Shame - the Mysterious Feeling E-Book

Wilfried Ehrmann

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Shame is an important feeling. The more we understand it, the more we understand ourselves and others.

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Shame, Psychology, Prenatal Psychology, Breathwork, Emotions

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Wilfried Ehrmann

Shame

The Mysterious Feeling

In the Vast Land of the Soul Volume 1

Tredition 2022

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Author: Dr. Wilfried Ehrmann

Publisher: tredition GmbH, Halenreie 40-44, 22359 Hamburg, Germany

Year of edition: 2022

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©2022 Wilfried Ehrmann

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Table of Contents

Introductory words

Foreword

Basic Anthropological and Psychological Assumptions

1. Shame – The Mysterious Feeling

Shame and its Emotional Perimeter

2. Shame and Society

Exclusion and Shame

Cultures of Shame and of Guilt

Shame and Honour

Shame and Dignity

The Shame of Consumption

Consumption by Shame

On the History of Shame and Consumption

Infantility and Responsibility

Shame, Guilt and the Corona Crisis

The Search for Culprits

The "Revenge of Nature”

The Difficulty of Living with Uncertainty

Shame is Always Social

3. The Physiology of Shame

The External Characteristics of Shame

The Eyes

Language

Posture

Thinking

Laughter

The Breath of Shame

Blushing

Erythrophobia

Shame and Its Impression on the Outside

The Inner Processes of Shame

The Polyvagal Theory

4. Common Issues of Shame

Shame Triggers

Male and Female Shame Gender-specific Shame Triggers

What are Men Ashamed of?

Male Sexuality

What are Women Ashamed of?

