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North and South
Elizabeth Cleghorn Gaskell
CHAPTER I
'HASTE TO THE WEDDING''Wooed and married and a'.''Edith!' said Margaret, gently,
'Edith!'But, as Margaret half suspected, Edith
had fallen asleep. She lay curled up on the sofa in the back
drawing-room in Harley Street, looking very lovely in her white
muslin and blue ribbons. If Titania had ever been dressed in white
muslin and blue ribbons, and had fallen asleep on a crimson damask
sofa in a back drawing-room, Edith might have been taken for her.
Margaret was struck afresh by her cousin's beauty. They had grown
up together from childhood, and all along Edith had been remarked
upon by every one, except Margaret, for her prettiness; but
Margaret had never thought about it until the last few days, when
the prospect of soon losing her companion seemed to give force to
every sweet quality and charm which Edith possessed. They had been
talking about wedding dresses, and wedding ceremonies; and Captain
Lennox, and what he had told Edith about her future life at Corfu,
where his regiment was stationed; and the difficulty of keeping a
piano in good tune (a difficulty which Edith seemed to consider as
one of the most formidable that could befall her in her married
life), and what gowns she should want in the visits to Scotland,
which would immediately succeed her marriage; but the whispered
tone had latterly become more drowsy; and Margaret, after a pause
of a few minutes, found, as she fancied, that in spite of the buzz
in the next room, Edith had rolled herself up into a soft ball of
muslin and ribbon, and silken curls, and gone off into a peaceful
little after-dinner nap.Margaret had been on the point of telling her cousin of some
of the plans and visions which she entertained as to her future
life in the country parsonage, where her father and mother lived;
and where her bright holidays had always been passed, though for
the last ten years her aunt Shaw's house had been considered as her
home. But in default of a listener, she had to brood over the
change in her life silently as heretofore. It was a happy brooding,
although tinged with regret at being separated for an indefinite
time from her gentle aunt and dear cousin. As she thought of the
delight of filling the important post of only daughter in Helstone
parsonage, pieces of the conversation out of the next room came
upon her ears. Her aunt Shaw was talking to the five or six ladies
who had been dining there, and whose husbands were still in the
dining-room. They were the familiar acquaintances of the house;
neighbours whom Mrs. Shaw called friends, because she happened to
dine with them more frequently than with any other people, and
because if she or Edith wanted anything from them, or they from
her, they did not scruple to make a call at each other's houses
before luncheon. These ladies and their husbands were invited, in
their capacity of friends, to eat a farewell dinner in honour of
Edith's approaching marriage. Edith had rather objected to this
arrangement, for Captain Lennox was expected to arrive by a late
train this very evening; but, although she was a spoiled child, she
was too careless and idle to have a very strong will of her own,
and gave way when she found that her mother had absolutely ordered
those extra delicacies of the season which are always supposed to
be efficacious against immoderate grief at farewell dinners. She
contented herself by leaning back in her chair, merely playing with
the food on her plate, and looking grave and absent; while all
around her were enjoying the mots of Mr. Grey, the gentleman who
always took the bottom of the table at Mrs. Shaw's dinner parties,
and asked Edith to give them some music in the drawing-room. Mr.
Grey was particularly agreeable over this farewell dinner, and the
gentlemen staid down stairs longer than usual. It was very well
they did—to judge from the fragments of conversation which Margaret
overheard.'I suffered too much myself; not that I was not extremely
happy with the poor dear General, but still disparity of age is a
drawback; one that I was resolved Edith should not have to
encounter. Of course, without any maternal partiality, I foresaw
that the dear child was likely to marry early; indeed, I had often
said that I was sure she would be married before she was nineteen.
I had quite a prophetic feeling when Captain Lennox'—and here the
voice dropped into a whisper, but Margaret could easily supply the
blank. The course of true love in Edith's case had run remarkably
smooth. Mrs. Shaw had given way to the presentiment, as she
expressed it; and had rather urged on the marriage, although it was
below the expectations which many of Edith's acquaintances had
formed for her, a young and pretty heiress. But Mrs. Shaw said that
her only child should marry for love,—and sighed emphatically, as
if love had not been her motive for marrying the General. Mrs. Shaw
enjoyed the romance of the present engagement rather more than her
daughter. Not but that Edith was very thoroughly and properly in
love; still she would certainly have preferred a good house in
Belgravia, to all the picturesqueness of the life which Captain
Lennox described at Corfu. The very parts which made Margaret glow
as she listened, Edith pretended to shiver and shudder at; partly
for the pleasure she had in being coaxed out of her dislike by her
fond lover, and partly because anything of a gipsy or make-shift
life was really distasteful to her. Yet had any one come with a
fine house, and a fine estate, and a fine title to boot, Edith
would still have clung to Captain Lennox while the temptation
lasted; when it was over, it is possible she might have had little
qualms of ill-concealed regret that Captain Lennox could not have
united in his person everything that was desirable. In this she was
but her mother's child; who, after deliberately marrying General
Shaw with no warmer feeling than respect for his character and
establishment, was constantly, though quietly, bemoaning her hard
lot in being united to one whom she could not love.'I have spared no expense in her trousseau,' were the next
wordsMargaret heard.'She has all the beautiful Indian shawls and scarfs the
General gave to me, but which I shall never wear
again.''She is a lucky girl,' replied another voice, which Margaret
knew to be that of Mrs. Gibson, a lady who was taking a double
interest in the conversation, from the fact of one of her daughters
having been married within the last few weeks.'Helen had set her heart upon an Indian shawl, but really
when I found what an extravagant price was asked, I was obliged to
refuse her. She will be quite envious when she hears of Edith
having Indian shawls. What kind are they? Delhi? with the lovely
little borders?'Margaret heard her aunt's voice again, but this time it was
as if she had raised herself up from her half-recumbent position,
and were looking into the more dimly lighted back drawing-room.
