The Triumph of Death
The Triumph of Death THE PAST.THE PATERNAL ROOF.THE HERMITAGE.THE NEW LIFE.TEMPUS DESTRUENDI.THE INVINCIBLE.Copyright
The Triumph of Death
Gabriele D'Annunzio
THE PAST.
CHAPTER I.When she perceived a group of men leaning against the parapet
and looking down into the street below, Hippolyte stopped and
exclaimed: "What has happened?"With a slight gesture, betraying fear, she placed her hand
involuntarily on George's arm as if to restrain him.After watching the men a moment George said: "Someone must
have leaped from off the terrace." Then he added: "Shall we turn
back?"She hesitated a few moments, wavering between curiosity and
fear, and then replied: "No. Let's see what it is."They advanced along the parapet as far as the end of the
walk.Unconsciously, Hippolyte accelerated her pace towards the
small crowd that had gathered.On this March afternoon the Pincio was almost deserted.
Occasional sounds died away in the gray and heavy
atmosphere."That's what it is," said George. "Someone has killed
himself."They stopped close to the crowd. All the spectators had their
gaze intently fixed upon the pavement below. Most of them were
workmen without occupation. Their faces, each different, expressed
neither compassion nor sorrow, and the immobility of the gaze
imparted a sort of bestial dulness to their eyes.A young lad came up, eager to see; but scarcely had he
ensconced himself in a position satisfactory to himself than he was
hailed by one of the bystanders, in an indefinable tone of
jubilation and pleasantry, as if delighted that no new arrival
could enjoy the spectacle. "You're too late," he cried; "they've
taken him away.""Where to?""To the Santa Maria del Popolo.""Dead?""Yes, dead."Another individual, emaciated and of a greenish complexion,
with a large woollen muffler around his neck, leaned half over;
then, removing a pipe from his mouth, he shouted: "What's that on
the ground?"His mouth was distorted on one side, seamed as if by a burn,
and convulsed as if by an endless flow of bitter saliva. His voice
was so deep that it sounded as if it emerged from a
cavern."What's that on the ground?" he repeated.Down in the street below, a wagon-driver was squatting close
to the foot of the wall. So as to hear his answer the better, the
spectators became quiet and motionless. On the pavement could be
seen a little blackish mud."It's blood," replied the wagon-driver without
rising.And with the point of a stick he continued his search in the
bloody mire."Anything else?" asked the man with the pipe.The wagon-driver rose. On the end of his stick he held
something extended that could not be identified from
above."Hair.""What color?""Blond."The precipice formed by the high walls lent a strange
resonance to the voices."Let us go, George!" pleaded Hippolyte.Disturbed and pale, she shook her lover's arm, as he leaned
against the parapet near the group, fascinated by the horror of the
scene.They silently left the tragic spot. Both were preoccupied
with painful thoughts of this death, and sadness was visible on
their features."Happy are the dead!" exclaimed George at last. "They have no
more doubts.""That's true," replied his companion.The weary tones in which both spoke seemed to indicate
boundless discouragement.She bent her head and added, with a bitterness mixed with
regret: "Poor love!""What love?" asked George, preoccupied."Ours.""Do you feel that it is growing cold?""In me, no," replied Hippolyte significantly."But you think it is in me?" persisted George.An ill-concealed irritation lent sharpness to his words.
Fixing his gaze on her, he repeated: "But you think it is in me?
Don't you?"She remained silent, her head drooping still
lower."You won't answer? You know you're not telling the
truth."There was a pause. Both felt an unspeakable desire to read
the other's heart. Then he continued:"That is how the agony of love begins. You are not as yet
aware of it, but since your return I have studied you ceaselessly
and I daily discover in you a new symptom.""What symptom?""A bad symptom, Hippolyte." Then, in a burst of mental agony,
he exclaimed: "Oh, how horrible it is to love and yet not lose
one's keenness of perception!"She shook her head with a gesture of anger, and her face
darkened. Once more, as on many previous occasions, hostility had
risen between the two lovers. Each felt hurt by the injustice of
suspicion, and secretly rebelled with that restrained anger which
breaks out, from time to time, in brutal and irrevocable words,
grave accusations and absurd recriminations. An indescribable fury
seized them to torture themselves, to rend and martyrize their
hearts.Hippolyte became gloomy and silent. Her brows were knit in a
frown and her lips were tightly pressed together. George regarded
her with an irritating smile."Yes, that's how it will begin," he repeated, still smiling
his disagreeable smile and fixing her with his keen glance. "You
find at the bottom of your soul an inquietude, a sort of vague
impatience which you cannot repress. When near me, you feel an
instinctive repugnance arise in your breast against me—a repugnance
which you cannot subdue. And then you become taciturn, you're
obliged to make an enormous effort to speak to me at all; you
misunderstand everything I say, and, perhaps unconsciously, you
speak crossly even about the most trivial things."She did not interrupt him even by so much as a gesture. Hurt
by this indifference on her part, he continued to reproach her,
spurred on to torment his companion not only by his sudden fit of
temper, but also by a certain disinterested taste for investigation
rendered the keener and the more literary by culture. He always
tried to express himself with the accuracy and demonstrative
precision which the works of the analysts had taught him; but, in
the monologues, the formulas by which he interpreted his inner
inquiry exaggerated and modified the mental condition under
observation, while, in the dialogues, the preoccupation caused by
being perspicacious often obscured the sincerity of his emotion and
led him to err as to the secret motives which he claimed to
discover in others. His brain, encumbered by a mass of
psychological observations, personal or gathered from books, ended
by confounding and confusing everything both as regarded himself
and others.He continued:"Mind you, I make no reproach. I know it is not your fault.
Every human soul has but a fixed quantity of sensitiveness for
passion. It is inevitable that this quantity is exhausted in time
and that no power can prevent the cessation of passion. Now, you
have already loved me for a long time—almost two years! It will be
the second anniversary of our love on the second of April. Had you
thought of it?"She nodded. He repeated, as if to himself: "Two
years!"They approached a bench and sat down. Hippolyte sank down
with a weary sigh, as if overcome by an enervating weakness. The
heavy black coach of a prelate passed by on the road below, the
wheels rattling on the uneven cobblestones. The faint sound of a
bugle came from the Flaminian Road, and then once more silence
regained possession of the surrounding groves. A few drops of rain
fell."Our second anniversary will be dismal," he went on, without
pity for his moody companion. "But we must celebrate it all the
same. I have a fondness for bitter fruits."Hippolyte revealed her sorrow by a painful smile, and with
unexpected gentleness said: "Why all these unkind
words?"She looked long and searchingly into George's eyes. A second
time an inexpressible desire to read each other's hearts seized
them. She knew well the horrible malady from which her lover
suffered; she knew well the obscure cause of all his acrimony. To
induce him to talk so he might unburden his heart, she
added:"What ails you?"The tenderness of her tone, for which he was unprepared,
threw him into some confusion. At this accent he knew that she
understood him and pitied him; and he felt a great pity for himself
swell in his bosom. A profound emotion stirred his whole
being."What ails you?" repeated Hippolyte, touching his hand as
though to sensually augment the power of her
tenderness."What ails me?" he echoed. "I love!"The aggressiveness had died away. In thus expressing his
incurable weakness, he commiserated with himself on his own malady.
