One morning, towards the latter part of the
month of March, 1841, having at that time no particular business to
engage my attention, I was walking about the village of Saratoga
Springs, thinking to myself where I might obtain some present
employment, until the busy season should arrive. Anne, as was her
usual custom, had gone over to Sandy Hill, a distance of some
twenty miles, to take charge of the culinary department at
Sherrill's Coffee House, during the session of the court.
Elizabeth, I think, had accompanied her. Margaret and Alonzo were
with their aunt at Saratoga.
On the corner of Congress street
and Broadway, near the tavern, then, and for aught I know to the
contrary, still kept by Mr. Moon, I was met by two gentlemen of
respectable appearance, both of whom were entirely unknown to me. I
have the impression that they were introduced to me by some one of
my acquaintances, but who, I have in vain endeavored to recall,
with the remark that I was an expert player on the violin.
At any rate, they immediately entered into conversation on that
subject, making numerous inquiries touching my proficiency in that
respect. My responses being to all appearances satisfactory, they
proposed to engage my services for a short period, stating, at the
same time, I was just such a person as their business required.
Their names, as they afterwards gave them to me, were Merrill Brown
and Abram Hamilton, though whether these were their true
appellations, I have strong reasons to doubt. The former was a man
apparently forty years of age, somewhat short and thick-set, with a
countenance indicating shrewdness and intelligence. He wore a black
frock coat and black hat, and said he resided either at Rochester
or at Syracuse. The latter was a young man of fair complexion and
light eyes, and, I should judge, had not passed the age of
twenty-five. He was tall and slender, dressed in a snuff-colored
coat, with glossy hat, and vest of elegant pattern. His whole
apparel was in the extreme of fashion. His appearance was somewhat
effeminate, but prepossessing, and there was about him an easy air,
that showed he had mingled with the world. They were connected, as
they informed me, with a circus company, then in the city of
Washington; that they were on their way thither to rejoin it,
having left it for a short time to make an excursion northward, for
the purpose of seeing the country, and were paying their expenses
by an occasional exhibition. They also remarked that they had found
much difficulty in procuring music for their entertainments, and
that if I would accompany them as far as New-York, they would give
me one dollar for each day's services, and three dollars in
addition for every night I played at their performances, besides
sufficient to pay the expenses of my return from New-York to
Saratoga.
I at once accepted the tempting offer, both for the reward it
promised, and from a desire to visit the metropolis. They were
anxious to leave immediately. Thinking my absence would be brief, I
did not deem it necessary to write to Anne whither I had gone; in
fact supposing that my return, perhaps, would be as soon as hers.
So taking a change of linen and my violin, I was ready to depart.
The carriage was brought round—a covered one, drawn by a pair of
noble bays, altogether forming an elegant establishment. Their
baggage, consisting of three large trunks, was fastened on the
rack, and mounting to the driver's seat, while they took their
places in the rear, I drove away from Saratoga on the road to
Albany, elated with my new position, and happy as I had ever been,
on any day in all my life.
We passed through Ballston, and striking the ridge road, as it is
called, if my memory correctly serves me, followed it direct to
Albany. We reached that city before dark, and stopped at a hotel
southward from the Museum.
This night I had an opportunity of witnessing one of their
performances—the only one, during the whole period I was with them.
Hamilton was stationed at the door; I formed the orchestra, while
Brown provided the entertainment. It consisted in throwing balls,
dancing on the rope, frying pancakes in a hat, causing invisible
pigs to squeal, and other like feats of ventriloquism and
legerdemain. The audience was extraordinarily sparse, and not of
the selectest character at that, and Hamilton's report of the
proceeds presented but a "beggarly account of empty boxes."
Early next morning we renewed our journey. The burden of their
conversation now was the expression of an anxiety to reach the
circus without delay. They hurried forward, without again stopping
to exhibit, and in due course of time, we reached New-York, taking
lodgings at a house on the west side of the city, in a street
running from Broadway to the river. I supposed my journey was at an
end, and expected in a day or two at least, to return to my friends
and family at Saratoga. Brown and Hamilton, however, began to
importune me to continue with them to Washington. They alleged that
immediately on their arrival, now that the summer season was
approaching, the circus would set out for the north. They promised
me a situation and high wages if I would accompany them. Largely
did they expatiate on the advantages that would result to me, and
such were the flattering representations they made, that I finally
concluded to accept the offer.
