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Lynette had waited all her life for one man. But now that they are together, something is terribly wrong.
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Blue Ruin
by Grace Livingston Hill
First published in 1928
This edition published by Reading Essentials
Victoria, BC Canada with branch offices in the Czech Republic and Germany
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Chapter 1
1920s New England
Lynette went singing around the kitchen like a happy bird let loose, spreading delicate slices of bread, folding them together with mysterious delectable concoctions, cutting them in hearts and stars and diamonds, wrapping them in waxed paper, each fold creased down with firm fingers, gladly, as if the task were joy.
In the dining room her mother crumbed the breakfast table and set the extra dishes away in the rare old ancestral cupboard. She smiled tenderly and sighed in the same breath. How happy Lynnie was! The dear child! Life’s morning, and the world before her! Would the realization satisfy her anticipations?
This was Lynette’s first day at home after practically four years away at college. Oh, of course there had been vacations, blessed, blissful respites from the terror of the long, long loneliness without her. But now she was at home, really at home, come to stay. She asserted it with a glad ring to her voice and a light in her eyes that met an answering light from her mother’s eyes whenever she said it. Yet the mother knew in her heart of hearts that she had not really come to stay. This was only another vacation, possibly a few days or weeks longer than the others had been, but really after all just a time to get ready to go forever out of the brightness of her girlhood into the goal of every maiden’s life—a home of her own. Out of childhood forever, into a woman’s life.
The mother’s lips trembled at the thought, even while she smiled. How was she going to stand it when it really came? She had not ever definitely faced the thought even yet, though there had been no lack of reminders in the way of eager admirers among the young men and boys of her daughter’s acquaintance, ever since Lynette’s primary days.
But Lynette had eyes for only one.
The mother’s troubled glance went out of the window, down the sunny road toward a large white house set back from the street, with nasturtiums bordering the path to the gate. A young man came out of the door at that moment and went down the path and out the gate. He was coming with steps that were as glad as Lynette’s voice.
Was Dana Whipple the right mate for Lynette, her pearl of a girl, heart of gold, spirit of fire and dew?
The trouble grew in the mother’s eyes as she watched the young man swing joyously along toward her door, a fine specimen of manhood, noticeable even at a distance for his grace of carriage and his supple symmetrical form. As he entered the gate he took off his hat and lifted his head with a toss as if he enjoyed the play of the breeze with his heavy, waving crest of dark hair; his well-chiseled features; his great, dark eyes under straight, fine brows; the facile lips that could so lightly curve into a smile and show the perfect white teeth that helped to make his expression so vivid. Yes, there was no fault to find with his appearance. “Perfectly stunning!” one of Lynette’s college friends had called him last summer when she met him.
Looking at him now, as she had never looked before, with the light of sudden premonition in her heart, Lynette’s mother was forced to admit that he was a young man of great charm. Nor was his charm all of personal appearance. He had a mind of unusual vigor. He had taken high rank in college and come off with more honors than she knew how to name, and in seminary was considered the most promising member of his class. It was generally understood that he was in line for a pretty good thing in his chosen profession as a minister of the Gospel. Indeed he was spoken of everywhere as being something most rare and unusual in these days when so few were choosing to devote their lives to things religious.
But of course, Lynette’s mother told herself as she watched the oncoming young man, Dana had a reputation to maintain. There was something in the fact that he was named for a grandfather who had been famous as a preacher and orator in his denomination. It was expected of Dana that he would carry on the tradition of the family which went with the name. One must remember that in trying to make a fair estimate of his character. Then as quickly as the thought had come, Lynette’s mother rebuked her own soul.
Nevertheless, as she stood there while he came briskly up the walk to the door, she felt that something she had been evading and trying to forget for years, some sudden possibility of peril or grave mistake was approaching swiftly. Somehow she felt that this day was a crisis, a kind of turning point. Today Dana and Lynette would probably settle their future irrevocably. All through the years they had drifted and played, carefree and joyous, taking their friendship as a matter of course, the future all roseate with possibilities, content to go through the college days with zest and earnestness. But now at last it was over, and the inevitable time had come when this friendship between the boy and girl must have its reckoning, its final consummation, and the mother’s heart contracted with sudden fear and anxiety over the thought. Had she been wrong to let these two be so close during the years, encouraging their friendship because it seemed so safe a thing for her girl? It seemed that all was as it should be. But was it? Was Dana Whipple the kind of man who could make her daughter happy? Had she perhaps laid overzealous hands upon God’s sacred plans for the lives of these two and thought to help them on to please herself?
That the boy and girl had something more than friendship in their eagerness this morning she could not doubt. Her fearful heart caught the knowledge of it in the lilt of Lynette’s voice, in the joyous call of the boy upon the doorstep now. She ought to be glad at this joy that was coming to them today, Lynette’s birthday, her first day at home after the college years—yes, she ought to be glad, but there was a sudden sinking of her heart, a fearful realization that what she had done was done, and she could not face the boy, not yet.
She made a stealthy retreat toward the stairs and vanished as Dana opened the door. From the upper hall she opened the back stair door and called down softly.
“He’s come, Lynnie. You go to the door. I’ll be down in a minute.”
“Where are you all?” Dana called in his glad, boyish voice that yet had taken on a new manly tone of command. “Lynn! Oh, I say! Aren’t you ready yet? I expected to see you waiting for me out on the porch. I’m late. I had to send a telegram for mother after I was ready to start.”