Female Sexuality

Monogamy and Shame

5. Origins and Shapes of Shame

Primordial Shame

Shame for Needs

Shame of Dependence

Dependence Shame and Separation Guilt

Dependence Shame and Ageing

The Shame of Exclusion

Boundaries in the Family

Oedipal Shame

The Strange World of Adults

Intimacy Shame

Shame of Competence

Shame of Ideality

Three Variants of Ideality Shame

Role Models and the Shame of Ideals

The Regulation of Shame by the Ego Ideal

Ego Ideal and Society

Depressive Shame

Shame as a Guardian

Summary

6. Cyclical Shame

Spirals of Shame

Contagious Shame

Vicarious Embarrassment

Vicarious Shame in Culture and for the Collective

Body Processes during Vicarious Shame

On the Psychology of Vicarious Shame

Vicarious Shame and Growing Up

The Delight for Someone’s Misfortune

Transference of Shame

Shame and Boundary Experiences

Demarcation and Permeability

Shame in Communication

Relationship Endings and Shame

7. The Many Siblings of Shame

Shame and Fear

Shame, Fear and Developmental Steps

Anticipated Shame

Shame, Pain and Sadness

The Lake of Sadness

Shame and Anger

The Drama of Rage

Controlling Anger

On the Physiology of Anger

Revenge and Violence

Shame and Delinquency

Boredom

Shame and Disgust

Two Opposing Feelings

Self-Loathing

Shame and Guilt

Spirals of Shame and Guilt

Shame and Pride

Pride Avoidance and Pride Exaltation

Self-Esteem – Self-Deprecation

Identity Formation through Shame and Pride

Shame and Pride in Interplay

Shame and Greed

Early Childhood Deficiency

Greed for Money, Greed for Power

Greed Economy and Greed Culture

Shame and Stinginess

Shame and Envy

Self-Exaltation as a Defence

Retreat as Defence

Envy and Aggression

Envy and Contempt

The Other Side of Envy

Envy and Society

Shame and Jealousy

Summary: The Siblings of Shame

8. Forms of Defence against Shame

Forms of Outward Defence

Directions of Shame Defence

Projection

The Physiology of Projection

Shame as Reaction Formation

Contempt

The Roots of Contempt

Humiliation and Violence

Contempt as a Social Weapon

The Contempt for Weakness

The Origins of Contempt for Weakness

Cynicism

Negativism

The Power of No

Arrogance

Arrogance and Modesty

Hypocrisy

Impudence

Emotional Coldness

Exhibitionism and Voyeurism

9. Inward Shame Defence

Forms of Inward Shame Defence

Adaptation

Discipline

Discipline and Laziness

Ambition

Childish Ambition and Shame

Ambition and Self-Overload

Shame and Secrets

A Safe Place

The Concealing Shame

The Secret in Sexual Abuse

The Shared Secret

Shame and Mystery - a Study

How Shame Leads to Self-Talk

Summary

10. Shame Resilience

Being Trapped

Fainting

Isolation

The Web of Shame

Unwanted Identities

11. The Development of Shame Imprints

The Interactive Regulation of Affect

Affect

Affect Regulation

Interactive Affect Mirroring

Interactive Affect Regulation

Systemic Interaction

The Physiology of Interactive Affect Regulation

Dissociation

12. The Early Roots of Shame

Introduction

Key Events

Early Stress

The Germ Cells and Their History

Conception

Shame at Conception

Narcissism at Conception

Conflicts around Pregnancy

Supposedly Desired Children

The Missing Father

The Potential in Successful Conception

The First Cell Division

The Inner Side of Cell Division

The Crisis of Division

Cell Division and Twinning

Nidation

Shame Issues during Nesting

The Placenta and the Umbilical Cord

Placental Trauma

The Umbilical Cord and the Emotional Flow

The News of the Pregnancy

Wrong Sex

Survived Abortion

Prenatal Developmental Trauma

Mothers and Fathers

Premature Abortions and Miscarriages

The Surviving Twin

The Drama

The Shame of Survivors

The Complementarity of Father and Mother

The Paternal Legacy

Birth and Shame

Feelings of Shame in the Mother

Caesarean Section

Shame during Babyhood

Bonding and Distancing

Infantile Rage

13. Shame in Childhood

Overprotectiveness and Neglect

Performance and Shame

Black Pedagogy and Shame

The Enactment of Shame

Judgements

Ridicule

Excessive Criticism

Existentially Threatening Accusations

Robbery of the Self

Aggressive Misappropriation

Subtle Misappropriation

Shame and Family Dynamics

Dealing with Shame

Pride and Shame in Balance

Shame in School

Outlook

14. Coming to Peace with our Shame

Shame Healing in the Interpersonal Sphere: First Steps

Resolving Shame within Ourselves

Acute Help for an Overreaction to Shame

Self-Acceptance Instead of Shame

Accept Defectiveness

Distinguish Behaviour and Person

Cultivating Self-Compassion and self-forgiveness

Self-Acknowledgement

Antidotes to Shame

Using Shame for Self Exploration

Humour and Self-Irony as Healing

Turning Shame into Guilt

Working with the Inner child

Living through the Pain

Building Self-Esteem

Self-Empathy

Making Friends with Ourselves

Self-Love

Self-Forgiving

Forgiving Others

Affirm your Dignity

Practice Gratitude

Shame Healing through the Eyes

A Look in the Mirror

Eye Contact Breathing

Move

Singing

Creative Expression

Dreams

Changing Contexts

Strengthening Shame Resilience

The SRT Continuums

The Vulnerability Continuum

The Continuum of Critical Consciousness

The Continuum of Contact

The Continuum of Naming Shame

15. The Cure of the Forms of Defence and of Shame Siblings

Projection

Contempt

Cynicism

Negativism

Arrogance

Hypocrisy

Impudence

Emotional Coldness

Exhibitionism and Voyeurism

Envy

Guilt

Pride

Greed

Stinginess

Jealousy

Vicarious Shame

16. Recovering the Self

Reclaiming Unity with Oneself

Empathy

The Flow of Empathy

Physiology of Empathy

The Mirror Neurons

Empathy and Identification

17. Shame in Psychotherapy

Therapy Shame

Shame through Diagnoses

Shame in the Course of Therapy

Special Aspects of Shame Healing

Shame and Talking Cure

Healing Shame in Breath Therapy

Secrets in Therapy

Shame and Trauma

Special Prenatal Topics

The Conception Trauma

The Trauma of Cell Division

The Implantation Trauma

The Lost Twin

The Placental Trauma

Placenta Work and Suicidal Thoughts

Birth

Summary

Literary Excursion: Fräulein Else

18. From Shame to Dignity

Bibliography

Introductory words

I have never come across a book on shame with this level of detail and holism. Not even Sigmund Freud commented on it in detail. Particularly from a psychoanalytical point of view, this emotion seems to me to be of fundamental importance in relation to our behaviour and our actions. Shame is a co-trigger and cause of many social anxieties.

In this work, the author of the book "The Evolution of Consciousness” (an interesting and also very readable concept on the development of our socio-cultural evolved consciousness) has succeeded in taking a further step towards understanding human beings in their psychological development by dealing with the important topic of shame, which many authors (perhaps out of shame?) have so far avoided exploring to this extent and in this detail.

It is very exciting how courageously, authentically and comprehensively Wilfried Ehrmann describes, works on, expands and analyses this topic to make it easily understandable. The readability and the many case examples in the book, not only trigger aha experiences when reading, but also lead to many insights that help us to "understand". Because by addressing experiences and traumas that we have all suffered in some form on this topic, healing becomes possible through recognition and understanding. That is what makes this book so valuable!

Even after my 38 years working as a psychotherapist, this book, surprisingly, has brought me many new insights and thrown light onto my own unconscious shadow parts. Therefore, I consider the therapeutic value of this book on shame to be particularly significant and I am happy to incorporate essential insights from it into my work with clients.

At a time when social anxieties are increasing and the autonomy of human beings seems to be endangered, this book has a special significance because it helps us to recognise the root causes of personal suffering (which even reach far into the prenatal phase of life) and thus to heal them.

The honest self-reflection of the author, who follows a humanistic worldview and who, with objectivity and great sensitivity, repeatedly points to the uniqueness of the human being, is very touching and underlines the intention of this book when he writes: "Where shame recedes, human dignity once again takes its rightful place".

I am grateful that this book has been written and would be happy if others also experienced the release of old feelings of shame when reading it. This book is hard to put down.

Dr Martin Gartner, Clinical and Health Psychologist, Psychotherapist

Foreword

For a long time, the feeling of shame has been given only incidental and secondary attention. It does not even appear in many lists of basic emotions (e.g., Gieler et al. 2010, p. 30). Both psychological research and therapeutic practice, with their diverse methods, have focused very much on the emotions of fear and aggression, and there are a large number of studies, specialist publications and popular books on both topics, while shame has long been confined to a "shameful" secondary role. In the great work of Sigmund Freud, there are only a few scattered remarks on this emotion, and for this reason, too, it led only a shadowy existence in the field of psychoanalysis for a long time.

Only in the last few decades has shame become more of a focus of interest both in research and in practical therapeutic work. Some researchers now describe shame as the main emotion of daily life and the predominant cause of emotional stress, with much stronger effects on mental imbalance than anger, sadness and fear.

The US-American shame and vulnerability researcher Brené Brown once said in an interview: "If I am asked at a party what I do and I want to continue talking to the person, I answer: I am a vulnerability researcher. After five minutes, people usually confide in me about their life story. If I don't feel like talking further, I say I am a shame researcher. That's how you get rid of someone very quickly."

Shame: a topic to run away from? That's understandable, because it's such an unpleasant feeling that no one wants to be reminded of at a party. So why would anyone voluntarily read a book about it? Even though shame is not a nice and pleasant feeling, it plays a very important role in our lives, with ourselves, in our relationships and in the society we live in. It shows itself in many facets of our lives and interferes with many experiences. It often remains in the background and is easily overlooked. It interferes in our everyday life, determines our actions and influences our mood, often without us noticing.

