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- Herausgeber: Berlinable UG (haftungsbeschränkt)
- Kategorie: Erotik
- Sprache: Englisch
- Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2021
After a long quarantine of good behaviour, a woman lets a little bad in in the form of Mr. S, her loathsome and bedraggled object of desire. Have you ever wanted someone you didn't even like? Then this one's for you. At the late-night cafe with the empty wine bottles covering every surface, they manage a conversation (just). He looks even worse than last time, he doesn't buy her a drink, he makes her listen to Plantasia. He's manipulative and emotionally unavailable and she knows it. She doesn't even like him but still, she wants him. He is good for only one thing, and she is going to get what she wants. Unfortunately, so is he. A perfect encapsulation of ambiguous desire, this scintillating account of a bad night with a disappointing person in a terrible apartment that's still somehow magical evokes youth, Berlin, growing up and growing ever more confused.
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Artcover: Ray Litsala
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‘...we’re lovers...and that is that’ - Heroes, David Bowie
He was watching me and I knew it. Not on the level you are aware of, underneath.
‘That time I saw you in the street reading, did you really not see me?’
‘Well get this... I didn’t. But I did think of you in that moment...’
‘Oh really?’
‘Spooky huh?’
What is this diabolical magic peppering our mediocrities?
‘It’s Facebook honey, he’s stalking you.’
‘But honestly it’s more than Facebook!’
He is so boring. He is so magical. I am so boring. I am so magical. I let go and he rolled right back like an oily tide.
I thought magic was reserved for great temples or Illuminati politicians but it turns out no one is held in its sway more than whores and hustlers.
We ape magic and our experiences of it are cheap and disposable. He and I are to magic what H&M are to high fashion.
I confess: in that year I was crazy about him, I cast a spell. Sat for seven nights and seven days in front of pink candles masturbating and listening to Prince. So burn me.
Is it bad practice to use powers like that to gain something so tawdry, like petitioning god to let you rummage in a bargain bin?
But anyway...
Crossing the street at Sonnenallee. In that moment I did think of him. As I walked through the traffic lights holding a cheap book found on the street, I did think of him. As hot gravel pounded beneath my dirty trainers I thought of him...
I thought to myself.... ‘I wouldn’t mind seeing him right about now’ and I kept reading and he kept watching and I had no idea until later.
I thrill at the thought of it. To be held in his gaze is better than fucking him. For a moment there he held me in his lover's eye. That cold blue eye in his lizard head. To know he was watching my hair, my ass, my legs, that he coiled about in his pants enough to bother stalking me.
It’s such a thrill.
This is the real climax of the story, though there is another.
‘Hey, I saw you on the street just now reading a book.’
Another Facebook message. I wrote something non-committal. A couple of weeks later I got this:
‘So no meet ups, EVER?’
He was getting repetitive.
Mr S, a real trick in the old fashioned sense. He is the driftwood perennially washing up on my shore, something lingering on a street corner, the smell of smoke. Some ghoul from the wastes limping and shimmering at the edge of my consciousness.