There was an instant of utter silence while the mother’s heart stood still and seemed to count a million. Then Lynette’s cheerful girl voice, just as always only for that lilt of joy, rang out a saucy welcome, and the mother drew a breath. She closed her eyes for an instant with a hurried prayer, “O Father, take care of my little girl!” and hastened down. The note of naturalness had been such a relief! After all, things were just as they always had been—yet! She wanted to hold the moment and go down and talk to them—just as they always had been—once more, at least.
“There you are, Mother Brooke,” called Dana cheerfully as she appeared. “I almost thought you weren’t glad to see me you were so long in coming. Isn’t it great for us both to be back again? I declare it doesn’t seem real, we’ve waited for it so long!”
The mother drew a deep breath, and life moved on again as it had been going for years. After all, who could be like Dana? Reassurance surrounded him and permeated the air. Her doubts vanished. How handsome he was standing there with his soft panama hat in his hand and the light of the morning on the crest of his dark hair, his eyes flashing joyous welcome, his whole attitude like a nice big boy out for a lark. She beamed upon him as of old. Who could help it? Everybody loved Dana, and he seemed really to care for her welcome. He was an unusual fellow to be interested in an old woman, even though she was the mother of the girl he loved. Young men nowadays didn’t stop to pay much attention to their elders.
Putting aside her misgivings, Mrs. Brooke hurried out to the kitchen to help her daughter put the final touch to the glorified lunch basket that was prepared for the day’s feast. After all, if one must give up a daughter it was less like giving up to hand her over to a son who loved you. And it would be easy to love Dana. She could just let her natural feelings go and Dana would be like her own boy. She realized that she had never quite done this in the past, for always there had been this dim shadowy possibility ahead of her, that perhaps Dana would not be the right one. Some passing expression, something lax about the handsome lips now and then, a shade of weakness from some thrice-removed ancestor possibly—what was it made her feel so? She could not tell. Only a mother’s natural dread perhaps of the man who should finally call her one daughter his own.
There was nothing left to be done to the lunch basket except to tuck in a bottle of olives and the salt and pepper. Lynette had not forgotten anything. She folded the waxed paper over the whole and smoothly covered it with an old piece of tablecloth she kept for such occasions, which could be turned into a towel after the picnic when they went down to the brook to wash their hands. Then as if to make up for her sad thoughts of a few minutes before, she slipped out of the back door and, stooping, picked a few stalks of cool, waxen lilies of the valley from the lush green leaves that grew by the old doorstep. Coming in quickly with a Madonna look upon her face she tucked them down against the snowy cloth, half hidden by a sheathing leaf. Her child must not go forth today without her blessing even though her soul shrank back with premonitions. Lynette would understand. She always had understood.
She watched the two as they went forth happily carrying the basket between them, Lynette insisting upon talking her share, their hands together on the willow handle, her face looking up laughing, all the dimples playing shyly, a sparkle in her eyes; his eyes smiling down. Did he see how lovely Lynette was? Yes, he seemed to. There was deep admiration, almost reverence—almost reverence in his eyes. Why was it she was possessed to put that almost in? Was it just that a mother could never be quite satisfied—satisfied for such a girl as Lynette at least? And what more could she desire? How utterly silly and foolish of her!
“What’s become of Dana’s fine new car they’ve talked so much about?” It was the fragile little grandmother’s spritely voice, as the old lady stood just behind her daughter looking out after the two.
Mrs. Brooke turned with a start.
“Why, Mother, are you here? I thought you were still asleep!”
“You wouldn’t expect me to stay asleep on Lynnie’s birthday, would you?” she asked playfully.
“Oh,” said the daughter self-reproachfully, “she wanted to come in and kiss you good-morning, but I wouldn’t let her. I told her you had sat up so late last night waiting for her to arrive, that you ought to sleep. I’m sorry I didn’t let her come anyway.”
“That’s all right,” said the little old lady with a cheery smile. “I’ll see her when she gets back. Why didn’t Dana take his grand new car? I’ve been trembling all the week thinking Lynnie had to go out in it with him driving. He ought to get used to it before he takes her out. She’s too precious. I hate those automobiles anyway. The papers are just full of accidents. I believe they’re a device of the devil.”
Her daughter smiled.
“Oh, Mother, you and I will have to get used to the modern things. You know our fathers felt just that way about riding on the steam cars.”
“That was different,” said the old lady with dignity. “But why didn’t Dana take it? Seems as if he ought to when he had it.”
“Why, I heard him say something about its being at the garage being fixed some way, or washed or something. They’re having company down at Whipples’ this afternoon, and oh, yes, that was it, he said his aunt wanted it washed before they came. He did suggest that he and Lynnie wait till it came home about ten o’clock, but Lynnie said she would rather walk this time; it would be more like old times.”
The old lady smiled a quivering smile.
“Old times!” she said half jocosely. “They’re gone!” Then in a change of tone, “But of course, if Aunt Justine wanted the car washed it had to be washed even if it was Lynnie’s birthday and she just home from college! It’ll always be that way. So many to please! That’s what I don’t like about it. But I’m glad they didn’t go in the car. I won’t have to worry about that anyway.”
