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“The sex instinct,” repeated Mr.
Talliaferro in his careful cockney, with that smug complacence with
which you plead guilty to a characteristic which you privately
consider a virtue, “is quite strong in me. Frankness, without which
there can be no friendship, without which two people cannot really
ever ‘get’ each other, as you artists say; frankness, as I was
saying, I believe—”
“Yes,” his host agreed. “Would
you mind moving a little?”
He complied with obsequious
courtesy, remarking the thin fretful flashing of the chisel beneath
the rhythmic maul. Wood scented gratefully slid from its mute
flashing, and slapping vainly about himself with his handkerchief
he moved in a Bluebeard’s closet of blonde hair in severed clots,
examining with concern a faint even powdering of dust upon his neat
small patent leather shoes. Yes, one must pay a price for Art. . .
. Watching the rhythmic power of the other’s back and arm he
speculated briefly upon which was more to be desired—muscularity in
an undershirt, or his own symmetrical sleeve, and reassured he
continued:
“. . . frankness compels me to
admit that the sex instinct is perhaps my most dominating
compulsion.” Mr. Talliaferro believed that Conversation—not talk:
Conversation—with an intellectual equal consisted of admitting as
many so-called unpublishable facts as possible about oneself. Mr.
Talliaferro often mused with regret on the degree of intimacy he
might have established with his artistic acquaintances had he but
acquired the habit of masturbation in his youth. But he had not
even done this.
“Yes,” his host agreed again,
thrusting a hard hip into him. “Not at all,” murmured Mr.
Talliaferro quickly. A harsh wall restored his equilibrium roughly
and hearing a friction of cloth and plaster he rebounded with
repressed alacrity.
“Pardon me,” he chattered. His
entire sleeve indicated his arm in gritty white and regarding his
coat with consternation he moved out of range and sat upon an
upturned wooden block. Brushing did no good, and the ungracious
surface on which he sat recalling his trousers to his attention, he
rose and spread his handkerchief upon it. Whenever he came here he
invariably soiled his clothes, but under that spell put on us by
those we admire doing things we ourselves cannot do, he always
returned.
The chisel bit steadily beneath
the slow arc of the maul. His host ignored him. Mr. Talliaferro
slapped viciously and vainly at the back of his hand, sitting in
lukewarm shadow while light came across roofs and chimneypots,
passing through the dingy skylight, becoming weary. His host
labored on in the tired light while the guest sat on his hard block
regretting his sleeve, watching the other’s hard body in stained
trousers and undershirt, watching the curling vigor of his
hair.
Outside the window New Orleans,
the vieux carré, brooded in a faintly tarnished languor like an
aging yet still beautiful courtesan in a smokefilled room, avid yet
weary too of ardent ways. Above the city summer was hushed warmly
into the bowled weary passion of the sky. Spring and the cruellest
months were gone, the cruel months, the wantons that break the fat
hybernatant dullness and comfort of Time; August was on the wing,
and September—a month of languorous days regretful as woodsmoke.
But Mr. Talliaferro’s youth, or lack of it, troubled him no longer.
Thank God.
No youth to trouble the
individual in this room at all. What this room troubled was
something eternal in the race, something immortal. And youth is not
deathless. Thank God. This unevenly boarded floor, these rough
stained walls broken by high small practically useless windows
beautifully set, these crouching lintels cutting the immaculate
ruined pitch of walls which had housed slaves long ago, slaves long
dead and dust with the age that had produced them and which they
had served with a kind and gracious dignity—shades of servants and
masters now in a more gracious region, lending dignity to eternity.
After all, only a few chosen can accept service with dignity: it is
man’s impulse to do for himself. It rests with the servant to lend
dignity to an unnatural proceeding. And outside, above rooftops
becoming slowly violet, summer lay supine, unchaste with
decay.
As you entered the room the thing
drew your eyes: you turned sharply as to a sound, expecting
movement. But it was marble, it could not move. And when you tore
your eyes away and turned your back on it at last, you got again
untarnished and high and clean that sense of swiftness, of space
encompassed; but on looking again it was as before: motionless and
passionately eternal—the virginal breastless torso of a girl,
headless, armless, legless, in marble temporarily caught and hushed
yet passionate still for escape, passionate and simple and eternal
in the equivocal derisive darkness of the world. Nothing to trouble
your youth or lack of it: rather something to trouble the very
fibrous integrity of your being. Mr. Talliaferro slapped his neck
savagely.
The manipulator of the chisel and
maul ceased his labor and straightened up, flexing his arm and
shoulder muscles. And as though it had graciously waited for him to
get done, the light faded quietly and abruptly: the room was like a
bathtub after the drain has been opened. Mr. Talliaferro rose also
and his host turned upon him a face like that of a heavy hawk,
breaking his dream. Mr. Talliaferro regretted his sleeve again and
said briskly:
“Then I may tell Mrs. Maurier
that you will come?”
“What?” the other asked sharply,
staring at him. “Oh, Hell, I have work to do. Sorry. Tell her I am
sorry.”
Mr. Talliaferro’s disappointment
was tinged faintly with exasperation as he watched the other cross
the darkening room to a rough wood bench and raise a cheap
enamelware water pitcher, gulping from it.
“But, I say,” said Mr.
Talliaferro fretfully.
“No, no,” the other repeated
brusquely, wiping his beard on his upper arm. “Some other time,
perhaps. I am too busy to bother with her now. Sorry.” He swung
back the open door and from a hook screwed into it he took down a
thin coat and a battered tweed cap. Mr. Talliaferro watched his
muscles bulge the thin cloth with envious distaste, recalling anew
the unmuscled emphasis of his own pressed flannel. The other was
palpably on the verge of abrupt departure and Mr. Talliaferro, to
whom solitude, particularly dingy solitude, was unbearable, took
his stiff straw hat from the bench where it flaunted its wanton gay
band above the slim yellow gleam of his straight malacca
stick.
