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Orietta Rovellini

• Herausgeber: Youcanprint
• Kategorie: Gesellschafts- und Liebesromane
• Sprache: Englisch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2023

Beschreibung

The first time Lady Elizabeth Ashdown De la Pole stands in front of her husband's splendid castle, surrounded by hills and the sea in southern England, she is breathless... It seems the perfect opportunity for a new life. But the one lived as a recluse in her father's castle comes overbearingly back to reveal itself with deep grievance and family revenges.

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Orietta Rovellini

Silvia S.G. Colombo

IN

ABSENTIA

To Whisky, Paco e Mirta with love

FOREWORD

The first time Lady Elizabeth Ashdown De la Pole stands in front of her husband's splendid castle, surrounded by hills and the sea in southern England, she is breathless...

It seems the perfect opportunity for a new life.

There is a secret in everyone's heart

and if it upsets us we don't tell anyone

It is that part that loves those similar to us

the shameful part that clips our wings

Love in silence binds a heart to the heart

it is useless to be here discussing for hours

We are what we have been through,

there, in our abandoned castle.

We are the secret story told in the evening

we are sacrificed like an old hag

We are, we will be and above all we were

the true soul from which I do not flee ...

and this is my story.

PROLOGUE

Wessex, England, 1358

And here I am at the end of my journey.

My life companions will continue, I will stop here, in my house.

My room is flooded with the warm spring sun that caresses my face, the air is crisp.

Near the wall, the chest of drawers that contains everything I own, thanks to my husband.

A beautiful candlestick sits on the table, my favorite red velvet armchair in front of the fireplace in which a faint fire crackles.

From my bed I can see the top of a magnificent cherry tree in bloom and hear the birds chirping, the hammering of the blacksmith in his forge and then voices ... voices ... voices.

In the morning the noises from the streets seem more alive to me, so I gave the order to leave the windows open.

Feeling life flowing gives me peace.

Today is market day, I can smell the animals and hear the cries of the street vendors.

What would I pay to once again climb that very steep flight of stairs leading to the terrace and enjoy the view of the courtyard with its stalls, leaning out the balustrade with the large stone battlements covered with ivy.

And from there admire the sea with its iron reflections, the seagulls and the leaden sky.

“Onions, carrots, buy guys, buy! Top quality goods "the greengrocer in the corner is yelling.

The cook will surely go straight.

"He's the usual moron" I hear her muttering to herself "but who thinks he's fooling?"

"A nice basket of celery, beautiful young lady?" yells the merchant

" I am as old as Methuselah, old goat, and your vegetables last less than my husband!" answers the cook.

How I will miss her witty jokes ... she always reminded me of my father's castle cook.

Two kindred souls: long tongues and quick hands.

"For you and your forked tongue only the best ..." I imagine the greengrocer's lips curving into an ironic smile.

"Shut up and try to fool someone else. Try to sell your onions instead of eating them .. !! You have such a breath that could be used in war instead of arrows and above all, you definitely don't have what I need” the cook mumbles sarcastically.

"Mumm ... now that’s more like it ..." the vendor laughs, accustomed to her brusque ways.

"Take that toothless smile off your lips ... oh Lord. I should be blind, dumb and deaf ... but don't waste my time .. I'm going in a hurry to look for something for Lady Elizabeth, something special that will make her appetite come back".

Dear sweet Mrs. Margareth, always worrying about me, she does not resign herself to the idea that my appetite will never return.

“But you are wrong sweet damsel because for Lady Elizabeth I have a nice basket of berries picked up this morning. See for yourself, do you see how fresh they are? " the man quickly reassures her.

"Yes, they look beautiful, but I warn you that if I find just one as soft as your gullet, I will get my husband to return them back to you and …"

“Poor Mr. Alfred, how I do pity him…! If he comes back, I will pay him a drink…” the merchant interrupts her.

"Do not dare to let him cross the threshold of the tavern, because as I live and breathe..."

"Calm down ... calm down ... you will see that this time you will be satisfied. I deserve a kiss my dear ..." the vendor resumes the conversation by winking.

“Oh, cut that nonsense and give me the stuff I have to run home,” she mumbles.

I can already see her crossing the street and running into the kitchen to prepare my bowl of fruit.

She will sift it through, like a surgeon with a piece of meat.

Then she will prepare the green tray that I like so much, with a nice, embroidered doily and she will bring it to my room, praying all the saints she knows, that I will finally be able to swallow something.

I will try to please her this time, because it could be the last.

I have always loved this house and all its inhabitants, well, almost all of them, since the first time, many years ago.

For a moment a bitter smile surfaces on my lips, how much time has passed .

I close my eyes and my whole life comes to mind, I see my home again .

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I can hear my wife screaming

God, make fate change

Not for my mother, for her or for whatever ...

but give me a male, a strong majestic creature

Instead, damn what a terrible misfortune

not being able to continue with our race

Female, ugly, short and banal

I have to marry her by force

You bastard stars you betrayed me

I would have preferred to hear a whinny

Northumbria, England, 1320

My father Sir Samuel Ashdown believed in the stars.

He was convinced that he would have a dozen sons but the stars betrayed him and so he had to settle for me.

