CHAPTER I.
“Do—do write to me often, my dear
Anna!” said the weeping Julia Warren, on parting, for the first
time since their acquaintance, with the young lady whom she had
honoured with the highest place in her affections. “Think how
dreadfully solitary and miserable I shall be here, without a single
companion, or a soul to converse with, now you are to be removed
two hundred miles into the wilderness.”
“Oh! trust me, my love, I shall
not forget you now or ever,” replied her friend, embracing the
other slightly, and, perhaps, rather hastily for so tender an
adieu; at the same time glancing her eye on the figure of a youth,
who stood in silent contemplation of the scene. “And doubt not but
I shall soon tire you with my correspondence, especially as I more
than suspect it will be subjected to the criticisms of Mr. Charles
Weston.” As she concluded, the young lady curtisied to the youth in
a manner that contradicted, by its flattery, the forced irony of
her remark.
“Never, my dear girl!” exclaimed
Miss Warren with extreme fervour. “The confidence of our friendship
is sacred with me, and nothing, no, nothing, could ever tempt me to
violate such a trust. Charles is very kind and very indulgent to
all my whims, but he never could obtain such an influence over me
as to become the depositary of my secrets. Nothing but a friend,
like yourself, can do that, my dear Anna.”
“Never! Miss Warren,” said the
youth with a lip that betrayed by its tremulous motion the interest
he took in her speech—“never includes a long period of time. But,”
he added with a smile of good-humoured pleasantry, “if admitted to
such a distinction, I should not feel myself competent to the task
of commenting on so much innocence and purity, as I know I should
find in your correspondence.”
“Yes,” said Anna, with a little
of the energy of her friend’s manner, “you may with truth say so,
Mr. Weston. The imagination of my Julia is as pure as—as——” but
turning her eyes from the countenance of Julia to that of the
youth, rather suddenly, the animated pleasure she saw delineated in
his expressive, though plain features, drove the remainder of the
speech from her recollection.
“As her heart!” cried Charles
Weston with emphasis. “As her heart, Sir,” repeated the young lady
coldly.
The last adieus were hastily
exchanged, and Anna Miller was handed into her father’s gig by
Charles Weston in profound silence. Miss Emmerson, the maiden aunt
of Julia, withdrew from the door, where she had been conversing
with Mr. Miller, and the travellers departed. Julia followed the
vehicle with her eyes until it was hid by the trees and shrubbery
that covered the lawn, and then withdrew to her room to give vent
to a sorrow that had sensibly touched her affectionate heart, and
in no trifling degree haunted her lively imagination.
As Miss Emmerson by no means held
the good qualities of the guest, who had just left them, in so high
an estimation as did her niece, she proceeded quietly and with
great
composure in the exercise of her
daily duties; not in the least suspecting the real distress that,
from a variety of causes, this sudden separation had caused to her
ward.
The only sister of this good lady
had died in giving birth to a female infant, and the fever of 1805
had, within a very few years of the death of the mother, deprived
the youthful orphan of her remaining parent. Her father was a
merchant, just commencing the foundations of what would, in time,
have been a large estate; and as both Miss Emmerson and her sister
were possessed of genteel independencies, and the aunt had long
declared her intention of remaining single, the fortune of Julia,
if not brilliant, was thought rather large than otherwise. Miss
Emmerson had been educated immediately after the war of the
revolution, and at a time when the intellect of the women of this
country by no means received that attention it is thought necessary
to bestow on the minds of the future mothers of our families at the
present hour; and when, indeed, the country itself required too
much of the care of her rulers and patriots to admit of the
consideration of lesser objects. With the best of hearts and
affections devoted to the welfare of her niece, Miss Emmerson had
early discovered her own incompetency to the labour of fitting
Julia for the world in which she was to live, and shrunk with timid
modesty from the arduous task of preparing herself, by application
and study, for this sacred duty. The fashions of the day were
rapidly running into the attainment of accomplishments among the
young of her own sex, and the piano forte was already sending forth
its sonorous harmony from one end of the Union to the other, while
the glittering usefulness of the tambour-frame was discarded for
the pallet and brush. The walls of our mansions were beginning to
groan with the sickly green of imaginary fields, that caricatured
the beauties of nature; and skies of sunny brightness, that mocked
the golden hues of even an American sun. The experience of Miss
Emmerson went no further than the simple evolutions of the country
dance, or the deliberate and dignified procession of the minuet. No
wonder, therefore, that her faculties were bewildered by the
complex movements of the cotillion: and, in short, as the good lady
daily contemplated the improvements of the female youth around her,
she became each hour more convinced of her own inability to
control, or in any manner to superintend, the education of her
orphan niece. Julia was, consequently, entrusted to the government
of a select boarding-school; and, as even the morals of the day
were, in some degree, tinctured with the existing fashions, her
mind as well as her manners were absolutely submitted to the
discretion of an hireling. Notwithstanding this willing concession
of power on the part of Miss Emmerson, there was no deficiency in
ability to judge between right and wrong in her character; but the
homely nature of her good sense, unassisted by any confidence in
her own powers, was unable to compete with the dazzling display of
accomplishments which met her in every house where she visited; and
if she sometimes thought that she could not always discover much of
the useful amid this excess of the agreeable, she rather attributed
the deficiency to her own ignorance than to any error in the new
system of instruction. From the age of six to that of sixteen,
Julia had no other communications with Miss Emmerson than those
endearments which neither could suppress, and a constant and
assiduous attention on the part of the aunt to the health and
attire of her niece.