“Wait,” he said, “and I’ll join
you.”
The other paused, looking back.
“I’m going out,” he stated belligerently.
Mr. Talliaferro, at a momentary
loss, said fatuously: “Why—ah, I thought—I should—” The hawk’s face
brooded above him in the dusk remotely and he added quickly: “I
could return, however.”
“Sure it’s no trouble?”
“Not at all, my dear fellow, not
at all! Only call on me. I will be only too glad to return.”
“Well, if you’re sure it’s no
trouble, suppose you fetch me a bottle of milk from the grocer on
the corner. You know the place, don’t you? Here’s the empty
one.”
With one of his characteristic
plunging movements the other passed through the door and Mr.
Talliaferro stood in a dapper fretted surprise, clutching a coin in
one hand and an unwashed milk bottle in the other. On the stairs,
watching the other’s shape descending into the welled darkness, he
stopped again and standing on one leg like a crane he clasped the
bottle under his arm and slapped at his ankle, viciously and
vainly.
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Descending a final stair and
turning into a darkling corridor he passed two people
indistinguishably kissing, and he hastened on toward the street
door. He paused here in active indecision, opening his coat. The
bottle had become clammy in his hand. He contemplated it through
his sense of touch with acute repugnance. Unseen, it seemed to have
become unbearably dirty. He desired something, vaguely—a newspaper,
perhaps, but before striking a match he looked quickly over his
shoulder. They were gone, hushing their chimed footsteps up the
dark curve of the stair: their chimed tread was like a physical
embrace. His match flared a puny fledged gold that followed his
clasped gleaming stick as if it were a train of gun powder. But the
passage was empty, swept with chill stone, imminent with weary
moisture . . . the match burned down to the even polished temper of
his fingernails and plunged him back into darkness more
intense.
He opened the street door.
Twilight ran in like a quiet violet dog and nursing his bottle he
peered out across an undimensional feathered square, across
stencilled palms and Andrew Jackson in childish effigy bestriding
the terrific arrested plunge of his curly balanced horse, toward
the long unemphasis of the Pontalba building and three spires of
the cathedral graduated by perspective, pure and slumbrous beneath
the decadent languor of August and evening. Mr. Talliaferro thrust
his head modestly forth, looking both ways along the street. Then
he withdrew his head and closed the door again.
He employed his immaculate linen
handkerchief reluctantly before thrusting the bottle beneath his
coat. It bulged distressingly under his exploring hand, and he
removed the bottle in mounting desperation. He struck another
match, setting the bottle down at his feet to do so, but there was
nothing in which he might wrap the thing. His impulse was to grasp
it and hurl it against the wall: already he pleasured in its
anticipated glassy crash. But Mr. Talliaferro was quite honorable:
he had passed his word. Or he might return to his friend’s room and
get a bit of paper. He stood in hot indecision until feet on the
stairs descending decided for him. He bent and fumbled for the
bottle, struck it and heard its disconsolate empty flight, captured
it at last and opening the street door anew he rushed hurriedly
forth.
The violet dusk held in soft
suspension lights slow as bell-strokes, Jackson square was now a
green and quiet lake in which abode lights round as jellyfish,
feathering with silver mimosa and pomegranate and hibiscus beneath
which lantana and cannas bled and bled. Pontalba and cathedral were
cut from black paper and pasted flat on a green sky; above them
taller palms were fixed in black and soundless explosions. The
street was empty, but from Royal street there came the hum of a
trolley that rose to a staggering clatter, passed on and away
leaving an interval filled with the gracious sound of inflated
rubber on asphalt, like a tearing of endless silk. Clasping his
accursed bottle, feeling like a criminal, Mr. Talliaferro hurried
on.
He walked swiftly beside a dark
wall, passing small indiscriminate shops dimly lighted with gas and
smelling of food of all kinds, fulsome, slightly overripe. The
proprietors and their families sat before the doors in tilted
chairs, women nursing babies into slumber spoke in soft south
European syllables one to another. Children scurried before him and
about him, ignoring him or becoming aware of him and crouching in
shadow like animals, defensive, passive and motionless.
He turned the corner. Royal
street sprang in two directions and he darted into a grocery store
on the corner, passing the proprietor sitting in the door with his
legs spread for comfort, nursing the Italian balloon of his belly
on his lap. The proprietor removed his short terrific pipe and
belched, rising to follow the customer. Mr. Talliaferro set the
bottle down hastily.
The grocer belched again,
frankly. “Good afternoon,” he said in a broad West End accent much
nearer the real thing than Mr. Talliaferro’s. “Meelk, hay?”
Mr. Talliaferro extended the
coin, murmuring, watching the man’s thick reluctant thighs as he
picked up the bottle without repugnance and slid it into a
pigeonholed box and opening a refrigerator beside it, took
therefrom a fresh one. Mr. Talliaferro recoiled.
“Haven’t you a bit of paper to
wrap it in?” he asked diffidently.
“Why, sure,” the other agreed
affably. “Make her in a parcel, hay?” He complied with exasperating
deliberation, and breathing freer but still oppressed, Mr.
Talliaferro took his purchase and glancing hurriedly about, stepped
into the street. And paused, stricken.
She was under full sail and
accompanied by a slimmer one when she saw him, but she tacked at
once and came about in a hushed swishing of silk and an expensive
clashing of impediments—handbag and chains and beads. Her hand
bloomed fatly through bracelets, ringed and manicured, and her
hothouse face wore an expression of infantile trusting
astonishment.
“Mister Talliaferro! What a
surprise,” she exclaimed, accenting the first word of each phrase,
as was her manner. And she really was surprised. Mrs. Maurier went
through the world continually amazed at chance, whether or not she
had instigated it. Mr. Talliaferro shifted his parcel quickly
behind him, to its imminent destruction, being forced to accept her
hand without removing his hat. He rectified this as soon as
possible. “I would never have expected to see you in this part of
town at this hour,” she continued. “But you have been calling on
some of your artist friends, I suppose?”
