THE FIRST DAY
On
an evening before Easter Day, I sat at a table, and having in my
humble prayer sufficiently conversed
with my Creator, and considered many great mysteries and being now
ready to prepare in my heart, together with my dear Paschal Lamb, a
small, unleavened, undefiled cake; all of a sudden arose so
horrible
a tempest, that I imagined no other but that through its mighty
force, the hill on which my little house was founded would fly into
pieces.But
inasmuch as this, and the like from the Devil (who had done me many
a
spite) was no new thing to me, I took courage, and persisted in my
meditation, till somebody in an unusual manner touched me on the
back; whereupon I was so hugely terrified, that I dared hardly look
about me; yet I showed myself as cheerful as (in such occurrences)
human frailty would permit. Now the same thing still twitching me
several times by the coat, I looked back, and behold it was a fair
and glorious lady, whose garments were all sky-coloured, and
curiously (like Heaven) bespangled with golden stars; in her right
hand she bore a trumpet of beaten gold, on which a Name was
engraved
which I could well read but am as yet forbidden to reveal it. In
her
left hand she had a great bundle of letters of all languages, which
she (as I afterwards understood) was to carry to all countries. She
also had large and beautiful wings, full of eyes throughout, with
which she could mount aloft, and fly swifter than any eagle.I
might perhaps have been able to take further notice of her, but
because she stayed so little time with me, and terror and amazement
still possessed me, I had to be content. For as soon as I turned
about, she turned her letters over and over, and at length drew out
a
small one, which with great reverence she laid down upon the table,
and without giving one word, departed from me. But in her mounting
upward, she gave so mighty a blast on her gallant trumpet, that the
whole hill echoed from it, and for a full quarter of an hour after,
I
could hardly hear my own words.In
so unlooked for an adventure I was at a loss, how either to advise
or
to assist my poor self, and therefore fell upon my knees and
besought
my Creator to permit nothing contrary to my eternal happiness to
befall me. Whereupon with fear and trembling, I went to the letter,
which was now so heavy, that had it been mere gold it could hardly
have been so weighty. Now as I was diligently viewing it, I found a
little seal, on which a curious cross with this inscription, IN HOC
SIGNO VINCES, was engraved.Now
as soon as I espied this sign I was the more comforted, as not
being
ignorant that such a seal was little acceptable, and much less
useful, to the Devil. Whereupon I tenderly opened the letter, and
within it, in an azure field, in golden letters, found the
following
verses written.This
day, todayIs
the Royal Wedding day.For
this thou wast bornAnd
chosen of God for joyThou
mayest go to the mountainWhereon
three temples stand,And
see there this affair.Keep
watchInspect
thyselfAnd
shouldst thou not bathe thoroughlyThe
Wedding may work thy bane.Bane
comes to him who faileth hereLet
him beware who is too light.Below
was written: Sponsus and Sponsa.As
soon as I had read this letter, I was presently like to have
fainted
away, all my hair stood on end, and a cold sweat tricked down my
whole body. For although I well perceived that this was the
appointed
wedding, of which seven years before I was acquainted in a bodily
vision, and which now for so long a time I had with great
earnestness
awaited, and which lastly, by the account and calculation of the
planets, I had most diligently observed, I found so to be, yet
could
I never foresee that it must happen under such grievous perilous
conditions. For whereas I before imagined, that to be a welcome and
acceptable guest, I needed only to be ready to appear at the
wedding,
I was now directed to Divine Providence, of which until this time I
was never certain.I
also found by myself, the more I examined my self, that in my head
there was nothing but gross misunderstanding, and blindness in
mysterious things, so that I was not able to comprehend even those
things which lay under my feet, and which I daily conversed with,
much less that I should be born to the searching out and
understanding of the secrets of Nature, since in my opinion Nature
might everywhere find a more virtuous disciple, to whom to entrust
her precious, though temporary and changeable, treasures.I
found also that my bodily behaviour, and outward good conversation,
and brotherly love towards my neighbour, was not duly purged and
cleansed. Moreover the tickling of the flesh manifested itself,
whose
affection was bent only to pomp and bravery, and worldly pride, and
not to the good of mankind: and I was always contriving how by this
art I might in a short time abundantly increase my profit and
advantage, rear up stately palaces, make myself an everlasting name
in the world, and other similar carnal designs. But the obscure
words