Miss Emmerson had a brother
residing in the city of New-York, who was a man of eminence at the
bar, and who, having been educated fifty years ago, was, from that
circumstance, just so much superior to his successors of his own
sex by twenty years, as his sisters were the losers from the same
cause. The family of Mr. Emmerson was large,
and, besides several sons, he had
two daughters, one of whom remained still unmarried in the house of
her father. Katherine Emmerson was but eighteen months the senior
of Julia Warren; but her father had adopted a different course from
that which was ordinarily pursued with girls of her expectations.
He had married a woman of sense, and now reaped the richest
blessing of such a connexion in her ability to superintend the
education of her daughter. A mother’s care was employed to correct
errors that a mother’s tenderness could only discover; and in the
place of general systems, and comprehensive theories, was
substituted the close and rigorous watchfulness which adapted the
remedy to the disease; which studied the disposition; and which
knew the failings or merits of the pupil, and could best tell when
to reward, and how to punish. The consequences were easily to be
seen in the manners and character of their daughter. Her
accomplishments, even where a master had been employed in their
attainment, were naturally displayed, and suited to her powers. Her
manners, instead of the artificial movements of prescribed rules,
exhibited the chaste and delicate modesty of refinement, mingled
with good principles—such as were not worn in order to be in
character as a woman and a lady, but were deeply seated, and formed
part, not only of her habits, but, if we may use the expression, of
her nature also. Miss Emmerson had good sense enough to perceive
the value of such an acquaintance for her ward; but, unfortunately
for her wish to establish an intimacy between her nieces, Julia had
already formed a friendship at school, and did not conceive her
heart was large enough to admit two at the same time to its
sanctuary. How much Julia was mistaken the sequel of our tale will
show.
So long as Anna Miller was the
inmate of the school, Julia was satisfied to remain also, but the
father of Anna having determined to remove to an estate in the
interior of the country, his daughter was taken from school; and
while the arrangements were making for the reception of the family
on the banks of the Gennessee, Anna was permitted to taste, for a
short time, the pleasures of the world, at the residence of Miss
Emmerson on the banks of the Hudson.
Charles Weston was a distant
relative of the good aunt, and was, like Julia, an orphan, who was
moderately endowed with the goods of fortune. He was a student in
the office of her uncle, and being a great favourite with Miss
Emmerson, spent many of his leisure hours, during the heats of the
summer, in the retirement of her country residence.
Whatever might be the composure
of the maiden aunt, while Julia was weeping in her chamber over the
long separation that was now to exist between herself and her
friend, young Weston by no means displayed the same philosophic
indifference. He paced the hall of the building with rapid steps,
cast many a longing glance at the door of his cousin’s room, and
then seated himself with an apparent intention to read the volume
he held in his hands; nor did he in any degree recover his
composure until Julia re-appeared on the landing of the stairs,
moving slowly towards their bottom, when, taking one long look at
her lovely face, which was glowing with youthful beauty, and if
possible more charming from the traces of tears in her eyes, he
coolly pursued his studies. Julia had recovered her composure, and
Charles Weston felt satisfied. Miss Emmerson and her niece took
their seats quietly with their work at an open window of the
parlour, and order appeared to be restored in some measure to the
mansion. After pursuing their several occupations for some minutes
with a silence that had lately been a stranger to them, the aunt
observed—
“You appear to have something new
in hand, my love. Surely you must abound with trimmings, and yet
you are working another already?”
“It is for Anna Miller,” said
Julia with a flush of feeling.
“I was in hopes you would perform
your promise to your cousin Katherine, now Miss Miller is gone, and
make your portion of the garments for the Orphan Asylum,” returned
Miss Emmerson gravely.
“Oh! cousin Katherine must wait.
I promised this trimming to Anna to remember me by, and I would not
disappoint the dear girl for the world.”
“It is not your cousin Katherine,
but the Orphans, who will have to wait; and surely a promise to a
relation is as sacred as one to an acquaintance.”
“Acquaintance, aunt!” echoed the
niece with displeasure. “Do not, I entreat you, call Anna an
acquaintance merely. She is my friend—my very best friend, and I
love her as such.”
“Thank you, my dear,” said the
aunt dryly.
“Oh! I mean nothing disrespectful
to yourself, dear aunt,” continued Julia. “You know how much I owe
to you, and ought to know that I love you as a mother.”
“And would you prefer Miss Miller
to a mother, then?”