'Edith! Edith!' cried she; and then she sank as if wearied by the
exertion. Margaret stepped forward.'Edith is asleep, Aunt Shaw. Is it anything I can
do?'All the ladies said 'Poor child!' on receiving this
distressing intelligence about Edith; and the minute lap-dog in
Mrs. Shaw's arms began to bark, as if excited by the burst of
pity.'Hush, Tiny! you naughty little girl! you will waken your
mistress. It was only to ask Edith if she would tell Newton to
bring down her shawls: perhaps you would go, Margaret
dear?'Margaret went up into the old nursery at the very top of the
house, where Newton was busy getting up some laces which were
required for the wedding. While Newton went (not without a muttered
grumbling) to undo the shawls, which had already been exhibited
four or five times that day, Margaret looked round upon the
nursery; the first room in that house with which she had become
familiar nine years ago, when she was brought, all untamed from the
forest, to share the home, the play, and the lessons of her cousin
Edith. She remembered the dark, dim look of the London nursery,
presided over by an austere and ceremonious nurse, who was terribly
particular about clean hands and torn frocks. She recollected the
first tea up there—separate from her father and aunt, who were
dining somewhere down below an infinite depth of stairs; for unless
she were up in the sky (the child thought), they must be deep down
in the bowels of the earth. At home—before she came to live in
Harley Street—her mother's dressing-room had been her nursery; and,
as they kept early hours in the country parsonage, Margaret had
always had her meals with her father and mother. Oh! well did the
tall stately girl of eighteen remember the tears shed with such
wild passion of grief by the little girl of nine, as she hid her
face under the bed-clothes, in that first night; and how she was
bidden not to cry by the nurse, because it would disturb Miss
Edith; and how she had cried as bitterly, but more quietly, till
her newly-seen, grand, pretty aunt had come softly upstairs with
Mr. Hale to show him his little sleeping daughter. Then the little
Margaret had hushed her sobs, and tried to lie quiet as if asleep,
for fear of making her father unhappy by her grief, which she dared
not express before her aunt, and which she rather thought it was
wrong to feel at all after the long hoping, and planning, and
contriving they had gone through at home, before her wardrobe could
be arranged so as to suit her grander circumstances, and before
papa could leave his parish to come up to London, even for a few
days.Now she had got to love the old nursery, though it was but a
dismantled place; and she looked all round, with a kind of cat-like
regret, at the idea of leaving it for ever in three
days.'Ah Newton!' said she, 'I think we shall all be sorry to
leave this dear old room.''Indeed, miss, I shan't for one. My eyes are not so good as
they were, and the light here is so bad that I can't see to mend
laces except just at the window, where there's always a shocking
draught—enough to give one one's death of cold.'Well, I dare say you will have both good light and plenty of
warmth atNaples. You must keep as much of your darning as you can till
then.Thank you, Newton, I can take them down—you're
busy.'So Margaret went down laden with shawls, and snuffing up
their spicy Eastern smell. Her aunt asked her to stand as a sort of
lay figure on which to display them, as Edith was still asleep. No
one thought about it; but Margaret's tall, finely made figure, in
the black silk dress which she was wearing as mourning for some
distant relative of her father's, set off the long beautiful folds
of the gorgeous shawls that would have half-smothered Edith.
Margaret stood right under the chandelier, quite silent and
passive, while her aunt adjusted the draperies. Occasionally, as
she was turned round, she caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror
over the chimney-piece, and smiled at her own appearance there—the
familiar features in the usual garb of a princess. She touched the
shawls gently as they hung around her, and took a pleasure in their
soft feel and their brilliant colours, and rather liked to be
dressed in such splendour—enjoying it much as a child would do,
with a quiet pleased smile on her lips. Just then the door opened,
and Mr. Henry Lennox was suddenly announced. Some of the ladies
started back, as if half-ashamed of their feminine interest in
dress. Mrs. Shaw held out her hand to the new-comer; Margaret stood
perfectly still, thinking she might be yet wanted as a sort of
block for the shawls; but looking at Mr. Lennox with a bright,
amused face, as if sure of his sympathy in her sense of the
ludicrousness at being thus surprised.Her aunt was so much absorbed in asking Mr. Henry Lennox—who
had not been able to come to dinner—all sorts of questions about
his brother the bridegroom, his sister the bridesmaid (coming with
the Captain from Scotland for the occasion), and various other
members of the Lennox family, that Margaret saw she was no more
wanted as shawl-bearer, and devoted herself to the amusement of the
other visitors, whom her aunt had for the moment forgotten. Almost
immediately, Edith came in from the back drawing-room, winking and
blinking her eyes at the stronger light, shaking back her
slightly-ruffled curls, and altogether looking like the Sleeping
Beauty just startled from her dreams. Even in her slumber she had
instinctively felt that a Lennox was worth rousing herself for; and
she had a multitude of questions to ask about dear Janet, the
future, unseen sister-in-law, for whom she professed so much
affection, that if Margaret had not been very proud she might have
almost felt jealous of the mushroom rival. As Margaret sank rather
more into the background on her aunt's joining the conversation,
she saw Henry Lennox directing his look towards a vacant seat near
her; and she knew perfectly well that as soon as Edith released him
from her questioning, he would take possession of that chair. She
had not been quite sure, from her aunt's rather confused account of
his engagements, whether he would come that night; it was almost a
surprise to see him; and now she was sure of a pleasant evening. He
liked and disliked pretty nearly the same things that she did.
Margaret's face was lightened up into an honest, open brightness.
By-and-by he came. She received him with a smile which had not a
tinge of shyness or self-consciousness in it.'Well, I suppose you are all in the depths of
business—ladies' business, I mean. Very different to my business,
which is the real true law business. Playing with shawls is very
different work to drawing up settlements.'Ah, I knew how you would be amused to find us all so
occupied in admiring finery. But really Indian shawls are very
perfect things of their kind.''I have no doubt they are. Their prices are very perfect,
too. Nothing wanting.' The gentlemen came dropping in one by one,
and the buzz and noise deepened in tone.'This is your last dinner-party, is it not? There are no more
beforeThursday?''No. I think after this evening we shall feel at rest, which
I am sure I have not done for many weeks; at least, that kind of
rest when the hands have nothing more to do, and all the
arrangements are complete for an event which must occupy one's head
and heart. I shall be glad to have time to think, and I am sure
Edith will.''I am not so sure about her; but I can fancy that you will.