The vague rancor which had ravaged his soul appeared to be
dissipated. He recognized the injustice of all resentment against
this woman because he recognized a superior order of fatal
necessities. No, no human creature caused his misery. It arose from
the very essence of life. He had to complain, not of the woman he
loved, but of Love itself. Love, towards which his whole being
reached out with invincible impetuosity, was, he thought, the
greatest of human sorrows. And, until death possibly, he was
condemned to this supreme misfortune.As he remained silent and thoughtful, Hippolyte
asked:"Then do you think, George, that I don't love
you?""I believe that you love me now," he answered. "But can you
prove to me that to-morrow, or in a month, or in a year, you will
still be happy to be mine? Can you prove to me that to-day, even at
this very moment, you are wholly mine? How much of you do I
possess?""Everything," murmured Hippolyte."No," he went on, "nothing, or almost nothing. And I do not
possess what I should like to possess. You are a perfect stranger
to me. Like every other human being, you conceal within yourself a
world which is impenetrable to me and to which no depth of passion
can give me access. Of your sensations, your sentiments, your
thoughts, I know but a small part. Speech is at best an imperfect
sign. The soul is incommunicable. You cannot show me your soul.
Even in our most ecstatic moments we are two, always two—separate,
strangers, lonely at heart. I kiss your brow, and beneath that brow
there exists possibly a thought that is not of me. I speak to you
and what I say perhaps awakens in you memories of other days, and
not of my love. A man passes, looks at you, and in your heart this
slight fact gives rise to an emotion which I am unable to detect.
And I never know what reflections of your past life may flash upon
you even when you show most affection for me. Ah, I am so afraid of
that past life of yours! I am by your side; I feel a delicious
happiness invade my being, a happiness which at certain moments
results from your presence alone. I caress you, I speak to you, I
listen to you, I abandon myself entirely. All at once, a thought
chills me. If, without being aware of it, I had evoked in your
memory the phantom of a former sensation, melancholy relic of
by-gone days? Never can I describe my anguish. This ardor, which
induces in me the illusory feeling of I know not what communion
between you and me, dies out all at once. You escape me, you steal
away, you become inaccessible. And I remain alone in frightful
solitude. Ten, twenty months of intimacy, are all as nothing. You
seem to me as much a stranger as before your love for me began. And
I—I cease to caress you, I no longer speak, I retire within myself,
I avoid all external manifestation, I dread that the slightest
shock should raise from the bottom of your soul the obscure dregs
deposited there by irrevocable life. And then there fall on us
those long silences full of anguish, in which the energies of the
heart are uselessly and miserably consumed. I ask you: 'Of what are
you thinking?' And you reply: 'Of what are you thinking?' I am
ignorant of your thoughts and you are ignorant of mine. Every
moment the distance between us widens, until finally it becomes
abysmal.""But," objected Hippolyte, "I experience no such feelings. I
give you more of myself than ever. I think my love is
stronger."This affirmation of superiority wounded anew the
invalid."You think too much," she continued. "You pay too much
attention to your thoughts. Possibly I have less attraction for you
than your thoughts, because your thoughts are always different,
always new, while now I have nothing that is new to offer you. In
the beginning of our love you were less reflective and more
spontaneous. You had not yet developed a taste for the bitter
things in life; you were more lavish with your kisses than with
your words. If, as you say, speech is an imperfect sign, it is not
well to abuse it. And you do abuse it and in an almost always cruel
manner."Then, after an interval of silence, prompted to speak by
something he said, she yielded to the temptation to express
herself:"Only cadavers are dissected."But scarcely had she spoken than she regretted it. Her remark
struck her as being vulgar, unfeminine, and acrimonious. She was
sorry she had not preserved that gentle and indulgent tone which
had moved her lover so strongly a few moments before. Once more she
had failed in her resolution to be to him the most patient and
tender of nurses."You see," she said repentantly, "it is you who spoil
me."He gave a faint smile. Both understood that in this quarrel
their love only had been wounded.The prelate's carriage repassed, the two black, long-tailed
horses going at a trot. In the atmosphere which the haze of
twilight rendered more and more livid, the trees assumed the
appearance of spectres. Leaden-looking clouds darkened the height
of the Palatine and the Vatican. A ray of light, yellow as sulphur,
straight as a sword, lightly touched Mount Mario behind the pointed
tops of the cypress-trees."Does she still love me?" George thought to himself. "Why is
she so easily irritated? It may be that she feels that I speak the
truth, or, at least, what will soon be the truth. Irritation is a
symptom. But am I not conscious of a constant dull irritation in
myself also? I know well the cause of my irritation. I am jealous.
Of what? Of everything. Of the objects reflected in her
eyes."He looked at her. "She is very beautiful to-day. She is pale.
It would please me to see her always depressed, always ill. When
her color returns it seems to me as if it were no longer she. When
she laughs I cannot repress a vague hostility, almost anger, at her
laugh. Not always, though."His thoughts died away in the shade of the twilight. He
noticed suddenly how much the appearance of the evening reminded
him of his beloved. From beneath the pallor of her dark face a
light, violet-colored effusion shone through; and the narrow
ribbon, of an exquisite shade of yellow, which she wore about her
throat disclosed the brown marks of two beauty spots."She is very beautiful," he mused. "The expression of her
face is nearly always profound, expressive, passionate. Therein
rests the secret of her charm. Her beauty never tires me; it
constantly suggests new dreams. What are the elements of this
beauty? I cannot say. Materially, she is not beautiful. Sometimes,
when I look at her, I am painfully surprised by a disillusion. That
is because I then see only her physical characteristics; her face
is not transfigured, illumined by the power of spiritual
expression. She possesses, however, three divine elements of
beauty: the brow, the eyes, and the mouth. Yes,
divine."Her laugh came to his mind."What did she tell me yesterday? I have forgotten what it
was, some humorous incident that had happened at Milan during her
visit to her sister's. 'How we
laughed!' So then, even when away from me, she
canlaugh, be happy! Yet all
her letters, which I have treasured, are full of sorrow, of tears,
of hopeless regrets."He felt as if he had received a wound, and then a great
restlessness came upon him, as if he were cognisant of a serious
and irreparable fact not entirely clear to him. The ordinary
phenomena of sentimental exaggeration manifested themselves in him
by means of associated images. This simple laugh was transformed in
his imagination into an incessant hilarity, ever-present, daily,
hourly, during the entire period of her absence. Hippolyte had led
a gay, commonplace existence, with people unknown to him, among the
companions of her brother-in-law, in a circle of stupid admirers.