The slim one had stopped also,
and stood examining Mr. Talliaferro with cool uninterest. The older
woman turned to her. “Mr. Talliaferro knows all the interesting
people in the Quarter, darling. All the people who are—who are
creating—creating things. Beautiful things. Beauty, you know.” Mrs.
Maurier waved her glittering hand vaguely toward the sky in which
stars had begun to flower like pale and tarnished gardenias. “Oh,
do excuse me, Mr. Talliaferro— This is my niece, Miss Robyn, of
whom you have heard me speak. She and her brother have come to
comfort a lonely old woman—” her glance held a decayed coquetry,
and taking his cue Mr. Talliaferro said:
“Nonsense, dear lady. It is we,
your unhappy admirers, who need comforting. Perhaps Miss Robyn will
take pity on us, also?” He bowed toward the niece with calculated
formality. The niece was not enthusiastic.
“Now, darling,” Mrs. Maurier
turned to her niece with rapture. “Here is an example of the
chivalry of our southern men. Can you imagine a man in Chicago
saying that?”
“Not hardly,” the niece agreed.
Her aunt rushed on:
“That is why I have been so
anxious for Patricia to visit me, so she can meet men who are—who
are— My niece is named for me, you see. Mr. Talliaferro. Isn’t that
nice?” She pressed Mr. Talliaferro with recurrent happy
astonishment.
Mr. Talliaferro bowed again, came
within an ace of dropping the bottle, darted the hand which held
his hat and stick behind him to steady it. “Charming, charming,” he
agreed, perspiring under his hair.
“But, really, I am surprised to
find you here at this hour. And I suppose you are as surprised to
find us here, aren’t you? But I have just found the most won-derful
thing! Do look at it, Mr. Talliaferro: I do so want your opinion.”
She extended to him a dull lead plaque from which in dim bas-relief
of faded red and blue simpered a Madonna with an expression of
infantile astonishment identical with that of Mrs. Maurier, and a
Child somehow smug and complacent looking as an old man. Mr.
Talliaferro, feeling the poised precariousness of the bottle, dared
not release his hand. He bent over the extended object. “Do take
it, so you can examine it under the light,” its owner insisted. Mr.
Talliaferro perspired again mildly. The niece spoke suddenly:
“I’ll hold your package.”
She moved with young swiftness
and before he could demur she had taken the bottle from his hand.
“Ow,” she exclaimed, almost dropping it herself, and her aunt
gushed:
“Oh, you have discovered
something also, haven’t you? Now I’ve gone and shown you my
treasure, and all the while you were concealing something much,
much nicer.” She waggled her hands to indicate dejection. “You will
consider mine trash, I know you will,” she went on with heavy
assumed displeasure. “Oh, to be a man, so I could poke around in
shops all day and really discover things! Do show us what you have,
Mr. Talliaferro.”
“It’s a bottle of milk,” remarked
the niece, examining Mr. Talliaferro with interest.
Her aunt shrieked. Her breast
heaved with repression, glinting her pins and beads. “A bottle of
milk? Have you turned artist, too?”
For the first and last time in
his life Mr. Talliaferro wished a lady dead. But he was a
gentleman: he only seethed inwardly. He laughed with abortive
heartiness.
“An artist? You flatter me, dear
lady. I’m afraid my soul does not aspire so high. I am content to
be merely a—”
“Milkman,” suggested the young
female devil.
“—Mæcenas alone. If I might so
style myself.”
Mrs. Maurier sighed with
disappointment and surprise. “Ah, Mr. Talliaferro, I am dreadfully
disappointed. I had hoped for a moment that some of your artist
friends had at last prevailed on you to give something to the world
of Art. No, no; don’t say you cannot: I am sure you are capable of
it, what with your—your delicacy of soul, your—” she waved her hand
again vaguely toward the sky above Rampart street. “Ah, to be a
man, with no ties save those of the soul! To create, to create.”
She returned easily to Royal street. “But, really, a bottle of
milk, Mr. Talliaferro?”
“Merely for my friend Gordon. I
looked in on him this afternoon and found him quite busy. So I ran
out to fetch him milk for his supper. These artists!” Mr.
Talliaferro shrugged. “You know how they live.”
“Yes, indeed. Genius. A hard
taskmaster, isn’t it? Perhaps you are wise in not giving your life
to it. It is a long lonely road. But how is Mr. Gordon? I am so
continually occupied with things—unavoidable duties, which my
conscience will not permit me to evade (I am very conscientious,
you know)—that I simply haven’t the time to see as much of the
Quarter as I should like. I had promised Mr. Gordon faithfully to
call, and to have him to dinner soon. I am sure he thinks I have
forgotten him. Please make my peace with him, won’t you? Assure him
that I have not forgotten him.”
“I am sure he realizes how many
calls you have on your time,” Mr. Talliaferro assured her
gallantly. “Don’t let that distress you at all.”
“Yes, I really don’t know how I
get anything done: I am always surprised when I find I have a spare
moment for my own pleasure.” She turned her expression of happy
astonishment on him again. The niece spun slowly and slimly on one
high heel: the sweet young curve of her shanks straight and brittle
as the legs of a bird and ending in the twin inky splashes of her
slippers, entranced him. Her hat was a small brilliant bell about
her face, and she wore her clothing with a casual rakishness, as
though she had opened her wardrobe and said, Let’s go downtown. Her
aunt was saying:
“But what about our yachting
party? You gave Mr. Gordon my invitation?”
Mr. Talliaferro was troubled.
“We-ll— You see, he is quite busy now. He— He has a commission that
will admit of no delay,” he concluded with inspiration.
“Ah, Mr. Talliaferro! You haven’t
told him he is invited. Shame on you! Then I must tell him myself,
since you have failed me.”