Therefore, it makes sense to get to know shame better and to understand it better. After all, it is our companion from a very early age, and it can do us no harm to become acquainted with it and possibly make friends with it. We can use our curiosity to uncover many of the secrets of shame while reading this book. However, it may still remain shrouded in the veil of mystery when we put the book aside.

Why write a book about this elusive subject, which is so hard to grasp and often acts from behind?

Writing this book has been a doubly interesting process for me. Writing is always exciting for me, no matter what the subject, with the excitement, the frustration, the breakthroughs and writer's blocks, with the feelings of creative growth and stagnation, and, finally, with the uplifting feeling of holding the finished work in my hands; however, there are also special challenges with the topic of shame. Shame is a feeling that wants to force us to withdraw from the public eye. Those who feel shame would prefer to hide. Writing a book is the exact opposite of this: it drags the author with all his strengths and weaknesses and his subject with all its facets into the public spotlight.

In addition, the task of making public something that is itself reticent, continuously brings one into contact with feelings of shame: Who am I to write a book about it? There are much better writers who have tried their hand at this subject. What do readers think of someone who writes so much about shame? What is my part in the different aspects of shame? Will I succeed in presenting this wide topic comprehensively or will I fail? Will I write concretely and experientially enough and will I meet the demands of well-educated professional readers? Will I overlook errors in content or typography that will be blamed on me afterwards? Does the book have lengths or incomprehensible passages that will annoy the reader? Have I overlooked essential aspects of the subject? And so on.

Shame is an important part of our inner life that deserves much attention. But it should never be so powerful as to hinder us in our constructive and creative projects – that is one of the central messages of this book. For us to gain clarity and certainty in the mysterious land of shame, it takes a deep and consistent engagement with the subject. That was one of my motivations for writing about and against shame. And that is why I am convinced that this book deserves its publication and its readership.

Some of the details of the approximately 60 case studies in this book, which originate from my therapeutic work with clients, have been changed so that the people concerned cannot be identified. To all the people who have placed their trust in me as therapists and group leaders over the many years of my work, I offer my thanks and appreciation for all that they have taught me in the process of exploring together. I thank my own therapists and supervisors for what I was able to learn about myself with their support.

Shame is a serious subject, quite far from fun and light; however it can often be handled quickly and easily with humour. To lighten things up, I have therefore interspersed a few jokes in this book. We are very human in our shame, and part of that is that we can always take ourselves for a ride.

For the sake of fluid readability, I refrain from consistent gendering and keep changing the assignments. I owe a great deal to the great researchers of shame, especially Léon Wurmser, Stephan Marks, Mischa Hilgers and Jens Tiedemann, as well as to all the other authors who have made important contributions to the discussion of the broad topic. I have processed the broad field of shame with my own linguistic possibilities and shaped it with the experiences from my life as well as from therapeutic work. In the course of writing, I first became aware of how widely ramified shame is in our lives - on the individual as well as on the collective level. That is why there are some sections in this book that read more like introductions to a publication to come, because there is not enough space for an in-depth exploration. So, some of the subtopics are only touched upon (e.g., the role of shame in society, in communication, in adulthood) in order to at least open up insights into the respective areas. The individual sections in the developmental history of shame also deserved much more space and detail. At such points, the suggestion would be to independently think further and to use other sources.

A special focus of this presentation of the topic of shame is on prenatal development – this is a new territory in shame research. For many years I have been dealing with the early phase of our individual lives with their many exciting aspects and I am always fascinated by the insights we can gain here. They point us towards the high vulnerability and the miracles and challenges from this time, which need to be understood in their effects on our lives.

My wish is for readers to gain more awareness about the influences of shame on their own feelings, on interpersonal processes and on social contexts. May we succeed in contributing more and more to a shame-free world. Where shame recedes, human dignity takes its rightful place. People who live in awareness of their dignity are the best guarantors for an open and adaptive society.

Recognising and understanding our emotional responses allows us to find ways out of protective states and into the energy of growth and creativity. This book is about understanding more about shame in order to develop constructive ways of dealing with it so that it helps us in life instead of blocking us.

Quotations from German texts in this book are translated by the author.

Basic Anthropological and Psychological Assumptions

I would like to begin this book by outlining my conception of the human being, my anthropological and psychological presuppositions, so that it is clear from which background the following explorations are formed. Not every reader has to accept these views, but the ideas and insights presented can also be interesting and helpful if someone prefers a different model of the human being.

I see the human being as a body-soul unity, not as an amalgamation of two fundamentally separate entities. The physical side is spiritual, the spiritual side is physical. Moods that we experience are at the same time hormonal processes in our body, which in turn can be influenced and changed by mental processes. There is no mind without a body and no body without a mind.

Every human being is unique. Nature is not able to produce identical forms and shapes: No raindrop and no snowflake, no bird chirping and no blade of grass is the same as another; so why should one human being be identical to another? In addition, we are not fixed and defined beings, but beings that are constantly changing, learning, growing and adapting. This is also what we need most - recognition for this uniqueness.

We are densely written sheets of paper with empty spaces, we are fragile because many things can easily throw us off balance, and we have infinite creativity and plasticity so that we can cope with so many predicaments that we get into. Fragility and strength, vulnerability and healing capacity are the poles between which human existence moves.

Human beings are social beings, always part of social units, in constant interaction with other human beings, individuals, groups and larger communities. Therefore, the social dimension is interwoven into every bodily-mental unit, which cannot be understood without it. Social also means political, economic and ecological - we are involved in the fate of those close to us and also those we do not know at all, the nearest and the furthest away. We are part of decision-making processes that determine the directions in which our society and humanity as a whole are going. We help determine whether or not humanity and the diversity of nature will continue to exist in the foreseeable future, and we are affected in this and many other questions by the corresponding decisions of all other people.