Her sad letters were only lies. He remembered a passage in one
letter: "Life here is insupportable; friends
weary us constantly and do not leave us a single peaceful hour. You
know how cordial the Milanese are." In his
imagination arose a vision of Hippolyte surrounded by a crowd of
common clerks, advocates, and tradesmen. She smiled on them all,
giving her hand to all, listening to witless conversations, making
stupid answers, sinking herself to the same ordinary
level.And then there fell upon his heart all the weight of the
misery he had endured for the past two years at the thought of the
existence his mistress led and the unknown world in which she
passed the time not spent with him."What does she do? Whom does she see? To whom does she speak?
What is her behavior towards people who visit her, in whose life
she is a factor?" Ever-recurring, unanswerable
questions!He thought, with anguish:"Each one of these persons takes something from her, and
consequently takes something from me. I shall never know what
influence these people have over her, the emotions and thoughts
they arouse in her. Hippolyte's beauty is full of seductive power,
the kind of beauty which torments men and arouses in them the
passion of desire. Among that odious crowd, she must have been
frequently desired. A man's desire is discernible in his look and
the look is free, and the woman is without defence against the look
of the man who desires her. What can be the impression of a woman
who perceives that she is desired? She certainly cannot remain
impassive. It must produce in her a feeling of disquietude,
certainly some kind of emotion, if only one of repugnance and
disgust. And thus the first man who comes along has the power to
disturb the woman who loves me! In what, then, consists my
possession of her?"He suffered keenly because the physical pictures bore out his
mental reasoning."I love Hippolyte; I love her with a passion which I should
judge to be everlasting, did I not know that all human passion must
cease at some time. I love her, and I cannot imagine keener
voluptuous delights than those she gives me. More than once,
however, at the sight of some passing woman, I have been seized
with a sudden desire; more than once has the flash of a pair of
feminine eyes thrown me into a melancholy train of thought; more
than once I have dreamed of meeting some woman—a woman perceived in
a drawing-room, or the mistress of a friend. What can be her way of
loving? Of what does its voluptuous secret consist? And for some
time this woman has haunted my mind, not, indeed, to the exclusion
of all other thoughts, but at intervals and persistently. Such
phantasies suddenly present themselves to my imagination even when
I hold Hippolyte in my arms. Why should she not have been seized by
desire upon sight of some passing man? Had I the gift of reading
her soul and saw it traversed by such a desire, if but for a
moment, I should, without the slightest doubt, consider my mistress
sullied by an indelible stain and it seems to me that I should die
of grief. This material proof I can never have, because the soul of
my mistress is invisible and impalpable; this, however, does not
prevent the soul from being as much or even more exposed to
profanation than the body may be. But the analogy enlightens me;
the possibility is certain. Perhaps at this very moment my mistress
is cognisant of a recent stain upon her conscience and sees this
stain expand beneath her contemplation."Stunned by his pain, he started violently."What ails you—of what are you thinking?" asked Hippolyte
gently."Of you," he replied."Good or bad?""Bad."She gave a sigh and then said: "Shall we go?""Yes—let us go."They rose and regained the road by which they had come.
Slowly and with tearful accents Hippolyte murmured: "What a sad
evening, O my love!"And she stopped as if to recall and live over again the
sorrows scattered through the day that was about to close. Around
them, now, the Pincio was deserted, full of silence, full of violet
shadows in which the busts on their pedestals took on the
appearance of funereal monuments. Below, the city was covered with
ashes. A few drops of rain were falling."Where shall we go to-night? What are you going to do?" she
asked.He replied dejectedly: "What I shall do? I do not
know."They suffered, both of them, as they stood side by side; and
they thought with terror of a greater agony which awaited them,
well known and far more cruel—the horrible torture with which their
nocturnal imaginations would rend their defenceless
souls."If you like, I will remain with you to-night," said
Hippolyte timidly.Devoured by a secret rancor and spurred on by a furious
desire to be spiteful and resentful, George replied:
"No."But his heart protested. "Stay far from her to-night? You
cannot. No, you cannot." And in spite of his blind, hostile
impulses, the conviction of this impossibility, the sure knowledge
of this absolute impossibility, gave him a kind of internal thrill,
a strange thrill of exalted pride at being controlled by such a
great passion. He repeated to himself: "I could
notstay away from her to-night; no, I could
not." And he felt the indefinable sensation of being dominated by
an unknown power. A tragic breath passed over his being. "George!"
cried Hippolyte, frightened and clinging to his arm.He started. He recognized the spot where they had stopped to
look at the bloody stain left by the suicide. "Are you afraid?" he
asked."A little," she replied, still holding his arm.He disengaged himself from this restraint and, approaching
the parapet, leaned over. Darkness had already enshrouded the
street below; but he believed he could still distinguish the
blackish spot on the cobblestones, because he still had the recent
picture before his mind. The deepening twilight seemed to suggest
and create a phantom corpse, the indefinite and bloody form of a
blond young man. "Who was this man? Why did he kill himself?" In
this phantom he seemed to recognize his own form. Rapid, incoherent
thoughts coursed through his brain. He saw, as by a lightning
flash, his poor uncle Demetrius, his father's youngest brother,
also a suicide—a face covered by a black pall resting on a white
pillow, a slender, pale, yet virile hand, and a small silver vessel
containing holy water suspended from the wall by three small chains
which, every now and then, rattled as they were swung by the
breeze. "Suppose I threw myself over? A leap forward, a rapid fall!
Does one lose consciousness when falling through space?" He
imagined the shock of the body against the stones, and he
shuddered. Then he felt in all his limbs a violent, agonizing
repulsion, mingled with a feeling of strange lassitude. In his
imagination he conjured up the delights of the coming night: to be
lulled gradually into a state of delicious languor; to awake with a
superabundance of tenderness mysteriously accumulated during one's
sleep. Fancies and ideas followed one another with extraordinary
rapidity.When he turned round, his eyes met those of Hippolyte. Her
eyes were widely dilated and fixed upon him, and he believed he
could read in their depths things which increased his pain. He
passed his arm beneath that of his mistress with an affectionate
gesture customary with him. And she pressed his arm firmly against
her heart. Both felt a sudden desire to embrace, to dissolve one
into the other, distractedly."All out! All out!"The cry of the keepers resounded among the groves, disturbing
the silence."All out!"After the cry, the silence seemed heavier and more dismal
than ever, and these few words, vociferated by men they could not
see, gave the two lovers an insupportable shock. To show that they
had heard and were preparing to leave, they hastened their step.