“No, Mother, let’s not worry about anything!” said the daughter with a wistful smile. “Let’s just be glad. Lynnie’s home! Come, sit down and eat your breakfast now, I’ll bring it right in. There are some of those little honey peaches you like so much, and the coffee is on the back of the stove nice and hot.”
She bustled about, glad to have something to do just now to keep the feeling of tears out of her throat, unaccountable, glad tears that choked her while she could not explain them.
There were eager rushing steps outside, and Elim Brooke burst into the kitchen, a fishing pole in his hand.
“Muth, where’s Lynn? Isn’t she up yet?”
“Yes, up and gone. She and Dana went off on a hike, Elim. What became of you, son? We tried to wait breakfast, but Dana telephoned and Lynnie had to hurry.”
“Shucks!” said the boy, the light of eagerness suddenly going out of his eyes. “That Dana makes me tired! What does he always have to be around for? I was going to take Lynn out fishing. I been down to the store to get a new line. The old one broke. I got Lynn’s line all fixed up, too. Gee! I didn’t think she’d go off like that! The first day! Gee! Now I s’pose it’ll always be like that, won’t it? A fella can’t have his own sister, ever fer a day. Not even fer her birthday! Gee, I’d like to wring his neck!”
“Why son! That’s terrible language! I thought you liked Dana.”
“Oh, I useta! Before he went off and got ta high-hatting! He makes me tired! Met me down by the garage last night, and when I yelled at him he turned around with that weary air he puts on sometimes and gave me the once over before he spoke, and then he said, just as if I was a toad in the mud he hadn’t noticed before, ‘H’warya, Brooke,’ as cool as an icicle. Aw, he’s a pain in the neck! I don’t see what Lynn sees in him! Did he take her in the car?”
“No, they wanted to walk,” said the mother, feeling a sudden necessity of defending Dana. “Lynn thought it would be nice. The car is down at the garage being washed, and they would have had to wait for it.”
“Wait! What for? Why’n’t Dana get up early and wash it himself? I ask you, why did he hafta send it to the garage to be washed? They gotta hose downta Whipples’. He oughtta wash his own car himself. He hasn’t got too lily-fingered for that, has he? Isn’t it respectable for a preacher to wash his own car? I’ll bet Dana suggested they walk. I’d be willing to bet my last cent on that and win!”
“Why, Elim! You distress me!” said his mother anxiously. “You don’t sound like yourself. You shouldn’t be so hard on people. You must remember that Dana is growing up. It isn’t in the least likely he realized he was speaking that way to you. He has always been very fond of you. You know how he used to play ball with you when you were a little fellow.”
“Aw, bah, that was nothing! He wanted to keep in practice during vacation that was all! I don’t see why Lynn wanted to go off with him the first day anyway. When I gave up the tournament just to take her off fishing and show her the new swimming hole, and a lot of things. I thought it was her birthday and I oughtta kinda make her have a good time.”
The boy’s face was all aquiver with disappointment and anger.
“Well, there, son, that’s too bad, and if Lynnie had dreamed you had any such plan she’d have fixed it, I know. She’d have asked you to go with them—or—”
“Go with ’em! You suppose I’d go with ’em! Not on yer life! I don’t care fer kid-glove expeditions. Fat chance I’d have fer a good time with that Dana Whipple along! Last time I went along with those two all he did was read poetry! Never again fer mine! Got any cake? I’ll go get Pard Wilkins. You tell Lynn I’m off her fer life!” And he dove into the pantry and came out with his hands and his mouth full of gingerbread and disappeared out the back door across the lot toward Pard Wilkins’ house.
His mother looked up to see her mother standing in the kitchen door with pitiful eyes.
“It’s too bad,” she said, looking suddenly frail and tired. “It’s hard to grow up. If they only didn’t have to get separated!”
“Yes,” sighed the mother, “it’s hard to see it. They were always so close to each other—I wonder—” But she did not say what she wondered.
Chapter 2
There were other eyes watching the two as they started out for their holiday.
Down at the Whipple house with its wide east window looking toward the mountains, sat old Mrs. Whipple, Dana’s grandmother, in her padded chair with her crutch by her side, her sharp little black eyes losing nothing that went on up the road. She had been cripple for three or four years, the result of a broken hip and rheumatism, but she was nonetheless the head of the house which she owned and bossed as much as when she was on her feet and about.
In the background, behind the old lady’s chair, watching furtively while she dried a handful of silver hot from its rinsing bath after being rubbed in silver suds, stood Amelia Whipple, Dana’s mother. There was a belligerent pride in her heavy, handsome face as she watched her boy swing along by the girl’s side, grace in every line of his body, every movement he made. They were a handsome couple, nobody could deny that, Amelia told herself. Back in her heart was a latent grudge against Lynette’s mother and aristocratic old grandmother, with her cameo face framed in fine old laces and her soft old-fashioned gray silk gowns. She was almost sure that they looked down just the least bit on Dana. Dana who had gone to the most expensive schools and the finest college in the country, while Lynette had had to be content with a little inconspicuous denominational institution in an out-of-the-way place presumably because they couldn’t afford to send her to a larger college. Lynette who lived in a house that had long needed paint! Oh—Amelia liked Lynette well enough, knew she was good looking and sweet and even stylish in her way, though she hadn’t bobbed her hair when everybody else did—but perhaps it was just as well for a minister’s wife to be conservative, and of course everybody said that bobbing was going to go out pretty soon. But then, land sakes alive, Lynette’s folks had no call to look down on her Dana! She watched them swing away into the blue of the day with a growing flush of pride while she wiped and wiped over and over again an old Whipple fork that had been in the family for a century or more.