concerning the three temples particularly afflicted me, which I was
not able to make out by any after-speculation, and perhaps should
not
have done so yet, had they not been wonderfully revealed to
me.Thus
stuck between hope and fear, examining my self again and again, and
finding only my own frailty and impotence, not being in any way
able
to succour myself, and exceedingly amazed at the fore mentioned
threatening, at length I betook myself to my usual and most secure
course - after I had finished my earnest and most fervent prayer, I
laid myself down in my bed, so that perchance my good angel by the
Divine permission might appear, and (as it had sometimes formerly
happened) instruct me in this doubtful affair. Which to the praise
of
God, my own good, and my neighbours' faithful and hearty warning
and
amendment, did now likewise come about.For
I was yet scarcely fallen asleep, when I thought that I, together
with an innumerable multitude of men, lay fettered with great
chains
in a dark dungeon, in which, without the least glimpse of light, we
swarmed like bees one over another, and thus rendered each other's
affliction more grievous. But although neither I nor any of the
rest
could see one jot, yet I continually heard one heaving himself
above
the other, when his chains and fetters had become ever so slightly
lighter, though none of us had much reason to shove up above the
other, since we were all captive wretches.Now
when I with the rest had continued a good while in this affliction,
and each was still reproaching the other with his blindness and
captivity, at length we heard many trumpets sounding together and
kettle drums beating in such a masterly fashion, that it even
revived
us in our calamity and made us rejoice.During
this noise the cover of the dungeon was lifted up from above, and a
little light let down to us. Then first might truly have been
discerned the bustle we kept, for all went pell-mell, and he who
perchance had heaved himself up too much, was forced down again
under
the others' feet. In brief, each one strove to be uppermost.
Neither
did I myself linger, but with my weighty fetters slipped up from
under the rest, and then heaved myself upon a stone, which I laid
hold of; howbeit, I was caught at several times by others, from
whom
yet as well as I might, I still guarded myself with hands and feet.
For we imagined no other but that we should all be set at liberty,
which yet fell out quite otherwise.For
after the nobles who looked upon us from above through the hole had
recreated themselves a while with our struggling and lamenting, a
certain hoary-headed ancient man called to us to be quiet, and
having
scarcely obtained this, began (as I still remember) to speak on
thus:If
the poor human raceWere
not so arrogantIt
would have been given much goodFrom
my mother's heritage,But
because the human race will not take heedIt
lies in such straitsAnd
must be held in prison.And
yet my dearest motherWill
not regard their mischief,She
leaves her lovely giftsThat
many a man might come to the light,Though
this may chance but seldomThat
they be better prizedNor
reckoned as mere fable.Therefore
in honour of the feastWhich
we shall hold today,That
her grace may be multipliedA
good work will she do:The
rope will now be loweredWhoever
may hang on to itHe
shall be freed.He
had scarcely finished speaking when an ancient matron commanded her
servants to let down the cord seven times into the dungeon, and
draw
up whosoever could hang upon it. Good God! that I could
sufficiently
describe the hurry and disquiet that then arose amongst us; for
everyone strove to get to the cord, and yet only hindered each
other.
But after seven minutes a sign was given by a little bell,
whereupon
at the first pull the servants drew up four. At that time I could
not
get very near the cord, having (as is before mentioned) to my huge
misfortune, betaken myself to a stone at the wall of the dungeon;
and
thereby I was made unable to get to the cord which descended in the
middle.The
cord was let down the second time, but many, because their chains
were too heavy, and their hands too tender, could not keep their
hold
on the cord, but with themselves beat down many another who else
perhaps might have held fast enough; nay, many a one was forcibly
pulled off by another, who yet could not himself get at it, so
mutually envious were we even in this our great misery.But
they of all others most moved my compassion whose weight was so
heavy
that they tore their very hands from their bodies, and yet could
not
get up. Thus it came to pass that at those five times very few were
drawn up. For as soon as the sign was given, the servants were so
nimble at drawing the cord up, that the most part tumbled one upon
another, and the cord, this time especially, was drawn up very
empty.Whereupon
the greatest part, and even I myself, despaired of redemption, and
called upon God that he would have pity on us, and (if possible)
deliver us out of this obscurity; who then also heard some of us.