Whenever I have seen you lately, you have been carried away by a
whirlwind of some other person's making.''Yes,' said Margaret, rather sadly, remembering the
never-ending commotion about trifles that had been going on for
more than a month past: 'I wonder if a marriage must always be
preceded by what you call a whirlwind, or whether in some cases
there might not rather be a calm and peaceful time just before
it.''Cinderella's godmother ordering the trousseau, the
wedding-breakfast, writing the notes of invitation, for instance,'
said Mr. Lennox, laughing.'But are all these quite necessary troubles?' asked Margaret,
looking up straight at him for an answer. A sense of indescribable
weariness of all the arrangements for a pretty effect, in which
Edith had been busied as supreme authority for the last six weeks,
oppressed her just now; and she really wanted some one to help her
to a few pleasant, quiet ideas connected with a
marriage.'Oh, of course,' he replied with a change to gravity in his
tone. 'There are forms and ceremonies to be gone through, not so
much to satisfy oneself, as to stop the world's mouth, without
which stoppage there would be very little satisfaction in life. But
how would you have a wedding arranged?''Oh, I have never thought much about it; only I should like
it to be a very fine summer morning; and I should like to walk to
church through the shade of trees; and not to have so many
bridesmaids, and to have no wedding-breakfast. I dare say I am
resolving against the very things that have given me the most
trouble just now.''No, I don't think you are. The idea of stately simplicity
accords well with your character.'Margaret did not quite like this speech; she winced away from
it more, from remembering former occasions on which he had tried to
lead her into a discussion (in which he took the complimentary
part) about her own character and ways of going on. She cut his
speech rather short by saying:'It is natural for me to think of Helstone church, and the
walk to it, rather than of driving up to a London church in the
middle of a paved street.''Tell me about Helstone. You have never described it to me. I
should like to have some idea of the place you will be living in,
when ninety-six Harley Street will be looking dingy and dirty, and
dull, and shut up. Is Helstone a village, or a town, in the first
place?''Oh, only a hamlet; I don't think I could call it a village
at all. There is the church and a few houses near it on the
green—cottages, rather—with roses growing all over
them.''And flowering all the year round, especially at
Christmas—make your picture complete,' said he.'No,' replied Margaret, somewhat annoyed, 'I am not making a
picture. I am trying to describe Helstone as it really is. You
should not have said that.''I am penitent,' he answered. 'Only it really sounded like a
village in a tale rather than in real life.''And so it is,' replied Margaret, eagerly. 'All the other
places in England that I have seen seem so hard and
prosaic-looking, after the New Forest. Helstone is like a village
in a poem—in one of Tennyson's poems. But I won't try and describe
it any more. You would only laugh at me if I told you what I think
of it—what it really is.''Indeed, I would not. But I see you are going to be very
resolved. Well, then, tell me that which I should like still better
to know what the parsonage is like.''Oh, I can't describe my home. It is home, and I can't put
its charm into words.''I submit. You are rather severe to-night,
Margaret.'How?' said she, turning her large soft eyes round full upon
him. 'I did not know I was.''Why, because I made an unlucky remark, you will neither tell
me what Helstone is like, nor will you say anything about your
home, though I have told you how much I want to hear about both,
the latter especially.''But indeed I cannot tell you about my own home. I don't
quite think it is a thing to be talked about, unless you knew
it.''Well, then'—pausing for a moment—'tell me what you do there.
Here you read, or have lessons, or otherwise improve your mind,
till the middle of the day; take a walk before lunch, go a drive
with your aunt after, and have some kind of engagement in the
evening. There, now fill up your day at Helstone. Shall you ride,
drive, or walk?''Walk, decidedly. We have no horse, not even for papa. He
walks to the very extremity of his parish. The walks are so
beautiful, it would be a shame to drive—almost a shame to
ride.''Shall you garden much? That, I believe, is a proper
employment for young ladies in the country.''I don't know. I am afraid I shan't like such hard
work.''Archery
parties—pic-nics—race-balls—hunt-balls?''Oh no!' said she, laughing. 'Papa's living is very small;
and even if we were near such things, I doubt if I should go to
them.''I see, you won't tell me anything. You will only tell me
that you are not going to do this and that. Before the vacation
ends, I think I shall pay you a call, and see what you really do
employ yourself in.''I hope you will. Then you will see for yourself how
beautiful Helstone is. Now I must go. Edith is sitting down to
play, and I just know enough of music to turn over the leaves for
her; and besides, Aunt Shaw won't like us to talk.' Edith played
brilliantly. In the middle of the piece the door half-opened, and
Edith saw Captain Lennox hesitating whether to come in. She threw
down her music, and rushed out of the room, leaving Margaret
standing confused and blushing to explain to the astonished guests
what vision had shown itself to cause Edith's sudden flight.
Captain Lennox had come earlier than was expected; or was it really
so late? They looked at their watches, were duly shocked, and took
their leave.Then Edith came back, glowing with pleasure, half-shyly,
half-proudly leading in her tall handsome Captain. His brother
shook hands with him, and Mrs. Shaw welcomed him in her gentle
kindly way, which had always something plaintive in it, arising
from the long habit of considering herself a victim to an
uncongenial marriage. Now that, the General being gone, she had
every good of life, with as few drawbacks as possible, she had been
rather perplexed to find an anxiety, if not a sorrow. She had,
however, of late settled upon her own health as a source of
apprehension; she had a nervous little cough whenever she thought
about it; and some complaisant doctor ordered her just what she
desired,—a winter in Italy. Mrs. Shaw had as strong wishes as most
people, but she never liked to do anything from the open and
acknowledged motive of her own good will and pleasure; she
preferred being compelled to gratify herself by some other person's
command or desire. She really did persuade herself that she was
submitting to some hard external necessity; and thus she was able
to moan and complain in her soft manner, all the time she was in
reality doing just what she liked.It was in this way she began to speak of her own journey to
Captain Lennox, who assented, as in duty bound, to all his future
mother-in-law said, while his eyes sought Edith, who was busying
herself in rearranging the tea-table, and ordering up all sorts of
good things, in spite of his assurances that he had dined within
the last two hours.Mr. Henry Lennox stood leaning against the chimney-piece,
amused with the family scene. He was close by his handsome brother;
he was the plain one in a singularly good-looking family; but his
face was intelligent, keen, and mobile; and now and then Margaret
wondered what it was that he could be thinking about, while he kept
silence, but was evidently observing, with an interest that was
slightly sarcastic, all that Edith and she were doing. The
sarcastic feeling was called out by Mrs. Shaw's conversation with
his brother; it was separate from the interest which was excited by
what he saw. He thought it a pretty sight to see the two cousins so
busy in their little arrangements about the table. Edith chose to
do most herself. She was in a humour to enjoy showing her lover how
well she could behave as a soldier's wife. She found out that the
water in the urn was cold, and ordered up the great kitchen
tea-kettle; the only consequence of which was that when she met it
at the door, and tried to carry it in, it was too heavy for her,
and she came in pouting, with a black mark on her muslin gown, and
a little round white hand indented by the handle, which she took to
show to Captain Lennox, just like a hurt child, and, of course, the
remedy was the same in both cases. Margaret's quickly-adjusted
spirit-lamp was the most efficacious contrivance, though not so
like the gypsy-encampment which Edith, in some of her moods, chose
to consider the nearest resemblance to a barrack-life. After this
evening all was bustle till the wedding was over.