But it was Justine Whipple in a prim, high-necked sweeping apron and cap, her hair in old-fashioned crimpers beneath, who stood in the foreground by Grandmother Whipple’s armchair, feather duster in hand, and regarded the revelers with open disapproval. The excursion was to her a personal offense.
Miss Whipple was called “Aunt Justine” by courtesy, but she was really only a cousin distantly removed, being the daughter of a cousin of old Grandfather Whipple. Grandmother Whipple had taken pity on her and given her a home when she was left alone in the world at the age of thirty-five, with only a mere pittance upon which to live. She had accepted the home as her natural right and referred to the pittance as “my property,” but she had been a fixture now so long in the family that no one realized that she had not been born into it. Old Madame Whipple goaded her with sarcasm and scornful smiles, but bore with her from a grim sense of duty. The rest of the family tolerated her and quarreled with her, but she maintained her own calm attitude of superiority and continued to try to set them all right.
Aunt Justine was the first one to speak.
“It seems a pity that those two can’t grow up! I should think Lynette would have a little sense by this time, if that was any kind of college at all that she went to. To think that she would take a whole perfectly good day right out of the week to go off like a child on a picnic! Her first day home, too! Of course Dana felt he had to do what she asked him. She leads him around by the nose. I should think Dana would rebel, now he’s grown up and finished his education. It’s time he was warned that that is no way to manage women, letting them have their own way in everything! I told him this morning that there was no earthly reason why he should not tell her that it wasn’t convenient for him to go today. They could have put it off until another time just as well as not, and when I’m having guests come and there is so much extra to be done. But no! He didn’t think he could tell her to change it. He didn’t think it would be gallant, he said. Well, I say gallantry begins at home. I declare that girl just flings herself at Dana’s head, and I should think it would disgust him. Why don’t you speak to him, Amelia, and open his eyes? It’s your place as his mother to help him to understand women.”
Justine turned her cold gray eyes on her cousin-in-law and looked at her reprovingly from under the long, straight black fringes of her blunt eyelashes that were so straight and blunt they seemed to have been cut off with the scissors and a ruler.
“Well, I should say it wasn’t your place, at least, Justine!” replied Amelia witheringly. “Dana has a mind of his own, and I’m sure he has more education than all of us put together. Besides, you’re talking in a very strange way about the girl he is engaged to. Why shouldn’t he want to do what she wants, I should like to know?”
“Oh! So they’re engaged, are they? That’s the first time you ever admitted that! You’ve always said it was only a boy and girl friendship. I thought you’d find out someday to your bitter sorrow! So he’s confided in you at last has he? Well, I’m glad we know where we stand, at least.”
“Really!” said Amelia, flashing angry by this time. “No, he hasn’t confided in me! But I’ve got eyes in my head if you haven’t. But what business is it of yours I should like to know? What difference does it make where you stand? You’re standing right here in Mother Whipple’s kitchen, where you’ve been standing for the last fifteen years if I haven’t missed count, and it doesn’t behoove you to stick your nose into the business of any other members of the family that I see. I didn’t know you had any doubts about where you’ve stood, all these years, or I’d have tried to enlighten you. Besides, I don’t quite understand what you mean by bitter sorrow. You didn’t suppose I had any objection to Lynette Brooke did you? I’d have made it manifest long ago if I had. There isn’t a finer family in this country than the Brookes, and as for the Rutherfords, they belong to the cream of the land! Old Mrs. Rutherford was one of the first members of the DAR in this state, and I’ve heard say that her husband owned—”
But Justine had turned away from the window with a disinterested finality and a sigh of amazing proportions.
“Oh, well,” she dismissed the subject, “if you’re satisfied, of course there’s nothing more to say. But she isn’t the girl I’d choose for a daughter-in-law!”
“It isn’t in the least likely you’ll ever have a chance to choose one,” fired forth Amelia with a flame in her cheek and battle in her eye. “I scarcely think she’d choose your son—if you had one,” she ended with withering scorn.
Grandmother Whipple sat back and took up her knitting, laughing out a dry cackle from her grim old lips. She dearly loved a fight between these two. It was the only amusement she had since she was a prisoner in her chair.
Justine sniffed in token that she felt Amelia had been cruel in her insinuations and started back to her work of arranging the guest room for the expected arrivals that afternoon.
“Well, you can say what you please,” she said, putting her head back in the door from the back stairway for a parting shot. “I think Dana would have shown a far better spirit if he had remained at home, this morning at least, and helped me put up the clean curtains and tack up the pictures instead of philandering off with a girl when there was work to be done. If he is going to be a minister of the Gospel he ought to begin to remember that charity begins at home.”
“I don’t see that he has any call to put up curtains and pictures for your guests,” answered his mother furiously. “They’re your guests, aren’t they, not mine? Not his? Not even Mother Whipple’s? There wasn’t any call to take down those curtains and launder them anyway. They’ve only been up three weeks. They were plenty good enough, and if you had to be silly about them you don’t need to make Dana pay for your foolishness. As for pictures, what’s the matter with the pictures that belong in that room? We never had to put up pictures when the Whipples came to visit. We don’t change the decorations for the delegates to the Missionary Conference do we? We didn’t even have to houseclean when the minister delegates came to presbytery. You can’t get anybody much better! If the house isn’t good enough for them I wonder you had them come!”
