I
“WON’T you stay a little longer?”
the hostess asked while she held the girl’s hand and smiled. “It’s
too early for every one to go—it’s too absurd.” Mrs. Churchley
inclined her head to one side and looked gracious; she flourished
about her face, in a vaguely protecting sheltering way, an enormous
fan of red feathers. Everything in her composition, for Adela
Chart, was enormous. She had big eyes, big teeth, big shoulders,
big hands, big rings and bracelets, big jewels of every sort and
many of them. The train of her crimson dress was longer than any
other; her house was huge; her drawing-room, especially now that
the company had left it, looked vast, and it offered to the girl’s
eyes a collection of the largest sofas and chairs, pictures,
mirrors, clocks, that she had ever beheld. Was Mrs.
Churchley’s fortune also large,
to account for so many immensities? Of this Adela could know
nothing, but it struck her, while she smiled sweetly back at their
entertainer, that she had better try to find out. Mrs. Churchley
had at least a high- hung carriage drawn by the tallest horses, and
in the Row she was to be seen perched on a mighty hunter. She was
high and extensive herself, though not exactly fat; her bones were
big, her limbs were long, and her loud hurrying voice resembled the
bell of a steamboat. While she spoke to his daughter she had the
air of hiding from Colonel Chart, a little shyly, behind the wide
ostrich fan. But Colonel Chart was not a man to be either ignored
or eluded.
“Of course every one’s going on
to something else,” he said. “I believe there are a lot of things
to-night.”
“And where are you going?” Mrs.
Churchley asked, dropping her fan and turning her bright hard eyes
on the Colonel.
“Oh I don’t do that sort of
thing!”—he used a tone of familiar resentment that fell with a
certain effect on his daughter’s ear.
She saw in it that he thought
Mrs. Churchley might have done him a little more justice. But what
made the honest soul suppose her a person to look to for a
perception of fine shades? Indeed the shade was one it might have
been a little difficult to seize—the difference between “going on”
and coming to a dinner of twenty people. The pair were in mourning;
the second year had maintained it for Adela, but the Colonel hadn’t
objected to dining with Mrs. Churchley, any more than he had
objected at Easter to going down to the Millwards’, where he had
met her and where the girl had her reasons for believing him to
have known he should meet her.
Adela wasn’t clear about the
occasion of their original meeting, to which a certain mystery
attached. In Mrs. Churchley’s exclamation now there was the fullest
concurrence in Colonel Chart’s idea; she didn’t say “Ah yes, dear
friend, I understand!” but this was the note of sympathy she
plainly wished to sound. It immediately made Adela say to her
“Surely you must be going on somewhere yourself.”
“Yes, you must have a lot of
places,” the Colonel concurred, while his view of her shining
raiment had an invidious directness. Adela could read the tacit
implication: “You’re not in sorrow, in desolation.”
Mrs. Churchley turned away from
her at this and just waited before answering. The red fan was up
again, and this time it sheltered her from Adela. “I’ll give
everything up—for you,” were the words that issued from behind it.
“Do stay a little. I always think this is such a nice hour. One can
really talk,” Mrs. Churchley went on. The Colonel laughed; he said
it wasn’t fair. But their hostess pressed his daughter. “Do sit
down; it’s the only time to have any talk.” The girl saw her father
sit down, but she wandered away, turning her back and pretending to
look at a picture. She was so far from agreeing with Mrs. Churchley
that it was an hour she particularly disliked. She was conscious of
the queerness, the shyness, in London, of the gregarious flight of
guests after a dinner, the general sauve qui peut and panic fear of
being left with the host and hostess. But personally she always
felt the contagion, always conformed to the rush. Besides, she knew
herself turn
red now, flushed with a
conviction that had come over her and that she wished not to
show.
Her father sat down on one of the
big sofas with Mrs. Churchley; fortunately he was also a person
with a presence that could hold its own. Adela didn’t care to sit
and watch them while they made love, as she crudely imaged it, and
she cared still less to join in their strange commerce. She
wandered further away, went into another of the bright “handsome,”
rather nude rooms—they were like women dressed for a ball—where the
displaced chairs, at awkward angles to each other, seemed to retain
the attitudes of bored talkers. Her heart beat as she had seldom
known it, but she continued to make a pretence of looking at the
pictures on the walls and the ornaments on the tables, while she
hoped that, as she preferred it, it would be also the course her
father would like best. She hoped “awfully,” as she would have
said, that he wouldn’t think her rude. She was a person of courage,
and he was a kind, an intensely good-natured man; nevertheless she
went in some fear of him. At home it had always been a religion
with them to be nice to the people he liked. How, in the old days,
her mother, her incomparable mother, so clever, so unerring, so
perfect, how in the precious days her mother had practised that
art! Oh her mother, her irrecoverable mother! One of the pictures
she was looking at swam before her eyes. Mrs. Churchley, in the
natural course, would have begun immediately to climb staircases.
Adela could see the high bony shoulders and the long crimson tail
and the universal coruscating nod wriggle their horribly practical
way through the rest of the night. Therefore she must have had her
reasons for detaining them. There were mothers who thought every
one wanted to marry their eldest son, and the girl sought to be
clear as to whether she herself belonged to the class of daughters
who thought every one wanted to marry their father. Her companions
left her alone; and though she didn’t want to be near them it
angered her that Mrs. Churchley didn’t call her. That proved she
was conscious of the situation. She would have called her, only
Colonel Chart had perhaps dreadfully murmured “Don’t, love, don’t.”
