Heaven and Hell Is only A State Of Mind E-Book

Abdul Mumin Muhammad

• Herausgeber: BookRix
• Kategorie: Geisteswissenschaft
• Sprache: Englisch

Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2019

Beschreibung

This book was written to help inspire self forgiveness, guilty no more. I spent many years blaming everyone else for my personal issues, I found out that I was not willing to forgive myself and others. By blaming, and complaining kept me experiencing the same issues in my life. I realized that I can only be responsible for my own actions, no one forced me to do anything. Shame and blame were causing me to not love myself unconditionally. I wanted to become self aware, paying attention to my fllowing thoughts, instead of acting out.

In order to heal I had to first accept my weakness, charater flaws, and mistakes without shame. This way I was able to forgive myself for not being perfect and also forgive others. I had to show myself mercy so that I could do the same for others. We all make negative or wrong choices including myself, this is wisdom that I have accomplished. Loving myself and others unconditional helped me create a better life for myself. We are the enemy, our thoughts, fears, emotions, and later actions, not others.

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Abdul Mumin Muhammad

Heaven and Hell Is only A State Of Mind

Guilt Free Peace Comes In Pieces

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About Me and Contact

Email:  [email protected]

Blog     https://malachimuccmin8.wixsite.com/selfhelp

Youtube Channel    https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBAv_nrZHiEGNnV8RmpG-xw

About Me

My writings are a collection of my thoughts based on my spiritual journey going inwards. This is my point of view, maybe from a narcissist’s point of view, a lone wolf or perhaps a unique conscious mind. Yet...I don't have all of the answers because the truth is our own. I wanted to become self aware, knowing thy self.

I was dealing with immigration issues so I ended up homeless in 2011. I spent 5 years homeless in Florida with my wife and child. I forced myself to keep doing yoga, tia chi, Wing Chun, chakra healing and later Kundalini yoga to make sure that I stayed Conscious during this hard period. I knew that if I let my homeless experience get to me, I would die or fall asleep and lose my higher awareness.

I now realized that All I wanted was a closer relationship with God. As I began to study myself going inwards, I realized that worry, holding on to my past and attempting to control things were affecting my behavior. I then realized that everything that happened in my past human experiences was supposed to happen, for learning about my behavior so that I could forgive myself and others to evolve in Love.

By letting go I began to recognize the voice of my soul, vs. my sporadic ego, combined with my scattered mind. I also began to see and slowly understand the universe within while growing in divine love. Working on my Chakras helped me experience Self Knowing and a Spiritual Awakening. Accepting that I am a narcissist helped me forgive myself. The attempt to change my personality profile to feel perfect was my worst mistake.

I later realized that I am no different than or exclusive to others, I once thought that I was special. I was the average guy living my life based on what I learned from the outside. I went to public school; I skipped some classes in high school, I only enjoyed writing. I felt like the school system was a boring temporary prison, the program felt to fixed for my taste, not enough personal depth.

I felt like a lost person with no direction because the school didn’t have spiritual or knowledge of self classes. I lived my life going through the motions, avoiding my true feelings because I was trying to be perfect. I was numbing myself, acting out of thoughts then emotions instead of feeling then emotions. I admit that I was not being aware of my spirit, and my psychology. I never thought that I was going to do anything exceptional either.

My spiritual journey, going within and then coming out. This awakening allowed me to see what was happening in my psyche, then seeing the correspondence in my experiences within my created reality. I have been fighting with abandonment issues for years. My journey within put me through many healing experiences with my chakras, such as working with sound and colors and intense visualization. I did a lot of crying as I let go of my past and let go of false pride.

I was a black sheep of my family, but thankfully working on healing allowed me to forgive myself and others so that I would be left with no anger or regrets. No one is a black sheep, we must learn to validate our own selves. I was solely aiming for self-liberation so that I could concentrate on what I wanted to do with my life. My past experiences left me with regrets, guilt shame and grief. I was in hell now to think of it. I don’t know how I manage to survive my chaotic life, my spiritual retreat within turned things around for me in early 2011.

My birth name was Abdul Mumin Muhammad, well until I got married. Long story short I was born in Trinidad, It's an island located in the Caribbean. As a child I remember playing by myself, it was fun because I liked playing with nature.

As a child, I chased bugs and caught frogs and various nature like activities. I see now why I still love nature, this is where I spend my solitude. I do remember a few associates that I played with from time to time. I only remember one close friend, but he moved away. As you can see I was a loner, I did not fit in school. I learned that I was never supposed to fit in, fit into what? Seeking approval is an illusion; I stopped caring about being liked and the insecure need for attention and approval. Through my journey within I had to work on my self-esteem and confidence. This was my only way to experience God within.

I remember my father playing with me outside, he would even put me on his motorbike. We drove through the bushes, we used to eat sugar canes, and he showed me a lot of cool island tricks. According to my knowledge at a younger age, my mother was a housewife; she stayed home-cooked and kept the house clean, I guess this was pretty normal for the Muslim islanders. But I am not sure.

All I remember was her watching soap opera while she was cooking; this was pretty much every day. I moved to the US around 6 years old, I lived in NY and then moved to D.C. I traveled and moved a lot between NY and D.C. I also remember living in New Jersey, Baltimore, and Philly for a little while. Traveling too much as a child is where the reason for my insecurities. 

 Focusing on healing from spiritual means put me back to my origins, the person who I was born to be. After this experience, I never looked back. Who said that the past was important, it’s only useful to learn lessons so that we keep moving forward. Peace, and bless you all.

Email: [email protected]

Website: https://malachimuccmin8.wixsite.com/selfhelp

Youtube Channel https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBAv_nrZHiEGNnV8RmpG-xw

Unconditional Love

By Abdul Mumin Unconditional Love

Do I Truly Love and Accept All of Me?

Do I Accept Others As They Are?

 I found myself looking in the mirror a lot. I constantly kept fixing my hair; made sure my face looked well whenever there was something around that gave off a reflection.

I used to have this unsatisfying urge that I just didn’t look good enough. Do you find yourself constantly adding more and more makeup, tattoos, fake hair, fake eyelashes and piercing all over your face and body? Now, this does not automatically mean that you don’t love yourself, but this was something I had to further investigate. I asked my heart why?

I heard vanity which is not unconditional love.

I spent minutes standing in front of the (vanity) gazing into the mirror. I found myself putting my hair in front of my face being unaware that I was really hiding my face. I noticed while walking towards people especially on the bus or train with my head down doing my best to avoid people looking at my face.