But here and there, in the deserted paths, the voices obstinately
repeated:"All out!""Curse their cries!" exclaimed Hippolyte, with a gesture of
impatience and exasperation, and increasing the rapidity of her
pace.The clock of the Trinita-de-Monti sounded the Angelus. Rome
appeared, similar to an immense, grayish, formless cloud touching
the earth. Already, in the neighboring houses, several windows were
lit up, their lights enlarged by the fog. A few drops of rain were
falling."You'll come to me to-night, won't you?" asked
George."Yes, yes, I will come.""Early?""About eleven.""I should die if you did not come.""I will come."They gazed in each other's eyes, exchanging an intoxicating
promise.Overcome by his emotion, George murmured: "Am I
forgiven?"They looked at each other again, and their gaze was charged
with caresses."Adored one!" he murmured."Addio!" she rejoined softly. "Think of me until
eleven.""Addio!"They separated at the foot of the Via Gregoriana. She went
down the Via Capo-le-Case. As long as he could see her going along
the wet pavement, lit up by the reflection of the shop windows, his
gaze followed her."Thus it is," he thought. "She leaves me; she enters a house
of which I know nothing; she reënters upon her commonplace life,
despoiled of all the ideality in which I have clothed her; she
becomes another woman entirely. I no longer know her. The gross
necessities of life occupy her, absorb her, and degrade
her...."A perfume of violets was carried to him from a florist's
close by, and his heart swelled with confused
aspirations."Ah! why is it not permitted us to conform our existence
according to our dreams, and to live forever in ourselves
alone?"CHAPTER II.At ten o'clock in the morning George was still buried in the
profound and refreshing slumber which, in the young, follows a
night of voluptuousness, when his servant entered to awaken
him.Turning in his bed, he cried ill-humoredly:"I am at home to no one. Let me be."But from the adjoining room he heard the importunate
visitor's voice addressing him in beseeching accents:"Excuse me, George; I must speak to you."George recognized the voice of Alphonso Exili, and his
annoyance was only the greater.This Exili was a college chum, a man of mediocre
intelligence, who, ruined by gambling and debauch, had become a
parasite and adventurer.He still appeared a handsome young man, in spite of his face
devastated by vice; yet in his person and manners there was that
indefinable cunning and ignobleness noticeable in persons reduced
to living by their wits.He entered, waited until the servant had retired, and assumed
a distressed air. Then, swallowing half his words, he said:
"Forgive me, George, if I have recourse once more to your kindness.
I must pay a card debt. I want you to help me. It's a small sum.
Only three hundred lira. Forgive me.""What? You pay your card debts now?" said George. "I'm
surprised."He threw this insult at him with the most perfectsans-gêne. Not knowing how to break
off all connection with the parasite, he treated him with contempt,
just as one would use a stick to ward off a dirty
animal.Exili smiled."Come, don't be unkind," he pleaded, in supplicating tones,
like a woman's. "You'll give me the three hundred lira, won't you?
I will pay you back to-morrow, on my word of honor!"George burst into laughter. He pulled the bell to summon the
servant. The servant entered. "Get my bunch of keys out of those
clothes there, on the sofa." The servant found the keys. "Open the
second drawer. Give me the large card-case." The servant passed him
the card-case. "Very well, you may go.""Couldn't you let me have four hundred lira?" asked Exili,
with a half-timid, half-convulsive smile when the servant had left
the room."No, there's three hundred. It's the last time. Now
go."Instead of handing him the bills, George laid them on the
edge of the bed. Exili smiled, took them, and placed them in his
pocket; then, in an ambiguous tone, in which irony was mixed with
adulation, he said: "You have a noble heart."His gaze wandered around the chamber, and he added: "You have
a delicious bedroom."He seated himself on the sofa, poured out a small glass of
liqueur, and refilled his cigar-case."Who is your present mistress?" he went on. "What's her name?
I believe it's no longer the one you had last year.""Go away, Exili. I want to sleep.""What a splendid creature! She has the handsomest eyes in
Rome. She's away, I suppose. I have not met her for several days.
She must be out of town. She has a sister in Milan, I
think."He refilled hispetit verreand swallowed its contents at a single gulp. Possibly he
gossiped only in order to gain time enough to empty the
bottle."She's separated from her husband, isn't she?" he continued.
"I imagine that her finances must be at a very low ebb, and yet she
is always most elegantly dressed. About two months ago I met her in
the Via del Babuino. You know your probable successor. But no, you
can't know him. It's Monti, themercante di
campagna, a great big fellow, with dirty blond
hair. That very day I saw her he was close at her heels in the Via
del Babuino. You know one can see at a glance when a man is
following a woman. Monti has money, too."He uttered these last words in a curious tone; an odious tone
of envy and cupidity. Then he drank for the third time,
noiselessly."Are you asleep, George?"Instead of answering, George pretended to sleep. He had heard
everything, but he feared that Exili might see his heart-beats
through the bedclothes."George!"He feigned to start like a man suddenly
awakened."What! You are still here? Aren't you going?""I am going now—but look! A tortoise-shell pin!"He stooped to pick it up from the carpet, examined it with
curiosity, and laid it on the coverlid."Lucky fellow!" he exclaimed in the same ambiguous tone. "And
now, ta-ta—a thousand thanks."He extended his hand, but George kept his beneath the
clothes. The chatterbox turned towards the door."Your cognac is exquisite. I'll take anotherpetit verre."He drank, and then went away. George, in his bed, could
relish the poison at his leisure.CHAPTER III.The second anniversary fell on the second of
April."This time," said Hippolyte, "we will celebrate it away from
Rome. We must pass a great week of love; all by ourselves, no
matter where, but not here.""Do you remember the first anniversary," asked George, "that
of last year?""Yes, I remember.""It was a Sunday, Easter Sunday. And I came to your rooms at
ten o'clock in the morning. And you wore that little English jacket
that pleased me so. You had brought your prayer-book.""Oh! that morning, I had not been to mass.""You were in such a hurry.""My departure from the house was like a flight," answered
Hippolyte. "You know, on holy days, I could not call a moment my
own. Yet, for all that, I found a way to remain with you until
noon. And we had guests for lunch that day.""Then, the rest of the day we could not see each other. It
was a sad anniversary.""Yes, it was," murmured Hippolyte."And that sun!""And that forest of flowers in your room," she laughed. "I,
too, on that morning, had gone out for a moment; I bought up almost
the entire flower market.""You threw hands full of rose-leaves at me. You put a number
of the leaves down my neck, in my sleeves. Do you
remember?""Yes, I remember.""And then, at the house, I found them all when I
disrobed."She smiled."And on my return my husband found leaves on my hat, in the
folds of my dress.""Yes, you told me.""I did not go out again that day. I did not care to go out
again. I thought, and rethought. Yes, it was a sad
anniversary."After an interval of silent revery, she spoke
again."Did you believe, in your heart, that we should reach our
second anniversary?""I—no," he replied."Nor I.""What love!" thought George, "that which carries within
itself the presentiment of its end." He then thought of the
husband, without hate and even with a sort of compassionate
benevolence. "Now she is free. Why, then, am I more uneasy now than
formerly? The husband was a sort of guarantee for me; I looked on
him as a guardian who shielded my mistress from all danger. Maybe
these are illusions; because at that time, also, I suffered much.
But the suffering which is passed seems always less severe than the
present pain." Following his own reflections, he no longer listened
to Hippolyte's words."Well," she said, "where shall we go? We must decide.
To-morrow is the first of April. I have already said to my mother:
'You know, mamma, one of these days I am going on a short journey.'
