CHAPTER I—START IN LIFE
I was born in the year 1632, in
the city of York, of a good family, though not of that country, my
father being a foreigner of Bremen, who settled first at Hull. He
got a good estate by merchandise, and leaving off his trade, lived
afterwards at York, from whence he had married my mother, whose
relations were named Robinson, a very good family in that country,
and from whom I was called Robinson Kreutznaer; but, by the usual
corruption of words in England, we are now called—nay we call
ourselves and write our name— Crusoe; and so my companions always
called me.
I had two elder brothers, one of
whom was lieutenant-colonel to an English regiment of foot in
Flanders, formerly commanded by the famous Colonel Lockhart, and
was killed at the battle near Dunkirk against the Spaniards. What
became of my second brother I never knew, any more than my father
or mother knew what became of me.
Being the third son of the family
and not bred to any trade, my head began to be filled very early
with rambling thoughts. My father, who was very ancient, had given
me a competent share of learning, as far as house-education and a
country free school generally go, and designed me for the law; but
I would be satisfied with nothing but going to sea; and my
inclination to this led me so strongly against the will, nay, the
commands of my father, and against all the
entreaties and persuasions of my
mother and other friends, that there seemed to be something fatal
in that propensity of nature, tending directly to the life of
misery which was to befall me.
My father, a wise and grave man,
gave me serious and excellent counsel against what he foresaw was
my design. He called me one morning into his chamber, where he was
confined by the gout, and expostulated very warmly with me upon
this subject. He asked me what reasons, more than a mere wandering
inclination, I had for leaving father’s house and my native
country, where I might be well introduced, and had a prospect of
raising my fortune by application and industry, with a life of ease
and pleasure. He told me it was men of desperate fortunes on one
hand, or of aspiring, superior fortunes on the other, who went
abroad upon adventures, to rise by enterprise, and make themselves
famous in undertakings of a nature out of the common road; that
these things were all either too far above me or too far below me;
that mine was the middle state, or what might be called the upper
station of low life, which he had found, by long experience, was
the best state in the world, the most suited to human happiness,
not exposed to the miseries and hardships, the labour and
sufferings of the mechanic part of
mankind, and not embarrassed with the pride, luxury,
ambition, and envy of the upper part of mankind. He told me I might
judge of the happiness of this state by this one thing—viz. that
this was the state of life which all other people envied; that
kings have frequently lamented the miserable consequence of being
born to great things, and wished they had been placed in the middle
of the two extremes, between the mean and the great; that the wise
man gave his testimony to this, as the standard of felicity, when
he prayed to have neither poverty nor riches.
He bade me observe it, and I
should always find that the calamities of life were shared among
the upper and lower part of mankind, but that the middle station
had the fewest disasters, and was not exposed to so many
vicissitudes as the higher or lower part of mankind; nay, they were
not subjected to so many distempers and uneasinesses, either of
body or mind, as those were who, by vicious living, luxury, and
extravagances on the one hand, or by hard labour, want of
necessaries, and mean or insufficient diet on the other hand, bring
distemper upon themselves by the natural consequences of their way
of living; that the middle station of life was calculated for all
kind of virtue and all kind of enjoyments; that peace and plenty
were the handmaids of a middle fortune; that temperance,
moderation, quietness, health, society, all agreeable diversions,
and all desirable pleasures, were the blessings attending the
middle station of life; that this way men went silently and
smoothly through the world, and comfortably out of it, not
embarrassed with the labours of the hands or of the head, not sold
to a life of slavery for daily bread, nor harassed with perplexed
circumstances, which rob the soul of peace and the body of
rest, nor enraged with the
passion of envy, or the secret burning lust of ambition for great
things; but, in easy circumstances, sliding gently through the
world, and sensibly tasting the sweets of living, without the
bitter; feeling that they are happy, and learning by every day’s
experience to know it more sensibly.
After this he pressed me
earnestly, and in the most affectionate manner, not to play the
young man, nor to precipitate myself into miseries which nature,
and the station of life I was born in, seemed to have provided
against; that I was under no necessity of seeking my bread; that he
would do well for me, and endeavour to enter me fairly into the
station of life which he had just been recommending to me; and that
if I was not very easy and happy in the world, it must be my mere
fate or fault that must hinder it; and that he should have nothing
to answer for, having thus discharged his duty in warning me
against measures which he knew would be to my hurt; in a word, that
as he would do very kind things for me if I would stay and settle
at home as he directed, so he would not have so much hand in my
misfortunes as to give me any encouragement to go away; and to
close all, he told me I had my elder brother for an example, to
whom he had used the same earnest persuasions to keep him from
going into the Low Country wars, but could not prevail, his young
desires prompting him to run into the army, where he was killed;
and though he said he would not cease to pray for me, yet he would
venture to say to me, that if I did take this foolish step, God
would not bless me, and I should have leisure hereafter to reflect
upon having neglected his counsel when there might be none to
assist in my recovery.
I observed in this last part of
his discourse, which was truly prophetic, though I suppose my
father did not know it to be so himself—I say, I observed the tears
run down his face very plentifully, especially when he spoke of my
brother who was killed: and that when he spoke of my having leisure
to repent, and none to assist me, he was so moved that he broke off
the discourse, and told me his heart was so full he could say no
more to me.