“No, really—”
She interrupted him. “Forgive me,
dear Mr. Talliaferro. I didn’t mean to be unjust. I am glad you
didn’t invite him. It will be better for me to do it, so I can
overcome any scruples he might have. He is quite shy, you know. Oh,
quite, I assure you. Artistic temperament, you understand: so
spiritual. . . .”
“Yes,” agreed Mr. Talliaferro,
covertly watching the niece who had ceased her spinning and got her
seemingly boneless body into an undimensional angular flatness pure
as an Egyptian carving.
“So I shall attend to it myself.
I shall call him to-night: we sail at noon to-morrow, you know.
That will allow him sufficient time, don’t you think? He’s one of
these artists who never have much, lucky people.” Mrs. Maurier
looked at her watch. “Heavens above! seven thirty. We must fly.
Come, darling. Can’t we drop you somewhere, Mr. Talliaferro?”
“Thank you, no. I must take
Gordon’s milk to him, and then I am engaged for the evening.”
“Ah, Mr. Talliaferro! It’s a
woman, I know.” She rolled her eyes roguishly. “What a terrible man
you are.” She lowered her voice and tapped him on the sleeve. “Do
be careful what you say before this child. My instincts are all
bohemian, but she . . . unsophisticated . . .” Her voice bathed him
warmly and Mr. Talliaferro bridled: had he had a mustache he would
have stroked it. Mrs. Maurier jangled and glittered again: her
expression became one of pure delight. “But, of course! We will
drive you to Mr. Gordon’s and then I can run in and invite him for
the party. The very thing! How fortunate to have thought of it.
Come, darling.”
Without stooping the niece angled
her leg upward and outward from the knee, scratching her ankle. Mr.
Talliaferro recalled the milk bottle and assented gratefully,
falling in on the curbside with meticulous thoughtfulness. A short
distance up the street Mrs. Maurier’s car squatted expensively. The
negro driver descended and opened the door and Mr. Talliaferro sank
into gracious upholstery, nursing his milk bottle, smelling flowers
cut and delicately vased, promising himself a car next year.
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They rolled smoothly, passing
between spaced lights and around narrow corners, while Mrs. Maurier
talked steadily of hers and Mr. Talliaferro’s and Gordon’s souls.
The niece sat quietly. Mr. Talliaferro was conscious of the clean
young odor of her, like that of young trees; and when they passed
beneath lights he could see her slim shape and the impersonal
revelation of her legs and her bare sexless knees. Mr. Talliaferro
luxuriated, clutching his bottle of milk, wishing the ride need not
end. But the car drew up to the curb again, and he must get out, no
matter with what reluctance.
“I’ll run up and bring him down
to you,” he suggested with premonitory tact.
“No, no: let’s all go up,” Mrs.
Maurier objected. “I want Patricia to see how genius looks at
home.”
“Gee, Aunty, I’ve seen these
dives before,” the niece said. “They’re everywhere. I’ll wait for
you.” She jackknifed her body effortlessly, scratching her ankles
with her brown hands.
“It’s so interesting to see how
they live, darling. You’ll simply love it.” Mr. Talliaferro
demurred again, but Mrs. Maurier overrode him with sheer words. So
against his better judgment he struck matches for them, leading the
way up the dark tortuous stairs while their three shadows aped
them, rising and falling monstrously upon the ancient wall. Long
before they reached the final stage Mrs. Maurier was puffing and
panting, and Mr. Talliaferro found a puerile vengeful glee in
hearing her labored breath. But he was a gentleman; he put this
from him, rebuking himself. He knocked on a door, was bidden,
opened it:
“Back, are you?” Gordon sat in
his single chair, munching a thick sandwich, clutching a book. The
unshaded light glared savagely upon his undershirt.
“You have callers,” Mr.
Talliaferro offered his belated warning, but the other looking up
had already seen beyond his shoulder Mrs. Maurier’s interested
face. He rose and cursed Mr. Talliaferro, who had begun immediately
his unhappy explanation.
“Mrs. Maurier insisted on
dropping in—”
Mrs. Maurier vanquished him anew.
“Mister Gordon!” She sailed into the room, bearing her expression
of happy astonishment like a round platter stood on edge. “How do
you do? Can you ever, ever forgive us for intruding like this?” she
went on in her gushing italics. “We just met Mr. Talliaferro on the
street with your milk, and we decided to brave the lion in his den.
How do you do?” She forced her effusive hand upon him, staring
about in happy curiosity. “So this is where genius labors. How
charming: so—so original. And that—” she indicated a corner
screened off by a draggled length of green rep “—is your bedroom,
isn’t it? How delightful! Ah, Mr. Gordon, how I envy you this
freedom. And a view—you have a view also, haven’t you?” She held
his hand and stared entranced at a high useless window framing two
tired looking stars of the fourth magnitude.
“I would have if I were eight
feet tall,” he corrected. She looked at him quickly, happily. Mr.
Talliaferro laughed nervously.
“That would be delightful,” she
agreed readily. “I was so anxious to have my niece see a real
studio, Mr. Gordon, where a real artist works. Darling—” she
glanced over her shoulder fatly, still holding his hand “—darling,
let me present you to a real sculptor, one from whom we expect
great things. . . . Darling,” she repeated in a louder tone.
The niece, untroubled by the
stairs, had drifted in after them and she now stood before the
single marble. “Come and speak to Mr. Gordon, darling.” Beneath her
aunt’s saccharine modulation was a faint trace of something not so
sweet after all. The niece turned her head and nodded slightly
without looking at him. Gordon released his hand.
“Mr. Talliaferro tells me you
have a commission.” Mrs. Maurier’s voice was again a happy
astonished honey. “May we see it? I know artists don’t like to
exhibit an incomplete work, but just among friends, you see. . . .
You both know how sensitive to beauty I am, though I have been
denied the creative impulse myself.”
“Yes,” agreed Gordon, watching
the niece.
“I have long intended visiting
your studio, as I promised, you remember. So I shall take this
opportunity of looking about—Do you mind?”