“They’re used to having things nice,” said Justine severely.
“Well, so are we. So are all our guests! You don’t seem to realize what you imply. If these friends of yours are so grand they’d better pick out some other summer resort to spend their summer in and not come bothering around here. I wonder you didn’t entertain them at the grand new hotel. You’ve got property, you know, and could afford it.”
“I was told my friends would be quite welcome,” said Justine with a premonitory sniff. “I was led to suppose that they would be made comfortable and welcome. If they’re going to be such a burden I’d better go and telegraph to them not to come!”
Justine’s eyes were like cold chisels behind her straight lashes. Her mouth was hard and straight with fury.
“There’s welcomes and welcomes,” said Amelia Whipple with a snap. “I have to do the most of the work. I understand your friends were hard up for a home this summer like some of the rest of us around here, but if they have to be so everlasting particular about their decorations even, why don’t they hunt for other accommodations? Nobody’ll be hurt if they do.”
“Very well!” said Justine in cold fury. “I’ll go right down and telegraph the train for them not to get off.” She flung off her sweeping cap and began to take down her crimping pins, tears of displeasure and disappointment beginning to roll down her cheeks.
The old lady had been knitting fast, her lips in their grim smile. Now she put in sharply.
“Don’t be a fool, Justine! Your hair’ll get all out of place and you’ll be as cross as two sticks over it. Go on upstairs and finish your decorating. It can’t hurt anybody. You two wouldn’t be happy if you couldn’t scratch out each other’s eyes every few minutes. It strikes me you’re all in the same box. The pot shouldn’t call the kettle black.”
Justine surveyed the old lady thoughtfully then answered with dignity, “You may be right, Cousin Hephsibah, but I wonder just what you meant by that last remark? Am I to suppose—?”
“You’re to suppose nothing, Justine. I just called you a fool, that’s all. Now go upstairs and finish your work. You haven’t all the time in the world, you know. Primp up your room any way you please, and for pity’s sake let Amelia alone. She’s got all the cooking to do, remember!”
Justine slowly refastened the loosened crimping pin, replaced her sweeping cap after wiping her eyes on its border, and, turning reproachfully with a martyr-like sigh, went upstairs.
When her footsteps had died away in the guest room above, Amelia lifted an offended chin and swept the old lady a reproachful glance.
“I should suppose,” she began with hurt dignity, “that I had a little closer claim on you, Mother, than just a distant cousin. Of course, I know we’re all indebted to you in a way, for house and board, but I try to do my part. But your own son’s wife, and your own grandson—If you feel that way about it I’d better try to get a position.”
“Amelia!” said the old lady severely, “the difference is this: You weren’t born a fool! For pity’s sake live up to your birthright! Of course you got a claim, but remember this: Justine never has much pleasure. Can’t you let her enjoy what’s she got? She’s worked hard enough to bring this about; now if she can get any happiness out of it I guess we can stand it for a couple of months anyhow. Say, don’t I smell those apple pies burning? It beats all how you can make so much out of a few fool words!”
“But Mother, she’ll go and tell around now that Dana’s engaged, and he’ll be angry at me.”
“Well, isn’t he?” snapped the old lady anxiously. “He’s a fool if he isn’t, that’s all I’ve got to say.”
“Well, I suppose he is. I hope he is, but he hasn’t said anything to me about it,” said the mother with a troubled sigh. “You know Dana isn’t much for telling what’s going on in his life.”
“There’s some things you don’t need to tell,” said Grandma significantly. “However, I’ll speak to Justine. She’s no call to talk about Dana’s business even if he is a fool. Amelia, that pot is boiling over! My soul, I wish I had my good legs again!”
Chapter 3
Out on the road, the two who had been the cause of all this disturbance were walking joyously along. The first day home, the first day together after long separation, all their childhood waiting to greet them out of doors, and a summer day that was perfect. One of those “what-is-so-rare” days described by the poet.
The sky was that warm, clear blue that makes you wonder if you have ever really noticed a sky before. The sunlight fairly seemed a part of the sky, blue all through with the fine lacings of gold. One or two lazy fluffs of cloud were drifting almost imperceptibly across the highest blue like tufts of down urged by an unseen draft.
The road they took skirted a hill and wound gently up with pleasant homes on the right at intervals growing fewer and farther between as they went on.
Off to the left the mountains were clear and sharp with touches of gold shimmering over the new green of the young trees that mingled with the darker pines. And one spot they knew, where the blue grew deeper with a purple depth, marked the beginning of the Mohawk trail. They could pick out the landmarks without any trouble in the clear, bright atmosphere.
And now they came to fields on the left drifting down to a valley where, like a thread of hurrying silver strung with jewels all aquiver, a river went. And all the fields were embroidered with flowers, copper and silver and gold like a princess’s garment spread to dry, heavy with gorgeous needlework of buttercups, daisies, and devil’s paintbrush. Amazing sight to come upon! Embroidery of heaven loaned for display.