I was sincerely affected with
this discourse, and, indeed, who could be otherwise? and I resolved
not to think of going abroad any more, but to settle at home
according to my father’s desire. But alas! a few days wore it all
off; and, in short, to prevent any of my father’s further
importunities, in a few weeks after I resolved to run quite away
from him. However, I did not act quite so hastily as the first heat
of my resolution prompted; but I took my mother at a time when I
thought her a little more pleasant than ordinary, and told her that
my thoughts were so entirely bent upon seeing the world that I
should never settle to anything with resolution enough to go
through with it, and my father had better give me his consent than
force me to go without it; that I was now eighteen years old, which
was too late to go apprentice to a
trade or clerk to an attorney;
that I was sure if I did I should never serve out my time, but I
should certainly run away from my master before my time was out,
and go to sea; and if she would speak to my father to let me go one
voyage abroad, if I came home again, and did not like it, I would
go no more; and I would promise, by a double diligence, to recover
the time that I had lost.
This put my mother into a great
passion; she told me she knew it would be to no purpose to speak to
my father upon any such subject; that he knew too well what was my
interest to give his consent to anything so much for my hurt; and
that she wondered how I could think of any such thing after the
discourse I had had with my father, and such kind and tender
expressions as she knew my father had used to me; and that, in
short, if I would ruin myself, there was no help for me; but I
might depend I should never have their consent to it; that for her
part she would not have so much hand in my destruction; and I
should never have it to say that my mother was willing when my
father was not.
Though my mother refused to move
it to my father, yet I heard afterwards that she reported all the
discourse to him, and that my father, after showing a great concern
at it, said to her, with a sigh, “That boy might be happy if he
would stay at home; but if he goes abroad, he will be the most
miserable wretch that ever was born: I can give no consent to
it.”
It was not till almost a year
after this that I broke loose, though, in the meantime, I continued
obstinately deaf to all proposals of settling to business, and
frequently expostulated with my father and mother about their being
so positively determined against what they knew my inclinations
prompted me to. But being one day at Hull, where I went casually,
and without any purpose of making an elopement at that time; but, I
say, being there, and one of my companions being about to sail to
London in his father’s ship, and prompting me to go with them with
the common allurement of seafaring men, that it should cost me
nothing for my passage, I consulted neither father nor mother any
more, nor so much as sent them word of it; but leaving them to hear
of it as they might, without asking God’s blessing or my father’s,
without any consideration of circumstances or consequences, and in
an ill hour, God knows, on the 1st of September 1651, I went on
board a ship bound for London. Never any young adventurer’s
misfortunes, I believe, began sooner, or continued longer than
mine. The ship was no sooner out of the Humber than the wind began
to blow and the sea to rise in a most frightful manner; and, as I
had never been at sea before, I was most inexpressibly sick in body
and terrified in mind. I began now seriously to reflect upon what I
had done, and how justly I was overtaken by the judgment of Heaven
for my wicked leaving my father’s house, and abandoning my duty.
All the good counsels of my parents, my father’s tears and my
mother’s entreaties, came now fresh into my mind; and my
conscience, which was not yet come to the pitch of hardness
to
which it has since, reproached me
with the contempt of advice, and the breach of my duty to God and
my father.
All this while the storm
increased, and the sea went very high, though nothing like what I
have seen many times since; no, nor what I saw a few days after;
but it was enough to affect me then, who was but a young sailor,
and had never known anything of the matter. I expected every wave
would have swallowed us up, and that every time the ship fell down,
as I thought it did, in the trough or hollow of the sea, we should
never rise more; in this agony of mind, I made many vows and
resolutions that if it would please God to spare my life in this
one voyage, if ever I got once my foot upon dry land again, I would
go directly home to my father, and never set it into a ship again
while I lived; that I would take his advice, and never run myself
into such miseries as these any more. Now I saw plainly the
goodness of his observations about the middle station of life, how
easy, how comfortably he had lived all his days, and never had been
exposed to tempests at sea or troubles on shore; and I resolved
that I would, like a true repenting prodigal, go home to my
father.
These wise and sober thoughts
continued all the while the storm lasted, and indeed some time
after; but the next day the wind was abated, and the sea calmer,
and I began to be a little inured to it; however, I was very grave
for all that day, being also a little sea-sick still; but towards
night the weather cleared up, the wind was quite over, and a
charming fine evening followed; the sun went down perfectly clear,
and rose so the next morning; and having little or no wind, and a
smooth sea, the sun shining upon it, the sight was, as I thought,
the most delightful that ever I saw.
I had slept well in the night,
and was now no more sea-sick, but very cheerful, looking with
wonder upon the sea that was so rough and terrible the day before,
and could be so calm and so pleasant in so little a time after. And
now, lest my good resolutions should continue, my companion, who
had enticed me away, comes to me; “Well, Bob,” says he, clapping me
upon the shoulder, “how do you do after it? I warrant you were
frighted, wer’n’t you, last night, when it blew but a capful of
wind?” “A capful d’you call it?” said I; “’twas a terrible storm.”