We are projects in the making, never finished and never final, just like the world around us, to which we constantly have to adapt anew and which we in turn change through our adaptation processes. Our inner development has a logic, it is therefore supported by a meaning that we learn to understand more and more in the course of this development. This refers to the spiritual dimension, which I consider to be a basic part of being human. Spirituality, in my understanding, is not a detached or elitist level of experience, a particular form of religion or an illusion of self-exaltation, but rather manifests itself in finding oneself wholly. The spiritual vocation is to become the human being we are as fully as possible. It means to realise humanity in oneself to the highest possible degree and to support this task in our fellow human beings.

These basic assumptions do not claim the rank of absolute truths; rather they are models that have proven to be practicable and meaningful for myself and for my therapeutic work with people. They largely coincide with our everyday experiences and our naïve, i.e., not theoretically thoroughly reflected self-understanding. In our behaviour, we almost always act as if these basic assumptions formulated above were valid. Only when we talk about them, i.e., on a meta-level, can we question and cast doubt on them. But the ramified issues that arise from such meta-reflections are not the subject of this book.

Feelings

We humans are sentient beings. Everything we experience externally and from outside, all visual, acoustic and haptic stimuli are translated into inner experience and connected with a certain sense of self. We see a blue sky and feel different than when the sky is grey. We hear a song and feel sad, and another time pleasantly touched. We wake up in a bad mood, and neither the brightest weather nor the most beautiful poem can change our minds. Our inner world is just as rich as our outer world, and both dance with each other at every moment, sometimes one leads, sometimes the other.

Feelings are mediators of information. They give us information about our inner state, always in relation to the current external influences. We only need to turn our attention inwards (away from the things that interest us at the moment), and it becomes clear how we, i.e., how our organism is doing at the moment. Are we awake or tired? Are we balanced or tense? Are we attached to something from the past or the future that does not allow us to be fully here and clouds our mood?

When we have gained more experience with being attentive to our feelings, we manage to use this channel of information even better. We can ask ourselves what the feeling we are feeling at the moment wants to tell us, what its message is. In this way, we use our inner sense to come into harmony with ourselves when we have lost ourselves, to transform an imbalance that we notice back into harmony.

We can also go a step further and ask about the background and origins of our feelings. Our body has a memory that goes back a long way, even if it is not exact, and can also provide information about our beginnings. It is always worthwhile to use this source for self-knowledge. Why is this feeling occurring right now, what triggered it and where do I already know this from?

Attention to the breath is of particular importance every time we turn inwards. We can tell from our breathing whether we are relaxed or stressed, whether we are feeling well or suffering from something. Breath awareness brings us completely into the moment.

A Model for our Emotional Landscape

If we want to learn to navigate better in the realm of our feelings, a map is of great advantage. We know a large number of different feelings, some of them stronger and some weaker, lighter and darker, clearer and blurrier, more pleasant and more unpleasant. Our emotional experience is rich in facets and nuances. The more attention we pay to our inner experience, the more varieties of our emotional life we get to know and the more we can value an orientation guide.

I like to use the following model to classify feelings, which is compatible with the polyvagal theory presented in Chapter 3. I start from two different basic states of our inner constitution and of our nervous system. One is when we feel safe on the outside and connected to our resources on the inside. I call it the growth state because in such situations we can strengthen our reserves and at the same time be productive and creative.

The other state is when we feel threatened from the outside. It is called the protective state. We defend our survival, which is in danger (real or imagined), with the reflexes of fight-flight behaviour. To do this, we have to draw on our reserves and mobilise them in the most efficient way. Other functions, such as empathic communication, are put on hold.

The growth state is associated with feelings such as joy, pleasure, curiosity and interest, which are primarily pleasant feelings. The protection state activates feelings such as fear, pain, anger, shame and disgust, which we experience as unpleasant. These feelings are supposed to motivate us to change the situation that triggers them for the better as quickly as possible. So basically, we always want to move from a protective state to a growth state.

This model has the advantage over other classifications of feelings, which, for example, distinguish four or more basic feelings (fear, joy, sadness, anger, etc.), that it assigns the feelings functionally. It also makes the intuitive juxtaposition of "good" and "bad" feelings understandable. It is true that all feelings have their purpose, so there are no unnecessary feelings, because they help us to adapt better to different situations and to maintain our ability to act under changing circumstances. But we attach different values to these basic emotions: We want to increase the growth feelings and decrease the protection feelings. This is how most people see the path to a fulfilled life: I should be fine, i.e., the growth states should prevail.

The model can also clarify for us when we fall into a protective mode without appropriate cause. This process, with its many variations, is responsible for most of the disorders from which we suffer and with which we cause suffering to others, and we will encounter it again and again in this book.

Basic feelings are also sometimes distinguished from substitute feelings or superficial or mixed feelings. We can assume that we begin our lives with a simpler repertoire of feelings that becomes more and more differentiated as we grow up. In the course of the development of cognitive competences through the development of the cerebral regions, children acquire a more complex emotional life, which they need to be able to move well in the adult world. Secondary or mixed feelings thus always contain cognitive components and are more strongly connected to thinking. In this book, both the basic feelings and a number of secondary feelings are discussed in relation to shame.

Even as adults we notice that in stressful situations we are reduced from complex to simple basic emotions. This is because on such occasions the higher brain functions retreat and our ways of reacting become more primitive. This observation fits with the fact that stress is associated with survival. To safeguard ourselves in extreme situations, our evolutionary heritage leads us to forego differentiated thinking and let our actions be guided by feelings alone. Where there is real danger, this strategy can save our lives; but where we only imagine that there is danger, it can do a lot of damage. Our reactions overshoot the mark and interrupt social relations.

Returning from a state of protection to a state of growth is an important task for all of us. This book helps to identify the shame issues that prevent us from returning to a balanced sense of self and flexible social competence. It also shows ways in which we can always find our way from shame to dignity.