CHAPTER II
ROSES AND THORNS'By the soft green light in the woody
glade, On the banks of moss where thy
childhood played; By the household tree, thro'
which thine eye First looked in love to the
summer sky.' MRS.
HEMANS.Margaret was once more in her morning dress, travelling
quietly home with her father, who had come up to assist at the
wedding. Her mother had been detained at home by a multitude of
half-reasons, none of which anybody fully understood, except Mr.
Hale, who was perfectly aware that all his arguments in favour of a
grey satin gown, which was midway between oldness and newness, had
proved unavailing; and that, as he had not the money to equip his
wife afresh, from top to toe, she would not show herself at her
only sister's only child's wedding. If Mrs. Shaw had guessed at the
real reason why Mrs. Hale did not accompany her husband, she would
have showered down gowns upon her; but it was nearly twenty years
since Mrs. Shaw had been the poor, pretty Miss Beresford, and she
had really forgotten all grievances except that of the unhappiness
arising from disparity of age in married life, on which she could
descant by the half-hour. Dearest Maria had married the man of her
heart, only eight years older than herself, with the sweetest
temper, and that blue-black hair one so seldom sees. Mr. Hale was
one of the most delightful preachers she had ever heard, and a
perfect model of a parish priest. Perhaps it was not quite a
logical deduction from all these premises, but it was still Mrs.
Shaw's characteristic conclusion, as she thought over her sister's
lot: 'Married for love, what can dearest Maria have to wish for in
this world?' Mrs. Hale, if she spoke truth, might have answered
with a ready-made list, 'a silver-grey glace silk, a white chip
bonnet, oh! dozens of things for the wedding, and hundreds of
things for the house.' Margaret only knew that her mother had not
found it convenient to come, and she was not sorry to think that
their meeting and greeting would take place at Helstone parsonage,
rather than, during the confusion of the last two or three days, in
the house in Harley Street, where she herself had had to play the
part of Figaro, and was wanted everywhere at one and the same time.
Her mind and body ached now with the recollection of all she had
done and said within the last forty-eight hours. The farewells so
hurriedly taken, amongst all the other good-byes, of those she had
lived with so long, oppressed her now with a sad regret for the
times that were no more; it did not signify what those times had
been, they were gone never to return. Margaret's heart felt more
heavy than she could ever have thought it possible in going to her
own dear home, the place and the life she had longed for for
years—at that time of all times for yearning and longing, just
before the sharp senses lose their outlines in sleep. She took her
mind away with a wrench from the recollection of the past to the
bright serene contemplation of the hopeful future. Her eyes began
to see, not visions of what had been, but the sight actually before
her; her dear father leaning back asleep in the railway carriage.
His blue-black hair was grey now, and lay thinly over his brows.
The bones of his face were plainly to be seen—too plainly for
beauty, if his features had been less finely cut; as it was, they
had a grace if not a comeliness of their own. The face was in
repose; but it was rather rest after weariness, than the serene
calm of the countenance of one who led a placid, contented life.
Margaret was painfully struck by the worn, anxious expression; and
she went back over the open and avowed circumstances of her
father's life, to find the cause for the lines that spoke so
plainly of habitual distress and depression.'Poor Frederick!' thought she, sighing. 'Oh! if Frederick had
but been a clergyman, instead of going into the navy, and being
lost to us all! I wish I knew all about it. I never understood it
from Aunt Shaw; I only knew he could not come back to England
because of that terrible affair. Poor dear papa! how sad he looks!
I am so glad I am going home, to be at hand to comfort him and
mamma.She was ready with a bright smile, in which there was not a
trace of fatigue, to greet her father when he awakened. He smiled
back again, but faintly, as if it were an unusual exertion. His
face returned into its lines of habitual anxiety. He had a trick of
half-opening his mouth as if to speak, which constantly unsettled
the form of the lips, and gave the face an undecided expression.
But he had the same large, soft eyes as his daughter,—eyes which
moved slowly and almost grandly round in their orbits, and were
well veiled by their transparent white eyelids. Margaret was more
like him than like her mother. Sometimes people wondered that
parents so handsome should have a daughter who was so far from
regularly beautiful; not beautiful at all, was occasionally said.
Her mouth was wide; no rosebud that could only open just enough to
let out a 'yes' and 'no,' and 'an't please you, sir.' But the wide
mouth was one soft curve of rich red lips; and the skin, if not
white and fair, was of an ivory smoothness and delicacy. If the
look on her face was, in general, too dignified and reserved for
one so young, now, talking to her father, it was bright as the
morning,—full of dimples, and glances that spoke of childish
gladness, and boundless hope in the future.It was the latter part of July when Margaret returned home.
