Land of Shadows E-Book

Rachel Howzell Hall

• Herausgeber: Titan Books
• Kategorie: Krimi
• Sprache: Englisch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2014

Beschreibung

Along the ever-changing border of gentrifying Los Angeles, a seventeen-year-old girl is found dead at a construction site, hanging in the closet of an unfinished condominium. Homicide detective Elouise "Lou" Norton's new partner Colin Taggert, fresh from the Colorado Springs police department, assumes it's a teenage suicide. Lou isn't buying the easy explanation. For one thing, the condo site is owned by Napoleon Crase, a self-made millionaire... and the man who may have murdered Lou's missing sister thirty years ago. As Lou investigates the death of Monique Darson, she uncovers undeniable links between the two cases. She is convinced that when she solves Monique's case she will finally bring her lost sister home. But as she gets closer to the truth, she also gets closer to a violent killer. After all this time, can he be brought to justice... before Lou becomes his next victim? "Fast, funny, heartbreaking and wise... Elouise Norton is the best new character you'll meet this year, and Rachel Howzell Hall is the best pure storyteller you'll read this year." Lee Child, New York Times bestselling author "Spellbinding. Gritty. Original, complex, profound and riveting... Prepare to be blown away." Hank Phillippi Ryan Anthony, Agatha and Mary Higgins Clark Award-winning author "Intense, gritty and absolutely riveting... her most dazzling accomplishment is bringing to life LAPD detective Lou Norton, whose passionate voice is still reverberating in my head. A phenomenal book." Hilary Davidson Anthony Award winning author of Blood Always Tells "A hard-hitting tale of a modern, complex Los Angeles. Well-written and deftly paced... a story that stays with you after the last page is read." Gary Phillips author of Warlord of Willow Ridge

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Contents

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LAND OF SHADOWSPrint edition ISBN: 9781783292721E-book edition ISBN: 9781783292738

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For Maya Grace

Twenty-four hours a day somebody is running,somebody else is trying to catch him.

RAYMOND CHANDLER, The Long Goodbye

WEDNESDAY, JUNE 19

1

TWO HUNDRED AND SIX BONES MAKE UP THE ADULT HUMAN SKELETON.

And on a Wednesday night in June, I was perfecting my hammer fist, an efficient strike that could break at least four of those bones.

Fifteen minutes into my Krav Maga class, the bell tower rang—a ring tone chosen for Lieutenant Zak Rodriguez. And even though I was hammer fisting; even though, a yard away, my friend Lena was flirting with Avarim as he taught her how to break from a choke hold; even though I was off duty and needed this workout and was observing the tradition known as “having a personal life”—duty called.

For whom the bell tolled.

Elouise Norton, LAPD Homicide Detective, Southwest Division.

I excused myself from my trainer, Seth, and padded over to the mirrored wall. I scrutinized my abs, a part of my body that rarely saw the sun and was always hidden beneath silk shirts and six pounds of Kevlar. Not to brag, but my belly looked awesome in this light.

I grabbed my iPhone and towel from the floor and glanced at the phone’s picture of a middle-aged Latino with smoke-colored eyes and a Clark Gable mustache.

And the bell tolled again.

I took a deep breath, then said, “Lou here.”

“You’re not answering your radio,” Lieutenant Rodriguez shouted. Sirens blared in the background.

“Because it’s in the car.”

“And why aren’t you in the car?”

“Because I’m on the Westside, getting in some exercise.”

Lena, also getting in some “exercise,” was now sticking her ass into Avarim’s crotch and cooing, “Like this? Like this?” Newly divorced, Lena was tiny and dazzling. More than that, she could filet men like a hungry grizzly could filet salmon.

I swiped the towel across my sweaty forehead. “What’s up, LT?”

“A Jane Doe hanging in a closet.”

Unimpressed, I lifted my left knee to my chest and held it for two seconds. “Oh, yeah?”

In this city, Jane Does were always found hanging around. In closets, off bridges, in shower stalls…

“Yeah. A security guard found her in one of those condos over on Santa Rosalia near the Jungle, the ones still under construction. You know ’em, right?”

I had started to lift my right knee but froze. My grip tightened around the phone because yeah, I knew Santa Rosalia, and yeah, I knew the Jungle. From age three and on to my eighteenth birthday, I had lived in that part of black Los Angeles. Worse, my big sister, Victoria, had been snatched off those streets, never to be seen again. I hated the Jungle, and yet I had never left.