For
when the cord came down the sixth time, some of them hung
themselves
fast upon it; and whilst being drawn up, the cord swung from one
side
to the other, and (perhaps by the will of God) came to me, and I
suddenly caught it, uppermost above all the rest, and so at length
beyond hope came out. At which I rejoiced exceedingly, so that I
did
not perceive the wound which during the drawing up I had received
on
my head from a sharp stone, until I, with the rest who were
released
(as was always done before) had to help with the seventh and last
pull; at which time through straining, the blood ran down all over
my
clothes, which I nevertheless because of my joy did not take notice
of. Now when the last drawing up on which the most of all hung was
finished, the matron caused the cord to be laid aside, and asked
her
aged son to declare her resolution to the rest of the prisoners,
who
after he had thought a little spoke thus unto them.Ye
childer dearYe
who are here,It
is completedWhat
long hath been known,The
great favour which my motherHath
here shown you twainYe
should not disdain:A
joyful time shall soon be come.When
each shall be the other's equal,No
one be poor or rich,And
who was given great commandsMust
bring much with him now,And
who was much entrusted withStripped
to the skin will be,Wherefore
leave off your lamentationWhich
is but for a few days.As
soon as he had finished these words, the cover was again put to and
locked down, and the trumpets and kettle-drums began afresh, yet
the
noise of them could not be so loud but that the bitter lamentation
of
the prisoners which arose in the dungeon was heard above all, which
soon also caused my eyes to run over.Presently
afterwards the ancient matron, together with her son, sat down on
seats before prepared, and commanded the redeemed should be told.
Now
as soon as she had demanded everyone's name, which were also
written
down by a little page; having viewed us all, one after another, she
sighed, and spoke to her son, so that I could well hear her, "Ah,
how heartily I am grieved for the poor men in the dungeon! I would
to
God I could release them all."To
which her son replied, "It is, mother, thus ordained by God,
against whom we may not contend. If we were all of us lords, and
possessed all the goods upon Earth, and were seated at table, who
would there then be to bring up the service?"Whereupon
his mother held her peace, but soon after she said, "Well,
however, let these be freed from their fetters," which was
likewise presently done, and I was the last except a few; yet I
could
not refrain (though I still looked upon the rest) but bowed myself
before the ancient matron, and thanked God that through her, he had
graciously and fatherly vouchsafed to bring me out of such darkness
into the light. After me the rest did likewise, to the satisfaction
of the matron.Lastly,
to everyone was given a piece of gold for a remembrance, and to
spend
by the way, on the one side of which was stamped the rising sun,
and
on the other (as I remember) these three letters, D.L.S.; and
therewith everyone had license to depart, and was sent to his own
business with this annexed limitation, that we to the glory of God
should benefit our neighbours, and reserve in silence what we had
been entrusted with; which we also promised to do, and so departed
one from another. But because of the wounds which the fetters had
caused me, I could not well go forward, but halted on both feet,
which the matron presently espying, laughing at it, and calling me
again to her said thus to me: "My son, do not let this defect
afflict you, but call to mind your infirmities, and therewith thank
God who has permitted you even in this world, and in your state of
imperfection, to come into so high a light; and keep these wounds
for
my sake."Whereupon
the trumpets began to sound again, which gave me such a shock that
I
woke up, and then first perceived that it was only a dream, but it
so
strongly impressed my imagination that I was still perpetually
troubled about it, and I thought I still felt the wounds on my
feet.