The forest trees were all one dark, full, dusky green; the fern
below them caught all the slanting sunbeams; the weather was sultry
and broodingly still. Margaret used to tramp along by her father's
side, crushing down the fern with a cruel glee, as she felt it
yield under her light foot, and send up the fragrance peculiar to
it,—out on the broad commons into the warm scented light, seeing
multitudes of wild, free, living creatures, revelling in the
sunshine, and the herbs and flowers it called forth. This life—at
least these walks—realised all Margaret's anticipations. She took a
pride in her forest. Its people were her people. She made hearty
friends with them; learned and delighted in using their peculiar
words; took up her freedom amongst them; nursed their babies;
talked or read with slow distinctness to their old people; carried
dainty messes to their sick; resolved before long to teach at the
school, where her father went every day as to an appointed task,
but she was continually tempted off to go and see some individual
friend—man, woman, or child—in some cottage in the green shade of
the forest. Her out-of-doors life was perfect. Her in-doors life
had its drawbacks. With the healthy shame of a child, she blamed
herself for her keenness of sight, in perceiving that all was not
as it should be there. Her mother—her mother always so kind and
tender towards her—seemed now and then so much discontented with
their situation; thought that the bishop strangely neglected his
episcopal duties, in not giving Mr. Hale a better living; and
almost reproached her husband because he could not bring himself to
say that he wished to leave the parish, and undertake the charge of
a larger. He would sigh aloud as he answered, that if he could do
what he ought in little Helstone, he should be thankful; but every
day he was more overpowered; the world became more bewildering. At
each repeated urgency of his wife, that he would put himself in the
way of seeking some preferment, Margaret saw that her father shrank
more and more; and she strove at such times to reconcile her mother
to Helstone. Mrs. Hale said that the near neighbourhood of so many
trees affected her health; and Margaret would try to tempt her
forth on to the beautiful, broad, upland, sun-streaked,
cloud-shadowed common; for she was sure that her mother had
accustomed herself too much to an in-doors life, seldom extending
her walks beyond the church, the school, and the neighbouring
cottages. This did good for a time; but when the autumn drew on,
and the weather became more changeable, her mother's idea of the
unhealthiness of the place increased; and she repined even more
frequently that her husband, who was more learned than Mr. Hume, a
better parish priest than Mr. Houldsworth, should not have met with
the preferment that these two former neighbours of theirs had
done.This marring of the peace of home, by long hours of
discontent, was what Margaret was unprepared for. She knew, and had
rather revelled in the idea, that she should have to give up many
luxuries, which had only been troubles and trammels to her freedom
in Harley Street. Her keen enjoyment of every sensuous pleasure,
was balanced finely, if not overbalanced, by her conscious pride in
being able to do without them all, if need were. But the cloud
never comes in that quarter of the horizon from which we watch for
it. There had been slight complaints and passing regrets on her
mother's part, over some trifle connected with Helstone, and her
father's position there, when Margaret had been spending her
holidays at home before; but in the general happiness of the
recollection of those times, she had forgotten the small details
which were not so pleasant. In the latter half of September, the
autumnal rains and storms came on, and Margaret was obliged to
remain more in the house than she had hitherto done. Helstone was
at some distance from any neighbours of their own standard of
cultivation.'It is undoubtedly one of the most out-of-the-way places in
England,' said Mrs. Hale, in one of her plaintive moods. 'I can't
help regretting constantly that papa has really no one to associate
with here; he is so thrown away; seeing no one but farmers and
labourers from week's end to week's end. If we only lived at the
other side of the parish, it would be something; there we should be
almost within walking distance of the Stansfields; certainly the
Gormans would be within a walk.''Gormans,' said Margaret. 'Are those the Gormans who made
their fortunes in trade at Southampton? Oh! I'm glad we don't visit
them. I don't like shoppy people. I think we are far better off,
knowing only cottagers and labourers, and people without
pretence.''You must not be so fastidious, Margaret, dear!' said her
mother, secretly thinking of a young and handsome Mr. Gorman whom
she had once met at Mr. Hume's.'No! I call mine a very comprehensive taste; I like all
people whose occupations have to do with land; I like soldiers and
sailors, and the three learned professions, as they call them. I'm
sure you don't want me to admire butchers and bakers, and
candlestick-makers, do you, mamma?''But the Gormans were neither butchers nor bakers, but very
respectable coach-builders.''Very well. Coach-building is a trade all the same, and I
think a much more useless one than that of butchers or bakers. Oh!
how tired I used to be of the drives every day in Aunt Shaw's
carriage, and how I longed to walk!'And walk Margaret did, in spite of the weather. She was so
happy out of doors, at her father's side, that she almost danced;
and with the soft violence of the west wind behind her, as she
crossed some heath, she seemed to be borne onwards, as lightly and
easily as the fallen leaf that was wafted along by the autumnal
breeze. But the evenings were rather difficult to fill up
agreeably. Immediately after tea her father withdrew into his small
library, and she and her mother were left alone. Mrs. Hale had
never cared much for books, and had discouraged her husband, very
early in their married life, in his desire of reading aloud to her,
while she worked. At one time they had tried backgammon as a
resource; but as Mr. Hale grew to take an increasing interest in
his school and his parishioners, he found that the interruptions
which arose out of these duties were regarded as hardships by his
wife, not to be accepted as the natural conditions of his
profession, but to be regretted and struggled against by her as
they severally arose. So he withdrew, while the children were yet
young, into his library, to spend his evenings (if he were at
home), in reading the speculative and metaphysical books which were
his delight.When Margaret had been here before, she had brought down with
her a great box of books, recommended by masters or governess, and
had found the summer's day all too short to get through the reading
she had to do before her return to town. Now there were only the
well-bound little-read English Classics, which were weeded out of
her father's library to fill up the small book-shelves in the
drawing-room. Thomson's Seasons, Hayley's Cowper, Middleton's
Cicero, were by far the lightest, newest, and most amusing. The
book-shelves did not afford much resource. Margaret told her mother
every particular of her London life, to all of which Mrs. Hale
listened with interest, sometimes amused and questioning, at others
a little inclined to compare her sister's circumstances of ease and
comfort with the narrower means at Helstone vicarage. On such
evenings Margaret was apt to stop talking rather abruptly, and
listen to the drip-drip of the rain upon the leads of the little
bow-window. Once or twice Margaret found herself mechanically
counting the repetition of the monotonous sound, while she wondered
if she might venture to put a question on a subject very near to
her heart, and ask where Frederick was now; what he was doing; how
long it was since they had heard from him. But a consciousness that
her mother's delicate health, and positive dislike to Helstone, all
dated from the time of the mutiny in which Frederick had been
engaged,—the full account of which Margaret had never heard, and
which now seemed doomed to be buried in sad oblivion,—made her
pause and turn away from the subject each time she approached it.