The next morning they suggested that, inasmuch as we were about
entering a slave State, it would be well, before leaving New-York,
to procure free papers. The idea struck me as a prudent one, though
I think it would scarcely have occurred to me, had they not
proposed it. We proceeded at once to what I understood to be the
Custom House. They made oath to certain facts showing I was a free
man. A paper was drawn up and handed us, with the direction to take
it to the clerk's office. We did so, and the clerk having added
something to it, for which he was paid six shillings, we returned
again to the Custom House. Some further formalities were gone
through with before it was completed, when, paying the officer two
dollars, I placed the papers in my pocket, and started with my two
friends to our hotel. I thought at the time, I must confess, that
the papers were scarcely worth the cost of obtaining them—the
apprehension of danger to my personal safety never having suggested
itself to me in the remotest manner. The clerk, to whom we were
directed, I remember, made a memorandum in a large book, which, I
presume, is in the office yet. A reference to the entries during
the latter part of March, or first of April, 1841, I have no doubt
will satisfy the incredulous, at least so far as this particular
transaction is concerned. With the evidence of freedom in my
possession, the next day after our arrival in New-York, we crossed
the ferry to Jersey City, and took the road to Philadelphia. Here
we remained one night, continuing our journey towards Baltimore
early in the morning. In due time, we arrived in the latter city,
and stopped at a hotel near the railroad depot, either kept by a
Mr. Rathbone, or known as the Rathbone House. All the way from
New-York, their anxiety to reach the circus seemed to grow more and
more intense. We left the carriage at Baltimore, and entering the
cars, proceeded to Washington, at which place we arrived just at
nightfall, the evening previous to the funeral of General Harrison,
and stopped at Gadsby's Hotel, on Pennsylvania Avenue.
After supper they called me to their apartments, and paid me
forty-three dollars, a sum greater than my wages amounted to, which
act of generosity was in consequence, they said, of their not
having exhibited as often as they had given me to anticipate,
during our trip from Saratoga. They moreover informed me that it
had been the intention of the circus company to leave Washington
the next morning, but that on account of the funeral, they had
concluded to remain another day. They were then, as they had been
from the time of our first meeting, extremely kind. No opportunity
was omitted of addressing me in the language of approbation; while,
on the other hand, I was certainly much prepossessed in their
favor. I gave them my confidence without reserve, and would freely
have trusted them to almost any extent. Their constant conversation
and manner towards me—their foresight in suggesting the idea of
free papers, and a hundred other little acts, unnecessary to be
repeated—all indicated that they were friends indeed, sincerely
solicitous for my welfare. I know not but they were. I know not but
they were innocent of the great wickedness of which I now believe
them guilty. Whether they were accessory to my misfortunes—subtle
and inhuman monsters in the shape of men—designedly luring me away
from home and family, and liberty, for the sake of gold—those who
read these pages will have the same means of determining as myself.
If they were innocent, my sudden disappearance must have been
unaccountable indeed; but revolving in my mind all the attending
circumstances, I never yet could indulge, towards them, so
charitable a supposition.
After receiving the money from them, of which they appeared to have
an abundance, they advised me not to go into the streets that
night, inasmuch as I was unacquainted with the customs of the city.
Promising to remember their advice, I left them together, and soon
after was shown by a colored servant to a sleeping room in the back
part of the hotel, on the ground floor. I laid down to rest,
thinking of home and wife, and children, and the long distance that
stretched between us, until I fell asleep. But no good angel of
pity came to my bedside, bidding me to fly—no voice of mercy
forewarned me in my dreams of the trials that were just at hand.
The next day there was a great pageant in Washington. The roar of
cannon and the tolling of bells filled the air, while many houses
were shrouded with crape, and the streets were black with people.
As the day advanced, the procession made its appearance, coming
slowly through the Avenue, carriage after carriage, in long
succession, while thousands upon thousands followed on foot—all
moving to the sound of melancholy music. They were bearing the dead
body of Harrison to the grave.
From early in the morning, I was constantly in the company of
Hamilton and Brown. They were the only persons I knew in
Washington. We stood together as the funeral pomp passed by. I
remember distinctly how the window glass would break and rattle to
the ground, after each report of the cannon they were firing in the
burial ground. We went to the Capitol, and walked a long time about
the grounds. In the afternoon, they strolled towards the
President's House, all the time keeping me near to them, and
pointing out various places of interest. As yet, I had seen nothing
of the circus. In fact, I had thought of it but little, if at all,
amidst the excitement of the day.