“From what the first officer told me,” Lieutenant Rodriguez was saying, “she’s pretty ripe, more than five hours old, and… Hey, you there?”

I stifled a sigh. “Yep. I’m… good.” But his words must have spooked me—Lena had abandoned sexy Avarim to come stand beside me. Big brown eyes wide with worry, she touched my wrist and whispered, “You okay?”

I nodded, even though, no, I wasn’t okay, not entirely. “I don’t understand,” I said to my boss. “Why am I catching this? Last time I scanned the board, there were blank spaces by Guerrero’s and Dolby’s names.”

“First,” he said, “you know the people in that area better than Guerrero and Dolby, so it won’t take thirty years for you to figure out your ass from your elbow. Second: Guerrero and Dolby are on everybody’s shit list for screwing up that Sizzler robbery, and this Jane Doe in a closet could be something, and I really don’t wanna read in the Times that two Southwest Division dicks forgot to fingerprint the scene. I swear those two are SOS.”

He paused, then added, “I know you have two cases simmering right now, but you know and I know that our clearance rate is shit right now. I need the A-Team on this.”

“One more question,” I said. “May I ask why you’re heading out to a suicide? Not that I don’t enjoy your company.”

“Again: she’s on Napoleon Crase’s property. That worries me.”

Yeah. That worried me, too.

“I just want everything done right,” he said. “I already called Taggert and he’s en route to the scene. He’s an ass, but he’s now your ass, so be nice to him, all right?”

“I’m always nice,” I said with a smirk.

He chuckled. “Oh, yeah. You’re a black Marie Osmond. Meet you over there.”

2

LENA HAD RETURNED TO GRAPPLING OR… WHATEVER SHE HAD BEEN DOING WITH Avarim.

“I caught a case,” I told her. “A suicide. So I gotta bail.”

Eyes on her trainer, Lena puckered her lips. “Lovely. Go protect and serve. Be a hero. Join the Navy.” Then, she shooed me away—she was now able to flirt with Avarim without worry or judgment from her personal Jiminy Cricket.

Four minutes later, I strode from the locker room to the exit, wearing the blue pinstriped pantsuit and white silk shirt I had just ditched twenty minutes before but had Febreze’d after Lieutenant Rodriguez’s call.

In the space of ten miles, buildings along Olympic Boulevard transformed from glass and marble towers named after powerful lawyers and bankers to burned-out medical offices and bail bond joints, storefront churches and liquor stores, lots of liquor stores. The billboards changed, too—from Nicole Kidman selling Chanel N°5 to people-less Rémy Martin and “Have you been tested for HIV?” ads.

I sped past it all in my silver Porsche Cayenne SUV, a beast of a car even at thirty-five miles per hour. Behind the wheel of my Porsche, I became That Asshole, ducking and dodging, revving and tailgating—so different from the Other Lou who used to drive a Jeep Cherokee before she caught her husband banging an E3 booth babe while he was supposed to be attending a seminar on next-gen video games for tween girls and so, as penance, had to buy his wife a $90,000 sports car.

Tonight, I had a reason to be That Asshole. The ripe Jane Doe hanging in a closet wasn’t gonna cut herself down, was she?

The condo site over on Santa Rosalia Drive sat at the base of Baldwin Hills and on a plot of land that had been vacant just a year ago. When I was a kid, pick-up-snake churches, speak-in-tongue churches, and go-to-church-every-day-of-the-week churches had pitched large white tents there for revivals. At the end of the week, the portable organ played “Take Me to the Water” as sinners and their mothers trudged to the altar for redemption and a dunk in the rollaway baptismal pool. My family attended a few of those week-long extravaganzas, but after Dad abandoned us and after Tori had disappeared, Mom stopped talking to God. For the two remaining members of the Starr family, “churches” became Church’s, the fast-food joint that sold fried chicken and hush puppies.