“A storm, you fool you,” replies he; “do you call that a storm?
why, it was nothing at all; give us but a good ship and sea-room,
and we think nothing of such a squall of wind as that; but you’re
but a fresh-water sailor, Bob. Come, let us make a bowl of punch,
and we’ll forget all that; d’ye see what charming weather ’tis
now?” To make short this sad part of my story, we went the way of
all sailors; the punch was made and I was made half drunk with it:
and in that one night’s wickedness I drowned all my repentance, all
my reflections upon my past conduct, all my resolutions for the
future. In a word, as the sea was returned to its smoothness of
surface and settled calmness by the abatement of that storm, so the
hurry of my thoughts being over, my fears
and apprehensions of being
swallowed up by the sea being forgotten, and the current of my
former desires returned, I entirely forgot the vows and promises
that I made in my distress. I found, indeed, some intervals of
reflection; and the serious thoughts did, as it were, endeavour to
return again sometimes; but I shook them off, and roused myself
from them as it were from a distemper, and applying myself to
drinking and company, soon mastered the return of those fits—for so
I called them; and I had in five or six days got as complete a
victory over conscience as any young fellow that resolved not to be
troubled with it could desire. But I was to have another trial for
it still; and Providence, as in such cases generally it does,
resolved to leave me entirely without excuse; for if I would not
take this for a deliverance, the next was to be such a one as the
worst and most hardened wretch among us would confess both the
danger and the mercy of.
The sixth day of our being at sea
we came into Yarmouth Roads; the wind having been contrary and the
weather calm, we had made but little way since the storm. Here we
were obliged to come to an anchor, and here we lay, the wind
continuing contrary—viz. at south-west—for seven or eight days,
during which time a great many ships from Newcastle came into the
same Roads, as the common harbour where the ships might wait for a
wind for the river.
We had not, however, rid here so
long but we should have tided it up the river, but that the wind
blew too fresh, and after we had lain four or five days, blew very
hard. However, the Roads being reckoned as good as a harbour, the
anchorage good, and our ground-tackle very strong, our men were
unconcerned, and not in the least apprehensive of danger, but spent
the time in rest and mirth, after the manner of the sea; but the
eighth day, in the morning, the wind increased, and we had all
hands at work to strike our topmasts, and make everything snug and
close, that the ship might ride as easy as possible. By noon the
sea went very high indeed, and our ship rode forecastle in, shipped
several seas, and we thought once or twice our anchor had come
home; upon which our master ordered out the sheet-anchor, so that
we rode with two anchors ahead, and the cables veered out to the
bitter end.
By this time it blew a terrible
storm indeed; and now I began to see terror and amazement in the
faces even of the seamen themselves. The master, though vigilant in
the business of preserving the ship, yet as he went in and out of
his cabin by me, I could hear him softly to himself say, several
times, “Lord be merciful to us! we shall be all lost! we shall be
all undone!” and the like.
During these first hurries I was
stupid, lying still in my cabin, which was in the steerage, and
cannot describe my temper: I could ill resume the first penitence
which I had so apparently trampled upon and hardened myself
against: I thought the bitterness of death had been past, and that
this would be nothing like the first; but when the master himself
came by me, as I said just
now, and said we should be all
lost, I was dreadfully frighted. I got up out of my cabin and
looked out; but such a dismal sight I never saw: the sea ran
mountains high, and broke upon us every three or four minutes; when
I could look about, I could see nothing but distress round us; two
ships that rode near us, we found, had cut their masts by the
board, being deep laden; and our men cried out that a ship which
rode about a mile ahead of us was foundered. Two more ships, being
driven from their anchors, were run out of the Roads to sea, at all
adventures, and that with not a mast standing. The light ships
fared the best, as not so much labouring in the sea; but two or
three of them drove, and came close by us, running away with only
their spritsail out before the wind.
Towards evening the mate and
boatswain begged the master of our ship to let them cut away the
fore-mast, which he was very unwilling to do; but the boatswain
protesting to him that if he did not the ship would founder, he
consented; and when they had cut away the fore-mast, the main-mast
stood so loose, and shook the ship so much, they were obliged to
cut that away also, and make a clear deck.
Any one may judge what a
condition I must be in at all this, who was but a young sailor, and
who had been in such a fright before at but a little. But if I can
express at this distance the thoughts I had about me at that time,
I was in tenfold more horror of mind upon account of my former
convictions, and the having returned from them to the resolutions I
had wickedly taken at first, than I was at death itself; and these,
added to the terror of the storm, put me into such a condition that
I can by no words describe it. But the worst was not come yet; the
storm continued with such fury that the seamen themselves
acknowledged they had never seen a worse. We had a good ship, but
she was deep laden, and wallowed in the sea, so that the seamen
every now and then cried out she would founder. It was my advantage
in one respect, that I did not know what they meant byfounder till
I inquired. However, the storm was so violent that I saw, what is
not often seen, the master, the boatswain, and some others more
sensible than the rest, at their prayers, and expecting every
moment when the ship would go to the bottom. In the middle of the
night, and under all the rest of our distresses, one of the men
that had been down to see cried out we had sprung a leak; another
said there was four feet water in the hold. Then all hands were
called to the pump. At that word, my heart, as I thought, died
within me: and I fell backwards upon the side of my bed where I
sat, into the cabin. However, the men roused me, and told me that
I, that was able to do nothing before, was as well able to pump as
another; at which I stirred up and went to the pump, and worked
very heartily. While this was doing the master, seeing some light
colliers, who, not able to ride out the storm were obliged to slip
and run away to sea, and would come near us, ordered to fire a gun
as a signal of distress. I, who knew nothing what they meant,
thought the ship had broken, or some dreadful thing happened. In a
word, I
was so surprised that I fell down
in a swoon. As this was a time when everybody had his own life to
think of, nobody minded me, or what was become of me; but another
man stepped up to the pump, and thrusting me aside with his foot,
let me lie, thinking I had been dead; and it was a great while
before I came to myself.