In the Vast Land of the Soul

Now the journey into the vast land of the soul begins with shame as our guide. It has been a faithful companion from our earliest beginnings, through all phases of our lives, and it will continue to be with us until the end. The journey requires some commitment and courage, because it also makes us aware of the dark sides of our soul. Every step into new spiritual territory is worthwhile because it makes us more open and gives us a broader view.

As we go on to learn about the various forms of shame, its defensive strategies, its cyclical nature, the webs it weaves, the poison it can instil and indications it gives us, we should always bear in mind one simple view. We are, as the Roman poet Terence put it, human beings and therefore nothing human is alien to us. Most likely, we know all the shapes of shame, just as we have within us all the feelings discussed before. Even though some of the shadowy areas described in this book may seem repulsive and condemnable to us at first glance, we should honestly consider whether we do not also carry traces of these attitudes within us. It could be a sense of shame that prevents us from admitting our own inclinations and tendencies in these directions.

So, before we point the finger at others with the indignant gesture: "But you really can't be like that!", we should rather remind ourselves again and again: Our fellow human beings are also only human, just like ourselves. The more we can lighten up and embrace our darker sides, the more we are open to ourselves and the people around us.

1. Shame – The Mysterious Feeling

Introduction

Shame exists wherever there is a 'mystery'. (Friedrich Nietzsche)

Shame is a complex feeling that runs through our soul like a fine web, with sensitive sensors that constantly scan our surroundings for possible occasions for insecurity and report any imbalance inwards. Most of the time it creeps unnoticed into our experience and it irritates and confuses us. For many it is a constant companion, for others barely perceptible or effectively repressed. Whenever it becomes active, we suffer from it and often do not know how to deal with it or how to free ourselves from it.

We will therefore look more closely at the various aspects of this enigmatic and ambiguous feeling in the following chapters. What we explore within ourselves will help us to find out when shame gets in our way as an obstacle in everyday life. Finally, we will also learn ways in which we can free ourselves from the clutches of excessive shame.

When we talk about basic emotions, we usually think of a handful of them: Joy, fear, anger, sadness, disgust. Shame does not usually appear on this list. In a comparative study on the importance of feelings, it came in a remote 32nd place among Californian respondents. For many, shame is the most uncomfortable feeling, precisely because it is shameful to feel shame. That is why it is so readily overlooked, denied, ignored and repressed. We know that anger fades, that sadness eventually subsides, that we can overcome fears and that disgust disappears with whatever triggers it. But we don't really know how to get rid of shame once it has a grip on us.

The experience of shame is unpleasant because we feel smaller, weaker and more vulnerable. Shame is associated with the fear of pain that might be inflicted on us. That is why in German the word "Peinlichkeit" (=embarrassment) contains “pain”, the torment, the anguish we suffer from shame.

And when shame becomes stronger and more powerful, it can really upset us and even shake us to the core. We experience that we want to sink into the ground with shame or lose the ground under our feet. Shame can confront us with an overpowering and destructive horror. We can freeze with shame, lapse into paralysis and become incapable of action. After all, massive and persistent shame has made many people sick and even driven them to suicide.

Examples:

A child hears from his mum: "You cannot sing". The child is ashamed and decides never to sing again. Even when, much later, the adult is complimented on her beautiful voice, she shies away from singing in front of others. Her mother's shameful words still prevent her from developing her creative talent.

In an training group, the question was asked who was able to work on the most topics with a previously explained method. A man came forward who obviously had achieved the record. Only later did it turn out that a woman was even better, but a sense of shame had forbidden her to outdo men. She had inherited this from her parents and the culture she grew up in, and this imprint got in the way when it came to standing by her own achievement.

Georg has parents who both lead quite average lives. Neither of them has studied, the mother works as a housewife and the father in a simple white-collar position. Georg wonders why he could not go public with his talents to gain recognition and success. It turns out that shame blocks him from achieving more than his parents.

Lukas is a communicative and outgoing person. But when he goes hiking with old friends, he feels uncomfortable and talks little. He feels inferior to the others because he has a job with a small income and little prestige, while his friends have better paid and more prestigious jobs. He considers not going on the hikes with his friends anymore but fears that he would suffer and feel even more ashamed of his cowardice.

Sabina is an opera singer with a wonderful voice and musical talent .She tries to get an engagement at various opera houses. She travels there and gets a few minutes to audition. Time and time again, she finds herself on stage giving her best while the listeners sit downstairs, chatting, going in and out, and working on their phones. She knows her career depends on these people, and she realises how little she and her efforts mean to them. She feels underestimated, frustrated and ashamed.

Katharina is a diligent pupil and enjoys going to school. Only the first day of school is difficult for her every year: her classmates tell her about their holiday experiences and she has to keep quiet because her mother cannot afford a holiday.

Franz is intelligent and comprehensively educated. He knows many things that others do not. And yet he hardly talks in society, is considered shy and is often underestimated. He has the impression that no one finds him interesting. As a child, he often heard that he shouldn't ask such stupid questions and that he should keep his mouth shut when the adults were talking. To this day, he is therefore afraid of appearing stupid if he shares his opinion. He started stuttering when he talked to others, because he was afraid of being misunderstood or considered stupid. He was all the more embarrassed by stuttering, and the fear of it made him even more silent. It is the limitation of our cognitive and emotional capacity by shame that leads to such inhibitions.

This is one of the typical vicious circles of shame that we will encounter again and again: The feeling hinders meaningful and necessary actions, and the omission of these actions leads to self-reproach and in turn reinforces the shame. It limits our abilities, and the limitation is another cause for shame. This is why many people experience shame like a prison from which there is no escape, where any attempt to break out only makes the imprisonment worse.

Shame and its Emotional Perimeter

In the environment of shame, we find a number of related and similar feelings, emotional terms and inner states: embarrassment, shyness, mortification, inferiority, exposure and humiliation.