When she was with her mother, her father seemed the best person to
apply to for information; and when with him, she thought that she
could speak more easily to her mother. Probably there was nothing
much to be heard that was new. In one of the letters she had
received before leaving Harley Street, her father had told her that
they had heard from Frederick; he was still at Rio, and very well
in health, and sent his best love to her; which was dry bones, but
not the living intelligence she longed for. Frederick was always
spoken of, in the rare times when his name was mentioned, as 'Poor
Frederick.' His room was kept exactly as he had left it; and was
regularly dusted, and put into order by Dixon, Mrs. Hale's maid,
who touched no other part of the household work, but always
remembered the day when she had been engaged by Lady Beresford as
ladies' maid to Sir John's wards, the pretty Miss Beresfords, the
belles of Rutlandshire. Dixon had always considered Mr. Hale as the
blight which had fallen upon her young lady's prospects in life. If
Miss Beresford had not been in such a hurry to marry a poor country
clergyman, there was no knowing what she might not have become. But
Dixon was too loyal to desert her in her affliction and downfall
(alias her married life). She remained with her, and was devoted to
her interests; always considering herself as the good and
protecting fairy, whose duty it was to baffle the malignant giant,
Mr. Hale. Master Frederick had been her favorite and pride; and it
was with a little softening of her dignified look and manner, that
she went in weekly to arrange the chamber as carefully as if he
might be coming home that very evening. Margaret could not help
believing that there had been some late intelligence of Frederick,
unknown to her mother, which was making her father anxious and
uneasy. Mrs. Hale did not seem to perceive any alteration in her
husband's looks or ways. His spirits were always tender and gentle,
readily affected by any small piece of intelligence concerning the
welfare of others. He would be depressed for many days after
witnessing a death-bed, or hearing of any crime. But now Margaret
noticed an absence of mind, as if his thoughts were pre-occupied by
some subject, the oppression of which could not be relieved by any
daily action, such as comforting the survivors, or teaching at the
school in hope of lessening the evils in the generation to come.
Mr. Hale did not go out among his parishioners as much as usual; he
was more shut up in his study; was anxious for the village postman,
whose summons to the house-hold was a rap on the back-kitchen
window-shutter—a signal which at one time had often to be repeated
before any one was sufficiently alive to the hour of the day to
understand what it was, and attend to him. Now Mr. Hale loitered
about the garden if the morning was fine, and if not, stood
dreamily by the study window until the postman had called, or gone
down the lane, giving a half-respectful, half-confidential shake of
the head to the parson, who watched him away beyond the sweet-briar
hedge, and past the great arbutus, before he turned into the room
to begin his day's work, with all the signs of a heavy heart and an
occupied mind.But Margaret was at an age when any apprehension, not
absolutely based on a knowledge of facts, is easily banished for a
time by a bright sunny day, or some happy outward circumstance. And
when the brilliant fourteen fine days of October came on, her cares
were all blown away as lightly as thistledown, and she thought of
nothing but the glories of the forest. The fern-harvest was over,
and now that the rain was gone, many a deep glade was accessible,
into which Margaret had only peeped in July and August weather. She
had learnt drawing with Edith; and she had sufficiently regretted,
during the gloom of the bad weather, her idle revelling in the
beauty of the woodlands while it had yet been fine, to make her
determined to sketch what she could before winter fairly set in.
Accordingly, she was busy preparing her board one morning, when
Sarah, the housemaid, threw wide open the drawing-room door and
announced, 'Mr. Henry Lennox.'
CHAPTER III
'THE MORE HASTE THE WORSE
SPEED''Learn to win a lady's
faith Nobly, as the thing is
high; Bravely, as for life and
death— With a loyal
gravity.Lead her from the festive
boards, Point her to the starry
skies, Guard her, by your truthful
words, Pure from courtship's
flatteries.' MRS.
BROWNING.'Mr. Henry Lennox.' Margaret had been thinking of him only a
moment before, and remembering his inquiry into her probable
occupations at home. It was 'parler du soleil et l'on en voit les
rayons;' and the brightness of the sun came over Margaret's face as
she put down her board, and went forward to shake hands with him.
'Tell mamma, Sarah,' said she. 'Mamma and I want to ask you so many
questions about Edith; I am so much obliged to you for
coming.''Did not I say that I should?' asked he, in a lower tone than
that in which she had spoken.'But I heard of you so far away in the Highlands that I never
thoughtHampshire could come in.'Oh!' said he, more lightly, 'our young couple were playing
such foolish pranks, running all sorts of risks, climbing this
mountain, sailing on that lake, that I really thought they needed a
Mentor to take care of them. And indeed they did; they were quite
beyond my uncle's management, and kept the old gentleman in a panic
for sixteen hours out of the twenty-four. Indeed, when I once saw
how unfit they were to be trusted alone, I thought it my duty not
to leave them till I had seen them safely embarked at
Plymouth.''Have you been at Plymouth? Oh! Edith never named that. To be
sure, she has written in such a hurry lately. Did they really sail
on Tuesday?''Really sailed, and relieved me from many responsibilities.
Edith gave me all sorts of messages for you. I believe I have a
little diminutive note somewhere; yes, here it is.''Oh! thank you,' exclaimed Margaret; and then, half wishing
to read it alone and unwatched, she made the excuse of going to
tell her mother again (Sarah surely had made some mistake) that Mr.
Lennox was there.When she had left the room, he began in his scrutinising way
to look about him. The little drawing-room was looking its best in
the streaming light of the morning sun. The middle window in the
bow was opened, and clustering roses and the scarlet honeysuckle
came peeping round the corner; the small lawn was gorgeous with
verbenas and geraniums of all bright colours. But the very
brightness outside made the colours within seem poor and faded. The
carpet was far from new; the chintz had been often washed; the
whole apartment was smaller and shabbier than he had expected, as
back-ground and frame-work for Margaret, herself so queenly. He
took up one of the books lying on the table; it was the Paradiso of
Dante, in the proper old Italian binding of white vellum and gold;
by it lay a dictionary, and some words copied out in Margaret's
hand-writing. They were a dull list of words, but somehow he liked
looking at them. He put them down with a sigh.'The living is evidently as small as she said. It seems
strange, for theBeresfords belong to a good family.'Margaret meanwhile had found her mother. It was one of Mrs.