We worked on; but the water
increasing in the hold, it was apparent that the ship would
founder; and though the storm began to abate a little, yet it was
not possible she could swim till we might run into any port; so the
master continued firing guns for help; and a light ship, who had
rid it out just ahead of us, ventured a boat out to help us. It was
with the utmost hazard the boat came near us; but it was impossible
for us to get on board, or for the boat to lie near the ship’s
side, till at last the men rowing very heartily, and venturing
their lives to save ours, our men cast them a rope over the stern
with a buoy to it, and then veered it out a great length, which
they, after much labour and hazard, took hold of, and we hauled
them close under our stern, and got all into their boat. It was to
no purpose for them or us, after we were in the boat, to think of
reaching their own ship; so all agreed to let her drive, and only
to pull her in towards shore as much as we could; and our master
promised them, that if the boat was staved upon shore, he would
make it good to their master: so partly rowing and partly driving,
our boat went away to the northward, sloping towards the shore
almost as far as Winterton Ness.
We were not much more than a
quarter of an hour out of our ship till we saw her sink, and then I
understood for the first time what was meant by a ship foundering
in the sea. I must acknowledge I had hardly eyes to look up when
the seamen told me she was sinking; for from the moment that they
rather put me into the boat than that I might be said to go in, my
heart was, as it were, dead within me, partly with fright, partly
with horror of mind, and the thoughts of what was yet before
me.
While we were in this
condition—the men yet labouring at the oar to bring the boat near
the shore—we could see (when, our boat mounting the waves, we were
able to see the shore) a great many people running along the strand
to assist us when we should come near; but we made but slow way
towards the shore; nor were we able to reach the shore till, being
past the lighthouse at Winterton, the shore falls off to the
westward towards Cromer, and so the land broke off a little the
violence of the wind. Here we got in, and though not without much
difficulty, got all safe on shore, and walked afterwards on foot to
Yarmouth, where, as unfortunate men, we were used with great
humanity, as well by the magistrates of the town, who assigned us
good quarters, as by particular merchants and owners of ships, and
had money given us sufficient to carry us either to London or back
to Hull as we thought fit.
Had I now had the sense to have
gone back to Hull, and have gone home, I
had been happy, and my father, as
in our blessed Saviour’s parable, had even killed the fatted calf
for me; for hearing the ship I went away in was cast away in
Yarmouth Roads, it was a great while before he had any assurances
that I was not drowned.
But my ill fate pushed me on now
with an obstinacy that nothing could resist; and though I had
several times loud calls from my reason and my more composed
judgment to go home, yet I had no power to do it. I know not what
to call this, nor will I urge that it is a secret overruling
decree, that hurries us on to be the instruments of our own
destruction, even though it be before us, and that we rush upon it
with our eyes open. Certainly, nothing but some such decreed
unavoidable misery, which it was impossible for me to escape, could
have pushed me forward against the calm reasonings and persuasions
of my most retired thoughts, and against two such visible
instructions as I had met with in my first attempt.
My comrade, who had helped to
harden me before, and who was the master’s son, was now less
forward than I. The first time he spoke to me after we were at
Yarmouth, which was not till two or three days, for we were
separated in the town to several quarters; I say, the first time he
saw me, it appeared his tone was altered; and, looking very
melancholy, and shaking his head, he asked me how I did, and
telling his father who I was, and how I had come this voyage only
for a trial, in order to go further abroad, his father, turning to
me with a very grave and concerned tone “Young man,” says he, “you
ought never to go to sea any more; you ought to take this for a
plain and visible token that you are not to be a seafaring man.”
“Why, sir,” said I, “will you go to sea no more?” “That is another
case,” said he; “it is my calling, and therefore my duty; but as
you made this voyage on trial, you see what a taste Heaven has
given you of what you are to expect if you persist. Perhaps this
has all befallen us on your account, like Jonah in the ship of
Tarshish. Pray,” continues he, “what are you; and on what account
did you go to sea?” Upon that I told him some of my story; at the
end of which he burst out into a strange kind of passion: “What had
I done,” says he, “that such an unhappy wretch should come into my
ship? I would not set my foot in the same ship with thee again for
a thousand pounds.” This indeed was, as I said, an excursion of his
spirits, which were yet agitated by the sense of his loss, and was
farther than he could have authority to go. However, he afterwards
talked very gravely to me, exhorting me to go back to my father,
and not tempt Providence to my ruin, telling me I might see a
visible hand of Heaven against me. “And, young man,” said he,
“depend upon it, if you do not go back, wherever you go, you will
meet with nothing but disasters and disappointments, till your
father’s words are fulfilled upon you.”