The revival tents disappeared completely after April 1992, when twelve angry white people acquitted three LAPD officers of using excessive force. Black and brown folks, pissed off at that verdict, burned down the city. And then, two years later, a 6.7 magnitude earthquake finished the demolition, knocking down the charred remains, including much of the Santa Barbara Plaza off Santa Rosalia. No more shops and nightclubs, gas stations and burger stands. There had been talk of rebuilding the plaza and some initial efforts had succeeded—Earvin “Magic” Johnson opened a movie theater that prohibited men from wearing baseball caps, and across the way, Walmart bought space in the irrelevant shopping mall. But none of this brought the sexy back, and blacks with money, the ones who lived in the surrounding hills, found fancier parts of Los Angeles to shop and dine.

My Motorola radio, now riding shotgun, squawked. “Where you at, partner?” Colin Taggert’s slow baritone filled the car.

I grabbed the radio and keyed the mike. “Five minutes away.”

“I’ll go ahead and—”

“No, you won’t.”

“I’ve done this before—”

“That was then. This is now. You will wait for me.”

Colin had lived in Colorado Springs all of his life. His daddy was an Air Force colonel and his mommy was married to an Air Force colonel. Colin hated flying, and so he had chosen to pound the pavement for the Colorado Springs Police Department. After four years on patrol and some strings pulled by his father, Colin made detective at just twenty-eight years old.

“Jane Doe ain’t going nowhere,” I told him now, “unless you have magical resurrection powers. Do you have said powers?”

Colin sighed, then said, “No one’s here, and—”

“That doesn’t make sense,” I said, narrowing my eyes. “What address do you have?”

“I’m at the condos on Stocker.”

“You’re supposed to be at the condos off Stocker.” Then, I gave him new directions to Crase Parc and Promenade.

Two years ago, a businessman named Napoleon Crase and his partners wrote a check to purchase the old plaza. Wonder of wonders, the check didn’t bounce (like prior checks from other developers had), and the Santa Barbara Plaza revitalization effort was resurrected.

The Crase Parc and Promenade would soon house Buppies and young white couples looking for cheap yet swanky condominiums in a soon-to-be-gentrified neighborhood. A neighborhood that had already seen its only Starbucks close and the crime rate double. No worries, though. The fancy “c” in “Parc” would act as an invisibility cloak, hiding the chickenheads, wackjobs, and gangbangers roaming the ruins of the Plaza just a block away.

One of those abandoned stores in the dead shopping center had been Crase Liquor Emporium, Crase’s first business and the last place where I had seen my sister alive. Twenty-five years had passed since that day at the liquor store, and I still didn’t know how to answer a very simple question: Did your sister die? Didn’t know, because the case had never been solved.

Colin stood near his Crown Vic, now talking with Lieutenant Rodriguez. He had a burger in one hand and waved at me with the other. My new partner had dirty-blond hair, steely blue eyes, and a swimmer’s body. He also had a too-square jaw, a hawkish nose, and ears as big as sails. He was almost hot but then, in the LAPD’s candy shop, perfection didn’t matter.

Not many black female police officers worked in Colorado Springs, and so Colin didn’t know how to deal with me. On our first day together—just three days before this Jane Doe suicide—I took him for coffee and broke it down. “I’m sassy, but not Florence-the-Jeffersons’-maid sassy. Nor am I ultrareligious. I’m sure as hell not an earth mother, so there’s that to remember, too. Actually, you’d be better off seeking comfort from that palm tree across the street before coming to me.

“Also: I hate watermelon but I love chicken. I can say ‘nigga’ but I will break every bone in your face if I hear you say it.” I squinted at him. “And you look like someone who’s been around people who say it a lot. So be careful, please.” I sipped my Venti drip, then added, “On a lighter note: yes, the myth is true. The blacker the berry and so forth and so on.”

He had gaped at me—what’s this about berries?

It had been a very long week.

The sun was now dropping behind the hills, leaving Santa Rosalia Drive in shadow. There was a chill in the air. Typical June gloom: overcast with a high of seventy degrees. Not too cold but cold enough to slow death’s decay. There weren’t many looky-loos standing on the sidewalks yet. Just an old black couple, a guy wearing khaki Dickies, and his tatted-up girlfriend in a sequined halter top.

Two separate buildings made up the under-construction Crase condominiums. No concrete had been poured yet over the dirt to make sidewalks and driveways, and white paint had been slapped only on the south-facing walls. The burgundy sign nailed to the construction trailer showed renderings of one- and two-bedroom units. Starting at only $400,000!

“Almost half a mil to live here?” I mumbled, gazing at the buildings. “Not even open yet, and the place is already in the shit.”