Embarrassment is considered a precursor to shame. It is the expression of inner insecurity in a social situation. We do not know whether the way we act or speak will be well received by another person and find ourselves in a waiting position. Only when we see that the other person reacts neutrally or positively can we relax. Embarrassment often occurs with people who are higher up in the hierarchy. People to whom we attribute more power, influence and education than ourselves can also trigger feelings of embarrassment. Of course, every embarrassment also has a biographical root in which insecurity has taken place that is revived in the current situation.

We all know the pain of embarrassment: minor or major blunders (overlooking, forgetting, slips of the tongue, whoops…) that come to our attention with a strong unpleasant feeling as soon as someone notices them – from an open trouser zip in the street to a slip-up at the opening waltz of the opera ball. We arrive at a party and are too early or too late, overdressed or underdressed, the guest gift is too expensive or too cheap, we talk too much, too little or something unwelcome – the possibilities for embarrassment are endless. Any mistake, any falling out of character can be the occasion, depending on the expectations of our social environment at the time.

The embarrassments we experience show us how much we attach our identity to role models for which we need confirmation and recognition from those around us. If we do not conform to this image of a proper, righteous, kind and thoughtful person, we fear losing the recognition, and the feeling of embarrassment reminds us to correct our behaviour so that we properly return to conformity.

The boundary between embarrassment and shame is fluid and permeable. Embarrassment can escalate into shame, depending on the reaction of those around us. If someone generously or humorously overlooks our blunder, we quickly forget what happened. If, on the other hand, someone makes fun of us or criticises us unkindly in this matter, then the shame comes forward with the question of whether our belonging to the social environment is now at stake. As soon as embarrassment, in combination with self-doubt, penetrates to the core of our identity, it becomes shame.

A Valuable Social Feeling

Shame is, by its very nature, a social emotion. (Serge Tisseron)

As unpleasant the experience of being ashamed is, this feeling is necessary and important. Shame occurs when there are disturbances in relationships and it signals a violation in the fabric of the social network. The inner reaction is to be thrown back on oneself. Therefore, in shame we feel alone, abandoned and lost. This experience can go so far that we feel as if our raison d'être has been lost and we no longer know where to find it. We wish to sink into the ground and hope that what has just happened would disappear. In such moments, we experience an extremely threatening state and are completely reduced to ourselves and our fundamental insecurity.

Since we find it so difficult to deal with shame, we would prefer not to acknowledge it at all and banish it somewhere in the farthest corner of our soul. However, we then also lose the constructive and beneficial aspects of this feeling, because the feeling shows us that we have moved out of a social structure with its rules, that the violation of a norm has happened and that action is needed to repair this damage.

Shame is a paradoxical feeling. Despite the impression of being cut off from others, abandoned and isolated when we feel ashamed, shame is a feeling that arises precisely from our connectedness with others. Autistic persons hardly feel shame as they also hardly feel connected to other people. Although we have the impression of losing self-reference in shame, it helps us to maintain our dignity: our own and that of our fellow human beings. It ensures that the rules necessary for keeping our dignity are observed.

With our own shame boundaries, we mark the limits of our integrity, and the sense of shame alerts us to the fact that these boundaries have not been respected – by ourselves or by others: We have stretched our boundaries too far or someone else has narrowed them too much.

Shame keeps us disciplined, restrained and in control of our libidinal impulses and affects, and attuned and considerate of the expectations and needs of our fellow human beings. It reliably alerts us when any antisocial or selfish impulse arises. It moderates our aggressions and restricts our greed and avarice.

Shame acts as a guardian for social coexistence. In order to maintain it, each member must practise consideration and coordination, which also includes making sacrifices to one's own interests and aspirations. Moderate shame is careful to ensure that all members of a community are equally respected. It maintains the fragile boundaries between people and ensures their protection. It is thus also the guardian of the integrity and dignity of individuals.

Shame acts like a built-in corrective that becomes active when we overstep the boundaries of others or when someone else offends us. It speaks up when rules are disregarded or overlooked, e.g., when we bring up a subject in a group of people that is taboo in that group without our knowing about it. "Suddenly there is an awkward silence", and by the feeling of shame that rises, we realise that we have broken a rule. The others realise from our feeling of shame that we have understood what has happened and that we now accept the rule, and the conversation can continue. In this way, our shame sends a signal to the others: we have taken note of the group's standards and want to follow them. In doing so, we show that we fit in and conform to the group. The fears in the group disappear, trust grows.

If we lacked a sense of shame, we would feel nothing when we hurt or abuse others. We would unscrupulously go beyond other people's boundaries and take what we want without batting an eyelid. It is clear that a human community would quickly disintegrate if most of its members behaved in this way. Shame, then, acts as a kind of lubricant in social mechanics, balancing the various leverage that comes from individual aspirations. It steps in where an individual space expands too far at the expense of others, but also where a space shrinks too much for the benefit of others.

Whenever our gaze meets a shameful gaze, we ourselves feel ashamed, as if we had revealed something forbidden. This can already be observed in the countless eye contacts that happen every day in public: We look up when someone enters a compartment on the train and immediately lower our gaze again so as not to signal that we have any further inappropriate interest in the person. Curiosity may only be very brief and must then immediately wander elsewhere so as not to encounter the shame of the person being observed. For when we ourselves enter the compartment as newcomers, we are embarrassed for a moment by the glances that meet us. In these fleeting and harmless contacts, a mini-drama of shame and shame avoidance plays itself out.

In the course of our growing up, shame has helped us to limit our naturally grown egoism, what in psychology is called infantile narcissism, by making us aware that others are also there and have needs: There is one's self and there are others who also have a self.