I must prepare her for my departure. Do not worry. I will invent a
plausible pretext. Leave it to me."She spoke gayly; she smiled. And in the smile which
illuminated her closing remarks he believed he discovered the
instinctive contentment which a woman feels when concocting some
deception. The facility with which Hippolyte succeeded in deceiving
her mother displeased him. He thought once more, and not without
regret, of the marital vigilance. "Why suffer so cruelly on account
of this liberty," he reflected, "when it is in the service of my
pleasure? I do not know what I would give could I get away from my
fixed idea, from my suspicions which do her injustice. I love her,
and I wrong her; I love her, and I believe her capable of an
unworthy action!""We must not go too far," she said. "You ought to know of
some peaceful spot, secluded, full of trees, interesting. Not
Tivoli, nor Frascati.""Take theBaedeker—it's
there on the table—and look.""Let us look together."She took the red book, knelt close to the couch on which he
was seated, and with pretty gestures and infantile grace she began
to turn over the pages. Every few moments she read a few lines in a
low tone.He sat watching her, fascinated by the finesse of the nape of
her neck, from which the little brown curls mounted towards the
crown of her head, twisted into a sort of coil. He looked at the
two little brown spots, beauty spots, the Twins placed one by the
side of the other on the whiteness of the velvety neck to which
they gave an ineffable charm. He remarked that she wore no
earrings. In fact, for two or three days she had not worn her
sapphire earrings. "Has she sacrificed them on account of some
money embarrassment? Who knows? She may be suffering silently from
the cares of hard, daily necessities." He had to forcibly compel
himself to consider seriously the thought which haunted him. This
thought was as follows: "When she becomes tired of me (and that
will not be very long), she will fall into the hands of the first
comer who will offer her an easy life, and who, in exchange for
sensual pleasure, will keep her from want. This man may even be
themercanteof whom Exili
spoke. Disgusted with petty miseries, she will triumph over the
other disgust; she will adapt herself. It is even possible that she
will not have to overcome any repugnance."He remembered the mistress of one of her friends, the
Countess Albertini. This woman, separated from her husband, left
free without fortune, had descended progressively to
lucrativeamours, having enough
cleverness to save appearances. He remembered a second example,
which illustrated even more truly the possibility of what he
feared. And confronted with this possibility, which emerged from
the unfathomable future, he felt an inexpressible pain. Henceforth
his apprehensions would give him no truce. Sooner or later, he was
fated to witness the fall of the creature he had placed so high.
Life was full of such forfeitures."I have found nothing," she said in a disappointed
tone."Gubbio, Narni, Viterbo, Orvieto! Look at the map of Orvieto:
the Monastery of Saint Peter, the Monastery of Saint Paul, the
Monastery of Jesus, the Monastery of Saint Bernardin, the Monastery
of Saint Louis, the Convent of Saint Dominique, the Convent of
Saint Francis, the Convent of the Servants of Mary."She read in a sing-song tone, as if she were reciting a
litany. All at once she began to laugh, threw back her head, and
offered her beautiful forehead to the lips of her lover. She was in
one of those moments of expanding kindness which gave her the air
of a young girl."What a number of monasteries! How many convents! It must be
a strange place. Shall we go to Orvieto?"George experienced a sensation as if his soul had been
overwhelmed by a sudden wave of freshness. He abandoned himself
with gratitude to this comforting sign. And, as he pressed his lips
to Hippolyte's brow, he gathered there the souvenir of the city of
the Guelphs, of the deserted city which is silent in mute adoration
of its marvellous Duomo."Orvieto! were you never there? Imagine to yourself, at the
top of a rock of tufa, overlooking a melancholy valley, a city so
perfectly silent as to seem without inhabitants; shutters closed;
gray lanes in which the grass grows; a capuchin monk crossing a
public square; a bishop descending from a black carriage in front
of some hospital, with a decrepit domestic at the carriage-door; a
tower against a white and rainy sky; a clock slowly tolling the
hours; and all at once, at the bottom of a street, a miracle—the
Duomo.""What peace!" murmured Hippolyte, rather dreamily, as if she
had before her eyes the vision of this silent city."I have seen Orvieto in February," he went on, "when the
weather was like to-day, uncertain—a few drops of rain; a few beams
of sunshine. I stayed there one day, and I was sorry to leave. I
brought away with me a feeling of nostalgia for that peace. Oh!
what peace! I had no other companion than myself, and I indulged in
this dream: 'To have a mistress, or, to express it better, a
sister-lover, who would be full of devotion; and to come here, to
live here for a month, a long April month, a rather rainy April,
ashen but mild, with showers of sunshine; to pass hours and hours
in, or before, or about the cathedral; to gather roses in the
convents' gardens; to visit the houses of the sisters to get
preserves; to drink delicious perfumed liqueurs from small Etruscan
cups; to love a great deal, and sleep a great deal in a soft bed
all veiled in virginal white.'"This dream made Hippolyte smile with happiness. Putting on an
innocent expression, she said: "I am pious, you know. Will you take
me to Orvieto?"And huddling at her lover's feet, she took both his hands in
hers. An immense joy invaded her whole being; she had already a
foretaste of the promised repose, idleness,
melancholy."Tell me again."He kissed her forehead, lingering over it with chaste
emotion. Then for a long time he regarded her
caressingly."Your forehead is so beautiful," he said, with a little
thrill.At that moment the real Hippolyte corresponded with the ideal
Hippolyte which lived in his heart. He beheld her beautiful,
tender, submissive, breathing a noble and sweet poesy. According to
the motto he had invested her with, she was grave and suave—gravis dum suavis."Tell me again," she murmured.A soft light entered from the balcony. From time to time the
windows rattled gently under the breeze; and the raindrops pattered
almost noiselessly on the panes.CHAPTER IV."Since we have already enjoyed in imagination the essence of
pleasure, since we have tasted all that our sensations and
sentiments could experience of what is rarest and most delicate, I
would advise that we renounce the experience of reality. Don't let
us go to Orvieto." And he chose another place:
Albano-Laziale.George was not acquainted with Albano, nor Ariccia, nor the
Lake of Nemi. Hippolyte, during her infancy, had been taken to
Albano to the house of an aunt, now dead. For him this trip would
have the charm of the unknown, and for her it would evoke the
souvenir of days long distant. Does it not seem as if a new vision
of beauty renews and purifies love? Do not the memories of the
virginal age embalm the heart with a perfume always fresh and
soothing?They decided to leave on the second of April, at noon, by
train. Both were punctual at the rendezvous at the station, and
when they found themselves amidst the crowd they felt a restless
joy penetrate their souls."Shan't we be seen? Tell me, shan't we be seen?" asked
Hippolyte, half-laughing and half-trembling, and imagining that all
eyes were fixed on her. "How much longer before we start? Dio Mio!