Howbeit, by all these things I understood well that God had
vouchsafed that I should be present at this mysterious and bidden
wedding. Wherefore with childlike confidence I returned thanks to
his
Divine Majesty, and besought him that he would further preserve me
in
fear of him, that he would daily fill my heart with wisdom and
understanding, and at length graciously (without deserting me)
conduct me to the desired end.Hereupon
I prepared myself for the way, put on my white linen coat, girded
my
loins, with a blood-red ribbon bound cross-ways over my shoulder.
In
my hat I stuck four red roses, so that I might sooner be noticed
amongst the throng by this token. For food I took bread, salt and
water, which by the counsel of an understanding person I had at
certain times used, not without profit, in similar
occurrences.But
before I left my cottage, I first, in this my dress and wedding
garment, fell down upon my knees, and besought God that in case
such
a thing were, he would vouchsafe me a good issue. And thereupon in
the presence of God I made a vow that if anything through his grace
should be revealed to me, I would employ it to neither my own
honour
nor my own authority in the world, but to the spreading of his
Name,
and the service of my neighbour. And with this vow, and good hope,
I
departed out of my cell with joy.
THE SECOND DAY
I
had hardly got out of my cell into a forest when I thought the
whole
heaven and all the elements had already trimmed themselves in
preparation for this wedding. For even the birds chanted more
pleasantly than before, and the young fawns skipped so merrily that
they made my heart rejoice, and moved me to sing; wherefore with a
loud voice I thus began:Rejoice
dear birdAnd
praise thy Maker,Raise
bright and clear thy voice,Thy
God is most exalted,Thy
food he hath prepared for theeTo
give thee in due season.So
be content therewith,Wherefore
shalt thou not be glad,Wilt
thou arraign thy GodThat
he hath made thee bird?Wilt
trouble thy wee headThat
he made thee not a man?Be
still, he hath it well bethoughtAnd
be content therewith.What
do I then, a worm of earthTo
judge along with God?That
I in this heaven's stormDo
wrestle with all art.Thou
canst not fight with God.And
whoso is not fit for this, let him be sped awayO
Man, be satisfiedThat
he hath made thee not the KingAnd
take it not amiss,Perchance
hadst thou despised his name,That
were a sorry matter:For
God hath clearer eyes that thatHe
looks into thy heart,Thou
canst not God deceive.This
I sang now from the bottom of my heart throughout the whole forest,
so that it resounded from all parts, and the hills repeated my last
words, until at length I saw a curious green heath, to which I
betook
myself out of the forest.Upon
this heath stood three lovely tall cedars, which by reason of their
breadth afforded excellent and desired shade, at which I greatly
rejoiced. For although I had not hitherto gone far, yet my earnest
longing made me very faint, whereupon I hastened to the trees to
rest
a little under them. But as soon as I came somewhat closer, I saw a
tablet fastened to one of them, on which (as afterwards I read) in
curious letters the following words were written:"God
save you, stranger! If you have heard anything concerning the
nuptials of the King, consider these words. By us the Bridegroom
offers you a choice between four ways, all of which, if you do not
sink down in the way, can bring you to his royal court. The first
is
short but dangerous, and one which will lead you into rocky places,
through which it will scarcely be possible to pass. The second is
longer, and takes you circuitously; it is plain and easy, if by the
help of the Magnet you turn neither to left nor right. The third is
that truly royal way which through various pleasures and pageants
of
our King, affords you a joyful journey; but this so far has
scarcely
been allotted to one in a thousand. By the fourth no man shall
reach
the place, because it is a consuming way, practicable only for
incorruptible bodies. Choose now which one you will of the three,
and
persevere constantly therein, for know whichever you will enter,
that
is the one destined for you by immutable Fate, nor can you go back
in
it save at great peril to life. These are the things which we would
have you know. But, ho, beware! you know not with how much danger
you
commit yourself to this way, for if you know yourself to be
obnoxious
by the smallest fault to the laws of our King, I beseech you, while
it is still possible, to return swiftly to your house by the way
you
came."