Beyond the river, a dull hill rose, rocky and barren, almost a mountain, dreary except for a drift of blue flowers that rose in waves and seemed to spread and quiver like blue flame, or lovely, curling, smoke-like incense rising against the gray mass of the barren rock behind.
“Oh look!” cried Lynette, her eyes sparkling, her cheeks aglow. “I never remember it to have been so beautiful! How large the daisies are this year! How yellow the buttercups! And see how deep a red the tassels of the devil’s paintbrush are! This must be a wonderful year for flowers!”
Dana lifted indifferent eyes.
“Oh, you’ve just forgotten, Lynn. I don’t see but it looks about as usual.”
“No, Dana! It’s bigger, brighter, much more wonderful. I never got that effect of copper and silver threads before, with the gold of the buttercups making a background. It’s perfectly gorgeous needlework, Dana, woven with pearls.”
“Oh, you’re fanciful as usual, Lynn!”
“And look at that blue ruin off on the mountain! Why you can fairly see the smoke rise and the flames pulsate.”
“It’s not half as good to look at as you are, Lynn,” said the young man turning his glance upon her glowing cheeks, the light in her lovely eyes, and the tendrils of hair blowing around her face. “I say, where are we going today? Have you thought of a plan? It’s a shame that car had to go to the garage. You’ll be tired before the day is half over.”
“No indeed; I’ll not be tired,” said Lynette. “I haven’t been cooped up in the house all these four years, laddie. I’ve played hockey and skated and hiked over the hills, and worked in the gym. I’m fit as ever I was, and I can walk as far as ever I did and farther.”
“Well, I can’t,” said Dana lazily, stifling a yawn. “Theological seminaries are no places for physical training. Oh, of course they had some athletics, but I couldn’t see going out for anything with all I had to do. Besides, it was time to stop that child’s play if I ever meant to amount to anything. One can’t play football all one’s life.”
“Still one must have health,” said Lynette. “I hope you haven’t allowed yourself to get inactive. It’s awfully hard on you to study hard if you don’t keep up some sort of exercise. They made us do it out at college.”
“Oh, girls, yes, I suppose it’s a good thing for them. But a man has got to begin to think of more serious things. Besides, it’s an awful chore to get cleaned up and get to work again when you’re all messed up after sports. I’ve really done awfully well, Lynn. Even better than I told you in my last letter. Let’s see, when did I write? I got so busy in those last weeks. But you got the papers I sent, and the commencement stuff? You really ought to have been there Lynn to hear me preach my first sermon. I can’t see why it mattered whether you stayed for your own commencement exercises or not, that little stuffy college! It’s ridiculous to dignify it by the name of college! But there, don’t get excited!” he laughed indulgently. “It’s all right of course, and you were a star student naturally. I only wish it had been Vassar or Wellesley or some big college. You could have made your mark there, and it would have been worthwhile—”
A shade came over the girl’s face and a flash into her eyes.
“Dana! Stop!” she cried. “You shan’t say such things about my college! It isn’t like you, and you don’t know, and I won’t have my beautiful day spoiled! Tell me about your commencement. Someday I’ll tell you all about my college, and you will see that it was great! Someday I’ll take you there and introduce you to my wonderful professors, every one of them masters and scholars, and every one of them men who are putting their whole soul into their work. But nevermind now. You just don’t know! You will understand when you know, and you will be glad there is such a place. But now forget it and go on. I want to hear everything you have done from the time you left here last year. No little thing is too small to be told. Don’t leave anything out. Did they tell you they thought it would be hard to get a church? Or have you decided to go as a missionary? You used to talk that way, you know.”
“Oh, I gave up that idea long ago,” he laughed. “I think this country needs preachers more than the foreign field. Times are changed, you know. A lot has been done for heathen lands in the last ten years. The world isn’t nearly as large as it used to be. Travel has become so easy, and civilization has made great strides. Culture and education are everywhere. Why, look what a difference movies and radios have made! The natives in the jungles of the forest can get the latest Paris fashion overnight now. There really isn’t the need of missionaries there used to be when I began to study for the ministry.”
Lynette giggled appreciatively.
“You talk as if the main object of missionaries was to dress up the natives in fashionable garments.”
“Well, that had a great deal to do with civilizing them, didn’t it?”
“I don’t know,” said Lynette with serious eyes far off on the mountain where the blue incense seemed to rise and fall with the light breeze. “Did it? I don’t know. What’s that verse about ‘where no law is, there is no transgression’?”
“Oh, now, Lynn, don’t, I pray you, get preachy. I’m sick to death of arguments and criticisms and obscure passages. Besides, my dear, you are not fitted to cope with a subject like that. The standpoint from which we used to take our conclusions when we were children is very different when you come to get the student’s point of view. Let’s drop discussions from now on. We’ve got a long way to go to catch up in our knowledge of each other. Let’s talk about each other. Lynn, are you glad to be at home, or does the old town look dull to you?”
“Look dull? Well, I should rather guess not. Why, Dana, I turned down a whole perfectly good, free trip to Europe with side trips and a possible winter stay over there with a trip to the Holy Land and a return by way of the Mediterranean thrown in. Now, will you believe that I’m glad to be here?”
“Lynn Brooke! D’ you mean it? Turn down a trip like that? What for?”