“Surely not in respect, in
gratitude, in obedience; but still I may love her, you know.
Indeed, the feelings are so very different, that they do not at all
interfere with each other— in my heart at least.”
“No!” said Miss Emmerson, with a
little curiosity—“I wish you would try and explain this difference
to me, that I may comprehend the distinctions that you are fond of
making.”
“Why, nothing is easier, dear
aunt!” said Julia with animation. “You I love because you are kind
to me, attentive to my wants, considerate for my good;
affectionate, and—and—from habit—and you are my aunt, and take care
of me.”
“Admirable reasons!” exclaimed
Charles Weston, who had laid aside his book to listen to this
conversation.
“They are forcible ones I must
admit,” said Miss Emmerson, smiling affectionately on her niece;
“but now for the other kind of love.”
“Why, Anna is my friend, you
know,” cried Julia, with eyes sparkling with enthusiasm. “I love
her, because she has feelings congenial with my own; she has so
much wit, is so amusing, so frank, so like a girl of talents—so
like—like every thing I admire myself.”
“It is a pity that one so highly
gifted cannot furnish herself with frocks,” said the aunt, with a
little more than her ordinary dryness of manner, “and suffer you to
work for those who want them more.”
“You forget it is in order to
remember me,” said Julia, in a manner that spoke her own ideas of
the value of the gift.
“One would think such a
friendship would not require any thing to remind one of its
existence,” returned the aunt.
“Why! it is not that she will
forget me without it, but that she may have something by her to
remind her of me——” said Julia rapidly, but pausing as the
contradiction struck even herself.
“I understand you perfectly, my
child,” interrupted the aunt, “merely as an unnecessary security,
you mean.”
“To make assurance doubly sure,”
cried Charles Weston with a laugh.
“Oh! you laugh, Mr. Weston,” said
Julia with a little anger; “but I have often said, you were
incapable of friendship.”
“Try me!” exclaimed the youth
fervently. “Do not condemn me without a trial.” “How can I?” said
Julia, laughing in her turn. “You are not a girl.”
“Can girls then only feel
friendship?” inquired Charles, taking the seat which Miss Emmerson
had relinquished.
“I sometimes think so,” said
Julia, with her own good-humoured smile. “You are too gross
—too envious—in short, you never
see such friendships between men as exist between women.”
“Between girls, I will readily
admit,” returned the youth. “But let us examine this question after
the manner of the courts—”
“Nay, if you talk law I shall
quit you,” interrupted the young lady gaily.
“Certainly one so learned in the
subject need not dread a cross-examination,” cried the youth, in
her own manner.
“Well, proceed,” cried the lady.
“I have driven aunt Margaret from the field, and you will fare no
better, I can assure you.”
“Men, you say, are too gross to
feel a pure friendship; in the first place, please to explain
yourself on this point.”
“Why I mean, that your
friendships are generally interested; that it requires services and
good offices to support it.”
“While that of women depends on—”
“Feeling alone.”
“But what excites this feeling?”
asked Charles with a smile.
“What? why sympathy—and a
knowledge of each other’s good qualities.”
“Then you think Miss Miller has
more good qualities than Katherine Emmerson,” said Weston.
“When did I ever say so?” cried
Julia in surprise.
“I infer it from your loving her
better, merely,” returned the young man with a little of Miss
Emmerson’s dryness.
“It would be difficult to compare
them,” said Julia after a moment’s pause. “Katherine is in the
world, and has had an opportunity of showing her merit; that Anna
has never
enjoyed. Katherine is certainly a
most excellent girl, and I like her very much; but there is no
reason to think that Anna will not prove as fine a young woman as
Katherine, when put to the trial.”
“Pray,” said the young lawyer
with great gravity, “how many of these bosom, these confidential
friends can a young woman have at the same time?”
“One, only one—any more than she
could have two lovers,” cried Julia quickly.
“Why then did you find it
necessary to take that one from a set, that was untried in the
practice of well-doing, when so excellent a subject as your cousin
Katherine offered?”
“But Anna I know, I feel, is
every thing that is good and sincere, and our sympathies drew us
together. Katherine I loved naturally.”
“How naturally?”
“Is it not natural to love your
relatives?” said Julia in surprise. “No,” was the brief
answer.
“Surely, Charles Weston, you
think me a simpleton. Does not every parent love its child by
natural instinct?”
“No: no more than you love any of
your amusements from instinct. If the parent was present with a
child that he did not know to be his own, would instinct, think
you, discover their vicinity?”
“Certainly not, if they had never
met before; but then, as soon as he knew it to be his, he would
love it from nature.”
“It is a complicated question,
and one that involves a thousand connected feelings,” said Charles.
“But all love, at least all love of the heart, springs from the
causes you mentioned to your aunt—good offices, a dependence on
each other, and habit.”
“Yes, and nature too,” said the
young lady rather positively; “and I contend, that natural love,
and love from sympathy, are two distinct things.”