How afraid I am!"They hoped to have a compartment to themselves; but, to their
great regret, they were forced to resign themselves to having three
travelling companions. George saluted a gentleman and
lady."Who is that?" asked Hippolyte, leaning towards her lover's
ear."I will tell you."She examined the couple with curiosity. The gentleman was an
old man with a long, venerable beard, a broad, bald, yellowish
head, marked in the centre by a deep depression, a sort of enormous
and deformed navel, like the imprint which would be caused by a
large finger pressed into a soft substance. The lady, wrapped in a
Persian shawl, showed, under a bonnet fashioned like a lamp-shade,
an emaciated and meditative face; and in her dress as in her
physiognomy could be found something of the English caricatures of
the blue-stocking. The watery eyes of the elderly man had, however,
a singular vivacity; they seemed illumined by an internal fire,
like those of an ecstatic. He had acknowledged George's bow by a
very amiable smile.Hippolyte racked her memory. Where could she have met these
two persons? She could not succeed in refreshing her memory, but
she had a confused feeling that these strange old people had been
involved in one of her love-dreams."Who is it? Tell me," she repeated in a whisper."The Martlets—Mr. Martlet and his wife. They will bring us
good luck. Do you know where we first met them?""No; but I am sure that I have seen them
somewhere.""It was in the chapel in the Via Belsiana, on April the 2d,
when I first knew you.""Ah! yes. I remember!"Her eyes lighted up; the coincidence seemed marvellous to
her. She examined anew the two old people, and felt a kind of
emotion."What a good augury!"A delicious melancholy came over her. She leaned her head
against the back of the seat, and thought once more of bygone days.
She saw again the little church in the Via Belsiana, mysterious,
shrouded in a bluish penumbra; the gallery, which had a curve like
a balcony; the posy of young girls chanting in the choir. Below,
the group of musicians with their string instruments, standing in
front of white-pine pulpits. Roundabout, in the stalls of oak, the
seated auditors, few in number, almost all gray or bald. The
chapel-master beat the time. A pious perfume of incense and violets
mingled with the music of Sebastian Bach.Overcome by the suavity of her recollections, she leaned over
more towards her lover, and murmured: "Are you thinking of the old
days too?"She would have liked to be able to communicate her emotions,
in order to prove to him that she had forgotten nothing, not even
the slightest circumstance of that solemn event. He, with a furtive
gesture, sought Hippolyte's hand beneath the large folds of their
travelling rug, and kept it slightly pressed in his own. Both felt
in their souls a thrill which recalled to them certain delicate
sensations of the first days of their love. And they remained in
this attitude, pensive, somewhat exalted, somewhat lethargic from
the warmth, soothed by the even and continuous movement of the
train, at times seeing a green-clad landscape in the haze through
the carriage windows. The sky was clouded; it was raining. Mr.
Martlet dozed in a corner; Mrs. Martlet was reading a
review-theLyceum. The third
traveller slept soundly, his cap down over his eyes."If the choir missed thetempo, Mr. Martlet beat time with energy, like the chapel-master.
At a certain moment, all the old men beat time, as if moved by the
spirit of the music. There was in the air an evaporated perfume of
incense and violets." George abandoned himself with delight to the
capricious workings of his memory. "Could I have dreamed of a
stranger or more poetic prelude to my love? It seems like a
recollection of some romantic tale; yet, on the contrary, it is a
souvenir of my actual life. I constantly retain the smallest
details of it before the eyes of my soul. The poetry of this
beginning shed, later on, the shadow of a dream over my entire
love." In the drowsiness of a light torpor, he dwelt on certain
confused images which exerted a species of musical fascination over
his mind. "A few grains of incense—a little bouquet of
violets!""Look how Mr. Martlet sleeps!" said Hippolyte in a whisper.
"As peacefully as an infant."Then she added, smiling: "You, too, are sleepy, are you not?
It is still raining. What a strange languor! My eyelids feel so
heavy."Her eyes half-shut, she looked at him from between her long
eyelashes.George thought to himself: "Her eyelashes pleased me at once.
She was in the centre of the chapel, seated on a high-backed bench.
Her profile was delineated in the light streaming from the window.
When the clouds outside cleared away, the light suddenly grew
stronger. She made a slight movement, and in the light I saw the
real length of her eyelashes—a prodigious length.""Tell me," said Hippolyte, "will it be long before we
arrive?"The shrill whistle of the locomotive announced the proximity
of a station."I'll wager," she added, "that we have gone beyond our
station.""Oh! no.""Very well, inquire.""Segni-Paliano," cried a hoarse voice on the
platform.George, somewhat startled, stretched out his head, and asked:
"Is this Albano?""No, sir, this is Segni-Paliano," answered the man with a
smile. "Are you going to Albano? Then you should have alighted at
Cecchina."Hippolyte burst into such a loud peal of laughter that Mr.
and Mrs. Martlet looked at her with amazement. George immediately
joined in the contagious hilarity."What shall we do?""First of all, we must get out of this train."George handed their hand-bags to a porter, while Hippolyte
continued to laugh—her fresh, hearty laugh—amused at this
misadventure, which she considered capital fun. Mr. Martlet looked
startled at this outburst of youth, which seemed to him like a wave
of sunshine, but he smiled with benevolent condescension and bowed
to Hippolyte, who at heart felt a vague regret at leaving the
train."Poor Mr. Martlet!" she said, half in earnest, half in jest,
as she watched the train moving away through the bleak and deserted
country. "I am sorry to part with him. Who knows if I shall ever
meet him again."Then, turning towards George, she added, "What
now?"A railway employee gave them information."The train for Cecchina passes here at half-past
four.""We can manage, then," continued Hippolyte. "It is now
half-past two. Now, from this moment, I declare that I will assume
the management of this journey. You will simply permit yourself to
be conducted. Come, my little George. Keep close to me, and take
good care that you don't lose yourself."She spoke to him as to a baby, in jest. They both felt full
of gayety."Where is Segni? Where is Paliano?"No village could be seen in the neighborhood. The low hills
spread their uncertain verdure beneath a gray sky. Near the road, a
single little tree, knotted and gnarled, swayed in the humid
atmosphere.As it still poured, the two wanderers sought shelter at the
station, in a small room, with a chimney-piece without a fire. On a
wall hung an old map in tatters, its surface a network of black
lines. On another wall hung a square of pasteboard advertising an
elixir. Opposite to the chimney, which had not even the memory of a
fire, a couch, covered with a waxed cloth, was losing its species
of stuffing by a thousand wounds."Look!" cried Hippolyte, who was reading theBaedeker. "At Segni there is the
Gaetanino Hostelry."This designation made them laugh."Suppose we smoke a cigarette?" said George. "It is three
o'clock. It was at this time that I entered the church, two years
ago."And, once more, the memory of the great day occupied his
mind. During several minutes they smoked without speaking,
listening to the rain, which had increased in force. Through the
drenched window-panes they saw the frail little tree, twisting and
bending under the squall."My love is of older date than yours," said George. "It was
born before that day."She protested.He, fascinated by the profound charm of the days irrevocably
passed, continued tenderly: "I can see you again as you passed the
first time. What an ineffaceable impression! It was towards
evening, when the lights begin to be lit, when waves of azure fall
on the streets."I was alone before the windows of Alinari. I was looking at
the figures, but distinguished them with difficulty. It was an
indefinable sensation—some lassitude, much sadness, with I know not
what vague desire for ideality. That evening I had an ardent thirst
for poetry, elevation, refined and spiritual things. Was it a
presentiment?"He made a long pause; but Hippolyte said nothing, waiting for
him to continue, engrossed in the exquisite pleasure of listening
to him among the light smoke of the cigarettes, which seemed to
envelop the veiled memories in still another veil."It was in February. I was paying a visit to Orvieto at that
very time. I even believe that if I was then at Alinari's, it was
to ask him for a photograph of the reliquary. And you passed! Since
then, on two or three other occasions—two or three, not more—I have
seen you as pale, that singular pallor. You cannot imagine,
Hippolyte, how pale you were. Never have I seen its equal. I
thought: 'How can that woman keep up? She cannot have a single drop
of blood in her veins.' It was a supernatural pallor, which in the
flood of azure falling from the sky to the pavement gave you the
appearance of a creature without a body. I paid no attention to the
man who accompanied you; I did not wish to follow you; I did not
receive even as much as a look from you. I recall another detail.
