of a stablefork and rushing forward struck at the
prostrate body with inarticulate cries. After a time his cries
ceased, and the rain of blows fell in the stillness and shadows of
the cellar-like stable.
Razumov belaboured Ziemianitch
with an insatiable fury, in great volleys of sounding thwacks.
Except for the violent movements of Razumov nothing stirred,
neither the beaten man nor the spoke-like shadows on the walls. And
only the sound of blows was heard. It was a weird scene.
Suddenly there was a sharp crack.
The stick broke and half of it flew far away into the gloom beyond
the light. At the same time Ziemianitch sat up. At this Razumov
became as motionless as the man with the lantern--only his breast
heaved for air as if ready to burst.
Some dull sensation of pain must
have penetrated at last the consoling night of drunkenness
enwrapping the "bright Russian soul" of Haldin's enthusiastic
praise. But Ziemianitch evidently saw nothing. His eyeballs blinked
all white in the light once, twice--then the gleam went out. For a
moment he sat in the straw with closed eyes with a strange air of
weary meditation, then fell over slowly on his side without making
the slightest sound. Only the straw rustled a little.
Razumov stared wildly, fighting
for his breath. After a second or two he heard a light snore.
He flung from him the piece of
stick remaining in his grasp, and went off with great hasty strides
without looking back once.
After going heedlessly for some
fifty yards along the street he walked into a snowdrift and was up
to his knees before he stopped.
This recalled him to himself; and
glancing about he discovered he had been going in the wrong
direction. He retraced his steps, but now at a more moderate pace.
When passing before the house he had just left he flourished his
fist at the sombre refuge of misery and crime rearing its sinister
bulk on the white ground. It had an air of brooding. He let his arm
fall by his side--discouraged.
Ziemianitch's passionate
surrender to sorrow and consolation had baffled him.
That was the people. A true
Russian man! Razumov was glad he had beaten that brute--the "bright
soul" of the other. Here they were: the people and the
enthusiast.
Between the two he was done for.
Between the drunkenness of the peasant incapable of action and the
dream-intoxication of the idealist incapable of perceiving the
reason of things, and the true character of men. It was a sort of
terrible childishness. But children had their masters. "Ah! the
stick, the stick, the stern hand," thought Razumov, longing for
power to hurt and destroy.
He was glad he had thrashed that
brute. The physical exertion had left his body in a comfortable
glow. His mental agitation too was clarified as if all the
feverishness had gone out of him in a fit of outward violence.
Together with the persisting sense of terrible danger he was
conscious now of a tranquil, unquenchable hate.
He walked slower and slower. And
indeed, considering the guest he had in his rooms, it was no wonder
he lingered on the way. It was like harbouring a pestilential
disease that would not perhaps take your life, but would take from
you all that made life worth living--a subtle pest that would
convert earth into a hell.
What was he doing now? Lying on
the bed as if dead, with the back of his hands over his eyes?
Razumov had a morbidly vivid vision of Haldin on his bed--the white
pillow hollowed by the head, the legs in long boots, the upturned
feet. And in his abhorrence he said to himself, "I'll kill him when
I get home." But he knew very well that that was of no use. The
corpse hanging round his neck would be nearly as fatal as the
living man. Nothing short of complete annihilation would do. And
that was impossible. What then? Must one kill oneself to escape
this visitation?
Razumov's despair was too
profoundly tinged with hate to accept that issue.
And yet it was despair--nothing
less--at the thought of having to live with Haldin for an
indefinite number of days in mortal alarm at every sound. But
perhaps when he heard that this "bright soul" of Ziemianitch
suffered from a drunken eclipse the fellow would take his infernal
resignation somewhere else. And that was not likely on the face of
it.
Razumov thought: "I am being
crushed--and I can't even run away." Other men had somewhere a
corner of the earth--some little house in the provinces where they
had a right to take their troubles. A material refuge. He had
nothing. He had not even a moral refuge--the refuge of confidence.
To whom could he go with this
tale--in all this great, great
land?
Razumov stamped his foot--and
under the soft carpet of snow felt the hard ground of Russia,
inanimate, cold, inert, like a sullen and tragic mother hiding her
face under a winding-sheet--his native soil!--his very own--without
a fireside, without a heart!
He cast his eyes upwards and
stood amazed. The snow had ceased to fall, and now, as if by a
miracle, he saw above his head the clear black sky of the northern
winter, decorated with the sumptuous fires of the stars. It was a
canopy fit for the resplendent purity of the snows.
Razumov received an almost
physical impression of endless space and of countless
millions.
He responded to it with the
readiness of a Russian who is born to an inheritance of space and
numbers. Under the sumptuous immensity of the sky, the snow covered
the endless forests, the frozen rivers, the plains of an immense
country, obliterating the landmarks, the accidents of the ground,
levelling everything under its uniform whiteness, like a monstrous
blank page awaiting the record of an inconceivable history. It
covered the passive land with its lives of countless people like
Ziemianitch and its handful of agitators like this
Haldin--murdering foolishly.