“Help yourself. Talliaferro can
show you things. Pardon me.” He lurched characteristically between
them and Mrs. Maurier chanted:
“Yes, indeed. Mr. Talliaferro,
like myself, is sensitive to the beautiful in Art. Ah, Mr.
Talliaferro, why were you and I given a love for the beautiful, yet
denied the ability to create it from stone and wood and clay. . .
.”
Her body in its brief simple
dress was motionless when he came over to her. After a time he
said:
“Like it?”
Her jaw in profile was heavy:
there was something masculine about it. But in full face it was not
heavy, only quiet. Her mouth was full and colorless, unpainted, and
her eyes were opaque as smoke. She met his gaze, remarking the icy
blueness of his eyes (like a surgeon’s she thought) and looked at
the marble again.
“I don’t know,” she answered
slowly. Then: “It’s like me.”
“How like you?” he asked
gravely.
She didn’t answer. Then she said:
“Can I touch it?”
“If you like,” he replied,
examining the line of her jaw, her firm brief nose. She made no
move and he added: “Aren’t you going to touch it?”
“I’ve changed my mind,” she told
him calmly. Gordon glanced over his shoulder to where Mrs. Maurier
pored volubly over something. Mr. Talliaferro yea’d her with
restrained passion.
“Why is it like you?” he
repeated.
She said irrelevantly: “Why
hasn’t she anything here?” Her brown hand flashed slimly across the
high unemphasis of the marble’s breast, and withdrew.
“You haven’t much there
yourself.” She met his steady gaze steadily. “Why should it have
anything there?” he asked.
“You’re right,” she agreed with
the judicial complaisance of an equal. “I see now. Of course she
shouldn’t. I didn’t quite—quite get it for a moment.”
Gordon examined with growing
interest her flat breast and belly, her boy’s body which the poise
of it and the thinness of her arms belied. Sexless, yet somehow
vaguely troubling. Perhaps just young, like a calf or a colt. “How
old are you?” he asked abruptly.
“Eighteen, if it’s any of your
business,” she replied without rancor, staring at the marble.
Suddenly she looked up at him again. “I wish I could have it,” she
said with sudden sincerity and longing, quite like a
four-year-old.
“Thanks,” he said. “That was
quite sincere, too, wasn’t it? Of course you can’t have it, though.
You see that, don’t you?”
She was silent. He knew she could
see no reason why she shouldn’t have it.
“I guess so,” she agreed at last.
“I just thought I’d see, though.”
“Not to overlook any bets?”
“Oh, well, by to-morrow I
probably won’t want it, anyway. . . . And if I still do, I can get
something just as good.”
“You mean,” he amended, “that if
you still want it to-morrow, you can get it. Don’t you?”
Her hand, as if it were a
separate organism, reached out slowly, stroking the marble. “Why
are you so black?” she asked.
“Black?”
“Not your hair and beard. I like
your red hair and beard. But you. You are black. I mean . . .” her
voice fell and he suggested Soul? “I don’t know what that is,” she
stated quietly.
“Neither do I. You might ask your
aunt, though. She seems familiar with souls.”
She glanced over her shoulder,
showing him her other unequal profile. “Ask her yourself. Here she
comes.”
Mrs. Maurier surged her scented
upholstered bulk between them. “Wonderful, wonderful,” she was
exclaiming in sincere astonishment. “And this . . .” her voice died
away and she gazed at the marble, dazed. Mr. Talliaferro echoed her
immaculately, taking to himself the showman’s credit.
“Do you see what he has caught?”
he bugled melodiously. “Do you see? The spirit of youth, of
something fine and hard and clean in the world: something we all
desire until our mouths are stopped with dust.” Desire with Mr.
Talliaferro had long since become an unfulfilled habit requiring no
longer any particular object at all.
“Yes,” agreed Mrs. Maurier. “How
beautiful. What—what does it signify, Mr. Gordon?”
“Nothing, Aunt Pat,” the niece
snapped. “It doesn’t have to.”
“But, really—”
“What do you want it to signify?
Suppose it signified a—a dog, or an ice cream soda, what difference
would it make? Isn’t it all right like it is?”
“Yes, indeed, Mrs. Maurier,” Mr.
Talliaferro agreed with soothing haste, “it is not necessary that
it have objective significance. We must accept it for what it is:
pure form untrammeled by any relation to a familiar or utilitarian
object.”
“Oh, yes: untrammeled.” Here was
a word Mrs. Maurier knew. “The untrammeled spirit, freedom like the
eagle’s.”
“Shut up, Aunty,” the niece told
her. “Don’t be a fool.”
“But it has what Talliaferro
calls objective significance,” Gordon interrupted brutally. “This
is my feminine ideal: a virgin with no legs to leave me, no arms to
hold me, no head to talk to me.”
“Mister Gordon!” Mrs. Maurier
stared at him over her compressed breast. Then she thought of
something that did possess objective significance. “I had almost
forgotten our reason for calling so late. Not,” she added quickly,
“that we needed any other reason to—to—Mr. Talliaferro, how was it
those old people used to put it, about pausing on Life’s busy
highroad to kneel for a moment at the Master’s feet? . . .” Mrs.
Maurier’s voice faded and her face assumed an expression of mild
concern. “Or is it the Bible of which I am thinking? Well, no
matter: we dropped in to invite you for a yachting party, a few
days on the lake—”
“Yes. Talliaferro told me about
it. Sorry, but I shall be unable to come.”
Mrs. Maurier’s eyes became quite
round. She turned to Mr. Talliaferro. “Mister Talliaferro! You told
me you hadn’t mentioned it to him!”
Mr. Talliaferro writhed acutely.
“Do forgive me, if I left you under that impression. It was quite
unintentional. I only desired that you speak to him yourself and
make him reconsider. The party will not be complete without him,
will it?”
“Not at all. Really, Mr. Gordon,
won’t you reconsider? Surely you won’t disappoint us.” She stooped
creaking, and slapped at her ankle. “Pardon me.”