We parted soon after; for I made
him little answer, and I saw him no more;
which way he went I knew not. As
for me, having some money in my pocket, I travelled to London by
land; and there, as well as on the road, had many struggles with
myself what course of life I should take, and whether I should go
home or to sea.
As to going home, shame opposed
the best motions that offered to my thoughts, and it immediately
occurred to me how I should be laughed at among the neighbours, and
should be ashamed to see, not my father and mother only, but even
everybody else; from whence I have since often observed, how
incongruous and irrational the common temper of mankind is,
especially of youth, to that reason which ought to guide them in
such cases— viz. that they are not ashamed to sin, and yet are
ashamed to repent; not ashamed of the action for which they ought
justly to be esteemed fools, but are ashamed of the returning,
which only can make them be esteemed wise men.
In this state of life, however, I
remained some time, uncertain what measures to take, and what
course of life to lead. An irresistible reluctance continued to
going home; and as I stayed away a while, the remembrance of the
distress I had been in wore off, and as that abated, the little
motion I had in my desires to return wore off with it, till at last
I quite laid aside the thoughts of it, and looked out for a
voyage.
CHAPTER II—SLAVERY AND
ESCAPE
That evil influence which carried
me first away from my father’s house— which hurried me into the
wild and indigested notion of raising my fortune, and that
impressed those conceits so forcibly upon me as to make me deaf to
all good advice, and to the entreaties and even the commands of my
father—I say, the same influence, whatever it was, presented the
most unfortunate of all enterprises to my view; and I went on board
a vessel bound to the coast of Africa; or, as our sailors vulgarly
called it, a voyage to Guinea.
It was my great misfortune that
in all these adventures I did not ship myself as a sailor; when,
though I might indeed have worked a little harder than ordinary,
yet at the same time I should have learnt the duty and office of a
fore-mast man, and in time might have qualified myself for a mate
or lieutenant, if not for a master. But as it was always my fate to
choose for the
worse, so I did here; for having
money in my pocket and good clothes upon my back, I would always go
on board in the habit of a gentleman; and so I neither had any
business in the ship, nor learned to do any.
It was my lot first of all to
fall into pretty good company in London, which does not always
happen to such loose and misguided young fellows as I then
was; the devil generally not
omitting to lay some snare for them very early; but it was not so
with me. I first got acquainted with the master of a ship who had
been on the coast of Guinea; and who, having had very good success
there, was resolved to go again. This captain taking a fancy to my
conversation, which was not at all disagreeable at that time,
hearing me say I had a mind to see the world, told me if I would go
the voyage with him I should be at no expense; I should be his
messmate and his companion; and if I could carry anything with me,
I should have all the advantage of it that the trade would admit;
and perhaps I might meet with some encouragement.
I embraced the offer; and
entering into a strict friendship with this captain, who was an
honest, plain-dealing man, I went the voyage with him, and carried
a small adventure with me, which, by the disinterested honesty of
my friend the captain, I increased very considerably; for I carried
about £40 in such toys and trifles as the captain directed me to
buy. These £40 I had mustered together by the assistance of some of
my relations whom I corresponded with; and who, I believe, got my
father, or at least my mother, to contribute so much as that to my
first adventure.
This was the only voyage which I
may say was successful in all my adventures, which I owe to the
integrity and honesty of my friend the captain; under whom also I
got a competent knowledge of the mathematics and the rules of
navigation, learned how to keep an account of the ship’s course,
take an observation, and, in short, to understand some things that
were needful to be understood by a sailor; for, as he took delight
to instruct me, I took delight to learn; and, in a word, this
voyage made me both a sailor and a merchant; for I brought home
five pounds nine ounces of gold-dust for my adventure, which
yielded me in London, at my return, almost £300; and this filled me
with those aspiring thoughts which have since so completed my
ruin.
Yet even in this voyage I had my
misfortunes too; particularly, that I was continually sick, being
thrown into a violent calenture by the excessive heat of the
climate; our principal trading being upon the coast, from latitude
of 15 degrees north even to the line itself.
I was now set up for a Guinea
trader; and my friend, to my great misfortune, dying soon after his
arrival, I resolved to go the same voyage again, and I embarked in
the same vessel with one who was his mate in the former voyage, and
had now got the command of the ship. This was the unhappiest voyage
that ever man made; for though I did not carry quite £100 of my
new-gained wealth, so that I had £200 left, which I had lodged with
my friend’s widow, who was very just to me, yet I fell into
terrible misfortunes. The first was this: our ship making her
course towards the Canary Islands, or rather between those islands
and the African shore, was surprised in the grey of the morning by
a Turkish rover of Sallee, who gave chase to us with all the sail
she could
make. We crowded also as much
canvas as our yards would spread, or our masts carry, to get clear;
but finding the pirate gained upon us, and would certainly come up
with us in a few hours, we prepared to fight; our ship having
twelve guns, and the rogue eighteen. About three in the afternoon
he came up with us, and bringing to, by mistake, just athwart our
quarter, instead of athwart our stern, as he intended, we brought
eight of our guns to bear on that side, and poured in a broadside
upon him, which made him sheer off again, after returning our fire,
and pouring in also his small shot from near two hundred men which
he had on board. However, we had not a man touched, all our men
keeping close. He prepared to attack us again, and we to defend
ourselves. But laying us on board the next time upon our other
quarter, he entered sixty men upon our decks, who immediately fell
to cutting and hacking the sails and rigging. We plied them with
small shot, half-pikes, powder-chests, and such like, and cleared
our deck of them twice. However, to cut short this melancholy part
of our story, our ship being disabled, and three of our men killed,
and eight wounded, we were obliged to yield, and were carried all
prisoners into Sallee, a port belonging to the Moors.