It was a sort of sacred inertia.
Razumov felt a respect for it. A voice seemed to cry within him,
"Don't touch it." It was a guarantee of duration, of safety, while
the travail of maturing destiny went on--a work not of revolutions
with their passionate levity of action and their shifting
impulses--but of peace. What it needed was not the conflicting
aspirations of a people, but a will strong and one: it wanted not
the babble of many voices, but a man--strong and one!
Razumov stood on the point of
conversion. He was fascinated by its approach, by its overpowering
logic. For a train of thought is never false. The falsehood lies
deep in the necessities of existence, in secret fears and
half-formed ambitions, in the secret confidence combined with a
secret mistrust of ourselves, in the love of hope and the dread of
uncertain days.
In Russia, the land of spectral
ideas and disembodied aspirations, many brave minds have turned
away at last from the vain and endless conflict to the one great
historical fact of the land. They turned to autocracy for the peace
of their patriotic conscience as a weary unbeliever, touched by
grace, turns to the faith of his fathers for the blessing of
spiritual rest. Like other Russians before him, Razumov, in
conflict with himself, felt the touch of grace upon his
forehead.
"Haldin means disruption," he
thought to himself, beginning to walk again. "What is he with his
indignation, with his talk of bondage--with his talk of God's
justice? All that means disruption. Better that thousands should
suffer than that a people should become a disintegrated mass,
helpless like dust in the wind.
Obscurantism is better than the
light of incendiary torches. The seed germinates in the night. Out
of the dark soil springs the perfect plant. But a volcanic eruption
is sterile, the ruin of the fertile ground. And am I, who love my
country-- who have nothing but that to love and put my faith in--am
I to have my future, perhaps my usefulness, ruined by this
sanguinary fanatic?"
The grace entered into Razumov.
He believed now in the man who would come at the appointed
time.
What is a throne? A few pieces of
wood upholstered in velvet. But a throne is a seat of power too.
The form of government is the shape of a tool--an instrument. But
twenty thousand bladders inflated by the noblest sentiments and
jostling against each other in the air are a miserable incumbrance
of space, holding no power, possessing no will, having nothing to
give.
He went on thus, heedless of the
way, holding a discourse with himself with extraordinary abundance
and facility. Generally his phrases came to him slowly, after a
conscious and painstaking wooing. Some superior power had inspired
him with a flow of masterly argument as certain converted sinners
become overwhelmingly loquacious.
He felt an austere
exultation.
"What are the luridly smoky
lucubrations of that fellow to the clear grasp of my intellect?" he
thought. "Is not this my country? Have I not got forty million
brothers?" he asked himself, unanswerably victorious in the silence
of his breast. And the fearful thrashing he had given the inanimate
Ziemianitch seemed to him a sign of intimate union, a pathetically
severe necessity of brotherly love. "No! If I must suffer let me at
least suffer for my convictions, not for a crime my reason-- my
cool superior reason--rejects."
He ceased to think for a moment.
The silence in his breast was complete. But he felt a suspicious
uneasiness, such as we may experience when we enter an unlighted
strange place--the irrational feeling that something may jump upon
us in the dark--the absurd dread of the unseen.
Of course he was far from being a
moss-grown reactionary. Everything was not for the best. Despotic
bureaucracy... abuses... corruption... and so on. Capable
men were wanted. Enlightened
intelligences. Devoted hearts. But absolute power should be
preserved--the tool ready for the man--for the great autocrat of
the future. Razumov believed in him. The logic of history made him
unavoidable. The state of the people demanded him, "What else?" he
asked himself ardently, "could move all that mass in one direction?
Nothing could. Nothing but a single will."
He was persuaded that he was
sacrificing his personal longings of liberalism-- rejecting the
attractive error for the stern Russian truth. "That's patriotism,"
he observed mentally, and added, "There's no stopping midway on
that road," and then remarked to himself, "I am not a
coward."
And again there was a dead
silence in Razumov's breast. He walked with lowered head, making
room for no one. He walked slowly and his thoughts returning spoke
within him with solemn slowness.
"What is this Haldin? And what am
I? Only two grains of sand. But a great mountain is made up of just
such insignificant grains. And the death of a man or of many men is
an insignificant thing. Yet we combat a contagious pestilence. Do I
want his death? No! I would save him if I could--but no one can do
that--he is the withered member which must be cut off. If I must
perish through him, let me at least not perish with him, and
associated against my will with his sombre folly that understands
nothing either of men or things. Why should I leave a false
memory?"
It passed through his mind that
there was no one in the world who cared what sort of memory he left
behind him. He exclaimed to himself instantly, "Perish vainly for a
falsehood!... What a miserable fate!"
He was now in a more animated
part of the town. He did not remark the crash of two colliding
sledges close to the curb. The driver of one bellowed tearfully at
his fellow--
"Oh, thou vile wretch!"