You stopped a few steps farther on, because a lamp-lighter blocked
the pavement. Ah! I still see in the air the scintillation of the
small flame at the summit of the staff; I see the sudden lighting
of the gas which bathed you in light."Hippolyte smiled, but somewhat sadly, with that sadness which
oppresses the heart of women when they regard their portraits taken
in former days."Yes, I was pale," she said. "I had only quitted my bed a few
weeks before, after a three months' illness. I had been at death's
door."A gust of rain dashed against the window-panes. The little
tree could be seen bending and twisting under the wind in an almost
circular movement, as if some hand were attempting to uproot it.
For several minutes they both watched the fury of the elements,
which, in the bleakness, nakedness, and inert torpor of the
surrounding country, took on a strange appearance of conscious
life. Hippolyte felt almost compassion. The imaginary suffering of
the tree placed them face to face with their own sufferings. They
mentally considered the great solitude which lay all around the
station, a miserable hut before which passed from time to time a
train-load of divers travellers, each of whom carried in his own
bosom a different inquietude. Sad images rapidly succeeded one
another in their thoughts, suggested by the same things they had
seen an hour before with joyous eyes. And when the images faded
away, when their consciences, ceasing to be impressed, returned to
themselves again, they both found, at the bottom of their being, a
unique and inexpressible anguish—a regret for days irrevocably
lost.Their love had behind it a longpast. It dragged behind it, through
the years, an immense and obscure net, full of dead
things."What's the matter?" asked Hippolyte, her voice slightly
changed."What's the matter with you?" asked George, looking fixedly
at her.Neither replied to the question. They remained silent, and
renewed their gaze through the windows. The heavens seemed to smile
tearfully. A faint glimmer lit up a hillock, bathed it in a
fugitive golden glow, died away. Other sun-rays tried to pierce the
moisture-laden cloud-banks, then disappeared."Hippolyte Sanzio!" said George, pronouncing the name slowly,
as if to enjoy its charm. "How my heart beat when I finally learned
that was your name! How many things have I seen and felt in that
name! It was the name of one of my sisters, who is dead. That
beautiful name was familiar to me. With profound emotion, I
immediately thought, 'Oh! if my lips could only resume their dear
custom.' That day, from morning until night, the recollections of
my dead sister mingled exquisitely with my secret dream. I did not
go in search of you; I forbade myself such pursuit; I would never
be importunate; yet, at heart, I had an inexplicable confidence. I
was sure that, sooner or later, you would know me and love me. What
delicious sensations were mine! I lived outside of the reality; my
soul fed only on music and exalting books. One day it happened that
I saw you at a concert given by Gian Sgambati; but I saw you only
just as you were about to leave the hall. You gave me a glance.
Another time, again, you looked at me—maybe you remember? It was
when we met at the entrance to the Via del Babuino, opposite the
Piale Library.""Yes, I remember.""You had a little girl with you.""Yes; Cecilia—one of my nieces.""I stopped on the sidewalk—so as to allow you to pass. I
noticed that we were both of the same height. You were less pale
than usual. A momentary feeling of pride flashed through
me.""You had guessed correctly," said Hippolyte."You remember? It was towards the end of March. I waited with
growing confidence. I lived from day to day absorbed in thoughts of
the great passion which I felt approaching. As I had seen you twice
with a small bouquet of violets, I filled all my house with
violets. Oh! that beginning of spring I shall never forget! And the
morning slumbers, so light, so transparent! And those slow, dreamy
awakenings, in which, while my eyes were becoming used to the
light, my mind still delayed before resuming the sentiment of
reality! I recall that certain childish artifices sufficed to throw
me into a species of illusionary intoxication. I remember, one day,
at a concert, while listening to a Beethoven sonata, in which a
frequent and periodic return of a sublime and passionate phrase
recurred, I exalted myself almost to a state of madness by the
interior repetition of a poetical phrase in which your name
occurred."Hippolyte smiled; but, hearing him speak with an evident
preference for all the first manifestations of his love, at the
bottom of her heart she felt displeased. Did those days seem
sweeter to him than the present—were those distant recollections
his dearest recollections?George went on: "All the disdain which I have for a
commonplace existence would never have sufficed to inspire me with
the dream of an asylum as fantastic and mysterious as the abandoned
oratory of the Via Belsiana. Do you recall it? The door at the head
of the steps, opening on the street, was shut, and had been for
years perhaps. One passed through a side alley which reeked of
wine, and in which there was the red sign of a cabaret, with a
large cork. Do you remember it? The entrance was at the rear, and
one had to pass through a sacristy scarcely large enough to hold a
priest and sacristan. It was the entrance to the sanctuary of
Wisdom. What curious-looking old men, and women, on all sides, in
the worm-eaten stalls! Where had Alexander Memmi been, to procure
his audience? Doubtless you did not know, dear one, that you
personified Beauty in this council of the music-mad. Mr. Martlet,
you see, is one of the most confirmed Buddhists of our epoch; and
his wife has written a book on thePhilosophy of
Music. The lady seated near you was Margherita
Traube Boll, a celebrated doctor who is carrying on her defunct
husband's investigations into the visual functions. The
necromancer, in the long greenish cloak, who entered on tiptoe, was
a Jew—a German physician, Dr. Fleichl, a superb pianist, a fanatic
on Bach. The priest seated beneath the cross was Count Castracane,
an immortal botanist. Another botanist, a bacteriologist, a
microscopist, named Cuboni, was sitting in front of him. And there
was also Jacopo Moleschott, that unforgettable old man, frank,
enormous; also Blaserna, the collaborator of Helmholtz in the
theory of sound; and Mr. Davys, a philosophical painter, a
Preraphaelite plunged into Brahmanism. The others, less numerous,
were all superior people, rare minds given to the highest
speculations of modern science, cold investigators of life and
passionate adorers of dreams."He interrupted himself in order to conjure up the picture,
and then went on:"These savants listened to the music with religious
enthusiasm; one assumed an inspired attitude; others made
unconscious gestures, in imitation of the chapel-master; others, in
low tones, joined in chant with the choir. The choir, of men and
women, occupied the rostrum, the painted wood of which still showed
traces of gilding. In front the young girls formed a group, with
their partitions kept on a level with their faces. Below, on the
roughly made stands of the violinists, burned candles, spots of
gold on a dark blue background. Here and there their small flames
were reflected by the varnished body of an instrument, put a
luminous point on the tip of a bow. Alexander Memmi, somewhat
stiff, bald, with a short black beard and gold spectacles, kept
time with severe and sober gestures. At the close of every piece a
murmur arose in the chapel, and laughs, badly suppressed, descended
from the gallery, amidst the rustling of music-pages being turned.