Hale's fitful days, when everything was a difficulty and a
hardship; and Mr. Lennox's appearance took this shape, although
secretly she felt complimented by his thinking it worth while to
call.'It is most unfortunate! We are dining early to-day, and
having nothing but cold meat, in order that the servants may get on
with their ironing; and yet, of course, we must ask him to
dinner—Edith's brother-in-law and all. And your papa is in such low
spirits this morning about something—I don't know what. I went into
the study just now, and he had his face on the table, covering it
with his hands. I told him I was sure Helstone air did not agree
with him any more than with me, and he suddenly lifted up his head,
and begged me not to speak a word more against Helstone, he could
not bear it; if there was one place he loved on earth it was
Helstone. But I am sure, for all that, it is the damp and relaxing
air.'Margaret felt as if a thin cold cloud had come between her
and the sun.She had listened patiently, in hopes that it might be some
relief to hermother to unburden herself; but now it was time to draw her
back to Mr.Lennox.'Papa likes Mr. Lennox; they got on together famously at the
wedding breakfast. I dare say his coming will do papa good. And
never mind the dinner, dear mamma. Cold meat will do capitally for
a lunch, which is the light in which Mr. Lennox will most likely
look upon a two o'clock dinner.''But what are we to do with him till then? It is only
half-past ten now.''I'll ask him to go out sketching with me. I know he draws,
and that will take him out of your way, mamma. Only do come in now;
he will think it so strange if you don't.'Mrs. Hale took off her black silk apron, and smoothed her
face. She looked a very pretty lady-like woman, as she greeted Mr.
Lennox with the cordiality due to one who was almost a relation. He
evidently expected to be asked to spend the day, and accepted the
invitation with a glad readiness that made Mrs. Hale wish she could
add something to the cold beef. He was pleased with everything;
delighted with Margaret's idea of going out sketching together;
would not have Mr. Hale disturbed for the world, with the prospect
of so soon meeting him at dinner. Margaret brought out her drawing
materials for him to choose from; and after the paper and brushes
had been duly selected, the two set out in the merriest spirits in
the world.'Now, please, just stop here for a minute or two, said
Margaret. 'These are the cottages that haunted me so during the
rainy fortnight, reproaching me for not having sketched
them.''Before they tumbled down and were no more seen. Truly, if
they are to be sketched—and they are very picturesque—we had better
not put it off till next year. But where shall we
sit?''Oh! You might have come straight from chambers in the
Temple,' instead of having been two months in the Highlands! Look
at this beautiful trunk of a tree, which the wood-cutters have left
just in the right place for the light. I will put my plaid over it,
and it will be a regular forest throne.''With your feet in that puddle for a regal footstool! Stay, I
will move, and then you can come nearer this way. Who lives in
these cottages?''They were built by squatters fifty or sixty years ago. One
is uninhabited; the foresters are going to take it down, as soon as
the old man who lives in the other is dead, poor old fellow!
Look—there he is—I must go and speak to him. He is so deaf you will
hear all our secrets.'The old man stood bareheaded in the sun, leaning on his stick
at the front of his cottage. His stiff features relaxed into a slow
smile as Margaret went up and spoke to him. Mr. Lennox hastily
introduced the two figures into his sketch, and finished up the
landscape with a subordinate reference to them—as Margaret
perceived, when the time came for getting up, putting away water,
and scraps of paper, and exhibiting to each other their sketches.
She laughed and blushed: Mr. Lennox watched her
countenance.'Now, I call that treacherous,' said she. 'I little thought
you were making old Isaac and me into subjects, when you told me to
ask him the history of these cottages.''It was irresistible. You can't know how strong a temptation
it was. I hardly dare tell you how much I shall like this
sketch.'He was not quite sure whether she heard this latter sentence
before she went to the brook to wash her palette. She came back
rather flushed, but looking perfectly innocent and unconscious. He
was glad of it, for the speech had slipped from him unawares—a rare
thing in the case of a man who premeditated his actions so much as
Henry Lennox.The aspect of home was all right and bright when they reached
it. The clouds on her mother's brow had cleared off under the
propitious influence of a brace of carp, most opportunely presented
by a neighbour. Mr. Hale had returned from his morning's round, and
was awaiting his visitor just outside the wicket gate that led into
the garden. He looked a complete gentleman in his rather threadbare
coat and well-worn hat.Margaret was proud of her father; she had always a fresh and
tender pride in seeing how favourably he impressed every stranger;
still her quick eye sought over his face and found there traces of
some unusual disturbance, which was only put aside, not cleared
away.Mr. Hale asked to look at their sketches.'I think you have made the tints on the thatch too dark, have
you not?' as he returned Margaret's to her, and held out his hand
for Mr. Lennox's, which was withheld from him one moment, no
more.'No, papa! I don't think I have. The house-leek and
stone-crop have grown so much darker in the rain. Is it not like,
papa?' said she, peeping over his shoulder, as he looked at the
figures in Mr. Lennox's drawing.'Yes, very like. Your figure and way of holding yourself is
capital. And it is just poor old Isaac's stiff way of stooping his
long rheumatic back. What is this hanging from the branch of the
tree? Not a bird's nest, surely.''Oh no! that is my bonnet. I never can draw with my bonnet
on; it makes my head so hot. I wonder if I could manage figures.
There are so many people about here whom I should like to
sketch.''I should say that a likeness you very much wish to take you
would always succeed in,' said Mr. Lennox. 'I have great faith in
the power of will. I think myself I have succeeded pretty well in
yours.' Mr. Hale had preceded them into the house, while Margaret
was lingering to pluck some roses, with which to adorn her morning
gown for dinner.'A regular London girl would understand the implied meaning
of that speech,' thought Mr. Lennox. 'She would be up to looking
through every speech that a young man made her for the
arriere-pensee of a compliment. But I don't believe
Margaret,—Stay!' exclaimed he, 'Let me help you;' and he gathered
for her some velvety cramoisy roses that were above her reach, and
then dividing the spoil he placed two in his button-hole, and sent
her in, pleased and happy, to arrange her flowers.The conversation at dinner flowed on quietly and agreeably.