“Just because there was no place in the whole world that looked so good to me as my hometown—and you in it all summer long!” Lynette added the last words half shyly, half jocosely, and glanced up through her lashes at her companion with a heightened color in her lovely cheeks. But Dana frowned.
“Lynn, I can’t believe you were quite so foolish as that. Tell me about it. Who invited you?”
“Uncle Roth Reamer. He and Aunt Hilda and my three cousins are going, and they wanted me.”
“Expenses paid?”
“Every cent. And spending money thrown in! Uncle Roth is always generous and treats me just like the rest of his children when I’m visiting there.”
“Well, you certainly are one little fool!” said Dana almost roughly. “Why, Lynn, think of the advantages of culture and study abroad! Think of the prestige of having traveled like that! Why, it would do a whole lot toward making up for having been graduated at a little insignificant college if it were known that you had traveled widely. You need sophistication, Lynn. You haven’t grown up! You’re just as innocent as when you were a child! You really need to grow up. You don’t realize that you will have a very prominent position to occupy and need to get ready for it.”
Lynette looked up at him startled, a cloud coming over the brightness of her face, her lips compressed with a sudden indrawing of her breath, the color on her face springing up brighter.
She was silent for a moment, still keeping that wondering, searching gaze on his face, and when she spoke her voice was very quiet and almost cool.
“Do you mean, Dana, that you are ashamed of me as I am?”
“Nonsense!” said Dana impatiently. “There you go, off the handle at once, jumping to conclusions. That’s just what I mean. Like an everlasting thermometer, out to check the temperature and be sure it’s just at seventy. You need poise, Lynn! And travel will give it to you. If your school had been any good you wouldn’t be so utterly childish. If I’m to be called to a big-city church, you will need to get poise. There’s nothing like that to help you up in the world and make you able to hold your own.”
“I’m afraid I don’t understand, Dana,” said Lynette in a small, distant voice, almost like a stranger. “I supposed you were looking forward to preaching the gospel. What has that got to do with social prestige?”
“A very great deal!” said Dana with the air of a teacher who was condescending to explain to the humblest of pupils. “In the first place, a preacher’s wife can do a lot toward helping or hindering her husband’s progress in his work. She is either an asset or a liability. I have always figured that you, Lynette, with your beauty and your goodness—your most obvious goodness—and your charm of manner would be the greatest kind of an asset. But there is something else. It is something that women of the world have, and that is why they succeed so well.” He floundered a little here, for her eyes were upon him, wondering eyes, as if she had never quite known this Dana before.
“There is a verse in the Bible,” he suddenly said with irritation, “which you should remember. We are bidden to be wise as serpents! That’s what it means, use worldly wisdom. Acquire the poise that the world has and then we shall be better able to cope with—”
He paused, searching for a word.
“Sin?” supplied Lynette questioningly. “I hadn’t really ever thought of it in that way.”
There was something in her voice that irritated him still further, for he felt that somehow, while he was attempting to show her how she was wrong, she had instead revealed a weakness in himself. Or—could she possibly be laughing at him? He had not made his case as strong as it seemed to him to be. He must try again. You never could force Lynette into a situation, you must always lead her. He ought to have remembered that. She would do anything in the world for him, but of course she did not like his criticism of that little superficial college of hers. That was what was the matter.
“Lynn,” he said, softening his voice to its old lover-like strain, “I see I haven’t made my meaning plain. It’s all because I don’t like to blow my own trumpet and tell you all the great prospects that have come to me. You see, they’ve been saying a lot of fine things about my work, and my ability, up there at the seminary, and I’ve the same as got the choice of two or three prominent pulpits if I just say the word. Let’s quit this foolish quarreling and let me tell the whole thing. Don’t you want to hear what my senior professor said to me the last day, the man who has the reputation of forecasting the future of his students and never making a mistake?”
“Why, surely,” said Lynn graciously, her eyes misty with pride in him, despite her disturbed spirit. “You know I enjoy hearing everything about your seminary life. But it never surprises me, Dana. I knew you would excel. Now, tell me every word.”
There was just the least bit of hurt tone in her voice that he had not felt the same about her, but he did not notice it in his eagerness to tell her, and she was too humble in spirit to assert it again.
So Dana told.
Long incidents of class lore. Struggles for scholarly supremacy, days and nights of grinding. Self-denial of a kind, Dana’s kind, the kind that really got what he wanted. Grudging recognition at first on the part of his friends, instant recognition on the part of the professors. Brilliant accounts of arguments and discussions in class in which he came forward with some original thought, was challenged, and was able to bring notable critics as testimony to substantiate his theory. In short, as she listened, Lynette perceived that this was no longer her mate and equal, her boy companion of the years, to whom she was giving audience, but a distinguished scholar who had already made his mark before his career had fairly opened.
Lynette’s heart was full of joy.
She forgot for the time-being his criticism of herself.
They had passed by the embroidered pastures and valleys, leaving the blue-flowered smoke behind on the mountain, and as they went up higher into a thick grove of trees bordered by fringes of maidenhair fern unbelievably luxuriant, fragilely lovely, Lynette was conscious of a tightening of the muscles round her heart. To think that he was hers, and they were here in sanctuary as it were, alone with the great out of doors to talk together again and get to know the things about one another that had been withheld through the months of separation!