Therefore, shame, when experienced in the right dosage, promotes both the development of our individuality and social respect for those around us. Shame thus provides a balance between our fundamental need for self-development and our equally important need for belonging and social bonding. In the experience of shame, we learn to see ourselves through the eyes of others and realise that not only are we ourselves the centre of our world, but others are equally living in and experiencing from their world. We learn to respect boundaries and we learn to change them respectfully, with the help of the mild form of shame, which does not shake us to our foundations, i.e., traumatise us, but which quickly lets us return to the social field. If we fall out of the field for a short time, our teammates can notice our shame and immediately reaffirm our belonging.

It is an interplay between shame experience and shame resolution that is essential for our social learning and social functioning. Successful communication with shame is based on skills acquired with interactive affect regulation in early childhood. This model is described below in chapter 11. Shame-guided emotion regulation takes place in a space of empathy and compassion where adults set meaningful boundaries for the child, when necessary, notice their shame and undo it through understanding and caring. In this way, the child can lay the foundation for a good inner balance between overconfidence and self-doubt - the breeding ground for a healthy self-confidence that will carry them through the rest of their lives. At the same time, the ability for self-reflection and self-criticism to the point of self-irony and self-empathy develops on this basis. A well-tolerated and moderate experience of shame forms the prerequisite for these forms of self-distancing, which contribute a lot to a balanced and serene adult life.

Shame and vulnerability

Shame makes us aware of how dependent we are on others. We need other people to affirm our self-esteem and our sense of belonging. Especially when we are young, we cannot force this recognition, so the only thing we can do is hope for the goodwill of others. We take this attitude with us into adulthood, where we are also constantly looking for recognition. We get such acknowledgements especially when we share our neediness and vulnerability by showing our shame. "Shame makes us defenceless, it exposes our vulnerable selves" (Köhler 2017, p. 7). And by showing our shame, we signal that we are willing to subordinate ourselves to what is necessary for getting attention and put our own needs aside.

It is usually easier and more familiar for us to remain in an aggressive-defensive posture that is supposed to protect us from exposing our vulnerability. But then the tension remains, within us and with others. If the others react in the same way, we are stuck in a power struggle in which neither side wants to give up its cover because fears and unpleasant feelings of shame are hidden behind it.

Ultimately, all human striving for power is probably motivated by the compulsion to overcome the dependency associated with vulnerability. For this dependency is associated with strong fears, and that is why we try to create circumstances to prevent anyone from shaming us. For this purpose, we use our power, which becomes power-seeking and violence when we use it to control and dominate those around us. We want to protect our vulnerability, but inflict hurt on others by trying to pressure them with our power games. Sometimes this is done through the use of manipulation, sometimes through blackmail, sometimes through threats.

Fear of their own weakness is the reason why dictators act with particular thoroughness and brutality against all critics of their person. They want to destroy anyone who might embarrass them. That their own vulnerability would become visible is the worst thing that could happen to them, and to prevent that they ruthlessly use all their power.

After the failed assassination attempt on July 20, 1944 that confronted Hitler with his vulnerability, he reacted with particular cruelty by having the key persons of the conspiracy hanged from piano strings on meat hooks. Watching the victims of his brutality in their death throes, he apparently sought to restore his power and invulnerability with sadistic satisfaction.

The other side of this dynamic was shown in the arrest of the former Iraqi dictator Saddam, who was allegedly found in a hole in the ground and surrendered unresisting as a tired and haggard man. The once powerful and feared ruler decaying in the dirt – a striking and shameful picture of vulnerability and weakness, the flip side of power. The overthrown and ousted dictator is now at the mercy of his former victims; his life depends on their forbearance and ability to forgive.

The fear of one's own vulnerability, which is linked to shame, is the drive behind a strong survival programme. We can better understand many processes in the world if we realise the overwhelmingly impulsive power of this programme. It is probably behind every form of violence and every striving for power with which people place themselves above their fellow human beings and oppress them. Many people have learned to put on the mask of superiority and invulnerability in order to overcome in the struggle for survival that is generally equated with adult life.

This mask can take on the most diverse forms, according to the manifestation of the respective survival programme: from the brutal exercise of power to manipulatively used powerlessness and illness, the spectrum of human possibilities ranges, all of which have the purpose of preventing the inner weakness and dependence, the exposure of the vulnerable soul. We do our utmost to avoid and conceal this condition. No one is supposed to see that we have a miserable and helpless part in us, no one is supposed to see that we still experience the new-born baby in us, so completely dependent on the kindness and mercy of others in its pain and neediness. No one is supposed to recognise our existential powerlessness because we are then completely defenceless and dependent. We would rather faint, we would rather give in to destructive drives of violence, we would rather throw ourselves into senseless distractions and stupefactions. These are the masks we use to hide ourselves from our shame and also to make it invisible to others.

Shame and the Feeling of Inferiority

The feeling of shame has the power to put us in a state of inferior value in the sense of social belonging. In a sense, we lose the rank and status of a fixed and respected place in our reference group. It is in question whether we are still accepted as we are; feeling signals this threatening information to us. Compared to others who have nothing to be ashamed of, we are downgraded, given a yellow card with the threat of expulsion. If we do not succeed in quickly dissolving the shame and regaining our safe place, and if it is evoked again and again, no stable self-esteem can be built up. We become people who constantly have to justify and apologise because it seems that our raison d'être is always in question.

Typically, the belief: "I am not good enough" emerges with shame. Behind the protective mask of shame, a despondent gaze peers outwards in search of recognition and resolution from the spell of shame. And the view is often clouded by the belief that there will never be real and unconditional appreciation.

Conversely, we can conclude that behind every feeling of inferiority is a feeling of shame. Because our being and essence was not valued to the extent that we needed it, we only come up with the idea that we are less worth than others in the first place. We begin to doubt ourselves – a strange idea that probably only humans in the whole universe could come up with.

Parents who always find fault with their children, who put their main focus on what is not good enough about them and what needs to be improved lay the foundation for a lack of self-confidence based on shame: The way I am, I am not okay. If I don't improve, I don't belong. I am worth less than those who are not criticised. I have to constantly strive and try so that I can feel safe. I am not good enough for the demands, expectations and requirements of my environment – not good enough in the sense of performance and/or in the sense of morality. My competencies are not sufficient to lead a safe life. I have to be constantly on guard not to do anything wrong and to do enough of the good.