“No. Sorry. I have work to
do.”
Mrs. Maurier transferred her
expression of astonishment and dejection to Mr. Talliaferro. “It
can’t be that he doesn’t want to come. There must be some other
reason. Do say something to him, Mr. Talliaferro. We simply must
have him. Mr. Fairchild is going, and Eva and Dorothy: we simply
must have a sculptor. Do convince him, Mr. Talliaferro.”
“I’m sure his decision is not
final: I am sure he will not deprive us of his company. A few days
on the water will do him no end of good; freshen him up like a
tonic. Eh, Gordon?”
Gordon’s hawk’s face brooded
above them, remote and insufferable with arrogance. The niece had
turned away, drifting slowly about the room, grave and quiet and
curious, straight as a poplar. Mrs. Maurier implored him with her
eyes doglike, temporarily silent. Suddenly she had an
inspiration.
“Come, people, let’s all go to my
house for dinner. Then we can discuss it at our ease.”
Mr. Talliaferro demurred. “I am
engaged this evening, you know,” he reminded her.
“Oh, Mr. Talliaferro.” She put
her hand on his sleeve. “Don’t you fail me, too. I always depend on
you when people fail me. Can’t you defer your engagement?”
“Really, I am afraid not. Not in
this case,” Mr. Talliaferro replied smugly. “Though I am distressed
. . .”
Mrs. Maurier sighed. “These
women! Mr. Talliaferro is perfectly terrible with women,” she
informed Gordon. “But you will come, won’t you?”
The niece had drifted up to them
and stood rubbing the calf of one leg against the other shin.
Gordon turned to her. “Will you be there?”
Damn their little souls, she
whispered on a sucked breath. She yawned. “Oh, yes. I eat. But I’m
going to bed darn soon.” She yawned again, patting the broad pale
oval of her mouth with brown fingers.
“Patricia!” her aunt exclaimed in
shocked amazement. “Of course you will do nothing of the kind. The
very idea! Come, Mr. Gordon.”
“No, thanks. I am engaged
myself,” he answered stiffly. “Some other time, perhaps.”
“I simply won’t take No for an
answer. Do help me, Mr. Talliaferro. He simply must come.”
“Do you want him to come as he
is?” the niece asked.
Her aunt glanced briefly at the
undershirt, and shuddered. But she said bravely: “Of course, if he
wishes. What are clothes, compared with this?” she described an arc
with her hand; diamonds glittered on its orbit. “So you cannot
evade it, Mr. Gordon. You must come.”
Her hand poised above his arm,
pouncing. He eluded it brusquely. “Excuse me.” Mr. Talliaferro
avoided his sudden movement just in time, and the niece said
wickedly:
“There’s a shirt behind the door,
if that’s what you are looking for. You won’t need a tie, with that
beard.”
He picked her up by the elbows,
as you would a high narrow table, and set her aside. Then his tall
controlled body filled and emptied the door and disappeared in the
darkness of the hallway. The niece gazed after him. Mrs. Maurier
stared at the door, then to Mr. Talliaferro in quiet amazement.
“What in the world—” Her hands clashed vainly among her various
festooned belongings. “Where is he going?” she said at last.
The niece said suddenly: “I like
him.” She too gazed at the door through which, passing, he seemed
to have emptied the room. “I bet he doesn’t come back,” she
remarked.
Her aunt shrieked. “Doesn’t come
back?”
“Well, I wouldn’t, if I were
him.” She returned to the marble, stroking it with slow desire.
Mrs. Maurier gazed helplessly at Mr. Talliaferro.
“Where—” she began.
“I’ll go see,” he offered,
breaking his own trance. The two women regarded his vanishing neat
back.
“Never in my life—Patricia, what
did you mean by being so rude to him? Of course he is offended.
Don’t you know how sensitive artists are? After I have worked so
hard to cultivate him, too!”
“Nonsense. It’ll do him good. He
thinks just a little too well of himself as it is.”
“But to insult the man in his own
house. I can’t understand you young people at all. Why, if I’d said
a thing like that to a gentleman, and a stranger . . . I can’t
imagine what your father can mean, letting you grow up like this.
He certainly knows better than this—”
“I’m not to blame for the way he
acted. You are the one, yourself. Suppose you’d been sitting in
your room in your shimmy, and a couple of men you hardly knew had
walked in on you and tried to persuade you to go somewhere you
didn’t want to go, what would you have done?”
“These people are different,” her
aunt told her coldly. “You don’t understand them. Artists don’t
require privacy as we do: it means nothing whatever to them. But
any one, artist or no, would object—”
“Oh, haul in your sheet,” the
niece interrupted coarsely. “You’re jibbing.”
Mr. Talliaferro reappeared
panting with delicate repression. “Gordon was called hurriedly
away. He asked me to make his excuses and to express his
disappointment over having to leave so unceremoniously.”
“Then he’s not coming to dinner.”
Mrs. Maurier sighed, feeling her age, the imminence of dark and
death. She seemed not only unable to get new men any more, but to
hold to the old ones, even . . . Mr. Talliaferro, too . . . age,
age. . . . She sighed again. “Come, darling,” she said in a
strangely chastened tone, quieter, pitiable in a way. The niece put
both her firm tanned hands on the marble, hard, hard. O beautiful,
she whispered in salutation and farewell, turning quickly
away.
“Let’s go,” she said, “I’m
starving.”
Mr. Talliaferro had lost his box
of matches: he was desolated. So they were forced to feel their way
down the stairs, disturbing years and years of dust upon the rail.
The stone corridor was cool and dank and filled with a suppressed
minor humming. They hurried on.
Night was fully come and the car
squatted at the curb in patient silhouette; the negro driver sat
within with all the windows closed. Within its friendly familiarity
Mrs. Maurier’s spirits rose again. She gave Mr. Talliaferro her
hand, sugaring her voice again with a decayed coquetry.