The usage I had there was not so
dreadful as at first I apprehended; nor was I carried up the
country to the emperor’s court, as the rest of our men were, but
was kept by the captain of the rover as his proper prize, and made
his slave, being young and nimble, and fit for his business. At
this surprising change of my circumstances, from a merchant to a
miserable slave, I was perfectly overwhelmed; and now I looked back
upon my father’s prophetic discourse to me, that I should be
miserable and have none to relieve me, which I thought was now so
effectually brought to pass that I could not be worse; for now the
hand of Heaven had overtaken me, and I was undone without
redemption; but, alas! this was but a taste of the misery I was to
go through, as will appear in the sequel of this story.
As my new patron, or master, had
taken me home to his house, so I was in hopes that he would take me
with him when he went to sea again, believing that it would some
time or other be his fate to be taken by a Spanish or Portugal
man-of-war; and that then I should be set at liberty. But this hope
of mine was soon taken away; for when he went to sea, he left me on
shore to look after his little garden, and do the common drudgery
of slaves about his house; and when he came home again from his
cruise, he ordered me to lie in the cabin to look after the
ship.
Here I meditated nothing but my
escape, and what method I might take to effect it, but found no way
that had the least probability in it; nothing presented to make the
supposition of it rational; for I had nobody to communicate it to
that would embark with me—no fellow-slave, no Englishman, Irishman,
or Scotchman there but myself; so that for two years,
though I often pleased myself
with the imagination, yet I never had the least encouraging
prospect of putting it in practice.
After about two years, an odd
circumstance presented itself, which put the old thought of making
some attempt for my liberty again in my head. My patron lying at
home longer than usual without fitting out his ship, which, as I
heard, was for want of money, he used constantly, once or twice a
week, sometimes oftener if the weather was fair, to take the ship’s
pinnace and go out into the road a-fishing; and as he always took
me and young Maresco with him to row the boat, we made him very
merry, and I proved very dexterous in catching fish; insomuch that
sometimes he would send me with a Moor, one of his kinsmen, and the
youth—the Maresco, as they called him—to catch a dish of fish for
him.
It happened one time, that going
a-fishing in a calm morning, a fog rose so thick that, though we
were not half a league from the shore, we lost sight of it; and
rowing we knew not whither or which way, we laboured all day, and
all the next night; and when the morning came we found we had
pulled off to sea instead of pulling in for the shore; and that we
were at least two leagues from the shore. However, we got well in
again, though with a great deal of labour and some danger; for the
wind began to blow pretty fresh in the morning; but we were all
very hungry.
But our patron, warned by this
disaster, resolved to take more care of himself for the future; and
having lying by him the longboat of our English ship that he had
taken, he resolved he would not go a-fishing any more without a
compass and some provision; so he ordered the carpenter of his
ship, who also was an English slave, to build a little state-room,
or cabin, in the middle of the long-boat, like that of a barge,
with a place to stand behind it to steer, and haul home the
main-sheet; the room before for a hand or two to stand and work the
sails. She sailed with what we call a shoulder-of-mutton sail; and
the boom jibed over the top of the cabin, which lay very snug and
low, and had in it room for him to lie, with a slave or two, and a
table to eat on, with some small lockers to put in some bottles of
such liquor as he thought fit to drink; and his bread, rice, and
coffee.
We went frequently out with this
boat a-fishing; and as I was most dexterous to catch fish for him,
he never went without me. It happened that he had appointed to go
out in this boat, either for pleasure or for fish, with two or
three Moors of some distinction in that place, and for whom he had
provided extraordinarily, and had, therefore, sent on board the
boat overnight a larger store of provisions than ordinary; and had
ordered me to get ready three fusees with powder and shot, which
were on board his ship, for that they designed some sport of
fowling as well as fishing.
I got all things ready as he had
directed, and waited the next morning with the
boat washed clean, her ancient
and pendants out, and everything to accommodate his guests; when
by-and-by my patron came on board alone, and told me his guests had
put off going from some business that fell out, and ordered me,
with the man and boy, as usual, to go out with the boat and catch
them some fish, for that his friends were to sup at his house, and
commanded that as soon as I got some fish I should bring it home to
his house; all which I prepared to do.
This moment my former notions of
deliverance darted into my thoughts, for now I found I was likely
to have a little ship at my command; and my master being gone, I
prepared to furnish myself, not for fishing business, but for a
voyage; though I knew not, neither did I so much as consider,
whither I should steer—anywhere to get out of that place was my
desire.
