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When
the vicar's wife went off with a young and penniless man the scandal
knew no bounds. Her two little girls were only seven and nine years
old respectively. And the vicar was such a good husband. True, his
hair was grey. But his moustache was dark, he was handsome, and still
full of furtive passion for his unrestrained and beautiful wife.Why
did she go? Why did she burst away with such an éclat of
revulsion, like a touch of madness?Nobody
gave any answer. Only the pious said she was a bad woman. While some
of the good women kept silent. They knew.The
two little girls never knew. Wounded, they decided that it was
because their mother found them negligible.The
ill wind that blows nobody any good swept away the vicarage family on
its blast. Then lo and behold! the vicar, who was somewhat
distinguished as an essayist and a controversialist, and whose case
had aroused sympathy among the bookish men, received the living of
Papplewick. The Lord had tempered the wind of misfortune with a
rectorate in the north country.The
rectory was a rather ugly stone house down by the river Papple,
before you come into the village. Further on, beyond where the road
crosses the stream, were the big old stone cotton-mills, once driven
by water. The road curved uphill, into the bleak stone streets of the
village.The
vicarage family received decided modification, upon its transference
into the rectory. The vicar, now the rector, fetched up his old
mother and his sister, and a brother from the city. The two little
girls had a very different milieu from the old home.The
rector was now forty-seven years old, he had displayed an intense and
not very dignified grief after the flight of his wife. Sympathetic
ladies had stayed him from suicide. His hair was almost white, and he
had a wild-eyed, tragic look. You had only to look at him, to know
how dreadful it all was, and how he had been wronged.Yet
somewhere there was a false note. And some of the ladies, who had
sympathised most profoundly with the vicar, secretly rather disliked
the rector. There was a certain furtive self-righteousness about him,
when all was said and done.The
little girls, of course, in the vague way of children, accepted the
family verdict. Granny, who was over seventy and whose sight was
failing, became the central figure in the house. Aunt Cissie, who was
over forty, pale, pious, and gnawed by an inward worm, kept house.
Uncle Fred, a stingy and grey-faced man of forty, who just lived
dingily for himself, went into town every day. And the rector, of
course, was the most important person, after Granny.They
called her The Mater. She was one of those physically vulgar, clever
old bodies who had got her own way all her life by buttering the
weaknesses of her men-folk. Very quickly she took her cue. The rector
still "loved" his delinquent wife, and would "love
her" till he died. Therefore hush! The rector's feeling was
sacred. In his heart was enshrined the pure girl he had wedded and
worshipped.Out
in the evil world, at the same time, there wandered a disreputable
woman who had betrayed the rector and abandoned his little children.
She was now yoked to a young and despicable man, who no doubt would
bring her the degradation she deserved. Let this be clearly
understood, and then hush! For in the pure loftiness of the rector's
heart still bloomed the pure white snowflower of his young bride.
This white snowflower did not wither. That other creature, who had
gone off with that despicable young man, was none of his affair.The
Mater, who had been somewhat diminished and insignificant as a widow
in a small house, now climbed into the chief arm-chair in the
rectory, and planted her old bulk firmly again. She was not going to
be dethroned. Astutely she gave a sigh of homage to the rector's
fidelity to the pure white snowflower, while she pretended to
disapprove. In sly reverence for her son's great love, she spoke no
word against that nettle which flourished in the evil world, and
which had once been called Mrs. Arthur Saywell. Now, thank heaven,
having married again, she was no more Mrs. Arthur Saywell. No woman
bore the rector's name. The pure white snow-flower bloomed in
perpetuum, without nomenclature. The family even thought of
her as She-who-was-Cynthia.All
this was water on the Mater's mill. It secured her against Arthur's
ever marrying again. She had him by his feeblest weakness, his
skulking self-love. He had married an imperishable white snowflower.
Lucky man! He had been injured! Unhappy man! He had suffered. Ah,
what a heart of love! And he had--forgiven! Yes, the white snowflower
was forgiven. He even had made provision in his will for her, when
that other scoundrel--But hush! Don't even think too
near to that horrid nettle in the rank outer world!
She-who-was-Cynthia. Let the white snowflower bloom inaccessible on
the heights of the past. The present is another story.The
children were brought up in this atmosphere of cunning
self-sanctification and of unmentionability. They too, saw the
snowflower on inaccessible heights. They too knew that it was throned
in lone splendour aloft their lives, never to be touched.At
the same time, out of the squalid world sometimes would come a rank,
evil smell of selfishness and degraded lust, the smell of that awful
nettle, She-who-was-Cynthia. This nettle actually contrived, at
intervals, to get a little note through to her girls, her children.
