No-thing - ungraspable freedom E-Book

Andreas Müller

• Herausgeber: Books on Demand
• Kategorie: Religion und Spiritualität
• Sprache: Englisch
• Veröffentlichungsjahr: 2016

Seitenzahl: 174

Beschreibung

'I am' is the dream. 'I am' is that which experiences itself as separate. However, it is not real. There is no 'I' to be separate. The death of 'I am' is the end of separation. However, nothing dies, because there is nothing alive. All there is is aliveness itself which is free already. It is ungraspable freedom. In this book, Andreas points to the natural reality which is no-thing. A reality that apparently is beyond the energetic setup of 'I am' which is exposed as illusory.

Leseprobe

For

Nikhila and Soham

as well as

Tony and Claire

Content

Part 1

Foreword

Introduction

The end of 'me'

Sense and meaning

I have not found

No way

God is blind

Ordinary

The process

Promise

The illusion of 'you' remaining

Exhalation

Death

Bleeding out

Afterlife?

Religions

Religions 2

Teachers & Gurus

To do

Gurus & Teachers

Consciousness

Consciousness 2

Here and now (A tiny step)

Decisions?

Approach

High

The need for good

Absolution

How?

Where to go?

What to do?

No need

Realisation

Wonder

No teaching

The recognition

Part 2

The little book of nothing which is everything

Part 3

OnenessTalks – Questions and answers

Part 4

OnenessTalks – Conversations from May 2015

Foreword

Dear Reader,

I am happy that you purchased this book, though it will not help you. The dilemma with this book is that it is not written for you. It is neither written for you nor for me nor for anybody else's use. It just simply is ‘what happens’ – Oneness’s appearance, the formless appearing to be a book or a body that apparently purchased the book and is now sitting in front of it. That is all. That is what this book is about: That which already is and which does not need a description. It is no-thing. It is the most ordinary and the most obvious and yet, the seemingly most hidden.

The message in this book describes a beauty that no one has ever seen, a magnificence that has never been experienced and a freedom never been felt. The fragrance of freedom may become obvious – or not. It does not matter. Because whatever is, is the whole appearing as 'what appears'.

The message provided in this book is not personal. There is no goal in it, no direction, no from 'here' to 'there', no intention, no 'in order to'. It does not follow a plan.

However, this message may reveal the natural reality, a reality that is boundless. A reality that is freedom and, yes, actually love.

If you search it, you will not find it. The more you seek, the more desperate your search may become. Yet, there is no answer to seeking. Yet, there is no answer to the seeker. What might be revealed is the fact that there is no seeker, that the seeking is illusory, that there is nothing to be sought and nothing to be found. What might be revealed is the fact that this whole setup - the seeker, the seeking and what is sought - is illusory. What might be revealed is that there is neither separation nor a you or a me.

Samsara and Nirvana are one.

Living in a world is what appears. Being a human is what

appears. Thinking appears, life appears.

There is no dream to escape. There is no reality separate from

the natural reality.

There is no going beyond, no border to cross, no other side.

There is no other.

There is no enlightened state as well as there is no

unenlightened state. All states are illusory.

What is is not many. It is mere oneness. Inseparably one.

Introduction

What have I found out? Why am I writing this book? Why is all of this happening? Sorry, I do not know. Actually, “I do not know” is a little bit superficial, yes, even shallow, and it really only touches the message on its periphery. The message in this book is that there is no message. You – that which experiences itself as some-thing (a person, male, female, tall, small, whatever) – may be seeking for answers. Maybe you have questions about life. Maybe even so-called deep ones. Maybe you want some method, some better way to navigate through what you call “life”. Or maybe you are seeking, maybe even desperately: For an answer, for 'the' answer. For a solution. For a way out.

Maybe you await this answer from this book. Maybe you expect to find something in these pages. Something helpful - something for you. For your life, your luck, your happiness or even your enlightenment – whatever this means for you.