He was an ambitious man, devoid of cheerfulness, faded by the years and disillusioned with the life, who loved his lands and his horses more than his only daughter.

What a misfortune the night I was born, they told me one day.

It was the middle of winter; it was snowing heavily and the castle was preparing for the night when my mother started screaming.

They sent for her nanny, who came running.

She was the woman who had seen her grow up, get married and was now helping her become a mother.

“Brr what a wolf night… t's freezing cold out there. What happened?" asked Mrs. Johanna anxiously

“The lady is upstairs. We heard her scream “ the maid whispered trembling

"How often does she scream" asked the Nanny

"Often !!" the girl answered dismayed.

"It's a little early, it's too early!!! Good Heavens, help us!" pleaded Mrs. Johanna.

Among the servants, the older women flocked to help out with encouragement, prayers, and wise experience.

"Soon! Heat the water and bring clean cloths and

stir up the fire too, otherwise the baby will freeze to death when he is born” shouted the nanny.

My mother, Lady Alexis Bennet Ashdown, was laying on the bed in a sweat, her breathing labored.

She moaned loudly until the pain subsided, then exhausted she tried to regain her strength to prepare for the next contraction.

“Come on Milady, push but not too much and breathe deeply. We are almost there; I can see the head. Come on my baby, you will see that this time it will be fine. I feel that".

"No Johanna the baby will die as the others died; they cursed me!" sighed my mother

"Shh don't make yourself heard! Most Holy Mother, in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, never say such a thing again ... never again! There is no curse, they were just too small to live, that's all!" replied the Nanny making the sign of the cross.

"This too is too small, it's too early ..."

whispered my mother, her beautiful face streaked with tears and weariness.

"It's true, it's a little early but I feel it will be fine! The women of the castle have just finished a novena and Brother Frances prayed every day.”

“Johanna the truth is that I never wanted these children, and the Lord is punishing me.”

“Lady Alexis, my baby, please lower your voice, do not be heard. Most Holy Mother, I dare not imagine what your mother-in-law would do if she found out what you said!

The children arrive by the will of the Lord, some live, others die, it is nobody's fault!" calmly the Nanny tried to reassure my mother.

"I don't care Johanna, I don't care about anything anymore" my mother whispered with pursed lips, very pale.

The maids came back just then after going to get hot water and towels.

"Is everything ok, Mrs. Johanna?" asked a worried servant.

"It's all right!" the Nanny replied with a trembling voice "and now let's get busy because as God is my witness it must go well this time!".

The servant, remembering the previous pregnancies of the mistress at the words of the Nanny blanched, because one thing was certain: to Mrs. Johanna Lady Alexis was sacred and if something happened to her only God knew how Nanny would react.

My father and his mother, Lady Ashdown, waited in the hall.

He fidgeted on the squat carved pine seat on the dais, his grandmother standing in front of the lit fireplace.

In the surreal silence that reigned in the room, only my mother's cries could be heard.

The servants prowled like ghosts, even the dogs stood still, crouching at my father's feet.

"It's too early, like the others," my father suddenly said.

"Oh, Samuel I told you she was not suitable for you, too puny!" grandmother replied.

“I won't let you talk about my wife like that! She has no fault! " My father yelled, rising furiously from his chair.

"And whose fault is it then?" answered the grandmother shrugging her shoulders "Yours perhaps? Why did you marry a silly girl with a pretty face? You came back from that journey obsessed with her, as if she had bewitched you! And why would she ever agree to become Lady Ashdown if she then refuses to behave like a wife? Eh, can you explain this to me? She spends all her time locked up in that room, only God knows God what she is up to! If I were not there to run this house it would be the end of this family, of our family .. but I will not allow it! You will have to start thinking about a solution Samuel if things go wrong this time too. It is necessary to provide for the future of this house! You are already forty-eight, but you can remarry and she will be fine in a convent… ".

“Enough, mother! Stop it,” my father yelled.

“Don't you dare say another word! I do not want another wife and Alexis isn't going anywhere. Have I been clear?? Woe betide you mother if you dare to insult her again!” he said, trembling with anger and looming threateningly over my grandmother, who on the contrary remained absolutely motionless, haughty, her eyes cold as ice blades.

“Are you threatening me? Your mother? After all I've done and still do for this house? ” She said with a piercing gaze.

"It is not a threat mother, it is a certainty: my wife will stay here, whatever happens tonight" my father replied with a grim expression.

And he began to pray to finally receive the joy of an heir.

My grandmother also began to make a plea to heaven, to finally free her son from the chains of his daughter-in-law.

And so too, all the staff of the castle were addressing prayers to God, torn between loyalty to the master and piety towards his wife.

“Good Lady Alexis, very good! The head is out, it is just a little short, a last push ... soon we will know if it is male or female and if it is alive ... Come on, come on" urged Nanny " It's done, come on, come on!"

And finally, I came to light.

"Lady Alexis, it is a beautiful little girl. She is alive, she is alive! Thanks God. Can you hear her screaming? " The Nanny yelled in tears

My cries of fear for coming int this new world were heard throughout the castle and everyone began to celebrate and breathe a sigh of relief, at least until they knew I was a girl.