My first contrivance was to make
a pretence to speak to this Moor, to get something for our
subsistence on board; for I told him we must not presume to eat of
our patron’s bread. He said that was true; so he brought a large
basket of rusk or biscuit, and three jars of fresh water, into the
boat. I knew where my patron’s case of bottles stood, which it was
evident, by the make, were taken out of some English prize, and I
conveyed them into the boat while the Moor was on shore, as if they
had been there before for our master. I conveyed also a great lump
of beeswax into the boat, which weighed about half a
hundred-weight, with a parcel of twine or thread, a hatchet, a saw,
and a hammer, all of which were of great use to us afterwards,
especially the wax, to make candles. Another trick I tried upon
him, which he innocently came into also: his name was Ismael, which
they call Muley, or Moely; so I called to him
—“Moely,” said I, “our patron’s
guns are on board the boat; can you not get a little powder and
shot? It may be we may kill some alcamies (a fowl like our curlews)
for ourselves, for I know he keeps the gunner’s stores in the
ship.” “Yes,” says he, “I’ll bring some;” and accordingly he
brought a great leather pouch, which held a pound and a half of
powder, or rather more; and another with shot, that had five or six
pounds, with some bullets, and put all into the boat. At the same
time I had found some powder of my master’s in the great cabin,
with which I filled one of the large bottles in the case, which was
almost empty, pouring what was in it into another; and thus
furnished with everything needful, we sailed out of the port to
fish. The castle, which is at the entrance of the port, knew who we
were, and took no notice of us; and we were not above a mile out of
the port before we hauled in our sail and set us down to
fish. The wind blew from the N.N.E., which was contrary to my
desire, for had it blown southerly I had been sure to have made the
coast of Spain, and at least reached to the bay of Cadiz; but my
resolutions were, blow which way it would, I would be gone from
that horrid place where I was, and leave the rest to fate.
After we had fished some time and
caught nothing—for when I had fish on my hook I would not pull them
up, that he might not see them—I said to the Moor, “This will not
do; our master will not be thus served; we must stand farther off.”
He, thinking no harm, agreed, and being in the head of the boat,
set the sails; and, as I had the helm, I ran the boat out near a
league farther, and then brought her to, as if I would fish; when,
giving the boy the helm, I stepped forward to where the Moor was,
and making as if I stooped for something behind him, I took him by
surprise with my arm under his waist, and tossed him clear
overboard into the sea. He rose immediately, for he swam like a
cork, and called to me, begged to be taken in, told me he would go
all over the world with me. He swam so strong after the boat that
he would have reached me very quickly, there being but little wind;
upon which I stepped into the cabin, and fetching one of the
fowling-pieces, I presented it at him, and told him I had done him
no hurt, and if he would be quiet I would do him none. “But,” said
I, “you swim well enough to reach to the shore, and the sea is
calm; make the best of your way to shore, and I will do you no
harm; but if you come near the boat I’ll shoot you through the
head, for I am resolved to have my liberty;” so he turned himself
about, and swam for the shore, and I make no doubt but he reached
it with ease, for he was an excellent swimmer.
I could have been content to have
taken this Moor with me, and have drowned the boy, but there was no
venturing to trust him. When he was gone, I turned to the boy, whom
they called Xury, and said to him, “Xury, if you will be faithful
to me, I’ll make you a great man; but if you will not stroke your
face to be true to me”—that is, swear by Mahomet and his father’s
beard—“I must throw you into the sea too.” The boy smiled in my
face, and spoke so innocently that I could not distrust him, and
swore to be faithful to me, and go all over the world with
me.
While I was in view of the Moor
that was swimming, I stood out directly to sea with the boat,
rather stretching to windward, that they might think me gone
towards the Straits’ mouth (as indeed any one that had been in
their wits must have been supposed to do): for who would have
supposed we were sailed on to the southward, to the truly Barbarian
coast, where whole nations of negroes were sure to surround us with
their canoes and destroy us; where we could not go on shore but we
should be devoured by savage beasts, or more merciless savages of
human kind.
But as soon as it grew dusk in
the evening, I changed my course, and steered directly south and by
east, bending my course a little towards the east, that I might
keep in with the shore; and having a fair, fresh gale of wind, and
a smooth, quiet sea, I made such sail that I believe by the next
day, at three o’clock in the afternoon, when I first made the land,
I could not be less than one hundred and fifty miles south of
Sallee; quite beyond the Emperor of
Morocco’s dominions, or indeed of
any other king thereabouts, for we saw no people.
Yet such was the fright I had
taken of the Moors, and the dreadful apprehensions I had of falling
into their hands, that I would not stop, or go on shore, or come to
an anchor; the wind continuing fair till I had sailed in that
manner five days; and then the wind shifting to the southward, I
concluded also that if any of our vessels were in chase of me, they
also would now give over; so I ventured to make to the coast, and
came to an anchor in the mouth of a little river, I knew not what,
nor where, neither what latitude, what country, what nation, or
what river. I neither saw, nor desired to see any people; the
principal thing I wanted was fresh water. We came into this creek
in the evening, resolving to swim on shore as soon as it was dark,
and discover the country; but as soon as it was quite dark, we
heard such dreadful noises of the barking, roaring, and howling of
wild creatures, of we knew not what kinds, that the poor boy was
ready to die with fear, and begged of me not to go on shore till
day. “Well, Xury,” said I, “then I won’t; but it may be that we may
see men by day, who will be as bad to us as those lions.” “Then we
give them the shoot gun,” says Xury, laughing, “make them run wey.”