I slipped on my shoulder holster full of Glock, pulled on my suit jacket, and clipped my gold shield to my belt. Then, I whispered a quick prayer—God was like my mother’s ex-boyfriend who I still liked, and so I snuck quick conversations with Him because, sometimes, He did cool things for me.

Colin, finishing the last of his meal, ambled toward me, smiling his all-American smile and I’m the Shit eking from his pores. “That dispatcher,” he said, shaking his head. “Who the hell gave her a radio?”

“Oh,” I said, “it’s her fault that you were about to bust down the wrong door.”

He wore a wool suit too heavy for Southern California, a red-and-gray striped tie he had worn in prep school, and black cowboy boots that were shinier than the detective’s shield hanging from his neck. He crumpled the burger’s wax paper as he admired the Porsche’s curves and sexiness. Then, he smiled at me, bit his lip, and tilted his square head.

That was a thing of his. A gesture that was supposed to make me rip off my slacks and lie spread-eagled on one of those Crown Victorias.

“You look exhausted,” he said to me, before tipping a plastic container of orange Tic Tacs to his lips.

I grimaced as the tiny candies rattled, as his teeth crunched, as he shook the little box again before slipping it into his pants pocket. “And you look like you’re going to a bar mitzvah at the Ponderosa. You just eat?”

He nodded. “Fatburger. Damn good.”

“We’re about to see a body.”

“Yup.”

I gaped at him—damn good or not, filling your stomach full of burger, then going to a death site wasn’t the smartest thing to do. “Where’s the RO?”

A light-skinned black patrol cop stepped away from the small group of bystanders and shouted, “That’s me.”

I grabbed my leather organizer from the passenger seat of the Porsche and pulled out a pen. “So, what’s the deal—?” The responding officer’s name tag read SHEPARD.

“The site’s security guard called in saying he had found a body,” Shepard explained. “I arrived at 7:05 P.M., and got a statement from the guard. His name is James Mason and he says he was doing rounds when he noticed that the front door to unit 1B was open. He went inside, smelled it, looked around, and found Jane Doe hanging in the closet of the master bedroom.”

“He touch her?” I asked.

“He says no,” Shepard stated. “I reached the unit at 7:08 P.M., found the girl, then came back down to notify Lieutenant Rodriguez. Then I called Dispatch to send an ambulance, even though it was clear the victim was dead.”

“And how did you know she was dead?” Colin asked, a pen poised over his steno pad.

Shepard’s eyes flitted down to Colin’s rep tie and fancy boots. He chuckled but couldn’t respond out of deference to Colin’s rank.

So, I responded to Colin for him. “Don’t know what goes on in Colorado, but living people in this state don’t smell like rotten pot roast.”

Colin’s cheeks reddened. “I know that. Just askin’ a question. Just doin’ my job.”

Shepard turned back to me. “After notifying the coroner, me and my partner secured the scene.”

“This guy Mason got a jacket?” I asked.

“A deuce and a 415.”

Drunk driving and general disturbance went together like chips and dip.

“Did you FI this Mason guy?” I asked.

“Yep,” Shepard said, then nodded to the quartet behind the yellow tape. “Now I’m interviewing the folks over there, but so far no one’s seen anything strange. My partner’s inside.”

Colin said, “Good job.”

Shepard rolled his eyes, all This guy…

I turned to my partner. “Ready to meet the dead?”

Colin did that smile-bite-thing. “I’m always ready.”

Yeah. That’s what they all say. Especially the ones with their guts filled with meat. And then they fall to their knees and land facedown in a pool of their own vomit.

3

SHEPARD’S PARTNER, A WEASEL-LIKE COP WITH SLICKED-BACK HAIR, GUARDED unit 1B. According to him, no one had entered the condo since his and Shepard’s initial search. And even though this was now my investigation, he told Colin (because Colin had a penis) about entering the condo.

I frowned and snapped my fingers in the uniform’s face. “Hey. This is my crime scene, understand?”

Weasel Cop’s nostrils flared as he offered a solemn nod.

Freakin’ broads were taking over the LAPD. What next? Pink Glocks and Spanx instead of bulletproof vests and all-steel Walther PPKs?

Weasel Cop finished his daring tale of finding Jane Doe in the closet and glowered at me, certain that I’d lose my shit at the scene, screw everything up—it was just a matter of time.