Her eyes rested pridefully upon him as he tossed off his hat and threw himself down upon the moss at her side, and she was conscious again of the quickening heartbeats, the sudden shyness that made her fight for time—just a little space to get used to his nearness again, to the thought that they were really grown up.
“Tell me something, Dana, I’ve often wondered,” she said, suddenly feeling the necessity to cover her shyness with words.
“Yes, dearest!” He smiled down upon her and reached out to take possession of her hand which lay beside him on the moss. It was his first open acknowledgment of the relation between them, which had been tacitly set aside for years of their education, the first time he had ventured on that “dearest” since his very young boy affection which she had gravely restrained with wiser foresight than his own. “We are not old enough for such things yet, Dana, please don’t spoil the beautiful time we are having now,” she had told him. How well she remembered saying it to him, and having to argue it out for days when he would not be convinced. Yet in the end she had conquered, and their friendship had gone on, with only the tacit understanding that there was to be no more sentimentality until they were done with schooldays. Nevertheless they had both looked forward to living their lives side by side to the end and had often referred to the time when that would be as if it were a foregone conclusion.
Dana had wanted to give her a ring two years before, the day he was going back to seminary and she to her college. But she had said no, he must not spend the money now, and it would be time enough to settle those things when they both got home for good.
Lynette had known when she came home this time that she was coming home to face what she had put behind a lovely veil out of sight for a long time, but had always deep in her heart known was waiting there for her when the right time came. Today, she had started out with the knowledge that the time had come. The lessons were learned for both of them, and they had a right to let their hearts speak out to one another and to take their right relations before the world. Yet now that it had come she felt a sudden strange shyness, as if Dana were not the same, as if he had changed into a new man, one that she admired greatly and respected and loved beyond all the world; yet somehow she stood in a strange new awe before him. And so she spoke breathlessly, marking time for her heart to get steady and used to the thrill of his touch in this new way.
“I’ve always wanted to know just why you decided to study for the ministry, why you were so sure even when you were a little boy and I first knew you that there was nothing else in life for you. Was it that your grandfather had been such a great preacher and that you had his name and felt you must keep a sort of tryst with the work he had commenced, or was it—something else?” She finished shyly with her eyes gravely down, her face almost quivering in her eagerness. “I think I know the answer, Dana”—she lifted her eyes for a single fleeting look—“but I want to hear you say it, if you don’t mind.”
It was very still there in the edge of the pine forest, with the fringe of maidenhair below them and the shimmer of the embroidery of copper and silver and gold out in the June Valleys far away. Almost for an instant it seemed to Lynette that it was sanctuary indeed, with the whispering winds above in the pines, a bird note dropping slowly down now and then from the throat of a thrush, and Dana’s eyes upon her in that grave, sweet, utterly loving look. Then he spoke.
“Lovely, of course I’ll tell you, though there’s not so much to tell. As you say, you know it already, you’ve known it all along. Why of course it was Grandfather. I felt the obligation, sort of. I was named for him; he left me his property, or at least he left it with Grandmother in trust for me, you know. That’s the same thing. It was Grandfather’s dearest wish. And the family all expect it. A man would be a cad not to carry on after that. I thought about it a good deal when I was in college. There were several other lines I might have taken up where I would have been able to make more money and fame right at the start than seemed likely at that time I could ever make in the ministry. But nowhere would I have had more prestige of course. Really Grandfather was quite a great man. I never really understood how great until I entered the seminary. There were men there who remembered him, enthused over his preaching and all that. More than once he was held up in class as an example of a man who had reached the top of his profession. His sermons, too, were cited as illustrations of a pure, direct style that was recommended for imitation. You would have been surprised how reverently even some of the more eminent scholars among the faculty spoke of his strange, old-fashioned books of sermons. I read them long ago, of course, when I was a mere boy. They filled me with awe then with their tremendous earnestness. Of course they are quite out of date now, but classics in their way. I almost got my head turned, Lynn, they made so much of it in seminary, I having the same name and all and following in his footsteps. It did a lot for me in the way of prestige. Lynn, the light on your hair just there where you’re sitting is lovely. I don’t know but I’m glad you never bobbed your hair, though I confess I’m surprised that you’ve lived through the fashion so long without doing it. You will have to come to it of course if the fashion doesn’t change soon, though, for if I get a city church you’ll have to be quite up to date, you know.”
She looked at him startled then smiled. He was joking of course. She laughed. “A city church!” she echoed. “You couldn’t begin on a city church, of course!”
“Brownleigh thinks I can,” he said gravely, with conviction. “He says my talents would be wasted anywhere else. So you better be thinking about cutting your hair. You don’t want to look like a country parson’s wife.”
Lynette did not smile. Her eyes were puzzled as she studied his face.
“You speak almost as if you meant that,” she said lightly.
“I do,” he said brightly. “I think you would be charming with it cut. Haven’t you often longed to get it off and be like the other girls?”
“But you used to say you liked my hair,” said Lynette.
“Well, I do, but one must be reasonable. You can’t go against the whole world of course, and one gets used to those things. But Lynn, I’m hungry as a bear. Why don’t we eat? I haven’t told you yet, but I’ve got to go back pretty soon.”
“Got to go back!” said Lynette in dismay. “Why, you said we were to stay till sunset! It’s our day. It’s been four years since we sat up here till sunset and talked so long, you know. It’s—”
She had almost said, “It’s my birthday, you know,” but he saved her further words.