When the sky brightened, the candle-flames grew pale; and a cross
very high up, which had figured in former years in solemn
processions, a cross all ornamented with golden olives and foliage,
seemed as if detached from the wall, in a burst of light. The white
and bald heads of the auditors shone on the oaken backs. Then all
at once, by a new change in the sky, the shadow again began to
creep among these things, like a light mist. A scarcely perceptible
wave of some subtle odor—incense or benzoin?—invaded the
nave."On the single altar, in glass vases, two bouquets of
violets, somewhat faded, exhaled the breath of spring; and this
double-fading perfume was like the poesy of dreams which the music
evoked in the souls of the old men, while close by, in quite
different souls, there developed another dream: like an aurora on
melting snows."It pleased him to reconstruct this scene, to render it
poetical—to warm it again with lyric breath."Is it not preposterous, unbelievable?" he cried. "At Rome,
in the city of intellectual inertia, a master of music, a Buddhist
who has published two volumes of essays on the philosophy of
Schopenhauer, indulges in the luxury of having a mass by Sebastian
Bach executed for his own pleasure, in a mysterious chapel before
an audience of great music-mad savants, whose daughters sing in the
chorus. Is it not a page from Hoffmann? On an afternoon of a
somewhat gray but warm spring—these old philosophers quit their
laboratories, where they have obstinately striven to wrest from
life one of its secrets; and they assemble in a hidden oratory in
order to satisfy, almost to intoxication, the passion that has
drawn together their hearts, to leave their earthly bodies, and
live ideally in dreams. And, in the midst of this old men's
gathering, an exquisite musical idyll unfolds between the cousin of
the Buddhist and the friend of the Buddhist, ideally speaking. And
when the mass is finished, the Buddhist, suspecting nothing,
presents the future lover to the divine Hippolyte
Sanzio."He began to laugh, and then arose. "I have made, it seems to
me, a commemoration according to rule."For an instant Hippolyte remained somewhat absorbed, then she
said: "Do you remember, it was on a Saturday, the eve of Palm
Sunday?"She also arose, approached George, and kissed his
cheek."Shall we go now? It is no longer raining."They went out and strolled along the wet pavement, which
reflected the subdued sunlight. The cold air made them shiver.
Roundabout, the undulating hills were covered with verdure and
furrowed with luminous streaks; here an there large pools of water
reflected the pale image of a sky whose deep azure spread out
between the flaky clouds. The little tree, dripping with rain, was
illumined at intervals."That little tree will remain as one of our remembrances,"
said Hippolyte, stopping to look at it. "It is so lonely, so
lonely."The bell announced the approach of the train, it was a
quarter past four. A railway employee offered to get their tickets.
"When shall we arrive at Albano?" George asked."About seven o'clock.""It will be night," said Hippolyte.As she felt rather cold, she took George's arm; and she was
pleased to think that they would arrive at a strange hotel this
chilly evening, and that they would dine alone before a bright
fire.George perceived that she trembled, and asked: "Do you wish
to go in again?""No," she replied. "You see, the sun's coming out. I shall
warm up."An indefinable desire for intimacy had seized her. She
pressed closely to him, became suddenly caressing, and her voice,
look, contact, gestures—and all her being—were full of seduction.
She wished to shed over the loved one the most feminine of her
charms; she wished to intoxicate him, to dazzle him with a display
of present happiness capable of eclipsing the reflection of bygone
happiness. She wished to appear to him more amiable, more adorable,
more desirable than ever before. A fear assailed her—an atrocious
fear—that he might regret the woman of long ago, sigh for the
vanished delights, believe that then only had he attained the
height of intoxication. "His recollections," she thought, "have
filled my soul with so much melancholy! I have restrained my tears
with difficulty. And he too, perhaps, is sad at heart. How heavily
the past hangs over our love! Perhaps he is tired of me? Perhaps he
is unaware of this weariness, and does not avow it to himself,
willing to live under the illusion? But he is perhaps incapable now
of finding any happiness in me. If I am still dear to him, it is
perhaps only because he recognizes in me an object for his dear
sorrows. Alas! I too, when with him, taste true happiness only at
rare intervals; I suffer too, and yet I love him, and I love my
suffering, and my only desire is to please him, and I cannot
imagine life without this love. Why then are we so sad, since we
love one another?"She leaned heavily on her lover's arm, gazing at him with
eyes to which the shadow of her thoughts imparted an expression of
profound tenderness."Two years ago, about the same hour, we left the chapel
together; and he spoke to me of things in no way connected with
love, in a voice which moved my heart, which touched my soul as if
with a caress of the lips; and this ideal caress I enjoyed like a
long kiss. I trembled, I trembled incessantly, because I felt an
unknown feeling born in me. Oh! it was a divine hour! We have
reached our second anniversary to-day, and we still love one
another. Just now he spoke; and if his voice affected me
differently than it used to do, it still moves me to the bottom of
my soul. We have before us a delightful evening. Why regret the
days that are gone? Our liberty, our present intimacy, are they not
worth the incertitude and hesitations of that time? Even our
memories, so numerous, do they not add a new charm to our love? I
love him—I give myself up to him entirely; in the presence of his
desire I no longer know modesty. In two years he has transformed
me; he has made of me another woman; he has given me new senses, a
new soul, a new intelligence. I am creation. He can intoxicate
himself through me as he would through one of his own thoughts. I
belong entirely to him, now and forever."Then, passionately pressing her form against his, she asked,
"Are you not happy?"The tone in which she spoke moved him; and, as if suddenly
enveloped by a warm breath, he experienced a thrill of real
happiness."Yes, I am happy," he answered.And when the locomotive whistle was heard, their hearts had
the same palpitation.At last they were alone in their compartment. She closed all
the windows, waited until the train was again in motion; they fell
into each other's arms, kissed each other, and repeated all the
caressing names which their tenderness of the last two years had
used.Then they sat still, side by side, a vague smile on their
lips and in their eyes, and with the sensation that, little by
little, the rapid coursing of their blood was abating. Through the
windows they watched the monotonous country as it rushed by and
disappeared into the violet-colored fog."Rest your head on my knees, and lie down," said
Hippolyte.