I can tell you that you will not. You cannot find any of these these, neither in this book nor anywhere else, simply because there is nothing to find. And above all, there is no one seeking. Yes, there is no one seeking, because there is no one alive. The sense of 'I am', the sense that you exist, that you really are some-one, a separate entity, a human being that lives on a planet called earth, right now, here in this moment, is illusory. Yes, absolutely right, 'you', meaning the sense that you are, the sense of 'I really am', is an illusion.

There is not an 'I'. And there is not a 'you'. This whole energetic setup is an appearance, not real at all, except in your own experience, which, therefore, is illusory, too. That is what I call the dream: “I am someone (a person) who is aware of himself or herself and who is experiencing some thing(s) (other persons, situations, feelings, sensations, a life - just to name a few).” This, I would call the dream of separation. In this dream, you are separate from all the things that surround you. In your experience it is absolutely clear – an energetic, felt reality, I would say – that you are real and that everything which seems to be separate things is also real. 'Me' lives in a subject-object-reality, not as a thought construct, but, as I already mentioned, as an energetic, felt reality. This reality seems to operate within distinct parameters: Time (you have a past, a present moment and, God willing, a future) and space (you are here, not there), good and bad, doership and/or victimhood, personal responsibility, right or wrong, sense, meaning, cause and effect and the impression of being on a path – a path to a hopefully better future.

What also seems to be part of that dream is a feeling of unfulfilment. It is a feeling, that 'what happens' is not enough. It simply is not quite 'it' – actually, no matter if 'what happens' is experienced as pleasant or unpleasant, as being deep down or very high up. Together with this sense of unfulfilment, the seeking starts. And as the 'me' lives in a dream based on the experience of reality, it seeks some-thing that it also assumes to be real and fulfilling: luck, happiness, peace, money, more money, a partner, a better partner, peace, world peace, peace of mind, wisdom, the end of me, enlightenment, transcendence, the end of the traffic jam, the answer for life, silence, perfect love, healing, … No matter what is sought it is some-thing.

The bad news, is, that this is it. Within the dream of separation there is no finding. To experience oneself means to live in the dream of 'I am', which means to live in a sense of unfulfilment, which means to live in a search for oneness. Yet, it does not get on. 'Me' cannot find. It will never get 'it'. Never.

The good news is that this whole setup is not real. Yes, you – meaning the sense of 'I am' are not real, including all the parameters your world seems to be made of. There is no time, no space, no doership, no responsibility, no sense, no meaning, no cause, no effect, no separation, no reality, no unfulfilment and therefore also no seeking.

The bad news is that you will never get it. You will never realise, experience or understand that. In fact, to realise that, you have to die. But actually then it is hard to speak of a realisation. So, what is written about here is rather your death than some sort of realisation. Liberation is not the death of some dark parts of you or the death of your ego, no, it is the death of you – the death of the sense of 'I am'. That is what I would refer to as liberation.

The good news about that is that you already do not exist. This means that actually you do not have to die. I mean, how can something die that does not exist in the first place?

All there is is oneness. The unknown. No-thing appearing as it appears. It is already whole. It is already complete. That which seems to be missing – wholeness – is not lost. In fact, it never has been, because it is this – that which appears. It is reading these lines. It is you. But as there seems to be someone around, some person – someone who experiences – it remains unfulfilled, not because it actually is unfulfilling, but because it is experienced. Just because 'what is' becomes divided – apparently – in a subject-object reality. Just because there seems to be someone who experiences 'what happens' as something separate. Yet, this, too, is oneness. Yet this, too, is nothing appearing as this setup. That is the miracle, and that is what 'me' will never comprehend.

The end of 'me'

The end of the sense of 'I am' reveals that there is no 'I' that could end. Yet, liberation is not really that revelation: it is the death of that apparent instance. It is the melting together of something that was never separate. So, to describe liberation, it is rather an energetic phenomenon than, for example, a falling away of belief systems or a transcendence of the 'I'-thought. All those activities seem merely to take place within the experience of 'me'. There they may cause apparent changes within 'me's' perception, yet, it is not the so-called death of 'me'.