I placed a hand on Colin’s elbow. “Okay, so don’t figure nothing out yet. Just look, all right? Can’t have tunnel vision going in.”

“It’s a suicide, not an assassination. No grassy knolls here, my friend.” He pulled away from me. “You don’t have to hold my hand—I’m not a crime scene virgin, all right? And didn’t you say somethin’ the other day about finding solace from a pine tree?”

“Palm tree.” Jerk. I pulled a travel-sized jar of Noxzema from my jacket pocket and slid a coat of cream beneath my nostrils. “Need some?”

Colin said, “Nope,” then plucked a pair of latex gloves from his own jacket pocket.

“Just keep doin’ you, Rough Rider.” I tried not to laugh as I plucked gloves and a Mini Maglite from my other magic pocket. “Ladies first.”

No one thought Colin would last a week in the Southwest. A generous soul, I gave him a month. In his first three days as an LAPD detective, the angels had been on his side. Day one: a stop ’n rob got hit, but the banger who did it forgot to wear a stocking and so we all saw the sprawling BLOOD 4 LIFE prison tattoo beneath his eyes. Patrol cops picked him up two hours later. Day two: a shooting left a hooker nicknamed Hoo (short for Hoover because of her… ahem… specialty) bleeding out in an alley off Coliseum. Vice caught the john, a social worker who immediately confessed. And day three, today: a Jane Doe suicide.

Twelve years as a cop and I still wasn’t accustomed to the sickly-sweet smell of death. “Dead” had a taste—like you’ve eaten globs of rotting hamburger meat while sucking on pennies. That flavor clung to your taste buds, impervious to Listerine and obliterated only by time. But I put on my big-girl panties at every body dump and dealt with the horror. That smell, though… It bothered me. And I wanted it to bother me because it reminded me that this rotting corpse used to be someone’s kid, used to be someone’s mom, used to be someone.

My eyes watered from the smell as Colin and I stepped across the threshold of unit 1B.

I wrinkled my nose. “Is it me, or do you smell something weird?” I winked at my partner.

Colin didn’t answer—he was sipping air like a guppy trapped in a dirty tank.

I clapped him on the back. “You okay, bro?”

He wasn’t okay, but he nodded and clicked on his flashlight.

“Maybe you shouldn’t have stuffed your face before coming here,” I scolded before clicking on my own flashlight.

The condo was near move-in condition, only needing appliances, carpet, and faceplates for the electrical outlets. But you could check “buzz of a thousand blowflies” off that list, because this condo had plenty of buzz. Ten steps from the front door through the tiny living room was the patio. And the view from that patio? The Sears at the mall across the street. Some view for $400,000.

“You look over here and I’ll look over there,” I instructed.

A rookie detective, Colin shone his light at the ceiling.

“Hope floats,” I said, “but blood and bone drop.”

Puzzled, he scrunched his eyebrows. “What?”

I pointed to the concrete ground. “Scan down here, too, Colombo. Because there’s this thing called ‘gravity.’ ”

He blinked at me. “Oh. Yeah. Of course.”

I shone my flashlight on the tiny foyer’s ground. No skid marks. No blood. In the living room, the size of a decent walk-in closet, I crouched on the balls of my feet and peered closer. Some parts of the concrete appeared cleaner than other parts. Darker. Like it had been recently wiped down. I directed a beam of light at the white floorboards, a place blood splatter could land. Clean.

At the entry to the master bedroom, I looked up, I looked down, I looked everywhere.

No blood.

In the middle of the room, I crouched into a catcher’s stance again and scrutinized the concrete walls and floor. Nothing strange. Well, except for the intense drone of those flies.

I drew closer to the bedroom and the buzzing intensified. As I stepped across the threshold, dread filled the pit of my stomach. I took a step, and then another, toward that closed closet door.

As I reached out to touch the doorknob, I muttered a quick prayer. “Please help me to see.”

4

ON THE MORNING OF VALENTINE’S DAY 1988 (THE FIFTH VALENTINE’S DAY WITHOUT my father), my mother, Georgia, stood before the bureau mirror in her bedroom, holding a bottle of Tabu perfume. She sprayed her wrists, her long neck, and behind her knees. Then, she smiled the way a woman smiles when she knows another’s nose will enjoy those scented places.

