Words I wanted to say E-Book

Josefa Ciesielska

• Herausgeber: Books on Demand
• Kategorie: Geisteswissenschaft
• Sprache: Englisch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2022

Seitenzahl: 30

Beschreibung

"Words I wanted to say - before it was too late" is a collection of poetry-styled short essays that reflect on self-love, healing from trauma, and friendships and relationships. Each of the standalone texts takes the reader directly into the mind of the author as she contemplates life through relatable words and thoughts.

Leseprobe

To Isaac,

who inspired me to follow my dream and write this book.

Thank you for believing in me.

Table of Contents

Take my hand

Regrets

Change

Self-staging

Don’t rush

Rebel

Birthday

Scapegoat

Flight

I’m sorry

September

Blackout

Happiness

Pre-teen

Heart

Goodbye

Hope

Symbiosis

Acceptance

June 3rd

Mirror thoughts

Calm

Warrior

Hopelessness

Embracing

Illusions

Rescue

Hercules

Weather

Purpose

Letter to myself

Avoidant

Solitude

Detached

Sister

Abandoned

Self-love

Heroes

Self-pity

Reflections from the sunrise

Power

Fear

Self-hate

Caption

Inner conflict

New beginnings

Delete account

Comparisons

Realizations

Bang

History repeats

Uncertainty

Broken

Moonlight

Sunday

Healing

Tribe

Alive

Reminder

Stubbornness

Ambition

Choices

Second chances

Meant to be

Sunshine

Take my hand

My darkness is not others’ burden to carry.

Although my light often feels like the glow of a match,

I try to shine like the sun.

I have learned to find my way through life, even blindfolded.

But how nice it would be… if only someone would hold my hand as I made my own way out into the light.

Regrets

The worst thing I ever did was to let the world convince me that I am unlovable.

The light within me has to shine as bright as my love for everyone else.

Change

What's the point of being able to see my own beauty

when the world is doing its best to show me my ugliness?

Am I really full of self-love or am I just lying to myself in the fear of changing?

My stubbornness is my very best and very worst quality.

It gives me the strength to hold on to the root of all that I am.

It limits me from changing so that I can become the person I have always dreamed of.

It's funny how I can be so indifferent to other people's opinions and so desperate to be seen at the same time.

The universe is screaming at me to become someone else.

I refuse.

Self-staging

It's funny how we're all looking for something that's real, but at the same time we're so obsessed with staging our lives to convince other people that we are flawless.

It should all be easy.

Inauthentic feelings.

No sincerity.

It should be fun.

Quick.

Replaceable.

We pretend that everything ends well. But we are afraid to take the step.

We get so used to pretending that we run away when the surface gets scratched.

Everyone says they don't think about other people's thoughts. But why do they try so hard to control their image?

You cannot decide how others see you.

Sooner or later the truth comes out, but nevertheless it is observed through people's own self-image.

And the things about us that make others uncomfortable are something they themselves lack.

What makes them run away is something they are running from within themselves.

Don’t rush

Time is running out.

We are all so busy just getting through the days.

We're counting down to the big things.

But what about the time in between?

Why do we let precious moments go to waste hoping for something better?

I hope people don't realize what's important until it's too late.

Rebel

Duct tape over my mouth.

Straight back.