What dies together with 'I am' is the subject-object reality the apparent me lives in. One could say that in liberation both the so-called 'inside' and the so-called 'outside' die. The whole setup of experience, the whole setup of perception and awareness collapse and melt together into the unknown. This is the end of the artificial reality of presence and therefore the end of 'things' or rather: the end of the dream that there are real things, processes and so on. For there never have been 'things'. There never have been separate objects. There never have been 'I's' or any other things.

What remains is indescribable. It is indescribable simply because there is no one left who can describe it. There is no one left who experiences oneness (which, by the way, would then not be oneness anymore) and could possibly know how that is. Yes, there is no one left who knows how it is. That is freedom.

What remains is life as it is. What remains is the unknown – no-thing. Ungraspably ordinary, juicy and saturated, extraordinary in its simplicity. 'It' is this – that which already is. That which permanently is overlooked by the 'I'.

What remains is reading a book. That is the freedom.

Sense and meaning

All of this does not make sense. Maybe it seems like making sense for a while, yet, it does not. There is no sense in this.

There is not even sense in the fact that there is no sense. What is – no-thing appearing as what appears (reading these lines) - does not require sense for it to be as it is. That actually is its freedom. You can read this book without it having to be useful. You reading these lines does not have to make sense. In fact, it cannot make sense: Reading these lines is all there is. That is it. That is wholeness. So what should it make sense for? It simply cannot because there is nothing else it could make sense for.

Nothing in this book has any meaning. None of these sentences mean something in the sense that you can use them. You may try, but you cannot. What is transported here is not knowledge. It is not written for you to use it in order to make your life better or for you to become enlightened. Oneness is all there is – and it amazingly is that which appears. You reading these lines is oneness. You reading these lines is no-thing. That is 'it'. Who would need meaning from what has been read? Who would try to use it? And what for if what appears already is all there is?

I have not found

I have not found what I was looking for. I was looking for love, for peace, for ecstasy, for silence, for relief, for bliss - and I failed. Though I seemed to experience lots of these things, the seeking did not stop. I never finally arrived in any of these states. And while I kept on seeking for what I thought would bring fulfilment, I vanished. And while I vanished, it became obvious that there is no one vanishing. While I vanished, it turned out that I was never there in the first place.

This is liberation. The sudden energetic explosion of 'I am' into no-thing and the recognition that there is no one exploding. The apparent end of 'me' was the apparent end of seeking.

The seeker has to fail. All seeking has to fail - it only can because it is not real. Nothing is lost, that is why nothing can be found. Separation is illusory - neither does the seeker exist nor that which is sought. There is no 'I am' and there are no states.

That is the freedom.

No way

There is no way to get this. There is no way to understand this message. There is no way to realise this message. There is no one who could do so. The one who experiences itself as present is illusory. That one does not exist. That one, too, is oneness appearing as the one who will never realise that he is oneness. You think it is a joke? I do.

There is no way to realise oneness because all there is, is oneness. This – what apparently happens – is the perfect realisation of oneness. It already is realised. The dilemma in all this is you. But in fact, as you do not exist, there is no dilemma either.

God is blind

God is absolutely blind. That is why she sees no differences. She is not looking anywhere. She performs this wild dance of existence while she gives and takes what she wants. There is no fairness in it. There is no 'fair' within the story. The only fairness is that all of existence is just God herself.

Wherever you were born, whatever you think, whatever your emotional, psychological and physical setup is, it is God appearing as this. Whatever you decided, whatever you fucked up, and whatever you succeeded in, it is all that. It is as much God appearing as she appears as it is the sense of individuality. Neither of those is real. Neither of those has a separate existence and holds any meaning. It is free energy, wildly performing its magnificent dance.