There were plenty of questions to be asked on both sides—the latest
intelligence which each could give of Mrs. Shaw's movements in
Italy to be exchanged; and in the interest of what was said, the
unpretending simplicity of the parsonage-ways—above all, in the
neighbourhood of Margaret, Mr. Lennox forgot the little feeling of
disappointment with which he had at first perceived that she had
spoken but the simple truth when she had described her father's
living as very small.'Margaret, my child, you might have gathered us some pears
for our dessert,' said Mr. Hale, as the hospitable luxury of a
freshly-decanted bottle of wine was placed on the
table.Mrs. Hale was hurried. It seemed as if desserts were
impromptu and unusual things at the parsonage; whereas, if Mr. Hale
would only have looked behind him, he would have seen biscuits and
marmalade, and what not, all arranged in formal order on the
sideboard. But the idea of pears had taken possession of Mr. Hale's
mind, and was not to be got rid of.'There are a few brown beurres against the south wall which
are worth all foreign fruits and preserves. Run, Margaret, and
gather us some.''I propose that we adjourn into the garden, and eat them
there' said Mr.Lennox.'Nothing is so delicious as to set one's teeth into the
crisp, juicy fruit, warm and scented by the sun. The worst is, the
wasps are impudent enough to dispute it with one, even at the very
crisis and summit of enjoyment.He rose, as if to follow Margaret, who had disappeared
through the window he only awaited Mrs. Hale's permission. She
would rather have wound up the dinner in the proper way, and with
all the ceremonies which had gone on so smoothly hitherto,
especially as she and Dixon had got out the finger-glasses from the
store-room on purpose to be as correct as became General Shaw's
widow's sister, but as Mr. Hale got up directly, and prepared to
accompany his guest, she could only submit.'I shall arm myself with a knife,' said Mr. Hale: 'the days
of eating fruit so primitively as you describe are over with me. I
must pare it and quarter it before I can enjoy it.'Margaret made a plate for the pears out of a beetroot leaf,
which threw up their brown gold colour admirably. Mr. Lennox looked
more at her than at the pears; but her father, inclined to cull
fastidiously the very zest and perfection of the hour he had stolen
from his anxiety, chose daintily the ripest fruit, and sat down on
the garden bench to enjoy it at his leisure. Margaret and Mr.
Lennox strolled along the little terrace-walk under the south wall,
where the bees still hummed and worked busily in their
hives.'What a perfect life you seem to live here! I have always
felt rather contemptuously towards the poets before, with their
wishes, "Mine be a cot beside a hill," and that sort of thing: but
now I am afraid that the truth is, I have been nothing better than
a cockney. Just now I feel as if twenty years' hard study of law
would be amply rewarded by one year of such an exquisite serene
life as this—such skies!' looking up—'such crimson and amber
foliage, so perfectly motionless as that!' pointing to some of the
great forest trees which shut in the garden as if it were a
nest.'You must please to remember that our skies are not always as
deep a blue as they are now. We have rain, and our leaves do fall,
and get sodden: though I think Helstone is about as perfect a place
as any in the world. Recollect how you rather scorned my
description of it one evening in Harley Street: "a village in a
tale."''Scorned, Margaret! That is rather a hard word.''Perhaps it is. Only I know I should have liked to have
talked to you of what I was very full at the time, and you—what
must I call it, then?—spoke disrespectfully of Helstone as a mere
village in a tale.''I will never do so again,' said he, warmly. They turned the
corner of the walk.'I could almost wish, Margaret—— ' he stopped and hesitated.
It was so unusual for the fluent lawyer to hesitate that Margaret
looked up at him, in a little state of questioning wonder; but in
an instant—from what about him she could not tell—she wished
herself back with her mother—her father—anywhere away from him, for
she was sure he was going to say something to which she should not
know what to reply. In another moment the strong pride that was in
her came to conquer her sudden agitation, which she hoped he had
not perceived. Of course she could answer, and answer the right
thing; and it was poor and despicable of her to shrink from hearing
any speech, as if she had not power to put an end to it with her
high maidenly dignity.'Margaret,' said he, taking her by surprise, and getting
sudden possession of her hand, so that she was forced to stand
still and listen, despising herself for the fluttering at her heart
all the time; 'Margaret, I wish you did not like Helstone so
much—did not seem so perfectly calm and happy here. I have been
hoping for these three months past to find you regretting
London—and London friends, a little—enough to make you listen more
kindly' (for she was quietly, but firmly, striving to extricate her
hand from his grasp) 'to one who has not much to offer, it is
true—nothing but prospects in the future—but who does love you,
Margaret, almost in spite of himself. Margaret, have I startled you
too much? Speak!' For he saw her lips quivering almost as if she
were going to cry. She made a strong effort to be calm; she would
not speak till she had succeeded in mastering her voice, and then
she said:'I was startled. I did not know that you cared for me in that
way. I have always thought of you as a friend; and, please, I would
rather go on thinking of you so. I don't like to be spoken to as
you have been doing. I cannot answer you as you want me to do, and
yet I should feel so sorry if I vexed you.''Margaret,' said he, looking into her eyes, which met his
with their open, straight look, expressive of the utmost good faith
and reluctance to give pain.'Do you'—he was going to say—'love any one else?' But it
seemed as if this question would be an insult to the pure serenity
of those eyes. 'Forgive me I have been too abrupt. I am punished.
Only let me hope. Give me the poor comfort of telling me you have
never seen any one whom you could—— ' Again a pause. He could not
end his sentence. Margaret reproached herself acutely as the cause
of his distress.'Ah! if you had but never got this fancy into your head! It
was such a pleasure to think of you as a friend.''But I may hope, may I not, Margaret, that some time you will
think of me as a lover? Not yet, I see—there is no hurry—but some
time—— ' She was silent for a minute or two, trying to discover the
truth as it was in her own heart, before replying; then she
said:'I have never thought of—you, but as a friend. I like to
think of you so; but I am sure I could never think of you as
anything else. Pray, let us both forget that all this'
('disagreeable,' she was going to say, but stopped short)
'conversation has taken place.'He paused before he replied. Then, in his habitual coldness
of tone, he answered:'Of course, as your feelings are so decided, and as this
conversation has been so evidently unpleasant to you, it had better
not be remembered. That is all very fine in theory, that plan of
forgetting whatever is painful, but it will be somewhat difficult
for me, at least, to carry it into execution.''You are vexed,' said she, sadly; 'yet how can I help
it?'She looked so truly grieved as she said this, that he
struggled for a moment with his real disappointment, and then
answered more cheerfully, but still with a little hardness in his
tone:'You should make allowances for the mortification, not only
of a lover, Margaret, but of a man not given to romance in
general—prudent, worldly, as some people call me—who has been
carried out of his usual habits by the force of a passion—well, we
will say no more of that; but in the one outlet which he has formed
for the deeper and better feelings of his nature, he meets with
rejection and repulse. I shall have to console myself with scorning
my own folly. A struggling barrister to think of
matrimony!'