And at this the silver-haired Mater shook inwardly with hate. For if
She-who-was-Cynthia ever came back, there wouldn't be much left of
the Mater. A secret gust of hate went from the old granny to the
girls, children of that foul nettle of lust, that Cynthia who had had
such an affectionate contempt for the Mater.Mingled
with all this, was the children's perfectly distinct recollection of
their real home, the Vicarage in the south, and their glamorous but
not very dependable mother, Cynthia. She had made a great glow, a
flow of life, like a swift and dangerous sun in the home, forever
coming and going. They always associated her presence with
brightness, but also with danger; with glamour, but with fearful
selfishness.Now
the glamour was gone, and the white snowflower, like a porcelain
wreath, froze on its grave. The danger of instability, the
peculiarly dangerous sort of selfishness, like lions
and tigers, was also gone. There was now a complete stability, in
which one could perish safely.But
they were growing up. And as they grew, they became more definitely
confused, more actively puzzled. The Mater, as she grew older, grew
blinder. Somebody had to lead her about. She did not get up till
towards midday. Yet blind or bed-ridden, she held the house.Besides,
she wasn't bed-ridden. Whenever the men were
present, the Mater was in her throne. She was too cunning to court
neglect. Especially as she had rivals.Her
great rival was the younger girl, Yvette. Yvette had some of the
vague, careless blitheness of She-who-was-Cynthia. But this one was
more docile. Granny perhaps had caught her in time. Perhaps!The
rector adored Yvette, and spoiled her with a doting fondness; as much
as to say: am I not a soft-hearted, indulgent old boy! He liked to
have weaknesses to a hair's-breadth. She knew them, this opinion of
himself, and the Mater knew his and she traded on them by turning
them into decorations for him, for his character. He wanted, in his
own eyes, to have a fascinating character, as women want to have
fascinating dresses. And the Mater cunningly put beauty-spots over
his defects and deficiencies. Her mother-love gave her the clue to
his weaknesses, and she hid them for him with decorations. Whereas
She-who-was-Cynthia--! But don't mention her, in
this connection. In her eyes, the rector was almost humpbacked and an
idiot.The
funny thing was, Granny secretly hated Lucille, the elder girl, more
than the pampered Yvette. Lucille, the uneasy and irritable, was more
conscious of being under Granny's power, than was the spoilt and
vague Yvette.On
the other hand, Aunt Cissie hated Yvette. She hated her very name.
Aunt Cissie's life had been sacrificed to the Mater, and Aunt Cissie
knew it, and the Mater knew she knew it. Yet as the years went on, it
became a convention. The convention of Aunt Cissie's sacrifice was
accepted by everybody, including the self-same Cissie. She prayed a
good deal about it. Which also showed that she had her own private
feelings somewhere, poor thing. She had ceased to be Cissie, she had
lost her life and her sex. And now, she was creeping towards fifty,
strange green flares of rage would come up in her, and at such times,
she was insane.But
Granny held her in her power. And Aunt Cissie's one object in life
was to look after The Mater.Aunt
Cissie's green flares of hellish hate would go up against all young
things, sometimes. Poor thing, she prayed and tried to obtain
forgiveness from heaven. But what had been done to her, she could
not forgive, and the vitriol would spurt in her veins sometimes.It
was not as if the Mater were a warm, kindly soul. She wasn't. She
only seemed it, cunningly. And the fact dawned gradually on the
girls. Under her old-fashioned lace cap, under her silver hair, under
the black silk of her stout, forward-bulging body, this old woman had
a cunning heart, seeking forever her own female power. And through
the weakness of the unfresh, stagnant men she had bred, she kept her
power, as her years rolled on, seventy to eighty, and from eighty on
the new lap, towards ninety.For
in the family there was a whole tradition of "loyalty";
loyalty to one another, and especially to the Mater. The Mater, of
course, was the pivot of the family. The family was her own extended
ego. Naturally she covered it with her power. And her sons and
daughters, being weak and disintegrated, naturally were loyal.
Outside the family, what was there for them but danger and insult and
ignominy? Had not the rector experienced it, in his marriage. So now,
caution! Caution and loyalty, fronting the world! Let there be as
much hate and friction inside the family, as you
like. To the outer world, a stubborn fence of unison.