Days before, Tori and I had noticed the recent primping and perfuming. We had noticed the looseness in her shoulders, the late-night telephone calls, the smiles not meant for us. According to Tori, Mom of Perpetual Mourning now had a man.

And on this morning, she caught my reflection staring at her from the bedroom doorway. “Why don’t you hang out with friends tonight?” she said. “Tori’s going to a dance, and I… have plans.”

I gawked at her—she never let me hang out with friends after sunset.

Mom lifted an eyebrow, then turned around to face me. “You do have friends, don’t you?” She sounded just like Tori.

Dumbstruck, I nodded. “Shawnee said I could come over whenever I wanted.” Shawnee lived in the Tahitian Towers just a few blocks south of my apartment building.

“Think I can trust you to sleep over there tonight? You’re almost thirteen. I think it’s time.” She sat the perfume bottle on the dresser. “Just as long as that little whore ain’t there.”

After school, I walked home with Shawnee. Kimya (six months pregnant and rechristened “that little whore” by moms everywhere) sat on the porch of Shawnee’s apartment unit. Kimya’s tight New Edition T-shirt rode high, showing a belly striped with stretch marks and bulging with a kid she’d already named Ransom Unique. “Dang, y’all took forever,” she complained. “I been sittin’ here since two.”

Shawnee slipped a key into the front door lock. “We get out later than St. Anne’s, remember?” St. Anne’s was the School for the Colored and Knocked Up.

Shawnee’s mother, Miss Linda, worked as a clerk at Paramount Studios, and their apartment reflected her devotion to Hollywood. Framed posters—Fatal Attraction, The Golden Child, Crocodile Dundee, and on and on—hung on every wall, and countless videotapes and screenplays were crammed into cabinets and piled high on every flat surface.

For dinner that night, Miss Linda ordered us Chinese food and sat cans of Shasta on the kitchen table already crowded with yellow legal pads of her own scripts. Before leaving for her date, she gave us each a tiny box of Godiva chocolates and told us to “be good.” And once Miss Linda’s old Honda Civic rumbled out of the carport behind the apartment, we carried our dinner from the kitchen and to the coffee table in the living room.

Kimya shoved her can of soda between the couch cushions. “I’m thirsty.”

“We got sweet tea if you want some of that,” Shawnee said as she pushed Eddie Murphy Raw into the VCR.

Kimya frowned. “I want a real drink. A grown-up drink.”

“Who a grown-up?” I asked, nibbling an eggroll.

“If you can have a baby,” Kimya reasoned, “then you a grown-up. And if you a grown-up, then you can have something stronger than a stupid-ass soda.” She rubbed her belly. “Both of y’all can have babies, so y’all is grown-ups.”

Shawnee chewed on her knuckles, then sighed. “Follow me.”

Our journey ended in the dining room and in front of a filled liquor cabinet. “What you want?” Shawnee asked.

“Let Lulu choose,” Kimya said.

“Umm…” I grabbed the only alcohol that I knew—the purple velvet bag of Crown Royal whisky. My father’s brand.

On my third glass of 80-proof Canadian whisky and Shasta cola, I staggered to the bathroom and vomited in the toilet. Then I passed out.

The next time my eyes opened, the digital clock on Shawnee’s desk read 8:43 P.M. Tori stood over me. Her lipstick and eyeliner were smeared, and her breath reeked of cigarettes and beer. “Get your bag and come on,” she spat, pulling me from the bed.

Shawnee and Kimya had disappeared, and Miss Linda, arms crossed and frown in place, saw Tori and me to the front door. Each step I took tore a chunk out of my flesh—I’d be a Lilliputian by the time I climbed into my own bed.

“Thank you, Miss Linda,” Tori shouted as we headed to the sidewalk. “Sorry for the trouble.”

The fresh air made it easier to breathe—I wanted to drink it and then bathe in it. My knees wobbled and the top part of me moved ahead of my lower half, like a fanned-out deck of cards.

Tori trudged several steps ahead, actively ignoring me while rapping the lyrics of “Fuck Tha Police.”

“Mom home?” I croaked.

She glared back at me. “What do you think?” One of her boyfriends had needed a good chew after dinner, and had left a fresh hickey as purple as a huckleberry on Tori’s neck. She grabbed a lighter and a pack of Kools from her purse and lit up. The cigarette’s fiery tip bobbed in the dark and smoke snaked around her head.