“You will call me, then? But
don’t promise: I know how completely your time is taken up—” she
leaned forward, tapping him on the cheek—“Don Juan!”
He laughed deprecatingly, with
pleasure. The niece from her corner said:
“Good evening, Mr. Tarver.”
Mr. Talliaferro stood slightly
inclined from the hips, frozen. He closed his eyes like a dog
awaiting the fall of the stick, while time passed and passed . . .
he opened his eyes again, after how long he knew not. But Mrs.
Maurier’s fingers were but leaving his cheek and the niece was
invisible in her corner: a bodiless evil. Then he straightened up,
feeling his cold entrails resume their proper place.
The car drew away and he watched
it, thinking of the girl’s youngness, her hard clean youngness,
with fear and a troubling unhappy desire like an old sorrow. Were
children really like dogs? Could they penetrate one’s concealment,
know one instinctively?
Mrs. Maurier settled back
comfortably. “Mr. Talliaferro is perfectly terrible with women,”
she informed her niece.
“I bet he is,” the niece agreed,
“perfectly terrible.”
4
Mr. Talliaferro had been married
while quite young by a rather plainfaced girl whom he was trying to
seduce. But now, at thirty-eight, he was a widower these eight
years. He had been the final result of some rather casual
biological research conducted by two people who, like the great
majority, had no business producing children at all. The family
originated in northern Alabama and drifted slowly westward ever
after, thus proving that a certain racial impulse in the race,
which one Horace Greeley summed up in a slogan so excruciatingly
apt that he didn’t have to observe it himself, has not yet died
away. His brothers were various and they attained their several
milieus principally by chance: milieus ranging from an untimely
heaven via some one else’s horse and a rope and a Texas cottonwood,
through a classical chair in a small Kansas college, to a state
legislature via some one else’s votes. This one got as far as
California. They never did know what became of Mr. Talliaferro’s
sister.
Mr. Talliaferro had got what is
known as a careful raising: he had been forced while quite young
and pliable to do all the things to which his natural impulses
objected, and to forgo all the things he could possibly have had
any fun doing. After a while nature gave up and this became a habit
with him. Nature surrendered him without a qualm: even disease
germs seemed to ignore him.
His marriage had driven him into
work as drouth drives the fish down stream into the larger waters,
and things had gone hard with them during the years during which he
had shifted from position to position, correspondence course to
correspondence course, until he had an incorrect and impractical
smattering of information regarding every possible genteel method
of gaining money, before finally and inevitably gravitating into
the women’s clothing section of a large department store.
Here he felt that he had at last
come into his own (he always got along much better with women than
with men) and his restored faith in himself enabled him to rise
with comfortable ease to the coveted position of wholesale buyer.
He knew women’s clothes and, interested in women, it was his belief
that knowledge of the frail intimate things they preferred gave him
an insight which no other man had into the psychology of women. But
he merely speculated on this, for he remained faithful to his wife,
although she was bedridden: an invalid.
And then, when success was in his
grasp and life had become smooth at last for them, his wife died.
He had become habituated to marriage, sincerely attached to her,
and readjustment came slowly. Yet in time he became accustomed to
the novelty of mature liberty. He had been married so young that
freedom was an unexplored field to him. He took pleasure in his
snug bachelor quarters in the proper neighborhood, in his solitary
routine of days: of walking home in the dusk for the sake of his
figure, examining the soft bodies of girls on the street, knowing
that if he cared to take one of them, that there was none save the
girls themselves to say him nay; to his dinners alone or in company
with an available literary friend.
Mr. Talliaferro did Europe in
forty-one days, gained thereby a worldly air and a smattering of
esthetics and a precious accent, and returned to New Orleans
feeling that he was Complete. His only alarm was his thinning hair,
his only worry was the fact that some one would discover that he
had been born Tarver, not Talliaferro.
But long since celibacy had begun
to oppress him.
5
Handling his stick smartly he
turned into Broussard’s. As he had hoped, here was Dawson
Fairchild, the novelist, resembling a benevolent walrus too
recently out of bed to have made a toilet, dining in company with
three men. Mr. Talliaferro paused diffidently in the doorway and a
rosy cheeked waiter resembling a studious Harvard undergraduate in
an actor’s dinner coat, assailed him courteously. At last he caught
Fairchild’s eye and the other greeted him across the small room,
then said something to his three companions that caused them to
turn half about in their chairs to watch his approach. Mr.
Talliaferro, to whom entering a restaurant alone and securing a
table was an excruciating process, joined them with relief. The
cherubic waiter spun a chair from an adjoining table deftly against
Mr. Talliaferro’s knees as he shook Fairchild’s hand.
“You’re just in time,” Fairchild
told him, propping his fist and a clutched fork on the table. “This
is Mr. Hooper. You know these other folks, I think.”
Mr. Talliaferro ducked his head
to a man with iron gray hair and an orotund humorless face like
that of a thwarted Sunday school superintendent, who insisted on
shaking his hand, then his glance took in the other two members of
the party—a tall, ghostly young man with a thin evaporation of fair
hair and a pale prehensile mouth, and a bald Semitic man with a
pasty loose jowled face and sad quizzical eyes.
“We were discussing—” began
Fairchild when the stranger interrupted with a bland and utterly
unselfconscious rudeness.
“What did you say the name was?”
he asked, fixing Mr. Talliaferro with his eye. Mr. Talliaferro met
the eye and knew immediately a faint unease. He answered the
question, but the other brushed the reply aside. “I mean your given
name. I didn’t catch it to-day.”
“Why, Ernest,” Mr. Talliaferro
told him with alarm.