My friends, several times during the afternoon, entered drinking
saloons, and called for liquor. They were by no means in the habit,
however, so far as I knew them, of indulging to excess. On these
occasions, after serving themselves, they would pour out a glass
and hand it to me. I did not become intoxicated, as may be inferred
from what subsequently occurred. Towards evening, and soon after
partaking of one of these potations, I began to experience most
unpleasant sensations. I felt extremely ill. My head commenced
aching—a dull, heavy pain, inexpressibly disagreeable. At the
supper table, I was without appetite; the sight and flavor of food
was nauseous. About dark the same servant conducted me to the room
I had occupied the previous night. Brown and Hamilton advised me to
retire, commiserating me kindly, and expressing hopes that I would
be better in the morning. Divesting myself of coat and boots
merely, I threw myself upon the bed. It was impossible to sleep.
The pain in my head continued to increase, until it became almost
unbearable. In a short time I became thirsty. My lips were parched.
I could think of nothing but water—of lakes and flowing rivers, of
brooks where I had stooped to drink, and of the dripping bucket,
rising with its cool and overflowing nectar, from the bottom of the
well. Towards midnight, as near as I could judge, I arose, unable
longer to bear such intensity of thirst. I was a stranger in the
house, and knew nothing of its apartments. There was no one up, as
I could observe. Groping about at random, I knew not where, I found
the way at last to a kitchen in the basement. Two or three colored
servants were moving through it, one of whom, a woman, gave me two
glasses of water. It afforded momentary relief, but by the time I
had reached my room again, the same burning desire of drink, the
same tormenting thirst, had again returned. It was even more
torturing than before, as was also the wild pain in my head, if
such a thing could be. I was in sore distress—in most excruciating
agony! I seemed to stand on the brink of madness! The memory of
that night of horrible suffering will follow me to the grave.
In the course of an hour or more after my return from the kitchen,
I was conscious of some one entering my room. There seemed to be
several—a mingling of various voices,—but how many, or who they
were, I cannot tell. Whether Brown and Hamilton were among them, is
a mere matter of conjecture. I only remember, with any degree of
distinctness, that I was told it was necessary to go to a physician
and procure medicine, and that pulling on my boots, without coat or
hat, I followed them through a long passage-way, or alley, into the
open street. It ran out at right angles from Pennsylvania Avenue.
On the opposite side there was a light burning in a window. My
impression is there were then three persons with me, but it is
altogether indefinite and vague, and like the memory of a painful
dream. Going towards the light, which I imagined proceeded from a
physician's office, and which seemed to recede as I advanced, is
the last glimmering recollection I can now recall. From that moment
I was insensible. How long I remained in that condition—whether
only that night, or many days and nights—I do not know; but when
consciousness returned, I found myself alone, in utter darkness,
and in chains.
The pain in my head had subsided in a measure, but I was very faint
and weak. I was sitting upon a low bench, made of rough boards, and
without coat or hat. I was hand-cuffed. Around my ankles also were
a pair of heavy fetters. One end of a chain was fastened to a large
ring in the floor, the other to the fetters on my ankles. I tried
in vain to stand upon my feet. Waking from such a painful trance,
it was some time before I could collect my thoughts. Where was I?
What was the meaning of these chains? Where were Brown and
Hamilton? What had I done to deserve imprisonment in such a
dungeon? I could not comprehend. There was a blank of some
indefinite period, preceding my awakening in that lonely place, the
events of which the utmost stretch of memory was unable to recall.
I listened intently for some sign or sound of life, but nothing
broke the oppressive silence, save the clinking of my chains,
whenever I chanced to move. I spoke aloud, but the sound of my
voice startled me. I felt of my pockets, so far as the fetters
would allow—far enough, indeed, to ascertain that I had not only
been robbed of liberty, but that my money and free papers were also
gone! Then did the idea begin to break upon my mind, at first dim
and confused, that I had been kidnapped. But that I thought was
incredible. There must have been some misapprehension—some
unfortunate mistake. It could not be that a free citizen of
New-York, who had wronged no man, nor violated any law, should be
dealt with thus inhumanly. The more I contemplated my situation,
however, the more I became confirmed in my suspicions. It was a
desolate thought, indeed. I felt there was no trust or mercy in
unfeeling man; and commending myself to the God of the oppressed,
bowed my head upon my fettered hands, and wept most bitterly.
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CHAPTER III.