These are beliefs and inner attitudes that children can develop at a very early age if they are repeatedly shamed for their inadequate actions. They thus fall out of their self-evident being, which lets them play and explore the world and which forms the basis of free development. Instead, a large part of their learning is directed towards seeking out the standards and yardsticks of adults in order to be able to conform to them. They want to know what their value is determined by and have no means of questioning these standards. Because as long as they are small, it is the big ones who decide about being worthy or unworthy, about right and wrong, about belonging or exclusion.

2. Shame and Society

Shame is not just a private feeling. It plays a central role in the regulation of human coexistence in smaller and larger groups, up to and including the whole of humanity (Neckel 1991). It is involved in every form of exercising power and in maintaining, but also contesting combating hierarchical structures and social inequality. It is in the background of many political processes and ideologies and can be recognised as an emotional note and driving force in virtually all issues that occupy society.

Exclusion and Shame

To ostracise someone from a group is to shame the person. It is attaching a stigma to them that they cannot get rid of, like a mark of shame (e.g., a slashed ear) inflicted on a criminal or heretic in the Middle Ages so that they would never be able to return to the town or country they were expelled from. Such visible cruelties are no longer used in most states today, but the invisible stigmatisation takes place continuously as soon as shaming is used as a means of enforcing rules. Once a person has had the label put on them, they can do whatever they want; everything is interpreted as confirmation of their deficiency. This form of violence is more commonplace than we might think. But the evidence on bullying gathered over the last decades proves the widespread nature of this phenomenon. According to a PISA study, every sixth German pupil has experienced bullying, and twice as many are afraid of being bullied.

The destructive power of bullying is to threaten disliked or unsympathetic people with exclusion from a group. Strategies of shaming are usually used for this purpose: ridiculing, exposing, whispering to others while the person is present, talking badly about them in their absence, etc. We now know that people can be driven into illness, depression, madness and suicide using such methods. An Australian study found that adults who had been bullied as children or adolescents were three times more likely to commit suicide than those without such experiences.

Often, due to unconscious dynamics, people who carry a high level of shame and suffer from feelings of inferiority become victims of bullying. As if they broadcast their belief that they are worth less, they are treated accordingly by their peers. Since everyone carries shame within them and has had to suffer shameful experiences, everyone unconsciously also operates strategies of defence against and repression of shame. One of these strategies consists of shaming others whom one considers to be weaker and declaring them to be inferior. Then one can ensure that they are marginalised or excluded, hoping that one's own inferiority would be dispelled or alleviated in this way.

This is one of the reasons why people repeatedly exclude other people or groups of people or drive them to the brink of despair by means of bullying. Only people who do not have their own shame and self-doubt under control and in their consciousness, but seek to fight and banish it vicariously in others, are capable of such actions. We are dealing here with a sad and gruesome mechanism that has unleashed much violence in the course of history up to the present day and has a frighteningly large number of human lives on its conscience. It can only be tamed and rendered harmless through awareness and reflection.

A little everyday story:

I board an almost empty regional train on a cold February morning. First, I see a young man sleeping huddled on a bench seat, smelling a bit strongly, then three more using the heated train for their sleep. My first reaction is: these people bother me, they are disgusting, they don't belong here, they are just foreigners. I feel ashamed of them and their condition. Then I realise that I have adopted a general attitude of my cultural environment and I am ashamed of it. After all, I should know better. Then compassion comes up for these people and their fate that forces them to sleep in such undignified, shameful circumstances. I can be grateful to have my own living space where I can sleep in peace. And I am ashamed of a society that, despite its wealth and prosperity, cannot bring itself to stop such humiliation. I am ashamed of a humanity to which I belong, which cannot adequately absorb such fates, but constantly produces new ones.

A short episode in which shame is interwoven in many ways, and which shows that shame is never just a private matter, but always has a connection to society, as soon as we become aware of it. It also shows at the same time that it is shame that prevents us from becoming aware of the dimensions of our shame. For it is unpleasant to feel one's own responsibility and at the same time the helplessness and excessive demands that are inevitably connected with our involvement in this society. The tension between the moral claim and the real possibilities that shape our life situation is inevitably saturated with shame.

Shame is fundamentally a social feeling and makes us aware of our integration into the social environment in many ways. What is shameful not only has to do with our basic constitution as human beings, but is also specifically shaped by external circumstances, the social norms and standards that largely flow into us unconsciously. From an early age, these influences have an effect on public life, in that the little human beings take up the shame reactions of their parents and translate them into their own inner being. In this way, a world is created in the child's soul with the rules of the larger society, which they otherwise still have little idea or clear awareness of.

Shame is an important tool in socialisation, that is, in the effort to prepare and attune children to society and its expectations. What is judged as acceptable and as unacceptable behaviour, the child learns through the channel of shame, as what to be ashamed of or not, and this intuitive knowledge is very much an entry ticket to society.

In the study of shame, therefore, both sides must always be taken into account: an individual one and a collective one. The first influence of society on the psyche of a child, transmitted by the parents, is through the reaction of shame. The child learns what is good and what is bad by observing the facial expression or the words of the adults. Shame is the means by which society's prevailing values and expectations are transmitted to the child, in which they are supposed to be imprinted.

In every society, norms are linked to shame as a threat of punishment that translates the set of rules from the outside to the inside. The concept of shame expresses this entanglement. In shame, every human being experiences the grip and influence of the social environment on their inner self as a pressure that no one can escape. So, every experience of shame has a social background and context. "Shame stands at the interface between the individual and society, it is the negotiator between the ego and the norm." (Köhler 2017, p. 16) However, what people should be ashamed of is strongly dependent on the respective culture and family.