“Ah, yes: Ernest. You must pardon
me, but traveling, meeting new faces each Tuesday, as I do—” he
interrupted himself with the same bland unconsciousness. “What are
your impressions of the get-together to-day?” Ere Mr. Talliaferro
could have replied, he interrupted himself again. “You have a
splendid organization here,” he informed them generally, compelling
them with his glance, “and a city that is worthy of it. Except for
this southern laziness of yours. You folks need more northern
blood, to bring out all your possibilities. Still, I won’t
criticize: you boys have treated me pretty well.” He put some food
into his mouth and chewed it down hurriedly, forestalling any one
who might have hoped to speak.
“I was glad that my itinerary
brought me here, to see the city and be with the boys to-day, and
that one of your reporters gave me the chance to see something of
your bohemian life by directing me to Mr. Fairchild here, who, I
understand, is an author.” He met Mr. Talliaferro’s expression of
courteous amazement again. “I am glad to see how you boys are
carrying on the good work; I might say, the Master’s work, for it
is only by taking the Lord into our daily lives—” He stared at Mr.
Talliaferro once more. “What did you say the name was?”
“Ernest,” suggested Fairchild
mildly.
“—Ernest. People, the man in the
street, the breadwinner, he on whom the heavy burden of life rests,
does he know what we stand for, what we can give him in spite of
himself—forgetfulness of the trials of day by day? He knows nothing
of our ideals of service, of the benefits to ourselves, to each
other, to you”—he met Fairchild’s burly quizzical gaze—“to himself.
And, by the way,” he added coming to earth again, “there are a few
points on this subject I am going to take up with your secretary
to-morrow.” He transfixed Mr. Talliaferro again. “What were your
impressions of my remarks to-day?”
“I beg pardon?”
“What did you think of my idea
for getting a hundred percent church attendance by keeping them
afraid they’d miss something good by staying away?”
Mr. Talliaferro turned his
stricken face to the others, one by one. After a while his
interrogator said in a tone of cold displeasure: “You don’t mean to
say you do not recall me?”
Mr. Talliaferro cringed. “Really,
sir—I am distressed—” The other interrupted heavily.
“You were not at lunch
to-day?”
“No,” Mr. Talliaferro replied
with effusive gratitude, “I take only a glass of buttermilk at
noon. I breakfast late, you see.” The other man stared at him with
chill displeasure, and Mr. Talliaferro added with inspiration: “You
have mistaken me for some one else, I fear.”
The stranger regarded Mr.
Talliaferro for a cold moment. The waiter placed a dish before Mr.
Talliaferro and he fell upon it in a flurry of acute
discomfort.
“Do you mean—” began the
stranger. Then he put his fork down and turned his disapproval
coldly upon Fairchild. “Didn’t I understand you to say that
this—gentleman was a member of Rotary?”
Mr. Talliaferro suspended his
fork and he too looked at Fairchild in shocked unbelief. “I a
member of Rotary?” he repeated.
“Why, I kind of got the
impression he was,” Fairchild admitted. “Hadn’t you heard that
Talliaferro was a Rotarian?” he appealed to the others. They were
noncommittal and he continued: “I seem to recall somebody telling
me you were a Rotarian. But then, you know how rumors get around.
Maybe it is because of your prominence in the business life of our
city. Talliaferro is a member of one of our largest ladies’
clothing houses,” he explained. “He is just the man to help you
figure out some way to get God into the mercantile business. Teach
Him the meaning of service, hey, Talliaferro?”
“No: really, I—” Mr. Talliaferro
objected with alarm. The stranger interrupted again.
“Well, there’s nothing better on
God’s green earth than Rotary. Mr. Fairchild had given me to
understand that you were a member,” he accused with a recurrence of
cold suspicion. Mr. Talliaferro squirmed with unhappy negation. The
other stared him down, then he took out his watch. “Well, well. I
must run along. I run my day to schedule. You’d be astonished to
learn how much time can be saved by cutting off a minute here and a
minute there,” he informed them. “And—”
“I beg pardon?”
“What do you do with them?”
Fairchild asked.
“When you’ve cut off enough
minutes here and there to make up a sizable mess, what do you do
with them?”
“—Setting a time limit to
everything you do makes a man get more punch into it; makes him
take the hills on high, you might say.” A drop of nicotine on the
end of the tongue will kill a dog, Fairchild thought, chuckling to
himself. He said aloud:
“Our forefathers reduced the
process of gaining money to proverbs. But we have beaten them; we
have reduced the whole of existence to fetiches.”
“To words of one syllable that
look well in large red type,” the Semitic man corrected.
The stranger ignored them. He
half turned in his chair. He gestured at the waiter’s back, then he
snapped his fingers until he had attracted the waiter’s attention.
“Trouble with these small second-rate places,” he told them. “No
pep, no efficiency, in handling trade. Check, please,” he directed
briskly. The cherubic waiter bent over them.
“You found the dinner nice?” he
suggested.
“Sure, sure, all right. Bring the
bill, will you, George?” The waiter looked at the others,
hesitating.
“Never mind, Mr. Broussard,”
Fairchild said quickly. “We won’t go right now. Mr. Hooper here has
got to catch a train. You are my guest,” he explained to the
stranger. The other protested conventionally: he offered to match
coins for it, but Fairchild repeated: “You are my guest to-night.
Too bad you must hurry away.”
“I haven’t got the leisure you
New Orleans fellows have,” the other explained. “Got to keep on the
jump, myself.” He arose and shook hands all around. “Glad to’ve met
you boys,” he said to each in turn. He clasped Mr. Talliaferro’s
elbow with his left hand while their rights were engaged. The
waiter fetched his hat and he gave the man a half dollar with a
flourish. “If you’re ever in the little city”—he paused to reassure
Fairchild.
“Sure, sure,” Fairchild agreed
heartily, and they sat down again. The late guest paused at the
street door a moment, then he darted forth shouting, “Taxi! Taxi!”
The cab took him to the Monteleone hotel, three blocks away, where
he purchased two to-morrow’s papers and sat in the lobby for an
hour, dozing over them. Then he went to his room and lay in bed
staring at them until he had harried his mind into unconsciousness
by the sheer idiocy of print.
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