This proved he also was conscious. The time was really not long—ten
minutes at the most elapsed—when he cried out gaily,
pleasantly, as if with a small
jocular reproach, “I say, Adela, we must release this dear lady!”
He spoke of course as if it had been Adela’s fault that they
lingered. When they took leave she gave Mrs. Churchley, without
intention and without defiance, but from the simple sincerity of
her pain, a longer look into the eyes than she had ever given her
before. Mrs.
Churchley’s onyx pupils reflected
the question as distant dark windows reflect the sunset; they
seemed to say: “Yes, I am, if that’s what you want to know!”
What made the case worse, what
made the girl more sure, was the silence preserved by her companion
in the brougham on their way home. They rolled along in the June
darkness from Prince’s Gate to Seymour Street, each looking out of
a window in conscious prudence; watching but not seeing the hurry
of the London night, the flash of lamps, the quick roll on the wood
of hansoms and other broughams. Adela had expected her father would
say something about Mrs. Churchley; but when he said nothing it
affected her, very oddly, still more as if he had spoken. In
Seymour Street he asked the footman if Mr. Godfrey had come in, to
which the servant replied that he had come in early and gone
straight to his room. Adela had gathered as much, without saying
so, from a lighted window on the second floor; but she contributed
no remark to the question. At the foot of the stairs her father
halted as if he had something on his mind; but what it amounted to
seemed only the dry “Good-night” with which he presently ascended.
It was the first time since her mother’s death that he had bidden
her good-night without kissing her. They were a kissing family, and
after that dire event the habit had taken a fresh spring. She had
left behind her such a general passion of regret that in kissing
each other they felt themselves a little to be kissing her. Now,
as, standing in the hall, with the stiff watching footman—she could
have said to him angrily “Go away!”—planted near her, she looked
with unspeakable pain at her father’s back while he mounted, the
effect was of his having withheld from another and a still more
slighted cheek the touch of his lips.
He was going to his room, and
after a moment she heard his door close. Then she said to the
servant “Shut up the
house”—she tried to do everything
her mother had done, to be a little of what she had been, conscious
only of falling woefully short—and took her own way upstairs. After
she had reached her room she waited, listening, shaken by the
apprehension that she should hear her father come out again and go
up to Godfrey. He would go up to tell him, to have it over without
delay, precisely because it would be so difficult. She asked
herself indeed why he should tell Godfrey when he hadn’t taken the
occasion—their drive home being an occasion
—to tell herself. However, she
wanted no announcing, no telling; there was such a horrible
clearness in her mind that what she now waited for was only to be
sure her father wouldn’t proceed as she had imagined. At the end of
the minutes she saw this particular danger was over, upon which she
came out and made her own way to her brother. Exactly what she
wanted to say to him first, if their parent counted on the boy’s
greater indulgence, and before he could say anything, was: “Don’t
forgive him; don’t, don’t!”
He was to go up for an
examination, poor lad, and during these weeks his lamp burned till
the small hours. It was for the Foreign Office, and there was to be
some frightful number of competitors; but Adela had great hopes of
him—she believed so in his talents and saw with pity how hard he
worked. This would have made her spare him, not trouble his night,
his scanty rest, if anything less dreadful had been at stake. It
was a blessing however that one could count on his coolness, young
as he was—his bright good-looking discretion, the thing that
already made him half a man of the world. Moreover he was the one
who would care most. If Basil was the eldest son
—he had as a matter of course
gone into the army and was in India, on the staff, by good luck, of
a governor-general—it was exactly this that would make him
comparatively indifferent. His life was elsewhere, and his father
and he had been in a measure military comrades, so that he would be
deterred by a certain delicacy from protesting; he wouldn’t have
liked any such protest in an affair of his. Beatrice and Muriel
would care, but they were too young to speak, and this was just why
her own responsibility was so great.
Godfrey was in working-gear—shirt
and trousers and slippers and a beautiful silk jacket. His room
felt hot, though a window was open to the summer night; the lamp on
the table shed its studious light over a formidable heap of
text-books and papers, the bed moreover showing how he had flung
himself down to think out a problem. As soon as she got in she
began. “Father’s going to marry Mrs. Churchley, you know.”
She saw his poor pink face turn
pale. “How do you know?”
“I’ve seen with my eyes. We’ve
been dining there—we’ve just come home. He’s in love with her.
She’s in love with him. They’ll arrange it.”
“Oh I say!” Godfrey exclaimed,
incredulous.
“He will, he will, he will!”
cried the girl; and with it she burst into tears.
Godfrey, who had a cigarette in
his hand, lighted it at one of the candles on the mantelpiece as if
he were embarrassed. As Adela, who had dropped into his armchair,
continued to sob, he said after a moment: “He oughtn’t to—he
oughtn’t to.”
“Oh think of mamma—think of
mamma!” she wailed almost louder than was safe.
“Yes, he ought to think of
mamma.” With which Godfrey looked at the tip of his
cigarette.
“To such a woman as that—after
her!”
“Dear old mamma!” said Godfrey
while he smoked.
Adela rose again, drying her
eyes. “It’s like an insult to her; it’s as if he denied her.” Now
that she spoke of it she felt herself rise to a height. “He rubs
out at a stroke all the years of their happiness.”
“They were awfully happy,”
Godfrey agreed.
“Think what she was—think how no
one else will ever again be like her!” the girl went on.
“I suppose he’s not very happy
now,” her brother vaguely contributed.
“Of course he isn’t, any more
than you and I are; and it’s dreadful of him to want to be.”
“Well, don’t make yourself
miserable till you’re sure,” the young man said.