“You think I’m stupid, don’t you?” I asked.

Tori said nothing and pulled on the cigarette.

“Well, I’m not. My stomach was empty.”

She blew smoke into the air, then, in her best Joan Collins voice, said, “You, darling, are a spoiled bore. Overprotected and scared of Jesus and mom and your own shadow. Can’t even get fucked up properly without needing somebody else to rescue you. You’re lucky I was home when Linda called.”

Her words hit me in the gut, and just like that, tears and snot gushed down my face and onto my T-shirt already crusted with vomit, whisky, and soy sauce.

Tori threw her cigarette into the street and reached into her purse again, this time pulling out a wad of tissues. She handed them to me and watched as I dried my face. “I have so much to teach you, Lulu.”

At home, we retreated to our bedroom. “Take a hot shower,” my sister instructed as she pulled a set of my pajamas from the dresser. “So hot that it hurts. Then, pop three aspirin before you get into bed. Oh—brush your teeth. Twice.”

Lessons one, two, and three.

The next morning, the bright sun pulled me from sleep just five minutes later than my regular waking time. My head didn’t pound and my breath… well, it stank but not like a corpse had been reanimated behind my molars.

I followed the fragrance of toast and bacon to the kitchen. Tori sat at the counter, dumping ketchup over her eggs. She wore the tank top version of her green-and-white Dorsey High cheer outfit.

“Hey,” I said, climbing onto the empty stool, “I don’t feel hung over.”

The hickey on her neck no longer existed, courtesy of mom’s bottle of Fashion Fair Copper Blaze foundation. “How the hell would you know how ‘hung over’ feels?”

I dropped my eyes—I didn’t know—and stared at the tattoo on her left biceps. “When did you get that?” I asked, jabbing at the black, swirling letters. “Who’s G-Dog?”

She slapped at my hand. “So what’s your story? Mom’s gonna want to know why you came home last night. And if you say that Miss Linda brought you, then she’s gonna call over there and thank her. And if you say I brought you… You can’t say that I brought you.”

I stared at the countertop. “I… umm…”

Tori stuffed her mouth with eggs. “Tell her a version of the truth but leave out the parts where you fucked up. She’ll believe you—she always believes you. I bet that she’ll throw you a parade.”

“Okay,” I said, eyes burning with tears. “But I don’t know how… What…?” A tear slipped down my cheek.

Tori dropped her fork, then used a napkin to wipe my face. “This is what you’ll say…”

Ten minutes later, I was deep into my fish story. “And when they pulled out the whiskey bottle,” I was saying to Mom, wide-eyed, “I knew it wasn’t right. Shawnee listened to me but Kimya didn’t—and I swear that I didn’t even know that Kimya was gonna be there. So I left and ran home.”

Mom poured coffee into her mug, then squinted at me with bloodshot eyes. “Good. That was a brave thing to do. I’m still not happy that Kimya—”

Tori sashayed into the kitchen, opened the fridge, and grabbed an orange from the crisper. She was now wearing her long-sleeved cheer uniform.

“Victoria,” Mom said.

Tori turned and her green-and-white pleated skirt went whee!

“Did Lulu tell you about her adventure last night?”

Tori rolled her eyes. “I don’t think I care about Lulu’s adventures. By the way, I still need fifty dollars to pay off my class ring.”

Mom frowned. “By when?”

“By today.”

“Today?” Mom screeched. “Tori, why the hell—?”

“Don’t you have somewhere to be?” Tori asked me.

I nodded. To Mom, I said, “Leadership Class has a field trip to City Hall today, remember?”

Mom, eyes hot on Tori, waved her hand: I was dismissed. “Victoria, what is your problem? You are becoming more and more…”

Before leaving the kitchen, I glanced back at my big sister and mouthed, “Thanks.”

Tori glared at me, then winked.

5

THERE SHE WAS, MY NEWEST JANE DOE, HANGING IN THE CLOSET JUST LIKE I HAD been told. A black girl, couldn’t have been older than twenty-one, her body teeming with wriggling maggots and blowflies. Some of the hair behind her right ear looked gummy and matted. Even though she was now bloated with gas, I could still tell that she had been a little thing. She wore a blue-and-yellow cheerleader’s uniform, the tank top with the word VIKINGS printed in white, and a white-striped skirt torn at the hem. Stained white anklets. No sneakers.