This is it. This is the dance. This - that which appears. That is the unknown, without any differentiation, without knowledge, just pure, innocent beingness - untouched, undirected, without purpose, just freely wafting. Wafting as this.

God does not see everything. God is everything!

Ordinary

Though apparent liberation is a dramatic change within the person's story - it is its end! - it reveals something very ordinary: un-separatedness, which is the natural, non-dual reality. Important: Reality is already no-thing and non-dual. It does not have to and can not be reached by you, in fact, as long as you apparently are, you will live in the dream of separation - and non-duality simply will remain hidden. That's the dilemma: The only thing 'me' does - well, it is oneness doing it - is to experience itself as something separate. That is all 'me' is doing: to abstract itself from 'what is'. By doing so it artificially divides wholeness into a subject-object reality – apparently, of course, because it still is oneness appearing as that. That is the dream, which, for the apparent me, is a felt experience that cannot be escaped by it.

So, you will never get it. You will never become liberated.

Yet, you are liberation.

The process

Let's be clear about this: There is no process! There is no path to liberation. If you want to go that far as to presume a process, this process is – as everything else – apparent. It is the apparent me who experiences itself as being on a path. On that apparent path, it assumes itself to be in a process of development. In that dream of development the apparent me assumes things to become better and better, which may mean, for instance, the convergence to a higher state of consciousness, to enlightenment, to liberation or just to the next career move. Strangely enough, all that apparently seems to go well proves the 'me' that it is on the right track. However,with everything that seems to go wrong – or at least not according to me's plans – it starts doubting itself and the track it assumes itself to be on. It is actually funny how the 'me' adds its dream of personal development to reality while things apparently just happen outside of time and outside of 'right' and 'wrong'. So, 'better' and 'worse' also belong to the dream of 'I am' – they do not have an own reality. For sure, it does not get better. That is already the best that could happen or rather: appears to happen. The shift – which, too, is apparent – may take years or happen within an instant. Well, of course, the final drop always happens instantly, but if it takes time, it seems to be a process – at least for the apparent me. Yet, this shift has nothing to do with the apparent me. It can neither be forced nor can it be prevented or decelerated. Nothing you do and nothing you do not do will make this happen. Anyway, if the dropping of 'me' happens, it is an energetic “event”. It is something that happens with you! And not within your experience. It does not happen to the personality, to your ego or to your body. No, it happens with your sense of being! With your apparent innermost being. With the 'thing' that experiences itself as alive ... with you.

Promise

There is this one big promise that the apparent me lives in: a subtle sense of “the best is yet to come”. It lives in the strong impression that its apparent life is leading to an undoubtedly better version. It seems to assume that there is still something like “wow” to happen to itself. Something that really rocks - of course for itself.

If this 'better' or 'it' seems to be coming closer, if everything seems to be on track, the apparent me is very happy, thinking that it is doing alright and backslapping itself. If it does not seem to be working out as it hopes or if this promise does not seem to become fulfilled, it suffers, perhaps deeply.

It is a dream. Nothing will come. There is no future. This does not have a next moment. Reading these lines is 'it'. There is nothing else. This is the best. It already is.

The illusion of 'you' remaining

Liberation is the same as your end, so you will not survive. You will not survive your end, which somehow is what the apparent me believes. It wants to lose itself in order to enjoy its own absence.

Liberation really happens for no one, meaning that you will not survive. You will not survive liberation. Though it may sound a little bit tragic, it is actually not that bad. Because, when it happens, it turns out that 'you' never existed.

So there is nothing to worry about.

Exhalation

Liberation is death. It is not an insight or an experience within the dream of 'I am'. It is the energetic end of the experiencer. It is like exhalation. No matter how much fighting there was before, the last one is peaceful and total. It is total relaxation. All the burden of 'you' dissolves. It is not you that is relaxing. It is not you doing your last exhalation - it is life exhaling you. And this, too, is peaceful and total. It is dying into the unknown.