Such English Xury spoke by conversing among us slaves. However, I
was glad to see the boy so cheerful, and I gave him a dram (out of
our patron’s case of bottles) to cheer him up. After all, Xury’s
advice was good, and I took it; we dropped our little anchor, and
lay still all night; I say still, for we slept none; for in two or
three hours we saw vast great creatures (we knew not what to call
them) of many sorts, come down to the sea-shore and run into the
water, wallowing and washing themselves for the pleasure of cooling
themselves; and they made such hideous howlings and yellings, that
I never indeed heard the like.
Xury was dreadfully frighted, and
indeed so was I too; but we were both more frighted when we heard
one of these mighty creatures come swimming towards our boat; we
could not see him, but we might hear him by his blowing to be a
monstrous huge and furious beast. Xury said it was a lion, and it
might be so for aught I know; but poor Xury cried to me to weigh
the anchor and row away; “No,” says I, “Xury; we can slip our
cable, with the buoy to it, and go off to sea; they cannot follow
us far.” I had no sooner said so, but I perceived the creature
(whatever it was) within two oars’ length, which something
surprised me; however, I immediately stepped to the cabin door, and
taking up my gun, fired at him; upon which he immediately turned
about and swam towards the shore again.
But it is impossible to describe
the horrid noises, and hideous cries and howlings that were raised,
as well upon the edge of the shore as higher within the country,
upon the noise or report of the gun, a thing I have some reason
to
believe those creatures had never
heard before: this convinced me that there was no going on shore
for us in the night on that coast, and how to venture on shore in
the day was another question too; for to have fallen into the hands
of any of the savages had been as bad as to have fallen into the
hands of the lions and tigers; at least we were equally
apprehensive of the danger of it.
Be that as it would, we were
obliged to go on shore somewhere or other for water, for we had not
a pint left in the boat; when and where to get to it was the point.
Xury said, if I would let him go on shore with one of the jars, he
would find if there was any water, and bring some to me. I asked
him why he would go? why I should not go, and he stay in the boat?
The boy answered with so much affection as made me love him ever
after. Says he, “If wild mans come, they eat me, you go wey.”
“Well, Xury,” said I, “we will both go and if the wild mans come,
we will kill them, they shall eat neither of us.” So I gave Xury a
piece of rusk bread to eat, and a dram out of our patron’s case of
bottles which I mentioned before; and we hauled the boat in as near
the shore as we thought was proper, and so waded on shore, carrying
nothing but our arms and two jars for water.
I did not care to go out of sight
of the boat, fearing the coming of canoes with savages down the
river; but the boy seeing a low place about a mile up the country,
rambled to it, and by-and-by I saw him come running towards me. I
thought he was pursued by some savage, or frighted with some wild
beast, and I ran forward towards him to help him; but when I came
nearer to him I saw something hanging over his shoulders, which was
a creature that he had shot, like a hare, but different in colour,
and longer legs; however, we were very glad of it, and it was very
good meat; but the great joy that poor Xury came with, was to tell
me he had found good water and seen no wild mans.
But we found afterwards that we
need not take such pains for water, for a little higher up the
creek where we were we found the water fresh when the tide was out,
which flowed but a little way up; so we filled our jars, and
feasted on the hare he had killed, and prepared to go on our way,
having seen no footsteps of any human creature in that part of the
country.
As I had been one voyage to this
coast before, I knew very well that the islands of the Canaries,
and the Cape de Verde Islands also, lay not far off from the coast.
But as I had no instruments to take an observation to know what
latitude we were in, and not exactly knowing, or at least
remembering, what latitude they were in, I knew not where to look
for them, or when to stand off to sea towards them; otherwise I
might now easily have found some of these islands. But my hope was,
that if I stood along this coast till I came to that part where the
English traded, I should find some of their vessels upon their
usual design of trade, that would relieve and take us in.
By the best of my calculation,
that place where I now was must be that country
which, lying between the Emperor
of Morocco’s dominions and the negroes, lies waste and uninhabited,
except by wild beasts; the negroes having abandoned it and gone
farther south for fear of the Moors, and the Moors not thinking it
worth inhabiting by reason of its barrenness; and indeed, both
forsaking it because of the prodigious number of tigers, lions,
leopards, and other furious creatures which harbour there; so that
the Moors use it for their hunting only, where they go like an
army, two or three thousand men at a time; and indeed for near a
hundred miles together upon this coast we saw nothing but a waste,
uninhabited country by day, and heard nothing but howlings and
roaring of wild beasts by night.
Once or twice in the daytime I
thought I saw the Pico of Teneriffe, being the high top of the
Mountain Teneriffe in the Canaries, and had a great mind to venture
out, in hopes of reaching thither; but having tried twice, I was
forced in again by contrary winds, the sea also going too high for
my little vessel; so, I resolved to pursue my first design, and
keep along the shore.